cried all nite till there was nothin more
lyin there.a heap on the floor
takin it hard juz the way she would
a puzzle with a missin part
devotion tats juz no good
wad can u do with a sentimental heart

natural

everythin all natural
the very feelins tat still remain
ur fav songs all within the touch of a playlist
allow my missin to replace
to fill in the void to love u
nothin could stop me from missin u
no matter the endin
without any demands
allow me to wipe those tears off ur cheeks
cuz love is a present

replace

years it has been
the long and lonely nites
the cold and empty room
ure my first and only one
heaven noes hows much im still in love with u
my mouth denyin it
my heart rejectin it
deep inside i can nvr hide
my mind wanders off turnin to u at the most fragile of all moments
in the wee hours of the nite
where one sits all alone in the corner of the room
damn this education
i could nvr find the words to express the situation
it nvr was her nor her
or any other u see mr around with
in my mind u'll find
ure the onli one i truly cared
if it aint
why would these feelins linger on this long
ure the first the one and only love

cuz i'll be a fool not to love u
even when my heart is breakin
as we say goodbye
of all the times i tink of ya
always at the most fragile moments
unexplainably my mind turns towards ya
ur smile
ur sorrows
ur forlorness
evokin every emotions within me
how i wished i could look after and take good care of ya
thru the eyes of ur photographs
i feel u near
like u had nvr left at all

where love was forbidden
feelins only pitiful
why does the tears flow down the contours of ur cheeks
pass the chin
fallin onto the ground as fragments of crystal
the ground where u once stood.
smilin

long long

feelin all alone in a place so foreign
so afraid in a place faraway
so insecure when theres no one else near
beneath the fears
hidden the truth
the depth which i can nvr
nvr grasp and nvr understand
how i wished
how i longed for u to be here
to hold me close
to chase all the fears away
when ure close to me
when u hold me in ur arms

so many times i tried
nvr good enough for u
wastin my life and time
tot it was over but its nvr over
theres always something new
being a fool endlessly

the chill brings all sorts of emptiness
illusions and disappointments
im facin the long nite alone
the feelins stirrin up
the pain tat comes alone
the emotions playin
for a moment i tot i was free
the reminder tat served could nvr be more cruel
nvr come faster
breakin every dream into a thousand little pieces
scattered by the wind
lost to the world and u'll nvr noe
time will nvr stop for me
yet could nvr go fast enough
every little thought of u
remindin me of wad i really am
so faraway from u

a bird in a cage could nvr fly
a flower in a glass will nvr die
neither a bird nor a flower
neither here nor there
stuck in between reality
wings tat cannot fly are useless
flowers tat nvr bloom aint beautiful
beauty was nvr meant to be judged by eyes so corrupt
the sight tat burns with sceptic
good or bad onli fills ur mind with contempt
ur mind tats filled with hatred
one step forward
makin two steps back
i dunno where im goin
i dunno where ive been
but its always the same old sights
same old dreams

when i lose my mind
when i lose myself
when i lose my heart
when i lose my dreams
i tink of ya
somethin so special bout u
juz thinkin alone could bring a smile to my face
runnin thru this monsoon
with only u on my mind
to tell myself to bring myself back home to u
to u and u only

realised in retrospect when all else was far too late
the disappointment unexplainable
askin only for ur forgiveness
if only to live the story tat we had in the year tat passed us by
when the warmth returns to this rain soaked place
returnin back with a smile
all the love tat u have taken away

nvr knew wad i was doin
they nvr knew nor even guess as much
i walk alone
choosin my path alone
understandin life and withstandin the lonely nites
i choose wad i wan
i walk this life alone

happy or sad no longer matters
as long as the past i can still remember
if regrets are wad u had at the ebd
wad were thise tat we had at the start
dry ur tears before u move on to the next stop
as i let u go
embarkin on my long journey
choosin not to love nor to hate
the day where all emotions cease to be

little times tat we gad
when the world around seems even harder to survive in
livin day by day
nvr knew wads in store at the end of life
no promises
nothin gained but it doesnt matter
ur love is all tat is needed to keep it goin
maybe we'll go seperate ways in the end
or nvr see each other again
i dun care
standin under the pourin rain still
waitin for u
waitin for u to kiss me in the night
for u to come into my dreams
my cinderella
till our crop of black turns silver

