old bus stop

my heart tat beats onli for ya
the love in ur beatless heart
without u im unable to feel
when everyone else no longer matters
u are the sunshine in my life
and i dun really noe
maybe i need ur love
maybe i need ur care
the courage to say love out loud
somethin tats in u
ur empty eyes
filled with mascara
a moment i forgotten to forget
puttin everythin at stake
tryin the best and pain cannot be felt
standin at the old familiar place waitin
if onli to see the gal i knew once before
hopin tat this day will ever come

tears of love

love everlastin fades away
nvr tot u would leave me alone again
memories they made me cry
and u tat always says goodbye
dry my tears with love
dry ur tears with love
loneliness we silently whisper
anata wo aiishiteru

a river of tears tat flows thru the nite
tears tat blinded love
losin our dreams along the way
ur soul in exchange for the fortunes
time spent in the rain
washin away the sands tat keeps ur memories
im walkin in the rain
till i can forget bout u
im walkin in pain till i can dunno u anymore
i keep the love for u within myself
let me forget my all of my dreams
all of the silence
leavin onli the hatred behind
endless rain falls on my heart
all of the silence in the rain

drownin away all of my sorrows
immersin within the beat
the flashin lights tat blinds
downin one cup after another
losin all sense of consciousness
losin myself away
wastin myself away
forgettin everythin away
tears not visible to the eyes cannot be washed away
invisible tears cannot be rubbed away
invisible tears within me till this day
tears tat onli be dried by ur love
ur love
ur love

in the long run we're better off as frens
wadever love and hope would best be kept inside
emittin an allurin charm
the moonlight tat cant shine thru which could onli be ya
raised my hands towards the sky to bade goodbye
this is the end
this is the end
happy we were once
seems like yesterday
but yesterday is already so faraway
happiness tats once within our grasp
but ure lettin go
always leavin alone all the time
ure the butterfly tat everyone loves
maybe i shld not say the words tat hurt so much
everythin so wrong

the gucci bags and the chanel tat she carries
i cant gif any of them to her
and even my love was wad seems to her little
he takes her out and shows her the world
he showers upon her gifts and presents
and to her seems so much
the milky way and the stars are wad he promises to her
he stirs her heart and plays with her love
cuz tats wat he ever does

in-erasable

no longer fightin against the world
to accept the inevitable
losin our dreams to bow over
will we ever regain them ever
writins tat seemed to haf matured
or is it a sign of surrender t
he love hate pride and anger
mellowed or disappeared
or juz tamperin into things plain finer
pieces of our past tat lingers
in-erasable
irreplacable
whos fault is it no longer matters
juz this once
juz this once

wrapped around the cup were once ur fingers
ur love tat i once held upon my fingers
now ure tellin me its over
ur sweet scent tat still lingers
u said u'll remember
said the best part of love is to remember
in my heart
one last kiss gal
theres always a space for ya
now till forever

so close to me

the adrenaline wun wash away the loneliness
after comes the feelin of emptiness

i can feel u so close to me
holdin on so tight
i can feel ur hands on me
graspin onto wads left of me
i can feel ur body next to mine
clingin on without any distance
i can feel u within me
tuggin at my heart ever so softly

lookin for a dream

the hours can only grow longer in the nights
under the bright neon lights
lost in this maze of the city
lookin for a vauge dream
findin a place within tat u would like to reside upon
our eyes exchangin our mixed emotions

the drinks could not damp the loneliness
makin it an endless night
feels the same
wanderin about
lookin for the favorite dream
findin a place in u tat i would like to reside in

this much is true

im slowly losin ya
the inevitable but maybe a little bit too soon
tryin desperately to hold on to ya
but u've already faded away
to haf each other but tats too much
cryin every night
tell ourselves its ok
for love still we give another shot
downin the bourbon
ready or not

halfway there
take my hand
tears to bridge the gap
baby i nvr meant to hurt ya
i nvr meant to neglect u
i nvr meant to

we're parallel lines tat once intersect
we're one of a kind
im still losin ya
im still hurtin u in all tat i've done
the tears juz keeps on fallin when u're not around
when i wake up im still callin out ur name
butterfly

