the wind blows across my face
tears flow down my face
how do i forget all the dreams i had in the past
all alone out in the streets
i am lonely
but i noe i can't cry
perhaps if i look back
i'll be even sadder
as i looked into the mirror
i saw the sadness within my eyes

the eyes were red after cryin
tears which fell out of it
broke into a million pieces
like the fallen dreams of mine
the dreams tat fell from grace
brought down as fast as it was up
time was so short
it nvr shone
helpless in everyway

juz for u

dunno wad i'm livin for
dunno wad i'm holdin onto
wad if i'm not as strong as u think
will u pick me up hold me when i fall
wad if i'm not as perfect as u think
will u still love me
hold me when i fail
will u love me for wad i really am
or will u leave and go
will u hate me for wad i am
or will u not
will u share my dreams together
or will u haf ur own
is my dreams urs and urs mine
will u hold me tight
and nvr let go
will u be there for me
will u be there with me
will u wait for me
will u comfort me when i'm down
will be be there when i'm hurt
i noe it's too much to ask
but i'll gladly do tat for u

tat's juz me

nvr fall in love with a guy like me
i'll onli gif u unhappiness
the onli thing tat i'm certain
i can't make any promises
i can't gif u anything
i'm a gd for nothin
the scum of society
tat's wad i am
i threw my life away all too long ago
it's too late now
there's no turnin back
no more.no more
look at the pieces of my broken life
my love hate angst
all of them my pride
and i'll carry on
the onli way left to go
the onli door left open
no other choice
isn't it
nothin is true
not even me
how ridiculous
i dun even believe myself
pathetic i am
but tat's me
juz me

me life

the cold walls
the cold floor
the closed windows
the drawn curtains
an empty room
a messy one
a pen
a piece of paper
a hi-fi
a broken com
a cold bed
the blowin fan
clothes behind the closed cupboard doors
a small tv
a lonely person
a sad one
writin his feelins on a piece of paper

ur fav purple

there was a time i tot i would nvr smile again
and then u came along
u made me fall in love
and i could nvr had enuff
and i'll nvr let u go
i'm callin out ur name
when i'm all alone
when u're around
everythin seems so natural
only when u're not here
do i noe ur charm.
the heart is bleedin
but u can't see it's blood
it's nth but some loneliness and sadness
depressed the only word to describe me
juz let it be
perhaps i'll be better some time
later holdin out for a love tat nvr was
somethin tat nvr shld haf happened
guess i'm not worthy of someone so good like u
who am i i asked myself
i asked once i asked twice
the ans. nobody
u deserve someone better
u got looks
u got wits
u got charm
u're juz so perfect
go live ur life at the top
it's where u belong
and i'll be at the sides watchin
listenin.if u ever wanna speak
holdin out for a gal so good
tat can only be u
u gave me no reasons to gif things up
gimme a chance to hold ur hand
a chance to hold u close
and i'll be true
and i'll belong to u
if u juz let me do

my will

I wake from my sleep and face the day
and I have to hope to reach you someday
I cannot go on take other steps
cause my way's not easy to go
even I do really wanna see you
I need to take my time
Spend some days alone
being be myself will be all I do
If does exist an everlasting love in which I could believe
I got hurt
because I was very awkward
Know it but I don't want no losing.no!
Thinkin of you made me cry
So my eyes
they were filled with tears
And all I've got is my will to be with you again.someday

i say

i dun believe tat anybody
will feel the way i do about u now
there are many things tat i...
would like to say to u
but i dunno how
and u're always not around
i say baby
i love u
i miss u every nite
and everytime believe in you
so baby pls be mine
i'll love u more and more each day

defiant juvenile

defiant the way i am
juvenile delinquent i am one
wrong the way i'll always be percieved
but i dun think i'm bad
i am the way i am
who are u to judge me?
take a good look at me
u do not even noe me
yet u claim to be
the love,hate,pride and angst in me
u dun and nvr will understand
call me wadever u like
i am the way i am
i won't change for u
who are u anyway?
i am the ruler of my world
i fight my own battle
love me,hate me
i dun care
i am still myself...