when stars of little lit up the sky
theres another fallin into the oblivion
fightin for ur dreams
if only for a better tomorrow with u
to spend the empty nites in the comfort in ur arms
from now till eternity
no longer feelin lonely
lifes no longer empty
with u in my heart
in my heart

fate deals a wondeful hand
eyes of electric
so nice it could kill
and i would cherish this journey daily with u
even when im not with u
away from u
my heart is still with u

lovin u was wad i would do

its things like this tat make me wun feel like goin home
the same old things the same old shit
we go thru it all over and over again
does it really matter
everybody
everyone
everything
all wans a piece of me

in the darkness
makin it feel like home
when i lose myself
i'll tink of u
ure the key to another world
runnin away to somewhere new
onli me and u
the end of time
divin into the blues
the seperation drivin me insane
runnin thru the rain
runnin on with pain
i'll be with u soon
so soon

cuz i noe i'll nvr be him
i'll nvr be the one in ur heart
and i noe ure feelin blue
feelin tired and so alone
ur insecurities devour u
i cant be there
i'll nvr be
im too faraway to even noe where u are
my nights spent away
im walkin further away from u
till the day i find my way home back to u
but after all tat we've been thru
doesnt really matter if im comin back home to u

fightin souls

the distance could onli get bigger
a gap onli wider
too much misunderstandings
too little time together
but nothin could be better
when we live our lives together forever

as soldiers fight on
theres another devil watchin
waitin to swoop on any souls tat fall
with their silver wings and black horns
they're comin
within their burnin eyes and silver swords
they're comin
to take any soul tat falls

holdin on from the start
standin on par with reality
the more pretence
the more emotions tat turmoils
if any.the other side of me
if decided.to lead a sad life
but i wanna prove myself completely
the maximum tat i can push
with onli u in my eyes
thru the masses
right straight to u
lookin at me fairly
to balance out the equation
and u'll see tat everythin else redandunt
fightin and i dun use words
the wind and the cold
i'll still be there
not lookin back
cherishin every single possibilities in me
maybe right
maybe wrong
maybe dangerous
maybe its always me

nvr die

wadever they will say
onli wan to continue on with my way
in the face of danger
still runnin head on
unable to compete with power
but i'll live longer than tat

lovin ya in a hundred years time
and no one around would object
maybe the union late by a few decades
this love never abandoned
love in another era
till all the flowers wither and die
the waitin is long
but i made up my mind
waitin for ya

is it u

i could not be
can nvr be
but i am only me
nothin but only me
and i noe its too real
this feelin tat i feel
and i tink bout u
and i miss u

someone who realli understand
someone who realli noes the way to my heart
someone tat ive been waitin for

how am i to see through
this foggy mist of sky
maybe theres no light at the end of the tunnel
maybe theres no tunnel towards the light i see
everything is gone without u
fallin in too deep

a long long way away

pickin up my baggage
saw the sorrow in ur eyes
how can i ever let u forget
the dreams tat we once had

a day like this
somethin u wish last forever
filled with insignificance
breakin the day into little parts
fragments tat we can always remember
like i always do
like lovers always will

joker in love with the beauty
nothin but the joker's own joke
drastically changed
a matter of weeks
and oh how roles reverse
like i always do
like soldiers marchin on

doesnt really matter anymore to me
i'll be fuckin faraway
a long long way away
a long long way from where i no longer belong

euphoria

ure all decked in black
darker than the deepest night
a million emotions tat runs thru ur face
but wheres the smile
ur feelins colorin ya blue
an allurin mystery
theres nothin where u used to be
there somethin left in ur void
for all the times i fall
theres the image of u in my head
when i no longer feel my face
when i no longer struggle

induced euphoria to keep me goin on
the onli thing left to hold on
u can take my life tonite
in this world so wrong

scream

no one can ever make me feel this way
makin my life ever so beautiful
tinkin of u tat makes my grey skies clear
no one else can make me feel this way
even though im not with u
everyday of my life is meant for lovin u
fallin even more in love with u
lookin at the skies tat reminds me of u
starin at the seas tat reminds me of u
every little thing is ya

