im standin in the dust tat ure kickin
the trail of ur globe-trottin
lookin at the space tat im dreamin
wonderin if its u tat im seein
one too many times im thinkin
and im ponderin on wads goin on
like this dreamin was wrong

twelve hours

nothin could have hurt more than this
waited for ya till the middle of the night
till the lights have all went out

so many feelins unable to put to words
unable to express the deepest emotions
and i know the one by ur side will not be me
and i know the one for ya will not be me
watchin ya.slowly forgettin
silence much treasured

watchin ya in the arms of another
if only to happen over again
a tad too pitiful
ur tears ruinin ur mascara
as u said to me

two am wide awake in the mornin
three am when loneliness is callin
four and ure in the other half of the word barely wakin
five in my world im barely sleepin
six feelin refuses to go away
seven till the end of the day im countin
eight and im back to missin
nine am in my head ure all tat i am tinkin
ten its no one else but ya im rememberin
eleven if only to see ya again
twelve am and wad a fool i've been

addiction an unhealthy obsession
remember us as we used to be
breathe u in to stay alive
and its one more second to be with ya
tastin the sunshine and the apple tree
till we both grow old
love's still gold

lazin upon the open patch
breathin the scent of urs in the air
caressin thru ur hair
holdin u near
sweeter than anythin else
i love ya and this time its for real

outta nothin at all

and i tink tat i'll be able to get used to livin alone
and i believe tat i can still go on without u by my side
love is a dream tat i overslept

to start all over again
if only to see u once again
only to live one more day with ya
and wad would be left after tat day

i sleep at five
countin the hours to one
from left to right
when everythin seems so wrong
if only i knew the words to say
if only i knew just how to touch u
i would have told ya everythin tat i've gotta tell u
i would have made u mine
nvr would had let u fell
i can only follow for its the only thing i know
and i know im nothin till i give my everythin to ya

outta nothin at all

i'll be ur teddy bear
to let u hold deep into the nite
and then i'll slowly leave
quietly without a trace
if u ever so insist
not stayin a moment longer than needed
watchin ya from the sides
when one metre seems like a million light years
a world apart in that one metre

if there is a choice to smile
we would not have to cry
leadin right up to this moment
givin up everythin
leavin each and every familiar places
and we wouldnt care bout forever
farewell in the middle of the night
leavin me in the dreams

let me hold ya for one more minute
wad is there of us after tat one minute

walked past ur door
and u dun live there anymore
months like years passed by
and i noe
the reasons tat were given
the reasons tat we had learned to accept

and i told u how sad i would be
if u were to ever forget me

and i wil be waitin
and i will be willin
to take the fall from grace for ya when u fall

still very much in love with one another
juz no way in together

a little more and u'll touch the sky
the garden of angels tat awaits

its juz u
the same old one tat i knew
ur traits and ur habits
ur loves and ur hate
i loved ya.i loved ya
stop breathin
i dun see u anymore
and i dreamt
and i keep dreamin

sweetness of a dream
all within the solace of ur arms
misunderstandins tat causes rifts
when the both of us begins to drift
and love does not heal all wounds

i love the way i waste my life
i love the way i waste my time
u noe it aint wasted cuz its spent waitin for ya

lettin go doesnt seem so easy
neither a choice to go forward nor backwards
buryin it under them all
hopin to forget when time passes by
like u always do
like u always do
still like the one i knew

u noe im still waitin

cried all nite till there was no tears left
leavin u an emotion wreck
takin it hard the way u would
a broken heap on the floor
wad else can u do with a sentimental heart
old habits die hard
u wanna love no more
u wanna run no more
u wanna care no more
u juz wanna start all over again
takin back everythin tat u've gave
u dun wanna wander anymore
u dun wanna kiss anymore
the hardest part is yet to come

but if ure willin to let me
u wun walk this world alone

u noe i still love and it will nvr change
push me away
u noe wad im sayin
wun change my feelins
cant be happy away from ur side
cant have anyone but ya
no one as special as ya
like no other

