sorry

A chance meetin or to purposely meet
A broken promise meets a broken end
Seems half the world away
Ur mind juz not into it
Why would u even bother i guess
Nothin in this world u would love more than yourself
And u would always need somebody to love
Tats why u would hold on to anythin tat pass u by
Cant resist and i cant lie

Half the world away
Where u'd go i'd follow
And in my mind i'll whisper every single word u say
Should not have even met
Cuz it'd been easier to forget ya then
Sorry to ya then
But i guess its all too late to apologise

different

Breaks my heart to hear u go
Leavin ever so silently
And i finally understood why u did wad u did
So sorry for the things i nvr did
So sorry for the words i nvr said
Now theres no one for me to do the things i wanna do with ya
Now theres no one for me to say those words to
Wad would i have to do
If for a chance to see ya again

the silence after the euphoria
when u wished tat u had rather died
and all the struggles would be over
where the carnal hopes and desires would cease to be
disappear

the flashin lights come from everywhere
when u lose yourself to the dreams
holding onto whoever comes near
and all the loneliness would disappear
euphoria

the head's heavy and the lights spin
addicted to the feelin
dressed against the norm
ignorin all the looks and stares
defiant

the conscience fightin the body
the mind been torn apart
sloggin out my guts everyday
if only for this kinda high
there seems to be no way out
no way to ever break free
the chains and boundaries
when all im tryin to do
is to be myself

silent walk

Why would you walk behind me
So silent
So silent
Why would you walk behind me
So far yet so close
So far yet so close
Why would u fall for me
When im everythin so wrong
Everythin so wrong

Hold my hand and never let me go
Hold them tight.hold mine close
The rest half of my life in exchange for yours

rain

she walks and nvr talks
shes shy and yet always shine

so many books
so many words
not of one tat i could use to describe wad i was feelin inside
damn my education
for gettin myself into this situation
theres not a place to run
not a place to go back to

seems like i could forget all this in the depths of the nite
truth is i still had some hope against reality
as i closed my eyes
i could not even see the things that i nvr wanted to see

of broken dreams and lost innocence
of compromises and submission
how young were we when we spoke of huge dreams
dreams tat appears only in the obscure storybooks
how much has we changed from the years back then
when in all mind everythin is still so fresh

the sun.the rain and the cold will nvr noe
when June lies and the truth is laid in black and white
and the color of my life are put away in sepia tones
scars heal at a gentle pace
puttin outta reach wad was right infront of you

if the rain chooses to fall on me
will it be ok to let it cover me?
this rain tat noes no end
feelin cold ever since

if its consolation ure tellin me
i would be tired of hearin it by now
let the troubles spill down my tired cheeks
let the rain wash them clear

a last chance against reality is the only truth tat i would need to believe in

none the wiser
just double the trouble
theres still nothin in this world
nothin on you
nothin on me

lies

when love is only left with an empty shell
why are we still keepin hold of it
maybe i nvr really knew how to make ya happy
how am i to be with u
when im missin in ur future
an unfinished story
the words tat can only be written with blood and tears

is love always the same
no matter how long the duration
it always end the same
how are you supposed to know
when sadness is translated to silence
the love of yesterday
an unfinished story
if i could do it again
i'll hold u close without hesitation once more

maybe my causalness lets you feel insecure
thats why it always end the same
you need not take it to heart
love is built in such a way anyway
why would i lie
why would i put up an act

the place of yesterday
has all but changed in every single way
you know me in every single way
theres some things better left unsaid

game

a game so real we play
that it felt like reality
a game so real we play
our true emotions used
we all knew from the start it was just a game
i pulled u in and had u hooked
the rest u can all figure out
u had me in the palm of ur hands
i had u in the arch of my arms
thought it was real for a moment
until the curtains was brought down
i never knew ur name
i never knew ur face
i never had a dream until that dream was ya

but its all just a game
another one that we always play

rather i be a wild crow
to see all the sights in the world
than to be a caged bird
nvr to realise the vastness of this beautiful world

the days of glory tat awaits
yet left with only an empty shell to enjoy

forgive me for being afraid to fall
and for loving freedom
forgive me for holdin on to my obsessions

to abandon all dreams and hopes
aint nobody tat cannot do that
still myself standin out
im not afraid if ure by my side
even if its only me and ya

summer in ur hands
the phone ringin incessantly
leavin it be in a corner
not wantin to break the moment

seems like a break for me
away from the hustle
a change of scenery for the heavy-hearted
before it starts all over again

naively brave
venturin deep in the lonely nights
promises and memories
we're more than just five hundred days

