my nightmares

all my nightmares
they were once beautiful dreams too
all my broken dreams
they were once juz for u
can everythin be slowly taken away
and stop my nvr endin tears
i was once in too deep
i was too dependent on ur love tat nvr came
and when u took everythin away
i finally woke up to reality
lovin u was but a dream
perhaps the more deeply i love u
the more pain u'll haf
maybe it's time i let go
as ur back slowly disappears from sight
and i wonder how long it'll take
for me to totally let u go
every time my phone starts to ring
my heart starts to beat fast
wonderin if it could ever be u
it ended with heart ache every time
and i'll be so down
to talk bout happiness
i'm not worthy
and i noe a happy endin does not exist
this i noe better than anyone else
hidin away from love
cuz i can't gif u happiness
and i can't gif u a tomorrow
i could only return u ur present

so tangible

he's at it again
he's feelin so down
brought up the things of his past
his memories are so real
it did not slowly fade
it stayed
the past of a happier time
yet now it's all so distant
can he really not go back to his old self
he asked himself
he believes it's a no
the doors been closed on him
and he does not haf the keys
he's left alone in front of the door
it's juz the way life is to him
unfair
all the worries he had to worry bout
all the things he had to go thru
all the sadness he've got
he's still standin thru all these shit
but he's not tat strong
he seems to lose the will to fight on
he's tired after all these yrs
a laid back attitude is wad he got
now he prefer things to come to him
take control over him
he will not fight it anymore
take wadever u wan from him
take everythin away from him
his empty soul
his broken home
his sad stories
his fuckin life
take them all away from him
he's been thru all so many nites
juz thinkin how things used to be and now
he wanna noe how things went all so wrong
he bowed his head in shame
his head in his hands
and he lays in his bed
wishin he died
the lowered head dare not look up anymore
there's nothin within his listless eyes
listless since all too long ago
so long a time he forgot
all so many yrs ago
left fendin for himself since tat time
the empty hse with no love
no warmth
he got so used to it
he feels strange around love
perhaps it's solitude to him
leadin a life not worth mentionin
and he feels tat he do not deserve their love
he feels he's not worthy of such a wonderful thing
he thinks he deserves to be alone
his happy endin broken all too long ago
there's no need to mend the pieces of his shattered dreams
the pieces haf all disappeared all too long ago
he can't find it anymore
his heart still beatin they say it's for a reason
but he can't seem to find the reason why
and he feels so stranded
his mind doesn't haf a soul
his emptiness down within the depths of his heart
it's always been there
as he sat under the moon light
he ponders bout the people tat comes and goes
hidin away from their shadows
all the people in his life
everyone seems to come and go
he wonders why it haf to be this way
if only one person could ever stay
stay forever and a day
stand by him
if only
if only
he dunno for sure how long more can he hold on
he dunno for sure when will he ever drop
as always like the defeated man
he holds his head down
as he walked along the streets
lookin down on his feet
his spirit seems too distracted
as though he's pre-ocupied with somethin
they sense there's somethin on his mind
but he nvr let anyone looked inside his mind
it's not as if they understand
there's juz too much sadness for them to take
there's oso not much for them to noe
juz some fuckin problems
who will wanna noe a broken man anyway
who will wanna noe wad's inside
they can't be bothered
they walk away from him
nvr gave a damn bout him
even the one he loved
it's a fact he nvr deny
somethin he nvr wished to fight
let them be
let them see
his life been upside down all the while
he's been like this since so long
he used to tried
he tried to be different
he tried to prove himself
to hell woth all these things
it was juz his wishful thinkin
he can't even take good care of himself
he's juz all so tired
he lives now a slacker
keeps believin in scrappin thru life
juz barely survivin
perhaps tat's the only thing he cares
how many times haf he done tat
juz for tat
how long more can he take before he finally breaks
it seems they're awaitin the day
he feels it wun be too long
it's somethin so tangible to him
he feels there's no runnin away

my star

a star only for me
the one which will only shine for me
dun need for others to love
special only to me
and i'll be the star for her
shine for her only
i noe it may be selfish
but all i ever wan is love
to them it's nothin
it can be my everythin
it's all tat i'll believe in
all i tat i wan
it can be all tat i need
it can be the centre of my world
forher i can be all the things tat i'll nvr be
somtimes i think i hear her callin out my name
sometimes i wonder maybe i'm to blame
it's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

