me life

the cold walls
the cold floor
the closed windows
the drawn curtains
an empty room
a messy one
a pen
a piece of paper
a hi-fi
a broken com
a cold bed
the blowin fan
clothes behind the closed cupboard doors
a small tv
a lonely person
a sad one
writin his feelins on a piece of paper

ur fav purple

there was a time i tot i would nvr smile again
and then u came along
u made me fall in love
and i could nvr had enuff
and i'll nvr let u go
i'm callin out ur name
when i'm all alone
when u're around
everythin seems so natural
only when u're not here
do i noe ur charm.
the heart is bleedin
but u can't see it's blood
it's nth but some loneliness and sadness
depressed the only word to describe me
juz let it be
perhaps i'll be better some time
later holdin out for a love tat nvr was
somethin tat nvr shld haf happened
guess i'm not worthy of someone so good like u
who am i i asked myself
i asked once i asked twice
the ans. nobody
u deserve someone better
u got looks
u got wits
u got charm
u're juz so perfect
go live ur life at the top
it's where u belong
and i'll be at the sides watchin
listenin.if u ever wanna speak
holdin out for a gal so good
tat can only be u
u gave me no reasons to gif things up
gimme a chance to hold ur hand
a chance to hold u close
and i'll be true
and i'll belong to u
if u juz let me do

my will

I wake from my sleep and face the day
and I have to hope to reach you someday
I cannot go on take other steps
cause my way's not easy to go
even I do really wanna see you
I need to take my time
Spend some days alone
being be myself will be all I do
If does exist an everlasting love in which I could believe
I got hurt
because I was very awkward
Know it but I don't want no losing.no!
Thinkin of you made me cry
So my eyes
they were filled with tears
And all I've got is my will to be with you again.someday

i say

i dun believe tat anybody
will feel the way i do about u now
there are many things tat i...
would like to say to u
but i dunno how
and u're always not around
i say baby
i love u
i miss u every nite
and everytime believe in you
so baby pls be mine
i'll love u more and more each day

defiant juvenile

defiant the way i am
juvenile delinquent i am one
wrong the way i'll always be percieved
but i dun think i'm bad
i am the way i am
who are u to judge me?
take a good look at me
u do not even noe me
yet u claim to be
the love,hate,pride and angst in me
u dun and nvr will understand
call me wadever u like
i am the way i am
i won't change for u
who are u anyway?
i am the ruler of my world
i fight my own battle
love me,hate me
i dun care
i am still myself...

abandon

feel so empty
as if the whole world is only left with me
i wanna cry out loud
only left me and my techno
the only thing tat i could hear
i'm still confused
am i the only one
i've got a feelin i'm not the only one
lettin my self off with wild abandon
forgivin myself one too many times
all shows my despair
i'm degradin myself
lettin myself waste away
against the sands of times
sugar.it makes my life complete
for u juz taste so sweet
not much left to say
my heart no longer in it
floatin aimlessly
lifelessly
misery in the air
i dun wanna taste any of it
my life full of nothin
false hopes and broken promises
i'll close my eyes
as my life goes out
can't even be bothered to hate u
for i ain't got the energy
wad more to say love u
my life like the stars
as it slowly goes out at dawn
till the night i shine again
i had to fall from grace

hurt

everynite it's the same
the feelins all too much for me to bear
i wanna go and shout it all out
i love u day and nite
i think of u
even a small little msg will do
yet u dun even care
am i realli tat insignificant to u
if it is
why even gif me false hope in the 1st place
u were the one tat made in believed in love again
now u're the one who's gonna break it up
wad am i supposed to do
if u realli dun like it
why can't u be more direct
wad is it tat's stoppin u
so i guess it's the end
is it
for the last time
let me love u all tat i ever can
this is the last anyway
i'll be all tat u ever wan
before slowly fadin away from life
cuz i'm tired from all this waitin
i'm sick of all the games u play
i'm tired of all the days
when u can't even bother
so i'm gonna be faraway
cuz i dun wan the old days
lyin in my bed feelin empty
for u're not here
i start to think bout all the things tat weren't so clear
in my head.in my head
i can hear
i hope u're here
i'm lookin for some comfort
to mend my broken heart
the broken pieces
tat pierced thru me
hurt me so deeply
leavin me all so hurt

me life

the coldness of the room
the emptiness within
complete with loneliness
tat is my home
gripped with insecurity
i dun wish to stay
everythin so empty
makes me all so cold
i wanna runaway
wanna break free
but where am i supposed to go
where am i to hide
when will i ever goin to
when will i ever do
there's onli loneliness here with me
they say u'll nvr walk alone
but no one here to hold my hand


hold me tight
hold me real tight
pull me close
pull me real close
love me deep
love me real deep
set me free
set me real free
kiss me good
kiss me real good
touch me soft
touch me real soft
comfort me well
comfort me real well

i tot i could stay.but...

to start it off i oso dunno
u came into my life when i least expected it
and to think of it it was onli 3 mths ago
we were total strangers
now u've become the one
the most impt person in my life
so now u're the gal for me
for everytime i see
u my face lit up with a smile
u're the one u put the smile back into my life
u're really wonderful
simply irresistable
how it all happened in 3 mths
i still can't understand
such a short time
yet so incredible
and how time flies
now we're goin seperate ways
u've become all so busy now
there's no time for us
u and me all of a sudden so distant
i'm now hatin myself
i noe there's no one to blame but me
no time for me anymore
i hope u're happy
u're still ur old self busy.
as usual u're still all so popular
always surrounded by frens
i'm still my old self too
alone as always
i'm still myself.SUXS
i was hopin u would ask me stay
cuz leavin is onli cuz i wanna stay

so long

why do all these feelins onli come at nite?
why do all these dreams onli appear at nite?
why does it comes when i'm all alone
all out and down
guess u juz wanna be frens
i'm lettin go from today onwards
the rain shall take over me cryin
the rain been pourin since 2 days ago
so long gal
u're now all so busy
u're in a place somwhere tat seems so faraway
somewhere tat i can't seem to reach
used to wanna do all the things with u
hold u tight in my arms
be at peace within ur comfort
guess it no longer will be

send me an angel

can i act like an angel if i live like a jerk?
can i keep on disguising?
can i make believe tat i dun decieve?
no.i can't
i act like a winner
i behave like a sinner
i dunno wad to do
when i'm down and out
will i fail to see what i used to be?
somtimes i feel like i dun haf a fren
sometimes i feel like i'm all out alone
but i've got my techno
she's my companion
lonely as i am
tgt we cry
this world tat i live in
the city of sadness
send me an angel
if i'm still alive

lovin u.lovin me

i'm fallin even more in love with u
lettin go of all i held onto
lettin go of everythin i noe
hangin by a moment here to be with u

i dunno wad i'm divin into
juz wanna stay here with u
cuz if i let u go
i will nvr noe
wad it will be

lovin u.lovin me
will u remember me
since tat day i set my eyes on u
everythin became all so wonderful