my whole situation

all my memories so blurry
everyone around me all seems so fake
onli seems to care bout themselves
even goin all out juz to do tat
juz so fake and selfish
i noe i cant change anythin bout wads been and gone
but i juz feel so fuckin disgusted
a feelin of betrayal sear across my heart
leavin a bitter after taste
so juz fuck you and wadeva up with u

my head spinnin and throbbin
all the problems tat i've been runnin away from
all of those tat i've been hidin away from
has finally caught up with me
i can no longer not face them anymore
i'm scared tat i'll make the wrong move
i'm afraid tat i'm not good enuff
i'm juz damn fuckin insecure
all the emotions stuck up within of me comes to this
feels like i can no longer take it
stop forcin me
cryin out for help but no one hears
slowly slippin off the edge
i hate myself for being me
i hate myself for everythin

so love me when i'm gone
miss me when i'm gone
i cant hide
i cant run
maybe... onli maybe
everythin tat i am
i'm alive
i'm alone
maybe...onli maybe
till the day i make it
day after day
nite after nite
dream to love
love to dream
till the end
live to dream
dream to live
till the end


where is the place tat i can return to
my startin point
badly in need of refreshin
a reason for continuin
motivation for me
fightin within myself
fightin outside of myself
i gotta take up my rusty sword once again
i gotta take up the sword to fight for my peace
a dogfight

sleep away

a place tat i can realli call my home
without all the disturbance
a home tat i'll feel like returnin to
so tat i wun loiter around
i shut the door
i blasted the music
i lied on the bed
i closed mu eyes
hopin tat this will be it
but how can it be
i dun feel like i belong at all
all the nites tat i slept outside
tryin to create some space of my own
but people juz keeps disturbin
with all the objections tat u all haf to say
why cant juz leave me alone
let it be
let me be
it juz makes me wanna runaway more
break away as soon as possible
fly to somewhere faraway
i wonder who will be there with me
and will it be u till the end

down

emo plus emo leaves me a blackhole
wad am i to do with so much sorrow
in this world is there anythin left for me to hold
day by day i grow old
my mind and my soul

the more i try not to tink
the more i tink
cuz its frustratin not to noe
and i'm probably in love with u
so i care
i dunno if its a sweet dream or a nitemare
into the blank spaces i stare

fireworks

the fireworks tat shine
onli for tat one moment
all its life juz for this one moment
to go out in blazin glory
where everyone gathers to watch
where everyone remembers
i wanna be like the fireworks
i dun care if i shine onli for tat one moment
i wanna be the blazin moment
the one tat people will remember
the one tat people will see
i wanna shine with all my might
even if its juz for one nite
the one tat everyone will remember forever
i will be

keep on fightin

fight against it
no matter wad it is

how do i learn to live
in a tml tat i've nvr lived in before
wad would be a world without love
somethin i've nvr seen
places i've nvr been
and i dun believe tat this is the end
the tml tat i fight for

the day and nite

sleep in the lonely nites
away to the sound of my techno lullaby
addicted to the sound
sing me a techno lullaby

such a nite
feelins overflowin
i could need a cry but i wun

my dreams were made before u came into my life
how many rainbows can there be in a sky
days will pass me by
leavin me behind in time

the darker the sky
the more stars u will see
so can u see the stars in the nite
or are they juz neon lights

somthin to tide over

no need to say much
juz like the quietness
i'm much a nobody
juz a face among the crowd
was it coincidence or fate
everythin changed not cuz of me but of u

run run

the last piece of memory
tats all but gone
without any traces of it at all
my mind full of tots
wantin to say things out
there is little i can do
feels like i cant adjust
i noe i need to leave
but now where am i supposed to go to
time has not come
i still have to bear some more
pain in each swallow
feelin wun go away
so sick and tired of all the crap
nobodys around when i do
if onli there could be a 2nd chance
i'll do all my wrong rite
i'll live my life different
well if onli...
i could be lidat
maybe i would
i would gif up everythin
with me nothin
holdin onto tat piece of hope
heaven slowly turns too dark
if onli someone could tell me
wad i'll be wanderin around
i'm still nobodys child
i've got no luck
the onli way to survive
to runaway

so wad

4am last nite
i'm still wide awake
the lights off but i still see it all
all the problems of mine
even if i noe how to solve
i dun haf the means to
if i could then it would be not so bad
slept too much
i woke up late
i even missed my bus
noe i gonna get shit
its not the end
even if i made it good t
hey still look me upon a diff light