the sky a hue of blue
bluer than the sky my feelins are

the moon a beautiful face
yet comes not even close compared to ur face
cuz theres no one like ya
and i'll like no other
no one else but ya

far faraway

when the time has come
u noe i'll let ya go
cuz i dun wan u to be the one to do the missin
i dun wan u to be the one cryin
nvr wan u to cry for me

im lonely
im tired
im missin ya again
once again
far faraway from those i love

rememberin the words and moments tat we said and shared
in need of a person who can be true to
leavin her behind to wait when i left
and how i miss her so
when hope seems so faraway

missin u

empty rooms and lonely nites
torn papers scribbled full
many hours wasted away
things for juz somebody nvr meant for
times are hard when things haf got no meanin

time ran out
the light of life went out
flowers upon the mount
restin till the fallin petals count
the sun has set
where the horizon met
time to spread ur wings
its love tats this life brings

say bye

wake up in the mornin
raisin my tired body
same old pillow
same old bed
same old shit
goin to die in vain

lost upon a sense of time
and all of the things tat i tot was easy
gettin harder and harder each day
the empty island wun make anythin right

in love with the world
tryin to stay alive
in love with the world
hopin to stay alive

the pages turn
markin off each day with a cross
missin all the things tats lost
lost to this world

monday is blue blue day
tuesday is a sad sad day
wednesday and thursday
its the same
theres still friday
saturday and sunday
a long long way

out in the stand
a fren i forgot to say bye
who glances at me all the time
its a wrong time for somebody new
its the wrong kinda place

random

dun miss me for i will
miss this of everythin
it will be damn easy
soon over before long
before we go crazy
hand over hand into this
love me when im here
love me when im gone
things would nvr change
things are still damn easy
so u can still take me there

the place of old
onli seems like yesterday
but it has already fold
its the memories tats gold

nowhere to go

when nothin seems right
and i lose the will to fight

when everythin goes bland
and i can no longer see the light

two wrongs juz dun make a right
its all but gone
the meanin of this life

they clean ur head and tell u lies
how i wish theres a place to hide

everyday a sleepless night
watchin the day with listless eyes

maybe it juz aint wad it seems
maybe it juz aint wad it seems
they'll wash my head and leave me dry
tied to the bed on a sleepless night
the more i see
the less i noe
the more i wun wan to let this go
on the road to the sea to the sky
its the end of a life
theres juz nowhere else to go
its my freedom tat they sacrifice
all the sights i noe
i really cant go
divided and undecided
theres juz no where left to go
but tell my love before i go
tell my love

doubt

dreamin of u
tinkin of u
and i dunno where u'd gone to
nvr in doubt of ya
but forgive me
for doubtin myself
cuz i understand too well

whos the only one for ya

if only u take another look at me
hearin the sound of heartaches
silent in this corner
awaitin miracles
stealin another glance at ya
too silent and ya nvr notice

if onli to spend a moment of eternity with u

take another look
to see wads inside of me
the feelins and the secrets
the deepest of mine

in love with the worst of all feelins
addicted to the loss of all inhibitions
my head is heavy but i dun care
theres no need to hide who cares
theres no need to fight those feelins
i dun need to be worried
i dun need to noe who i am
all i wan is ya
all i need is ya

i only need to be loved by ya

i dun like this feelin
i noe this is hell
but i love ya
i swear

burberry

lookin at the old photos
memories became clear
goin thru the faded memories
yet they onli seem like yesterday
but yesterday tat fades
and its so faraway
the days of youth have already gone
leavin us to succumb to fate
the dreams to change my world
the dreams to make my world
the angst and hatred have subside
tinkin tat i muz have looked so stupid back then
three years of change
and tats the constant of life
theres somethin inside me tat stops me from sleepin
the fears tats nvr endin
the glory days of youth
leavin behind the moments of brilliance
stored in the sands of time
immortal within the depths of our memories
the days where onli u and i matters
if onli the days would return
to lead us on another blaze of glory
everybodys leavin goin on their seperate ways
the end of a story
the start of another
its the beginnin of my end
always me to be given up
its onli me tats nvr good enough
so ure givin me up again

