hearts always with ya

when everyone else around disappears
and theres only the void left in my mind
havin no one to turn to
nor anythin else to hold on
feelins of the lovin turns to dust
driftin away in the air
a little piece of heaven
and its callin for ya
lost for most of this life
and how did this come to be
gimme another chance to be the person i wanna be
i'll do my very best
but u've gotta let go of me

been far too long in all tat we do
the stars in the nite will lend me their lights
bringin me to heaven closer to ya
reachin out towards the sky to say my goodbyes
my heart is always with ya

memories we had and all tat we've been thru
each his own
dyin one day or another
theres nth to be taken for granted

the tears u shed
the years we shared
the love we have
my hearts always with ya

surreal

lyin around
surrounded by the 4 walls
listenin to the meledy
the room spinnin when i close my eyes
aimlessly wastin my day away
maybe i dun belong here
feelin all bored and lousy
im juz ur part time lover and a full time fren
and i dun see wad anyone else see in anyone else but u
maybe im still in love with u

maybe im still in love with u
my dreams tat remained the same
my route tats forever changed
will we be there hand in hand
or will i escape when u gimme ur hand
its not somethin against u
and baby i'll surely miss ya
but the time is not right
its still not ripe
the peace the world so surreal
and theres onli me and u
will u promise to take me back
take my hand
back into our place
when our time has come

waitin for u

my life only to wait for u
the only thing that i exist
waitin for u
to come into my dreams
waitin for u
to kiss me in the night
waitin for u
till the stars fade away
waitin for u
till eternity

satellite

a tragedy in a way u might describe
with these tears of pearls
some things are meant to be done without a reason
fadin into the dark as ure slippin away
holdin on and im not insane
not belongin here but nearly fell for it
when it was almost easy

half the world away
the pain tat comes to wake up
in my mind
still whisperin every single word u say
my shining star my beautiful satellite
faith is fallin and love is invisible

mistakes and regrets

disllusioned and full of contempt
a lack of understandin
and u'll nvr noe me
feelins of stuck and lost
weak and helpless
weatherin the storm
tryin to break thru an endless nite
mistakes and regrets
how long more to eternity
the ghost of my past hauntin me
remindin me of who i realli am
nvr contemplatin to take the easy way out
all we ever had were lies
rather had we said goodbye and died

worlds apart
too good a thing and it will go
love not till an end
how am i to let go
but i nvr dare to tink too much into it
the feelin of losin u
as u fade away
not a taste of love left
forever in fear
pretendin our past to be a show
pretendin tat u nvr exist in this world

my love my fate

helpless eyes gazin at u
hopin to translate my pain to u
unable to explain
amountin to this silence of mine

my love my fate
u will fade away
heaven and earth apart
i'll love i'll hate
i'll miss u always
i love u forever
lucky theres u in my world
my love
my hate
i am afraid
always scared tat i might nvr see u ever again
happiness we grasp with our own hands
happiness we let go of each others hands
too beautiful a memory
too perfect
how could i bear to let go
unable to accept our endin now
i'll love u again someday
lifes beautiful with u around
outta my life

trapped and stuck
the only way to go is forward
towards the inevitable
as the time draws to an end
wads there left to say
wads there left to see

non believer

i wanna believe in all the miracles too
i wanna believe in all the fairytales too
i wan the happy ever after
and realli i do
but how can tat be when i dunno if love is true
and is there ever eternity
for a non believer like me

too much misunderstandings between us
love in a dormant state
sheddin tears for no others
shattered heart for no one else
a person alone
seekin the company of another lonely soul
a process they call as love
a meetin they term as fate
love who and whatsoever
regrets in love
usin forever to forget too
much pain and heartache
and who is the one we realli love

but why

colder than winter
aloof like ice
the feel when i look into her eyes

i wanna be there for u when ure feelin down
i wanna be there for u when ure all but strong
lettin u to fall if onli for the chance to see u fightin again
ure leavin the ground
i can see ure burnin out
from now on
all i'll ever write will be my lovin for u
if ure willin
i could walk with u to forever
and if u believe
we shall be forever
our perfect endin
but why do tears flow
down the contours of the beautiful face of urs

