2 contrasts

the rain keeps fallin
i'm all alone
should i cry
should i laugh
or should i juz forget it all
never mind
its time i wake up its
time to back down
time tat this honeymoon period has ended
empty out everythin
thinkin bout it
u would move on too
time to go
might as well juz laugh it off
forget it and i dun need to wait
dun dare to sleep
dun wanna wake up
afraid tat it might be too much to bear
u've gone
in the nite
u're being missed
and i'm confused again
never mind
juz take it tat i think too much


the sky beautiful
with a light blue hue
but it all pales beside u
the things u spoke of
thinkin bout my world
dark to the borders
yet a curiousity tat make me wanna take a look into ur world
fallin in love with u accidentaly
how should i love u
i'm silent and cautious
juz hopin tat u would noe of my heart to u
how should i love u
dun wanna see u wander around anymore
hidin ur sadness without a trace

contempt

dun look at me tat way
dun gimme tat scant look of urs
those pair of eyes
filled me with disgust
filled me with contempt
not as if i did somethin wrong
juz tat u could not accept
its no fault of mine
so dun give me tat fuckin look
stop makin tat face at me
u cant judge me for wad i am
u cant stop me for wad i am
i dun need ur acceptance
not a fuckin bit
no need for u to tell me wad to do
u nvr noe wad i've been thru
juz shut the fuck up

tots

cant even face up to my true feelins
all i done is runnin away
how i can tell u
when i cant even be honest to myself
my head spinnin
juz gettin more and more confused
do i or do i not
do u or do u not

time will pass but the memories dun fade
things will change but the heart will be the same

i'll be there by the side
i'll be there when u call me
i'll be there when u need me
i'll be here waitin
i will be...

the rain stopped
the crowd dispersed
i'm still standin here

time

a sec to breathe
a min to see
an hr to live
a day to dream
a week to share
a month to hold
a yr to understand
forever with the one

those who dunno are innocent
wad is givin up
when things haf already come to the end
does it still drags on
the sky laughin at me
laughin at me for being foolish
i tried to laugh it off
but deep inside
gimme the poison
for destroyin myself
actually i noe
losin i cannot take it
destroy me the way u would
tear me to pieces
all the beautiful
forget it all

goin after crazily in wad seems like yesterday
backin off with all i got today
hopin the feelin will go away
ur heart wavers
juz not into it
i laughed to myself yet
sayin tat ure not important
cold inside the heart under the sun
burn everythin to leave onli the moments of flashes
part here and nvr meet again

my tears

tear is nvr endin
cry till u're happy
when ur tears stop flowin tonite
it still flows another day
a tear does not haf feelins
a tear does not dry
a tear cannot cry
a tear reminds me
a tear is precious
a tear tat stays
stained me till this day
and i cant make it go away
but maybe its better this way

mistakes beautiful

identity crisis back then
tryin hard to get rid of my yesterday
put my true self behind me
but so wad now
i'm still feelin empty
feelin blue
feelin nth at all
numbed myself
all the things i juz got rid of them
couldnt be gd to u with all my heart
too proud and arrogant
and tats all tat will come outta it
i deserve it
all the beautiful i destroyed with my own hands
i tarnished them

the world is still the same
onli i haf changed
maybe i done everythin wrong
maybe i dun understand at all
maybe i'm the onli one tat sinned
yesterday could onli seems so farwaway

nobody understand
nobody remembers
nothin said
nothin done
lovin u
lovin me
a last nite
or juz one more nite
a last chance
like the last token
fades into the nite
at sunset
waitin for darkness
windows and doors closed
a shootin star falls
for u
for me
tear into pieces
throw them apart
piece them together again
but u find it'll nvr be the same
forget it
i shld be more than happy with wad i been gettin already
but mistakes like u so beautiful
i still see the right of the wrong

so pure

holdin onto somethin tat i believe in
my hope
my faith
tearin is more painful than bleedin

the dreams tat i could dream bout
2am in the mornin
writin away
i wake up facin the world
killed off the feelins
loneliness a word to understand
an expression without feelins
so beautiful tat a tear was dropped
so pure
so pure
runnin in the rain
walkin in the sun
goin against the wind

emptiness

in this city i got drowned
by the people and the crowds
would u take a 2nd look at me
why would u do so
why would u care
why would u even notice
juz a passer by in ur life
a step foward
or a step back
maybe not movin is the easiest
lettin things go their way
emptiness comes after adrenaline