i cant see at all
no point tryin to at all
its not the sights tat i wanna see at all

i cant take this anymore
no point tryin to at all
its not the things tat i could ever take at all

i cant love ya anymore
no point tryin to at all
its not wad we tot it ever was at all

all we are

ponder and wonder
wads left under our cover
we hide and cower
runnin away at every single hour

leavin our souls empty
when everybody is gone
the cold and silence in the void
theres nothin tat can fill it up

losin sight of our dreams
we make up another one
we are all the same
under this unforgivin sun

goin around in circles
chasin after delusions
and i tot i had a hope
when tat hope was u

love has all but faded
losin any trace of importance
the heart tat lost its meanin
for u it ceased to beat

all tat we are
in all tat we do
all we are
all we are
and i mean this

lovin no one else but u
tonite the hardest to go thru
like to noe how ya copin in the wee hours
the longest darkest hours
onli wantin to hold u till the end of time
goin no where else but by ur side
watchin u fall asleep
as the dusk changes to dawn
happiness of ours tat came to a stop
without u by my side cant destroy me
yet enuff to let me notice

re-live the days

somethin to do with all the blues
to paint a picture of forlornness
or to smudge one of happiness
a hue brighter than the sky
darker than the worst of moods
but if my life were nvr to met u
it would had been so meaningless
showed me another point of view
another world
taught me feelins i could nvr comprehend
joy.laughter.sadness and heartaches

if onli to re-live the days back again
for our youth and innocence back at our sides
to accompany us for awhile more

tinkin of the past where everythin seems clearer than ever
was it love or was it folly
confidin in u
seekin comfort when down and out
heartening
heartwarming
to see u reply in ernst
tryin to find some solace from ur coldness
ur coldness tat warms my heart

the words i said to make u feel special
to make u the onli one
or was it to make u feel guilty
to make u tink over again

if onli to re-live the days again
the days when years back from today
when we were strangers
when we nvr knew one another
if onli to make the same mistakes all over again
once again
once again
i love u still

fragments of truth

one bit too many
drownin out the senses
away with wild abandon

let the rain fall down to wash me clean
to start anew
back to the beginning
shattered in every directions
the fragments of truth in every small pieces

old bus stop

my heart tat beats onli for ya
the love in ur beatless heart
without u im unable to feel
when everyone else no longer matters
u are the sunshine in my life
and i dun really noe
maybe i need ur love
maybe i need ur care
the courage to say love out loud
somethin tats in u
ur empty eyes
filled with mascara
a moment i forgotten to forget
puttin everythin at stake
tryin the best and pain cannot be felt
standin at the old familiar place waitin
if onli to see the gal i knew once before
hopin tat this day will ever come

tears of love

love everlastin fades away
nvr tot u would leave me alone again
memories they made me cry
and u tat always says goodbye
dry my tears with love
dry ur tears with love
loneliness we silently whisper
anata wo aiishiteru

a river of tears tat flows thru the nite
tears tat blinded love
losin our dreams along the way
ur soul in exchange for the fortunes
time spent in the rain
washin away the sands tat keeps ur memories
im walkin in the rain
till i can forget bout u
im walkin in pain till i can dunno u anymore
i keep the love for u within myself
let me forget my all of my dreams
all of the silence
leavin onli the hatred behind
endless rain falls on my heart
all of the silence in the rain

drownin away all of my sorrows
immersin within the beat
the flashin lights tat blinds
downin one cup after another
losin all sense of consciousness
losin myself away
wastin myself away
forgettin everythin away
tears not visible to the eyes cannot be washed away
invisible tears cannot be rubbed away
invisible tears within me till this day
tears tat onli be dried by ur love
ur love
ur love

in the long run we're better off as frens
wadever love and hope would best be kept inside
emittin an allurin charm
the moonlight tat cant shine thru which could onli be ya
raised my hands towards the sky to bade goodbye
this is the end
this is the end
happy we were once
seems like yesterday
but yesterday is already so faraway
happiness tats once within our grasp
but ure lettin go
always leavin alone all the time
ure the butterfly tat everyone loves
maybe i shld not say the words tat hurt so much
everythin so wrong