u and i are the same
as stuborn as can be

push me away

many things i hide within
all the emotions and feelins deep within
words unspeakable to the mouth
never wearin wad is on my mind
never to bare my true feelins
unwillin and findin it hard
rather i hold them to myself
than to let the very precious u worry
i cant find it to be honest with myself
cant bring myself to
lettin go in a way u'll nvr contrive to comprehend
in my very own way
encryptin.hidin them among words and sentences
memories are wad they are to me
holdin them cherished

life isnt perfect without seein ya
cant have anyone but ya

hate is not a reason

theres no need to be suprised
theres no need to be sad
a person alone livin thru all the sorrows
walkin past every single person
lettin go
lettin go of my hand
no matter how he treats u
no matter how much he lets u go
no matter how life treats u
juz one person all alone

hate is not a reason

theres no need to understand me on purpose
i'm juz one person
one person alone
theres no need to know me fully
i'm nothin but one

small little words tat made u happy
small little things tat could do no harm
little stuff tat warms ur heart
its hope tat ur sunshine brings
and i was
and i always will

till the day tat we meet again
goin on our seperate ways for now
it wasnt too long ago
when fate dealt reality
angels tat fall without wings
but they are still angels
angels tat fall
losin their devotion
without faith and are they the same
paper heart
ure much stronger than me
the joy is a present
the hurt even better
doesnt matter tonight
it doesnt repeat anyway

everlastin forever
till eternity.the end of time and whatever is left from there
the sands of time breakin down
and ur clock stops runnin
wad is left at the end
wad can u take away with u when u die
and is tat the end
is there no one else
nvr been so many
nvr been so alone

maybe i'll walk this alone
not to fall in love so easily again
maybe i'll meet someone else new
one may be good
one may be bad but the choice is mine
one is mine and one is urs
and the choice is mine
random people
random choice
random love

in the dark of this half of the world
ure in the other half ready to start ur day
and whos the fool awake thru the nite
a million strangers and theres always someone else new for ya

are u lovin someone else
are u tinkin of someone else
are u with someone else
too many things im not willin to say
are u tearin
are u in pain
the red of the rose
the same red tat ur heart bleeds
to the final pages of the book

to find urself a better place
on the highway on eighty
tat was how i was reminded of the past
and everybody knows it
and tat was how the idea was stick into my head
and how would i had known
it seems like it was never here before
like all the lies

its only right for u to play the way tat u feel it
listen to the sound of ur heartbeat
dreams of loneliness tat drives u mad
so u always hold on to whoever tat pass u by
in the stillness of rememberin wad u had and wad u lost
i see the crystal vision and i keep them to myself

though i know its foolish
and deep inside i know
still i wait on endlessly
holdin onto the silly faith tat u'll come
tat phone tat never rang
forgotten in the corner of those pockets
luggin on the burden of the dreams
responsibility weighin me down
wearin me out
tearin me up
disappearin in a desperate bid to forget
a moonless night and ure the fire and light
holdin on if only to see ur face once again

random thoughts and random words
pieced together to form the most beautiful of lines
cuz ive promised tat u'll be the first

a time when one plus one no longers adds to 2
a mutiplier of desires
run to the places where i can be
run to the moments to set me free

gone before ur time
and goodbye it really was
emotions beyond words to hear tat u were gone
how could tat be
havin just stepped into the prime of ur life
the time of ur life
and now ure back to rest my fren
nothin could set this fact in still
the harsh side of reality tat hits hard
goodbye my fren
goodbye

do u like the things

in wad was only yesterday
memories of another world so faraway
here i am stuck in the cold
cuttin a lone figure across the world
soakin rain not helpin much too
the elements and the turbulent times ahead
too faraway
too faraway
tats why u go away
i noe
i noe
ur answers will nvr reach
all we do is take
all we ever do is take

unbearable
nothin beats this one kinda feelin
watchin u abandon all the words u said
unable to close this cruel pair of eyes
as i walked away in pain
comin to a rash decision where we will live to regret
drownin ur life in tears
months tat passed where u've moved on to another
stumbled back upon the words
words tat brought u to tears
made u wanna turn back time and left u askin why
the love tat was infront of u tat u can never see

i dun mind the weather
i got snow cap.gloves and sweaters
but anyway the hardest part is yet to come
i tink tat its senseless to keep on insistin
hopin for miracles to happen
perseverin on will juz seem futile
but anyway the hardest part is yet to come
i dun mind the trouble
i've got myself to count upon
the hardest part is yet to come
but i wun be walkin across this
alone