i'll come to u

sometimes i think i hear her
callin out my name
sometimes i wonder
maybe i'm to blame i
t's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

and when u haf no light to guide u
and no one to walk beside u
i'll come to u
when the nite is dark and stormy
u wun haf to reach out for me
i'll come to u
and when ur tears is fallin
i'll hear ur spirit callin
and i'll be there come wad may
cuz even if we can't be together
i hope we'll be frens now and forver
and i swear i'll be there come wad may

foolish games

u said i've always been crazy
takin off my shirt
standin in the rain
always so mysterious
listless eyes with careless hair
with ever smilin face
fashionably sensitive
always lookin tat cool
and there i was beside u
with nothin to say
except for some comments
well i've always felt i was outside
lookin in on ur world
and in case u failed to see
in case u failed to notice
this is me down on my knees
this is my heart breakin before u
this is my heart bleedin in front of u
and these foolish games u play
are tearin me apart
and ur thoughtless words are breakin my heart
guess i've mistaken u for somebody else
somebody who gives a damn
somebody

unmistakable

and i noe there's no need to say more
the loneliness tat belongs to me
i like it
when u're by my side
and i'm a nobody
juz tat someone's someone
but would u rather
i'm still me
u saw right thru the mask on me
and saw wad was really hidden inside
i like it
i love u
there's an unmistakable feelin bout it
and i tot if i stopped believin in love
and i tot if i could use loneliness to numb myself
and i tot all these will make me forget
yet i can't seem to do so
still havin the undeniable feelins for u
so deep within my heart
and i noe i deserve it
waitin for my endin all alone
and nobody can take me away
only u can

how can i let them noe

the nightmare of a dream tat woke me up
i noe it's so real
it's the beginnin of mine
the start of my shattered dreams
pieces tat pierced thru my heart
hurtin me all so deep
a pain tat i could nvr forget
leavin me all so hurt
wounds so deep
they could not heal
and my life been thru so much
but still standin strong
thru the cold and wind and rain
i feel everythin's beyond me
no matter how hard i tried
i still had to be tat faraway
totally outta my control
things tat's not wihtin my hands
the undescribable feelin within me for so long
like the pieces of my broken heart
broken further into pieces
totally shattered my world
the pain tat seared across
the tears tat flowed uncontrollably
the feelins tat engulfed me
i noe it i wanna fight it
i tried hard to resist it
the happenins like the state of denial
a make believe tat i'm not
i nvr could
nvr was
all the feelins tat added up
and when words could not express myself
i could only sit and cry
there's nothin left within
dreamin of a dream
hopin it
all my thoughts and the things caught in my mind
i'm holdin back
how can i ever let them noe
my angst
the struggles i made
the endless dreams tat haunt me
the unfulfilled promises

the wind blows across my face
tears flow down my face
how do i forget all the dreams i had in the past
all alone out in the streets
i am lonely
but i noe i can't cry
perhaps if i look back
i'll be even sadder
as i looked into the mirror
i saw the sadness within my eyes

the eyes were red after cryin
tears which fell out of it
broke into a million pieces
like the fallen dreams of mine
the dreams tat fell from grace
brought down as fast as it was up
time was so short
it nvr shone
helpless in everyway

juz for u

dunno wad i'm livin for
dunno wad i'm holdin onto
wad if i'm not as strong as u think
will u pick me up hold me when i fall
wad if i'm not as perfect as u think
will u still love me
hold me when i fail
will u love me for wad i really am
or will u leave and go
will u hate me for wad i am
or will u not
will u share my dreams together
or will u haf ur own
is my dreams urs and urs mine
will u hold me tight
and nvr let go
will u be there for me
will u be there with me
will u wait for me
will u comfort me when i'm down
will be be there when i'm hurt
i noe it's too much to ask
but i'll gladly do tat for u

tat's juz me

nvr fall in love with a guy like me
i'll onli gif u unhappiness
the onli thing tat i'm certain
i can't make any promises
i can't gif u anything
i'm a gd for nothin
the scum of society
tat's wad i am
i threw my life away all too long ago
it's too late now
there's no turnin back
no more.no more
look at the pieces of my broken life
my love hate angst
all of them my pride
and i'll carry on
the onli way left to go
the onli door left open
no other choice
isn't it
nothin is true
not even me
how ridiculous
i dun even believe myself
pathetic i am
but tat's me
juz me