the gucci bags and the chanel tat she carries
i cant gif any of them to her
and even my love was wad seems to her little
he takes her out and shows her the world
he showers upon her gifts and presents
and to her seems so much
the milky way and the stars are wad he promises to her
he stirs her heart and plays with her love
cuz tats wat he ever does

in-erasable

no longer fightin against the world
to accept the inevitable
losin our dreams to bow over
will we ever regain them ever
writins tat seemed to haf matured
or is it a sign of surrender t
he love hate pride and anger
mellowed or disappeared
or juz tamperin into things plain finer
pieces of our past tat lingers
in-erasable
irreplacable
whos fault is it no longer matters
juz this once
juz this once

wrapped around the cup were once ur fingers
ur love tat i once held upon my fingers
now ure tellin me its over
ur sweet scent tat still lingers
u said u'll remember
said the best part of love is to remember
in my heart
one last kiss gal
theres always a space for ya
now till forever

so close to me

the adrenaline wun wash away the loneliness
after comes the feelin of emptiness

i can feel u so close to me
holdin on so tight
i can feel ur hands on me
graspin onto wads left of me
i can feel ur body next to mine
clingin on without any distance
i can feel u within me
tuggin at my heart ever so softly

lookin for a dream

the hours can only grow longer in the nights
under the bright neon lights
lost in this maze of the city
lookin for a vauge dream
findin a place within tat u would like to reside upon
our eyes exchangin our mixed emotions

the drinks could not damp the loneliness
makin it an endless night
feels the same
wanderin about
lookin for the favorite dream
findin a place in u tat i would like to reside in

this much is true

im slowly losin ya
the inevitable but maybe a little bit too soon
tryin desperately to hold on to ya
but u've already faded away
to haf each other but tats too much
cryin every night
tell ourselves its ok
for love still we give another shot
downin the bourbon
ready or not

halfway there
take my hand
tears to bridge the gap
baby i nvr meant to hurt ya
i nvr meant to neglect u
i nvr meant to

we're parallel lines tat once intersect
we're one of a kind
im still losin ya
im still hurtin u in all tat i've done
the tears juz keeps on fallin when u're not around
when i wake up im still callin out ur name
butterfly

and i noe this much is true
the heaven opens up
lookin for love at all the wrong places
the tears wun stop as the unhappiness lingers
ure speakin in a cold sarcastic voice
my heart tats realli hurt
lost forever
lookin behind me and i noe i wun come back
this empty bedroom juz wun make things rite

in love with the world
lost in the world
lookin at all tat we lost
all the things tat i tot was so easy juz gets harder and harder each day
u still waits up for me all thru the nite

cut our wrists

wat hurts the most
the pain and agony of cryin out loud
or the pent up emotions tat we keep inside
tryin our hardest to barely disguise
wat everyone could see was so fuckin obvious
if i was so wrong
pls listen to me all nite long
pushin up the side of my lips as high as it could go
while ure tearin ur eyes out
bleedin more than u could ever see within
anythin but to see ur frown
anythin but to let u falter and drown
anything even its to be ur clown
or should we cry together
if tat makes the both of us feel better
or should we cut our wrist together
and let us lie upon this fuckin pool of blood
or should we hold each other tight
and laugh out loud at the predicament tat we're in
heart aching
disheartening
so much so for cryin out loud
we're juz slowly bleeding away
dyin
fadin away in this pool of blood
this pool of blood

easy way out

if only to start all over again
rememberin to forget bout ya
silence our best understanding
silence our easy way out
a few minutes is all i ever need
to be with ya tiil forever
breaking my silence to make ya cry
the tears of joy
holding each other tight
saying the words we been needing to hear
the words suppressed within for so long
nvr lettin ya go away from me again
the heartache and the blues that they sing
so fragile on the inside
the ghost of u and me
the emotional side that we show

triangles

gettin near
if onli to see u wantin him near u
usin all i can
to try and gif wad he could ever gif
hopin to hold u tighter at the end of time

our lovin onli lastin a song length
listenin to u singin the saddest of songs
wad am i to do
to be with u till forever

