beyond these walls

go and shut me out
close the doors
held in ur arms like a stranger
its time to go
beyond these walls
now pls dun say a word
i am standin here alone
and wun u be with me
i'll observe u from afar
leave me in a swirl
everytime i see u
an illusion or a dream
standin in the dark
and will u be with me

wantin to fall asleep
yet unable to
its juz another one of those days
leave me an empty shell
longin for a soul
wantin to fall in love
yet not havin the courage to
its juz another way to run

a mothers pride and joy
a woman's charm and beauty
a man pride and honour
a father joy and love
an apple of their eyes
a dead man silence and peace
everythin so surreal
a serene state of mind
the king of hearts honour
an elaborate plan
an unbelievable story
foreseen by the quiet fortune teller
dark clouds and neon lights so faraway
sittin alone in a corner
a shiftin existence and i cease to believe
water flowers kicked up by rollin wheels
every drop so intricate

tearin and smilin at the same time
mixed emotions tat run thru the sides of the face
a complicated potrait

a stolen glance

a meetin by chance
with u takin a stolen glance
lookin straight into my eyes
i could onli manage a weak smile
stealin another glance
as we bade goodbye
partin our ways
on this christmas day

i miss u
from the bottom of my heart
i realli do
i cease to exist
when i cease to believe
i cease to exist
when i cease to resist

nothin can stop the emotions
tat run down the sides of ur face

cuz i'll be holdin on tonite

theres a feelin in my mind
tat i wanted to noe
words could nvr descibe all the things inside
wads there left to say
when things are better if u stayed
and if we carry on this way
things are better if i stay
once there was a time
u hear me
with u near me
pretend to leave and meet again
when our worlds collide
wads the worst thing to take
with every heart u break
so long and goodnight
so long not goodnight
cuz i'll be holdin on tonight

is it a crime
to be thinkin of ya
wrong place at the wrong time
so wrong
so wrong

empty blanks

the hair color fades
like the colors of u
slowly fadin away from the times of my life
showin signs of hesitance
as the atmosphere became awkward
starin into blanks
like we always do
we make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for ya
so why does this hurt so much

stuck in ur tots

stuck in ur tots
and u'll be bitin ur nails
stuck in a moment
and ure tappin the cup
lost in ur charm
and im head over heels
lost in ur embrance
and im cravin for more

draw a circle

i drew a circle and kept myself in
an empty room
an empty void
a blank somewhere in the lines
disappearing into emptiness
swallowed whole

the sands of time tat left me behind
while everybody around me moved forward
wastin time upon the past
open wounds

a love tat needs not be compatible
a love tat needs no approval from others

silent love

would u believe if i told u the truth
or would u rather hear all the lies tat i made up
if i told u all the made believe
will u still believe my lies

the rain pours hard upon the window
cloudin up my mind
but maybe its not so bad after all
soaked thru and thru
wakin up to the pouring rain
and it makes me wonder why i got out of my daze at all
the movin sights outta the window
passin by ur left side again
starin into blanks
how are u to understand my silence
when all the love and hurt are unspeakable
one too many times before we cried
seekin to fulfil the prophecy juz for ya
a process of love tat kills the soul
and ur leavin tat leaves my heart in pain
take me away
take me away
chasin after a shootin star
the onli end is to crash and burn
closin my eyes to sense the feelins
from the head to the heart
in the corner of the city where lonely hearts meet
in the middle of the nite exchangin loneliness
without words to say
sittin behind and u remain silent
a way of interaction
how am i to understand ur silent love

the pourin rain hit upon the window
the movin sights outside
i cant see at all
and it makes me wonder why
i got out of my daze at all

hate loving

i was silent
and u din had much to say
we overlooked where happiness was
and u muz haf cried
somewhere in a corner of ur heart
ur eyes were red from cryin
and it hurts to see u cry
heaven noes how much pain i'm in
too much hate
for theres too much love
save u and me
before we all fall too deeply

in the silence i believe in

strangely familiar
familiarly strange
always
a word on my mind
lyin here lookin at an old photograph
a love song the way it was meant to be
words u have been needin to hear
if i could
i would
even if i couldnt
i'll still would

