so hard to be a nice guy

it's the moments we shared
it's the fun we had
it's the times we haf
it's wad we both missed
but still we remain the same
dreamers as we are
dreams beyond the wildest dream
and no
we ain't bad
dun look at us tat way
we're onli seventeen

so hard to be a nice guy
harder when the cat dun acknowledges it
but still we are
the nice guys tat we always are

i'm shallow

lookin back
on my memories
on my past
for the 17yrs i walked
i feel so cheap rite now
found myself so haggard in front of the mirror
onli for me to break it
tat shld not be me
i used to be wad people wished to be
i used to be wad they envy
i was everythin beyond their reach
wad on earth haf i become now
facin the allurin temptation
i felt tat i could take the easy way out
givin up
wad had happened
where's the arrogance
where's the cockiness
where's the coolness
wad the hell had happened
things seem beyond my control
i became silent
silence around the air
helplessness spinnin around me
loneliness flowin in the nite
time keeps goin on
clingin onto wadever i can
felt so empty chasin after everythin
tryin so hard to keep everythin
but it's all fultile
lots of things haf lost their meanin
many new haf gained
reminscin still bout the past
too much sorrow
too little love
too much loneliness
too little care
too much sadness
too little happiness
keep blabberin on
and i seem so shallow

i wan u

in this city
i somehow found love in u
i nvr tot i could be in love again
till the day i met u

u taught me everythin
u made me believe in it

u took me for wad i am
u dun mind the fact of who i am
u juz took me as me
nvr wantin me to change in any ways

i wanna hold u
nvr to let u go
hold ur hand
walkin down the road with u
gaze at the stars at nite
under the beautiful nite sky

u went right thru
and touched my heart
u opened up my mind
and mend the pieces
u made me wanna fall in love again

i wanna love u till the end of time

neglected.forgotten

holdin on desperately onto the pieces of my life
tryin hard to hold them together
tryin to make some sense outta this
others noe u better than i do
u spend more time with others than with me
i'm neglected here
forgotten in the dark corner
or was i even on ur mind
onli when i dun bother to care
then will u find me important
why muz u be like this

till then i realised
i knew so little bout u
lots of things i nvr noe
i onli met u then
even now i still dunno
wadever it is
all so little
i nvr was in ur world
i'm insignificant to u
all the while
all along
u do not notice if i'm not here
u do not miss me if i'm not around
i guess i still wander alone
wadever it is
i shut myself out to the world
oblivious to anythin else
i closed my heart
the disappointment of expectation
dropped to the ground
sympathy so pathetic
u dunno the meanin of being lonely
u dunno the feelin of being neglected
drowned myself out
u'll still nvr noe

i'm shallow
my feelins so shallow
my life so hollow
and i noe
i can nvr be part of ur life
and u'll nvr gif up anythin for me
even though u say u would
so why am i thinkin so much
askin u to gif up anythin
simply too much to ask for
all i wan is a star tat shine onli for me
i'm selfish i noe
but who ain't
love is all i ever wan
is tat too much to ask
i guess it will nvr be
such things juz ain't to be
hope tat brings onli disappointment
tired of talkin
i've given up hope
totally without any
i dun wish to speak anymore
for u dun wanna hear any of this
i washed my hands clean off this shit
dun bother me bout such stuff
i nvr wish to be embroiled
it makes no sense
dun come complainin to me anymore
i dun wish to care
so little time
so much to do
yet u rather spend time with others than with me
u said goodbye too many times before
u changed so much
or maybe i nvr knew u at all

i've lost my place

the dawn is onli hrs away
the place still filled with darkness
i'm lyin on my bed
devoured by the loneliness at nite
the onli color in my life
nth much in my head
juz the same old stuborness
refusin to close my eyes
but even the best fall down sometimes
and when the stars refuse to shine
my world juz collides with emptiness
and when time stops here
i've lost my place
i'm far behind
and all the doubts tat fill my mind
i somehow find i'm still feelin blue

maybe words can't express my feelins anymore
my nightmares all seem comin true
there's no control
emotions juz flow
distort the truth of reality
livin in lies
it's all my fault
i dun haf a thing
except for a dream
no one can take my tml away

juz me

all of a sudden feelin so empty
everyone seems to disappear without a trace
and i dunno why
the loneliness so allurin
and i grown to like the nite
the beauty of darkness
it nvr fails to impress me
and the rhythm of the nite
became the feelin of my life
the heartbeat of mine
all so audible in the silence of the nite
right in the middle of the city
i juz can't fight life
and i juz can't win
i nvr wanna compete with anyone
never wish to
so wad if i win
so wad if i lose
are u happy? i dun wanna be someone tat i'm not
do wad i dun wanna do
pretend to be wad i'm supposed to be
i juz wanna be me