when summer is over
wad shall become of us

him her and them

the story of him and her
and the stories of them and them
things i dun wish to know
whos wrong and whos right
and whom tat had let who down
i dun tink theres any wrong nor right
only what the heart feels

too late for regrets
i could see i love ya
its hurts me deep in my heart
still somewhere in my heart
seein u hurt
but its my heart tats hurt the most
i could nvr be like ya
to forget and forgone

the pain i'll forget
if only to see ya happy once again
a new love tat will grow
the past.forever etched in my heart

i wanna cheer ya up when u frown
hold ya up when ure down
wanna be around
nvr gonna let ya down

half the world away
footsteps set in the snow
looks alot like goodbye
i could nvr know
wads goin within of ur mind

still myself
nvr changed abit
still myself
in love with ya still

negativity

a million feelins across the mind
a million emotions tat can only be mine
mixed and clouded
castin a shadow of a doubt upon my ownself
upon the light shinin unto me
feelin the judgement of myself towards everyone else
a depressin feelin to bring along to sleep
like the negativity of a subtraction sign
till two of a similar become one
to a positive then shall us become

wad if i was the one by ur side
wad if i was the one tat read ur mind
wad if i was the one to say those words to ya
wad ifs and wad would had been
a single chance which will nvr happen
to cherish a single shared moment with ya

heaven knows

heaven knows how much i would give to be with ya
and to be by ur side
i used to believe
the way as i had remember
wants to talk to ya but ure nvr around when it matters
the time seems like forever
when u and i are away from each other
october.november.december
markin them down on the calendar

gone are the days of summer
settin in the time of winter
heaven knows how much i loved ya

a closure of a chapter
yet still stuck among the pages
wadever comes will go
wadever goes will never return
a change tat i can understand
wads between us need not be said more
a cliff hanger endin
cuz we never said a proper goodbye
wad nvr started could nvr be ended

goin back to a world only i know
seems like a step into a few years back
where day and nite doesnt matters
when day and nite blurs
when day and nite makes no diiference
when the only thing tat matters in the world was ya

if i was transient like a flower
i'll bloom right by ur side
and as i watch ya smile
i'll fade into oblivion
quietly into my world of sub zero

and i'll keep every memory of ya
away in a shoebox
a box of love
a box of memories
each one an unique experience
over the years i keep
over the years i remember
u are wad u are to me still
haven changed
not for abit
not for awhile
if u ever still remembered a card tat u wrote
i'll tell ya tat all tats inside
im workin hard to make it true one day
and when tat day
it'll be like the exact same
where u'll be the first
to see wad we can have together

under the apple tree
hand in hand
watchin every sunrise and set
till we both grow old
when our hair shall turn white with time
its only our love tat stays gold

startin a day
awaitin the end of another
when this aint over by a long shot
blowin hot and cold
a day like this
and im standin still like the weather doesnt matter at all
an expired promise
no longer clear bout such feelins
the movies
the books and the music
in control no more
too much rules and philosophies
happiness onli happens after sadness
and not to mention the temptation to scream
can it be easier
cuz it only seems to keep on goin back
it all falls apart

i dun think its fair
to keep on givin
i dun think its right
to keep on doin

its good to let things off ur chest
only if u had someone to talk to
its good to let out ur feelins
only if u had someone to pour out to

along the way we lost ourselves
within ourselves we lost our way
im still here
till the break of day
memories fade away
when time ceased to stay

im standin in the dust tat ure kickin
the trail of ur globe-trottin
lookin at the space tat im dreamin
wonderin if its u tat im seein
one too many times im thinkin
and im ponderin on wads goin on
like this dreamin was wrong

twelve hours

nothin could have hurt more than this
waited for ya till the middle of the night
till the lights have all went out

so many feelins unable to put to words
unable to express the deepest emotions
and i know the one by ur side will not be me
and i know the one for ya will not be me
watchin ya.slowly forgettin
silence much treasured

watchin ya in the arms of another
if only to happen over again
a tad too pitiful
ur tears ruinin ur mascara
as u said to me

two am wide awake in the mornin
three am when loneliness is callin
four and ure in the other half of the word barely wakin
five in my world im barely sleepin
six feelin refuses to go away
seven till the end of the day im countin
eight and im back to missin
nine am in my head ure all tat i am tinkin
ten its no one else but ya im rememberin
eleven if only to see ya again
twelve am and wad a fool i've been

addiction an unhealthy obsession
remember us as we used to be
breathe u in to stay alive
and its one more second to be with ya
tastin the sunshine and the apple tree
till we both grow old
love's still gold

lazin upon the open patch
breathin the scent of urs in the air
caressin thru ur hair
holdin u near
sweeter than anythin else
i love ya and this time its for real