long long

feelin all alone in a place so foreign
so afraid in a place faraway
so insecure when theres no one else near
beneath the fears
hidden the truth
the depth which i can nvr
nvr grasp and nvr understand
how i wished
how i longed for u to be here
to hold me close
to chase all the fears away
when ure close to me
when u hold me in ur arms

so many times i tried
nvr good enough for u
wastin my life and time
tot it was over but its nvr over
theres always something new
being a fool endlessly

the chill brings all sorts of emptiness
illusions and disappointments
im facin the long nite alone
the feelins stirrin up
the pain tat comes alone
the emotions playin
for a moment i tot i was free
the reminder tat served could nvr be more cruel
nvr come faster
breakin every dream into a thousand little pieces
scattered by the wind
lost to the world and u'll nvr noe
time will nvr stop for me
yet could nvr go fast enough
every little thought of u
remindin me of wad i really am
so faraway from u

a bird in a cage could nvr fly
a flower in a glass will nvr die
neither a bird nor a flower
neither here nor there
stuck in between reality
wings tat cannot fly are useless
flowers tat nvr bloom aint beautiful
beauty was nvr meant to be judged by eyes so corrupt
the sight tat burns with sceptic
good or bad onli fills ur mind with contempt
ur mind tats filled with hatred
one step forward
makin two steps back
i dunno where im goin
i dunno where ive been
but its always the same old sights
same old dreams

when i lose my mind
when i lose myself
when i lose my heart
when i lose my dreams
i tink of ya
somethin so special bout u
juz thinkin alone could bring a smile to my face
runnin thru this monsoon
with only u on my mind
to tell myself to bring myself back home to u
to u and u only

realised in retrospect when all else was far too late
the disappointment unexplainable
askin only for ur forgiveness
if only to live the story tat we had in the year tat passed us by
when the warmth returns to this rain soaked place
returnin back with a smile
all the love tat u have taken away

nvr knew wad i was doin
they nvr knew nor even guess as much
i walk alone
choosin my path alone
understandin life and withstandin the lonely nites
i choose wad i wan
i walk this life alone

happy or sad no longer matters
as long as the past i can still remember
if regrets are wad u had at the ebd
wad were thise tat we had at the start
dry ur tears before u move on to the next stop
as i let u go
embarkin on my long journey
choosin not to love nor to hate
the day where all emotions cease to be

little times tat we gad
when the world around seems even harder to survive in
livin day by day
nvr knew wads in store at the end of life
no promises
nothin gained but it doesnt matter
ur love is all tat is needed to keep it goin
maybe we'll go seperate ways in the end
or nvr see each other again
i dun care
standin under the pourin rain still
waitin for u
waitin for u to kiss me in the night
for u to come into my dreams
my cinderella
till our crop of black turns silver

when stars of little lit up the sky
theres another fallin into the oblivion
fightin for ur dreams
if only for a better tomorrow with u
to spend the empty nites in the comfort in ur arms
from now till eternity
no longer feelin lonely
lifes no longer empty
with u in my heart
in my heart