abandon

feel so empty
as if the whole world is only left with me
i wanna cry out loud
only left me and my techno
the only thing tat i could hear
i'm still confused
am i the only one
i've got a feelin i'm not the only one
lettin my self off with wild abandon
forgivin myself one too many times
all shows my despair
i'm degradin myself
lettin myself waste away
against the sands of times
sugar.it makes my life complete
for u juz taste so sweet
not much left to say
my heart no longer in it
floatin aimlessly
lifelessly
misery in the air
i dun wanna taste any of it
my life full of nothin
false hopes and broken promises
i'll close my eyes
as my life goes out
can't even be bothered to hate u
for i ain't got the energy
wad more to say love u
my life like the stars
as it slowly goes out at dawn
till the night i shine again
i had to fall from grace

hurt

everynite it's the same
the feelins all too much for me to bear
i wanna go and shout it all out
i love u day and nite
i think of u
even a small little msg will do
yet u dun even care
am i realli tat insignificant to u
if it is
why even gif me false hope in the 1st place
u were the one tat made in believed in love again
now u're the one who's gonna break it up
wad am i supposed to do
if u realli dun like it
why can't u be more direct
wad is it tat's stoppin u
so i guess it's the end
is it
for the last time
let me love u all tat i ever can
this is the last anyway
i'll be all tat u ever wan
before slowly fadin away from life
cuz i'm tired from all this waitin
i'm sick of all the games u play
i'm tired of all the days
when u can't even bother
so i'm gonna be faraway
cuz i dun wan the old days
lyin in my bed feelin empty
for u're not here
i start to think bout all the things tat weren't so clear
in my head.in my head
i can hear
i hope u're here
i'm lookin for some comfort
to mend my broken heart
the broken pieces
tat pierced thru me
hurt me so deeply
leavin me all so hurt

me life

the coldness of the room
the emptiness within
complete with loneliness
tat is my home
gripped with insecurity
i dun wish to stay
everythin so empty
makes me all so cold
i wanna runaway
wanna break free
but where am i supposed to go
where am i to hide
when will i ever goin to
when will i ever do
there's onli loneliness here with me
they say u'll nvr walk alone
but no one here to hold my hand


hold me tight
hold me real tight
pull me close
pull me real close
love me deep
love me real deep
set me free
set me real free
kiss me good
kiss me real good
touch me soft
touch me real soft
comfort me well
comfort me real well

i tot i could stay.but...

to start it off i oso dunno
u came into my life when i least expected it
and to think of it it was onli 3 mths ago
we were total strangers
now u've become the one
the most impt person in my life
so now u're the gal for me
for everytime i see
u my face lit up with a smile
u're the one u put the smile back into my life
u're really wonderful
simply irresistable
how it all happened in 3 mths
i still can't understand
such a short time
yet so incredible
and how time flies
now we're goin seperate ways
u've become all so busy now
there's no time for us
u and me all of a sudden so distant
i'm now hatin myself
i noe there's no one to blame but me
no time for me anymore
i hope u're happy
u're still ur old self busy.
as usual u're still all so popular
always surrounded by frens
i'm still my old self too
alone as always
i'm still myself.SUXS
i was hopin u would ask me stay
cuz leavin is onli cuz i wanna stay

so long

why do all these feelins onli come at nite?
why do all these dreams onli appear at nite?
why does it comes when i'm all alone
all out and down
guess u juz wanna be frens
i'm lettin go from today onwards
the rain shall take over me cryin
the rain been pourin since 2 days ago
so long gal
u're now all so busy
u're in a place somwhere tat seems so faraway
somewhere tat i can't seem to reach
used to wanna do all the things with u
hold u tight in my arms
be at peace within ur comfort
guess it no longer will be

send me an angel

can i act like an angel if i live like a jerk?
can i keep on disguising?
can i make believe tat i dun decieve?
no.i can't
i act like a winner
i behave like a sinner
i dunno wad to do
when i'm down and out
will i fail to see what i used to be?
somtimes i feel like i dun haf a fren
sometimes i feel like i'm all out alone
but i've got my techno
she's my companion
lonely as i am
tgt we cry
this world tat i live in
the city of sadness
send me an angel
if i'm still alive

lovin u.lovin me

i'm fallin even more in love with u
lettin go of all i held onto
lettin go of everythin i noe
hangin by a moment here to be with u

i dunno wad i'm divin into
juz wanna stay here with u
cuz if i let u go
i will nvr noe
wad it will be

lovin u.lovin me
will u remember me
since tat day i set my eyes on u
everythin became all so wonderful

