present

the class tat i nvr was in
as i flipped thru the dusty pages of life
still rememberin u
and the letter tat u wrote
a smile tat appeared on my face
i nvr noe why
juz the way tat i am in front of ya
and i finally understood
the present tat u said u'll give
the day u decided to walk away
maybe i'll be better without u
maybe i aint no better without u
we nvr gave love a try

forgettin seems the hardest way out
seperation is the present for me
and i saw her
tears in ur eyes
not goin near
juz watchin u silently

at least i still feel the pain
understandin the taste of life
forgiveness is the best way out for us
and we do not cry
love aint perfect
and its all my fault

nothin at all

nothin at all
nothin
mean nothin to me
nothin more to me
and i dun
and i wun
all tat of me

left
right
left
right
walkin in circles again
makin the same mistakes

oblivion

and i return to the darkness
and i return no more
in the depth of oblivion
as i exist no more

missin ya

a heavy rain tat washes me clean
made everything so clear
mistakes
mistaken
misunderstood
miss ya
i loved u cuz u loved me

nothing to hold onto
everything to regret

of blood and pain
we are the walking wounded
of blood and wounds
we are the guilty innocent
is it all too late
to want to hold u in my arms
to want to say i love u
to cherish u
forever not to part with ya

when ive forgotten my name and who i realli am
will i be closer or even more a stranger
and ure still beautiful in every way
listenin to ur breathing
and i doubt who u realli are
but never mind who u are
i love u the same
ure still the onli one tat can make my heart skip a beat
to set my pulse racing and my world spinning
the onli one i cant get outta my mind
i'll be waiting for ya by the sides of ur life
waiting for u.

pool of blood

hand in hand we fall
together in this pool of blood
lettin each other noe how much we mean
and in the pool of red
until the end of everythin
and we go cold
days fade to red
nights turn to red
makin the same mistakes as yet we do
my hands stained with ur blood
ur hands full of mine
we make the same mistakes

still believe

listening carefully to the sound of closing of doors
from grey skies to clear weather
many years it has been
from loneliness to freedom
still on rainy days
starin at blanks
listening to the windstill
a fool
still a fool

the world have already changed
but baby i still believe
and still believe rushin out onli to return home
empty no matter rain or shine
nobody feels for me anyway
they blindly run on
nvr knowing tiredness
a few more drinks tinkin i'll understand wad the answers are
no matter how sincere
nobody will get touched anyway
pure innocence left our world long ago
and they follow blindly
nvr knowing to tink

wrong for tinkin too much
wrong for havin nth at all
wrong for not understanding
wrong for not givin up
wrong for losin myself to the world
losin to myself at the end
who can ever forgive me
everything so wrong
might as well be wrong
till the end
with all i can

TTTTT

of lonely nites and empty streets
lonely roads and empty rooms
hand in hand we fall

till they tell the truth

if u could see me here this way
lookin back wads from today
stoned in love but not with u
if we could watch the past away
will we go our seperate ways
or do it all again
not tat i care

no need for much words
everything understood
an embrace says it al
la smile shows it all
i believe and believe
some pain onli our hearts noe
ure no longer the one im thinking of
and im no longer the one ure missing

nobody's child

aint no place for me
not a place in this world
i dun belong
i shld not even exist
nobody child
i'm nobody child
no reasons to stay
feelin lost and scared
to wander till i find a place i can call my own
a place i can call my home
a place tat accepts me
a place i can stay

tattered and broken
how easy it is to end a life
19yrs transcend in an instant
love me when im gone
strangers from the day i leave
alone but i'll be happy
familiarity could onli breeds contempt
turnin back could onli means sadness

everything so wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
and my family dun seem so familiar
im nobodys child still

nvr wanting to return home
till its late
wanderin around and around
cold and bitter
stuck in a situation
my solitude
my solitude
nobody understands how i used to cry in the middle of the nite
things tat i'll nvr tell
feelins tat i nvr dare admit
down and out
im torn
fuck this world tat had been unfair
fuck it all
nobody child
im nobodys child