everythin u wan

spillin out my guts
throwin up cold air
spinnin in the head
throbbin in everybeat

nobody notice
nobody knows

the sensation of the pain
of the pain in sensation
makin me feel alive
makin me feel somethin

nobody asks
nobody knows

caught up in those games
games i nvr wanna play
caught up in those plays
plays that i shyed away from

nothin lost
nothin gained
nothin missin
everythin missed

everythin u wan
everythin u need
everythin inside that you wished he could be
sayin all the right things
at exactly the right time

everythin i aint
everythin surplus
everythin despised
i'm everythin so wrong
and i mean nothin
and i dunno why

dai yin mai

u wun noe how much it would had hurt
important parts of me when u did
pushin away all wills and intentions
and we being mad at nothin at all

and i'd shot right thru
by a bolt of blue
and i'd rather hurt myself
so u wun feel the pain

but u wun see it
nor u feel it
and i would hide it
lest tat u even sense a tinge of it

im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
the day u change ur mind and go
im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
when u call an end to us

cuz i wallow in the yesterdays
when every day was today
before u decide to call it a day
before the day u went away

driftin away to unfamiliar sounds
of tunes and music so foreign
captivated yet i am
emotions subtely understood

and ur heart cant listen
even if i sing this song for you
cuz the only thing u'll see
are the tears flowin down this face

gold

raindrops upon the window
fallin against my skin
im on the outside lookin in
lookin in

meaningless
but what is
loneliness
but what aint

goin cold
growin old
stayin gold
stayin cold

a kaleidoscope in bold
a myraid on hold
to spin the globe by the touch of a hand
or to travel the atlas the back of your hand

nobody noes
nobody noes

nothin holds
nothin gold

at times

Walkin till the edge
Where the disjointed horizons meet
Where the colors of the world fades

At times staggerin
At times disoriented
To view the world from a grain of sand
To hold the world from a fragment of glass

Wishin for a meanin
Where the sky is glimmin
Where the meanin doesnt matter

At times forgettin
At times pretendin
To hold ur hand against the sands of time
To hold u in this fairytale turned bad

the best part

The best part was wakin up
With ya by my side
And the very first words are urs
And the very first light is u

Closed my eyes and its still u
Pullin u close and my world is only u

The world around cease to exist
I dun see wad anyone else can see
In anyone else but u
No one else needs to know
I dun believe tat anybody feels the way i do
About ya now
And we're livin in a world of fools
I believe in u
And u may not think tat i care for u
Deep down inside u noe i realli do

Cuz i like it the way we are
Little words in our silence
Just like this
By ur side
Gazin upon u
Just like this

bittersweet cold

I watched u by the open side
As u walked away in cold
U said u nvr once loved me before
The words u said tat nite had left permanent scars
Left me lyin in the dark with no sunshine
Its all a feelin A feelin tat i had
Its just a feelinJust a feelin in my head
And u nvr believed in wad i said
But i tried to give ya everythin tat i had
Kept still in the dark

every little small things

unable to walk this off
and i cant walk it out

takin it out on me
and i wander and wonder

jumping the ladder nvr seems so hard
wishin tat i fall
deep into the abyss and forgotten
as the shadow fades and subsides to grief

every little small things
every insignificant word said
everytime the heart breaks
everytime the heart aches

stupid

confined to the back pages of ur memories
forgotten
holdin onto a lost hope
tired
never the one tat was needed
abandoned
seems like i got the wrong person
mistaken

forget it
as i walked along silent
too tired
too tired
tryin too hard onli seems to make me more a fool
tryin too hard onli adds to the irony
tryin for tat slimmest of hope
cuz im juz a fool
ever knowin i was nvr meant to be
when its plain to see tat everythin was so wrong

holdin on still
for a impossible hope

two choice

Ur eyes hollow
And a smile so forced
Without havin to say a word
Unable to stop this hurt
Maybe we have forgotten
Wad was most important at the start
And if leavin was a better choice
Its best to do so with a smile
Let us part and here and never meet
Before its too late to let go
Baby dont cry
Walk on opposite ways and nvr look back
Let us part here and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to be the one tat u want
The dreams in my hands too heavy
Happiness ever so sarcastic
Ur heartbreak i'll nvr understand
Unbearable for me to watch on
For ya to be holdin back ur tears
Lettin off my hands
Let us part and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to continue with this beautiful mistake

Thru the city and into the dark
From the crowd and into the nite
With a wanderin heart
Observin the sights of this trip
Mesmerisin to keep us entranced
Had i known that this journey was nvr meant to be
Rather i had abandoned myself to this distance
Every extra mile with ya was another distance by ur side
The end stop unknown
Unable to keep pace with ya
U would had abandoned me by the sides of this road
How many more miles would i be able to keep up
The best part of it was catchin up to u
Each and everytime i wanna tell ya
Im afraid no matter how much i love u
Doesnt amount to much to u at all
Thankful still for the distance shared with ya
Runnin still to keep up with ya
Every mile means another distance more with ya
Always by ur side

without these

Without these feelins
and These eyes shall nvr be filled with tears
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never need to hide
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never know
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never see.
these beautiful feelins and the dangers that it brings

the wind.the cold and the driving rain

guess im the only stupid one here
when the answer were all too clear
fool for ya

thru the wind
thru the cold
thru the drivin rain
baby everynight i would run all this way
just to be with ya
and i know that its true
that im gonna hold ur hand
this this time i'll nvr let go

what i would give
to run my fingers thru ur hair
and to hold ya near

aint no luck and love slowly dies

Wake up at seven
Nvr restin before its eleven
How long more before eden
Holdin u close in the comforts of heaven

Its hard to noe
So close yet so aloof
People come and people go
Hidin behind their own shadows

To see the world thru a frame of glass
And all the things we nvr ask
Away with things they teach in class
Doesnt matter if ure first or last

Done with all the lies
When even the angels cry
Tears of pearl of u and i
Till the heaven burst and the words dun rhyme

house behind

Tears are never endin
So tear till u smile
An instant connection
Tat strikes a deep chord
Not tat its of any relevance
Still leavin me an emotional wreck
I will listen to the stories u will tell
When theres no one left around
I will hold ur hands tight
When theres no one left in the lonely night
The good and bad times
There aint complains
The good and the bad times
Theres realli nobody to blame
I will follow u till the end
Theres no one else more important
Till our time has come
I'll let u on ahead
Cuz i cant bear to see u cry

time and tears

Time can cool the warmest tears
And these tears will wash away everything
Take me to the neon lights
Where i can lose my memories
Take me to the blurry place
Where i can lose my identity

rainy days

Let the rain fall
In the place of my tears
Let the rain pour
In the lonely hours
So faraway u seem
When u have no notion of my true feelins for ya
The double shot mocha cant numb the feelins
The vodka shots only amplifies the feelins
Take me to eternity
Where i can lose my memories
And i wished tat i did not love u at all
Its only a feelin in my head
A moment of weakness tat i had
As i wished u goodbye when i looked into ur eyes
This bout of rain aint stoppin
And the cold cold air of loneliness fills the air
Too tired to even open my eyes
Writin in the dark
A desperate struggle everyday
So much for fightin for time
When i cant seem to write this line
This rain tat comforts me
Hold me tight in its cold embrace
Washin away my memories
Cuz its not the loneliness tat hurts
This rain tat drench me
Washing away the permanent scars
Even if only for the moment
I am scared
Tat this was more than goodbye
In love with this rain
Everyday
In love with these days
These cold cold rainy days