still so much to say between us
fallin to pieces
fallin into place
killin the pain tats spinnin in the silence
losin some sleep tonight
in this moment we are silent
as we learn
slowly losin our innocence
one last look into ur eyes
and ive finally realised
it was those pair of eyes tat i fell in love with

in the silence i believe in
i can see u in the silence
u are silent
possessin all the beauty
hungry still for more
heaven holds a sense of wonder
in the silence i am free
can we still close our eyes and dream a little
juz like how we use to do baby
ur eyes tat captures innocence
waitin for u to kiss me tonight
leavin me the most beautiful of memories
waitin for u to come here into my dream
holdin u under the stars
till these black hair of ours turn silver
this time.i'm nvr lettin go of my hands

odd one out

grass without roots
i'll grow where i stand
im not conformin
im not wad they wan me to be
odd one out
i am myself

stay awhile and hear me out
and u wun haf to ever see my face again
ur broken dreams were mine too
and those tears tat u dropped
one too many times we teared
as hard for me to be here
so wun u stay awhile

name

wads in a name
forgettin my name
and who i realli am
will i be the same
can i exist
when i resist
i dun deny
when its all lies

ur left side

lyin here alone
on the bed i lie
and all i could ever hear
tat its too late to apologise
in my mind
a special feelin
nobody shall understand
and u wun notice
cuz its me tats too silent
a glimpse of forever
a moment of eternity
by ur left side
my right side

took a step
took a chance
i'll even took a shot for u

without u

everybodys changin
everythings gone
without u
without u

baby gal

u wun rest till five
u'll wake up at nine
baby gal ure so fine
someday i'll make u mine
baby gal u look like ice
baby gal i see myself in ur eyes
one last look added with ur smile
baby gal i love to see ur smile
in the mirror ure the bulls eye
turnin back for juz a little more while
baby gal u had me to smile
i left a piece of myself behind with u
my heart

stories and reasons

many stories
many reasons
doesnt matter now anyway
though i still rememeber a day
people i love
no longer matter
people tat loved
no longer exist
stood at doorways
waitin for u
stood at exits
waitin for u
this time
can no longer wait for eternity
used to be so important
everythin juz fades with time
many reasons
many excuses
people i once gave up
come back to my life
roads i once avoid
can i walk them back again
juz another day
juz another way
a point in life
i'm juz a little blemish alive
innocently stuborn
slowly forgotten
forgotten

golden bowl

memories fade
onli the photographs remain
sleep tight my miss pink panther
somebody holdin ya tonite
i can nvr live without u
tat was a pretence
everyone would wan u by their side
ure a star everybody covets
but all i ever wanted something simple
not wad u or them make it out to be
turned into a star and vanished
not even a chance to say goodbye
if the person u'd love left
love me then u said
but i'll lay down my life juz to look for her
a betrayal was not wad it meant to be
loneliness from all directions
beside u it was nvr evident
for it was all so natural
left ur side and it became all so obvious
a chance meeting
something nvr shld had happened
in love with an illusion
the person u knew was nvr the real me
we're done
its over
i dun even need to be loved
i juz wan u by my side
even if its all givin dreams
beautiful dreams
weavin each and every for everyone of all of u
cuz i'll come to regret and be left with nothing at the end
i juz wanna see ya once again
listen here
i love u here
with u but my heart with another
turnin to look at the sky
knowing tat u will onli shine on me
for i will onli shine for u
nvr tot it could happen
lifes like the oklahama dance mixer
holding hands
sayin its destiny
holdin another sayin the same thing again
october rain
and santa claus aint comin anytime soon

everyone covets

woke up to a sad dream
emotions i felt and the expressions tat u had on ur face
juz so real
it was juz so real
but even if its true
who am i to stop u in ur pursuit of happiness
u said u wanted to try to love again
i had to let u be
ure the star tat everyone covets
but all i ever wanted
a star tat shines onli for me
cuz i'll be a star tat shines
onli for her

randomly

nvr seem to get along
the onli one tat i got
my premonitions became real
vanishin alone to be a star
the sky kept cryin on a day
losin trust
losin fast
tonite
day and afternoon
and the mornin with u