love letter

a letter stained with ur tears
nothin else that matters
save for u and me
and the apple tree
so many things we said we wanna do
so many words left unsaid
afraid to be alone
avoidin ur lovin as my tears start to fall
unable to exist without hurtin u
like the strangers that we are
standin side by side

through it all
ive come to see
that u're the one till the end

beyond these walls

go and shut me out
close the doors
held in ur arms like a stranger
its time to go
beyond these walls
now pls dun say a word
i am standin here alone
and wun u be with me
i'll observe u from afar
leave me in a swirl
everytime i see u
an illusion or a dream
standin in the dark
and will u be with me

wantin to fall asleep
yet unable to
its juz another one of those days
leave me an empty shell
longin for a soul
wantin to fall in love
yet not havin the courage to
its juz another way to run

a mothers pride and joy
a woman's charm and beauty
a man pride and honour
a father joy and love
an apple of their eyes
a dead man silence and peace
everythin so surreal
a serene state of mind
the king of hearts honour
an elaborate plan
an unbelievable story
foreseen by the quiet fortune teller
dark clouds and neon lights so faraway
sittin alone in a corner
a shiftin existence and i cease to believe
water flowers kicked up by rollin wheels
every drop so intricate

tearin and smilin at the same time
mixed emotions tat run thru the sides of the face
a complicated potrait

a stolen glance

a meetin by chance
with u takin a stolen glance
lookin straight into my eyes
i could onli manage a weak smile
stealin another glance
as we bade goodbye
partin our ways
on this christmas day

i miss u
from the bottom of my heart
i realli do
i cease to exist
when i cease to believe
i cease to exist
when i cease to resist

nothin can stop the emotions
tat run down the sides of ur face

cuz i'll be holdin on tonite

theres a feelin in my mind
tat i wanted to noe
words could nvr descibe all the things inside
wads there left to say
when things are better if u stayed
and if we carry on this way
things are better if i stay
once there was a time
u hear me
with u near me
pretend to leave and meet again
when our worlds collide
wads the worst thing to take
with every heart u break
so long and goodnight
so long not goodnight
cuz i'll be holdin on tonight

is it a crime
to be thinkin of ya
wrong place at the wrong time
so wrong
so wrong

empty blanks

the hair color fades
like the colors of u
slowly fadin away from the times of my life
showin signs of hesitance
as the atmosphere became awkward
starin into blanks
like we always do
we make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for ya
so why does this hurt so much

stuck in ur tots

stuck in ur tots
and u'll be bitin ur nails
stuck in a moment
and ure tappin the cup
lost in ur charm
and im head over heels
lost in ur embrance
and im cravin for more

draw a circle

i drew a circle and kept myself in
an empty room
an empty void
a blank somewhere in the lines
disappearing into emptiness
swallowed whole

the sands of time tat left me behind
while everybody around me moved forward
wastin time upon the past
open wounds

a love tat needs not be compatible
a love tat needs no approval from others

silent love

would u believe if i told u the truth
or would u rather hear all the lies tat i made up
if i told u all the made believe
will u still believe my lies

the rain pours hard upon the window
cloudin up my mind
but maybe its not so bad after all
soaked thru and thru
wakin up to the pouring rain
and it makes me wonder why i got out of my daze at all
the movin sights outta the window
passin by ur left side again
starin into blanks
how are u to understand my silence
when all the love and hurt are unspeakable
one too many times before we cried
seekin to fulfil the prophecy juz for ya
a process of love tat kills the soul
and ur leavin tat leaves my heart in pain
take me away
take me away
chasin after a shootin star
the onli end is to crash and burn
closin my eyes to sense the feelins
from the head to the heart
in the corner of the city where lonely hearts meet
in the middle of the nite exchangin loneliness
without words to say
sittin behind and u remain silent
a way of interaction
how am i to understand ur silent love

the pourin rain hit upon the window
the movin sights outside
i cant see at all
and it makes me wonder why
i got out of my daze at all