and i noe this much is true
the heaven opens up
lookin for love at all the wrong places
the tears wun stop as the unhappiness lingers
ure speakin in a cold sarcastic voice
my heart tats realli hurt
lost forever
lookin behind me and i noe i wun come back
this empty bedroom juz wun make things rite

in love with the world
lost in the world
lookin at all tat we lost
all the things tat i tot was so easy juz gets harder and harder each day
u still waits up for me all thru the nite

cut our wrists

wat hurts the most
the pain and agony of cryin out loud
or the pent up emotions tat we keep inside
tryin our hardest to barely disguise
wat everyone could see was so fuckin obvious
if i was so wrong
pls listen to me all nite long
pushin up the side of my lips as high as it could go
while ure tearin ur eyes out
bleedin more than u could ever see within
anythin but to see ur frown
anythin but to let u falter and drown
anything even its to be ur clown
or should we cry together
if tat makes the both of us feel better
or should we cut our wrist together
and let us lie upon this fuckin pool of blood
or should we hold each other tight
and laugh out loud at the predicament tat we're in
heart aching
disheartening
so much so for cryin out loud
we're juz slowly bleeding away
dyin
fadin away in this pool of blood
this pool of blood

easy way out

if only to start all over again
rememberin to forget bout ya
silence our best understanding
silence our easy way out
a few minutes is all i ever need
to be with ya tiil forever
breaking my silence to make ya cry
the tears of joy
holding each other tight
saying the words we been needing to hear
the words suppressed within for so long
nvr lettin ya go away from me again
the heartache and the blues that they sing
so fragile on the inside
the ghost of u and me
the emotional side that we show

triangles

gettin near
if onli to see u wantin him near u
usin all i can
to try and gif wad he could ever gif
hopin to hold u tighter at the end of time

our lovin onli lastin a song length
listenin to u singin the saddest of songs
wad am i to do
to be with u till forever

once believin tat sincerity will move u
givin u more than wad he could ever gif

we're runnin in triangles
ure runnin after his shadow
and im chasin after ur trail
a game where the tears nvr stop
even if i used my life to give u up
it juz nvr stops

everytime as u set ur sights upon me from afar
his heart bleeds for u till the mornin
my days taken up by the most mundane of stuffs
onli his heart tat worries solely for u
too vauge a love tat nvr satisfies u
foreverness onli somethin he can gif

we're runnin in triangles
lovin u yet unable to gif ya anythin more
usin a lifetime to realise
the one by ur side will always be him

nth to say

i wanna feel myself
with all these blues
everywhere we go
and i din mean to fall in love with ya
a pity its not ya
to be with till the end
to be there holdin my hand
maybe it onli seems like yesterday
but yesterday was already so faraway
yet still rememberin the words u say
a sad song with nothin to say
and the heartache tat we sing
and we'll smile
then lie tat it wun hurt abit
and we'll be like this for all nite long

crows zero

rather i took life at 100%
reachin for the top
i wanna change
and keep on changin
i wanna fly
and keep on flyin
fightin on alone
and u dunno where to stand
the hero tat lives inside
a beautiful heart u got
to be the king of the hill
the best of the crows
fightin and fightin and fightin
in order to reach the summit
the peak of the world
where the most beautiful view lies
life would have been meaningless
without knowin the meanin to live

everythin to stop ur frown

fingerprints upon the glass u used
i understand wad ure goin thru
and im not the one u wan
not the one u need
not the one u desired
without a smile
with the distance
happiness has all but left
and trust has all faded
sincerity the death of us
perhaps ive misunderstood
much i'd like to say
ventin ur frustration upon
but i could take it
but u dun haf to be so cold
and im juz down
why did u fake it
i can even ur clown and ur standin ground
everythin to stop ur frown
love in a dormant state
a sense of mortality
a feelin of weakness

gimme a reason to stand tall
to wake from misery
dun wanna be alone
with or without me holdin u at all
knowin it all too well
no longer insistin who am i
no longer tryin to be wad i nvr was
its always emptiness tat follows adrenaline
strangers we are from now on
life is a dream
and i dream to live
always come back to ur love

many days

killin himself tonite
sellin the soul to be in the spotlight
raised the hand towards the sky in a silent goodbye
lies in bed rememberin
hangin on no more