even if im good
it will all be grey
even if i made it
it will all imply
soakin thru and thru

stickin with u still
all my frens around me say u'll be gone too soon
but im gonna let them see we'll find our way back home
rain juz keeps on fallin when ure not around
i'll be tinkin of u
never gonna let u go
always and this one word will suffice

holdin on still
u had me cravin for more
i could nvr get enough
lovin u is all i ever wanna do
everythin i do is meant for lovin u
no one else can make me feel the colors tat u bring.gal

do u noe where ure goin to
do u like the things tat life is showin u
how sad the answers to the questions can be

rememberin seems so painful
when ur memories u carry is such a heavy burden
forgettin seems the easy way out
when all is lost and outta sight
losin touch and disappearin
is this how we disappear
is this how we should disintegrate

nothin is more painful
than the sights tats been flashed across repeatedly
as a lone figure cuts across the dark corner of the hall
all the sights in this city so foreign
i'll always be afraid

i'll be leavin
fadin away from the time of ur life
away from the pieces of ur memories
discarded and forgotten
but it doesnt really matter to me
as long as ure happy

i'll be lookin from afar
in a corner u'll nvr notice

change is hard

comin to grips with reality
the present self tat i am now
slowly reassertin in this time and place
same old sights and same old place
the onli thing is me tat changed
a long time ago when everythin was fine
so different.so different now
every bad times has its silver linin
mine was ya back then
times have changed and change is hard
in this world
in this heart
every different stage of life
every other different faces
each another story
many a dream i would like to sell
to take away the hurt of each dream

pain way too painful

takin things hard and it hurts so much
another point of view
another perspective
another way
another happy endin and i'll be alive

its time like this tat i hate myself
things tat are juz outta my own hands

2yrs ago and it would have been perfect
was stupid.was blind
was the biggest fool not to realise anythin at all
the emotions in the atmosphere of u and me
the skyline a perfect hue
untouched.pure and gold
silence was most treasured
decibels tat broke thru the serene surreal
puttin on the music in an attempt to cut off the blues
overwhelmin pain tats hidden
cuz i juz had too much things unsaid to u

dun pretend u can forget bout me
another casualty of normality
dun count on me to conform
nvr to fall in line
nothin is wasted.onli regretted
always a chillin rain
soakin pain
the start of the end roll
even if i dun understand
i still remember faithfully without fail
the leaves drop like the way im missin
salvagin before the set in
till they hit the ground
all i ever wanted was to stay by ur side a longer while

everytime i walk
take away my lone dignity
not afraid to lose it all
gamblin my happiness away
all or nothin such are the stakes
u'll take away my everythin everytime u leave
ur back view seen one too many times
closed my eyes as it fades from view
in my head all i ever saw
the few last words tat i heard
the notarnal tunes tat breaks ur heart everytime u hear
no matter how long it has been for u
i write for old memories sake
the heart tat beats only for u
all stale and cold within

until the day we die
in a pool of blood
i mean it
i mean this
we'll make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for ya till blood soaks my shirt
nvr fall apart yet this hurts so much

the room keys borrowed.used and returned
just like ur hands
enough of my uselessness
takin away my life but learnin to smile again
forehead kissed.warmed.slowly losin warmth
cold.over.used to this kinda heartbeat
finally understandin happiness was nvr lackin
forget it
forget it
enough.more than satisfied
loved.kissed.
juz like holdin ur hands

too painful a mistake
too painful a lesson
a world of fools tryin to break us down
and u may not feel tat i care for u
keep me warm in ur love and u softly leave

if only u could see the way she is
u would understand why i feel this way
and what i muz do bout this love
if onli u could see her beautiful eyes when she says
when she says i love u
u would noe how much i would do for her

one too many bad day tat i gotten used to livin
freedom tat goes up in flames
tats the only way when everythins so wrong

dunno how i can make it all up to u
after all the hurt ive put u thru
and all the times i caused u pain
i dun tink i can ever repay
not even with this stupid life of mine

empty.they float thru my hands
my identity.has it been taken
gimme the strength i need
the strength to keep on goin
life would haf been better off dead
at least nobody would be sad
so much so for all the things done and said
takin it no more