once believin tat sincerity will move u
givin u more than wad he could ever gif

we're runnin in triangles
ure runnin after his shadow
and im chasin after ur trail
a game where the tears nvr stop
even if i used my life to give u up
it juz nvr stops

everytime as u set ur sights upon me from afar
his heart bleeds for u till the mornin
my days taken up by the most mundane of stuffs
onli his heart tat worries solely for u
too vauge a love tat nvr satisfies u
foreverness onli somethin he can gif

we're runnin in triangles
lovin u yet unable to gif ya anythin more
usin a lifetime to realise
the one by ur side will always be him

nth to say

i wanna feel myself
with all these blues
everywhere we go
and i din mean to fall in love with ya
a pity its not ya
to be with till the end
to be there holdin my hand
maybe it onli seems like yesterday
but yesterday was already so faraway
yet still rememberin the words u say
a sad song with nothin to say
and the heartache tat we sing
and we'll smile
then lie tat it wun hurt abit
and we'll be like this for all nite long

crows zero

rather i took life at 100%
reachin for the top
i wanna change
and keep on changin
i wanna fly
and keep on flyin
fightin on alone
and u dunno where to stand
the hero tat lives inside
a beautiful heart u got
to be the king of the hill
the best of the crows
fightin and fightin and fightin
in order to reach the summit
the peak of the world
where the most beautiful view lies
life would have been meaningless
without knowin the meanin to live

everythin to stop ur frown

fingerprints upon the glass u used
i understand wad ure goin thru
and im not the one u wan
not the one u need
not the one u desired
without a smile
with the distance
happiness has all but left
and trust has all faded
sincerity the death of us
perhaps ive misunderstood
much i'd like to say
ventin ur frustration upon
but i could take it
but u dun haf to be so cold
and im juz down
why did u fake it
i can even ur clown and ur standin ground
everythin to stop ur frown
love in a dormant state
a sense of mortality
a feelin of weakness

gimme a reason to stand tall
to wake from misery
dun wanna be alone
with or without me holdin u at all
knowin it all too well
no longer insistin who am i
no longer tryin to be wad i nvr was
its always emptiness tat follows adrenaline
strangers we are from now on
life is a dream
and i dream to live
always come back to ur love

many days

killin himself tonite
sellin the soul to be in the spotlight
raised the hand towards the sky in a silent goodbye
lies in bed rememberin
hangin on no more

still not tellin u how much i miss u
even if i do
still wun tell u how much i love u
even if i do
words cant say how much i realli do
this time its for real
theres nth else more to hide

a see saw of love
to try to find the point of equilibrium
too high or too low a side
rockin till the day happiness arrives

i then realised the gap in reality
walkin along
tastin every feelin
wanderin alone in the dark
wanderin tat makes me not alone
too complicated a word
theres nth much to comprehend
u had my heart
at least for the most part
we fell apart
makin a new start
u had my heart
at least for the start
and everybody gonna die sometime

followin the dreams
onli to be further away
the nite changes
foreverness a moment to savour
eternity's eternal
dreams worth fightin for
a likin for ur company
nothin much to ya
and i rather still was myself
lovin u
a feelin of comfortness
a secret happiness tat belongs to me
another perspective
a beauty of a smile
a day where i juz cant bring the corner of my lips up
goin after a beautiful day
if onli to fall in love with u
understandin doesnt equate to doin
bitter a taste to swallow
the scent of urs tat lingers on
onli to keep a little
to continue to reminisce
no matter how hard i try
nothin more to ya
slowly fadin away
still rememberin a tinge of sweetness
too many i love u's loses its meanin
hurt too deep
lyin upon the floor
hidin in the depth of the darkness
memories tat serves to play pain
the last ever heard was sorry
laughin at my plight and im smirkin still
no longer important or was tat a lie
love disappeared
leavin onli memories of u in my mind
a gift tat u gave
opened it up
fillin it with tears for u

footsteps in the snow
as we follow the wind tat brings the cold
an emptiness in the soul
love is fallin as our faith is invisible
still in my mind
whisperin every single word u said
guided by the dreams tat inspired u
love outta nothin at all
all i ever wan is u
cuz i dun see wad anyone else sees in anyone else but u