:'(

wad did i do to get this from u
u're plain ignorin me
perhaps it's as simple as it seems
i realli shld haf go
gif up long ago
why are u now so cold towards me?
wad wrong haf i done?
i realli do not noe
:'(
my tears juz keep on droppin
it's cuz i still love u.

can't help but love u

listless me thinkin of u
i nearly missed my bus
my mind is full of u
i need some confirmation
i'm feelin insecure
i'm scared tat u might be goin away
nvr comin back into my life
so tell me tat u'll stay
and always be mine
cuz ver. i'm willin to gif up the whole world for u
with u is where my heart belongs
cuz i love u
can't help but love u

had a dream when i was little
i like to hold the world in my hands
when i slowly grew
did i realised tat everything was really different now
i dunno where to go
time ticks and i can't go back to the past
now tat i've grew up
i still ain't got a clue on wad to do
it seems all too much like a dream to me
happiness seems so faraway
but no matter wad
i'm still myself

it's been pouring since tat day
how do i ever get out of this flood
i'm drowning
i wanna leave my past behind
forget everything...

the lights are going out
the stars are going out
the moon is my only companion
but it's all gone at dawn
i hate the morning for coming too soon

i can't forget my love
i dun understand why for all the sorry things tat i've done
i really regret it
but i dun think i'll ever haf the chance to make amends
i'm still holding out for my love

i watched the early morning sun rise
from the east at the start of the day
times goes by me and the day turns into night
i try to sleep
and dream bout a dream
but no one's here to sing me a lullabay
i can't get to sleep

the streetlights flickering above my head
it's laughing at me
tired of trying tried to proof i'm different
fuck me
it's juz my wishful thinking
my pride is left in shatters

i'm a fool
i'm an idiot
i'm so tired
i dunno wad to do
i'm hestitating
i'm procastinating
wad am i doing???

he

time can forget anything
but he can't forgive himself
too many wrongs he've done
too little rights he's done
two wrongs dun make a right
he swears he's right
he wan his dreams forever to last
he juz wanna live simply
he juz wanna decide his way of life
juz how strong does he haf to be?
how many more hurdles he muz overcome
he dun wanna run this race
he wanna be his own judge
he dun wanna be the one left fight alone
but it's always been the case
he's confused inside out,upside down
he dunno wad he's fightin for
against his will,
he stood beside his own reflection
disheartenin
he felt this way before too many times
it's juz so insecure
he was a key tat could use a little turnin
so tired tat he couldn't even sleep
so many sercets he couldn't keep
promised himself he wouldn't leak
it's juz one more promise he can't keep
it seems no one can help him now
he's in too deep
there's no way out
he's doomed
he's insane
he's like a madman laughin at the rain
he's keepin my silence the frens who forsaken him
the one he loved who rejected him
the enemies who tried to fall him
happiness seems like a myth to him
he'll not retreat
he rather get his heart break
dun ask bout his wounds if u dunno how deep it is
dun ask how deeply hurt he is by the one he loved
he already gave up his soul for her

quietly

if my life is transient like a flower
i'll be in full bloom by your side
and after watching your smile
i'll fall alone
quietly...

The broken pieces of your dream
pierce my heart
leaving the pain that I shall never forget

If I could flutter like an angel
I would fly to you
and offer my wing
to your wounded back

If I could flow like the wind
I would reach you
If I could shine like a moon
I would keep shining on you
I'll be anything
If it can stop you from being seized with fear