still not tellin u how much i miss u
even if i do
still wun tell u how much i love u
even if i do
words cant say how much i realli do
this time its for real
theres nth else more to hide

a see saw of love
to try to find the point of equilibrium
too high or too low a side
rockin till the day happiness arrives

i then realised the gap in reality
walkin along
tastin every feelin
wanderin alone in the dark
wanderin tat makes me not alone
too complicated a word
theres nth much to comprehend
u had my heart
at least for the most part
we fell apart
makin a new start
u had my heart
at least for the start
and everybody gonna die sometime

followin the dreams
onli to be further away
the nite changes
foreverness a moment to savour
eternity's eternal
dreams worth fightin for
a likin for ur company
nothin much to ya
and i rather still was myself
lovin u
a feelin of comfortness
a secret happiness tat belongs to me
another perspective
a beauty of a smile
a day where i juz cant bring the corner of my lips up
goin after a beautiful day
if onli to fall in love with u
understandin doesnt equate to doin
bitter a taste to swallow
the scent of urs tat lingers on
onli to keep a little
to continue to reminisce
no matter how hard i try
nothin more to ya
slowly fadin away
still rememberin a tinge of sweetness
too many i love u's loses its meanin
hurt too deep
lyin upon the floor
hidin in the depth of the darkness
memories tat serves to play pain
the last ever heard was sorry
laughin at my plight and im smirkin still
no longer important or was tat a lie
love disappeared
leavin onli memories of u in my mind
a gift tat u gave
opened it up
fillin it with tears for u

footsteps in the snow
as we follow the wind tat brings the cold
an emptiness in the soul
love is fallin as our faith is invisible
still in my mind
whisperin every single word u said
guided by the dreams tat inspired u
love outta nothin at all
all i ever wan is u
cuz i dun see wad anyone else sees in anyone else but u

hearts always with ya

when everyone else around disappears
and theres only the void left in my mind
havin no one to turn to
nor anythin else to hold on
feelins of the lovin turns to dust
driftin away in the air
a little piece of heaven
and its callin for ya
lost for most of this life
and how did this come to be
gimme another chance to be the person i wanna be
i'll do my very best
but u've gotta let go of me

been far too long in all tat we do
the stars in the nite will lend me their lights
bringin me to heaven closer to ya
reachin out towards the sky to say my goodbyes
my heart is always with ya

memories we had and all tat we've been thru
each his own
dyin one day or another
theres nth to be taken for granted

the tears u shed
the years we shared
the love we have
my hearts always with ya

surreal

lyin around
surrounded by the 4 walls
listenin to the meledy
the room spinnin when i close my eyes
aimlessly wastin my day away
maybe i dun belong here
feelin all bored and lousy
im juz ur part time lover and a full time fren
and i dun see wad anyone else see in anyone else but u
maybe im still in love with u

maybe im still in love with u
my dreams tat remained the same
my route tats forever changed
will we be there hand in hand
or will i escape when u gimme ur hand
its not somethin against u
and baby i'll surely miss ya
but the time is not right
its still not ripe
the peace the world so surreal
and theres onli me and u
will u promise to take me back
take my hand
back into our place
when our time has come

waitin for u

my life only to wait for u
the only thing that i exist
waitin for u
to come into my dreams
waitin for u
to kiss me in the night
waitin for u
till the stars fade away
waitin for u
till eternity

satellite

a tragedy in a way u might describe
with these tears of pearls
some things are meant to be done without a reason
fadin into the dark as ure slippin away
holdin on and im not insane
not belongin here but nearly fell for it
when it was almost easy

half the world away
the pain tat comes to wake up
in my mind
still whisperin every single word u say
my shining star my beautiful satellite
faith is fallin and love is invisible

mistakes and regrets

disllusioned and full of contempt
a lack of understandin
and u'll nvr noe me
feelins of stuck and lost
weak and helpless
weatherin the storm
tryin to break thru an endless nite
mistakes and regrets
how long more to eternity
the ghost of my past hauntin me
remindin me of who i realli am
nvr contemplatin to take the easy way out
all we ever had were lies
rather had we said goodbye and died