negativity

a million feelins across the mind
a million emotions tat can only be mine
mixed and clouded
castin a shadow of a doubt upon my ownself
upon the light shinin unto me
feelin the judgement of myself towards everyone else
a depressin feelin to bring along to sleep
like the negativity of a subtraction sign
till two of a similar become one
to a positive then shall us become

wad if i was the one by ur side
wad if i was the one tat read ur mind
wad if i was the one to say those words to ya
wad ifs and wad would had been
a single chance which will nvr happen
to cherish a single shared moment with ya

heaven knows

heaven knows how much i would give to be with ya
and to be by ur side
i used to believe
the way as i had remember
wants to talk to ya but ure nvr around when it matters
the time seems like forever
when u and i are away from each other
october.november.december
markin them down on the calendar

gone are the days of summer
settin in the time of winter
heaven knows how much i loved ya

a closure of a chapter
yet still stuck among the pages
wadever comes will go
wadever goes will never return
a change tat i can understand
wads between us need not be said more
a cliff hanger endin
cuz we never said a proper goodbye
wad nvr started could nvr be ended

goin back to a world only i know
seems like a step into a few years back
where day and nite doesnt matters
when day and nite blurs
when day and nite makes no diiference
when the only thing tat matters in the world was ya

if i was transient like a flower
i'll bloom right by ur side
and as i watch ya smile
i'll fade into oblivion
quietly into my world of sub zero