without u

everybodys changin
everythings gone
without u
without u

baby gal

u wun rest till five
u'll wake up at nine
baby gal ure so fine
someday i'll make u mine
baby gal u look like ice
baby gal i see myself in ur eyes
one last look added with ur smile
baby gal i love to see ur smile
in the mirror ure the bulls eye
turnin back for juz a little more while
baby gal u had me to smile
i left a piece of myself behind with u
my heart

stories and reasons

many stories
many reasons
doesnt matter now anyway
though i still rememeber a day
people i love
no longer matter
people tat loved
no longer exist
stood at doorways
waitin for u
stood at exits
waitin for u
this time
can no longer wait for eternity
used to be so important
everythin juz fades with time
many reasons
many excuses
people i once gave up
come back to my life
roads i once avoid
can i walk them back again
juz another day
juz another way
a point in life
i'm juz a little blemish alive
innocently stuborn
slowly forgotten
forgotten

golden bowl

memories fade
onli the photographs remain
sleep tight my miss pink panther
somebody holdin ya tonite
i can nvr live without u
tat was a pretence
everyone would wan u by their side
ure a star everybody covets
but all i ever wanted something simple
not wad u or them make it out to be
turned into a star and vanished
not even a chance to say goodbye
if the person u'd love left
love me then u said
but i'll lay down my life juz to look for her
a betrayal was not wad it meant to be
loneliness from all directions
beside u it was nvr evident
for it was all so natural
left ur side and it became all so obvious
a chance meeting
something nvr shld had happened
in love with an illusion
the person u knew was nvr the real me
we're done
its over
i dun even need to be loved
i juz wan u by my side
even if its all givin dreams
beautiful dreams
weavin each and every for everyone of all of u
cuz i'll come to regret and be left with nothing at the end
i juz wanna see ya once again
listen here
i love u here
with u but my heart with another
turnin to look at the sky
knowing tat u will onli shine on me
for i will onli shine for u
nvr tot it could happen
lifes like the oklahama dance mixer
holding hands
sayin its destiny
holdin another sayin the same thing again
october rain
and santa claus aint comin anytime soon

everyone covets

woke up to a sad dream
emotions i felt and the expressions tat u had on ur face
juz so real
it was juz so real
but even if its true
who am i to stop u in ur pursuit of happiness
u said u wanted to try to love again
i had to let u be
ure the star tat everyone covets
but all i ever wanted
a star tat shines onli for me
cuz i'll be a star tat shines
onli for her

randomly

nvr seem to get along
the onli one tat i got
my premonitions became real
vanishin alone to be a star
the sky kept cryin on a day
losin trust
losin fast
tonite
day and afternoon
and the mornin with u

shes electric

shes electric
a smile and a look into the eyes
a pout and a wink of the eyes
all she ever need
shes electric
i liked her fren
but i liked her even more
shes electric
can i be electric too

and we live among the fools
breakin us apart
when they all shld let us be
we belong to u and me

everywhere nowhere somewhere

wad shall become of me
life is dead
and i am wad they dun see
and theres all the things tat i dream
i stand at roads
wonderin which way to go
hopin time will pass soon
so tat i could die
as proud as the rose
tat blooms upon the battlefield
standin up
yet stranded
with no where to go
the things i did
will it allow me to rest upon here forever
in peace
in peace
takin away everythin
still holdin onto the beauty tats left

alone in the crowd
cryin too easily
too many tears
still a lost child
devoured by fears
people come and go
hidin in shadows
hidin in dreams
movin in and out
nothin but strangers
strange as it seem
a paper heart so easily torn
over and over again
the little pieces juz wun fit together again
nvr knew the reason why
and it nvr ends
an unrest in the air
time slips slowly but surely away
where can i go from here
everywhere.somewhere.nowhere
i looked upon the empty sky
somebody tell me why
take a chance
to take a stand
destiny awaitin
upon a runaway train
feelins so cold
colder than the rain tat fall upon my face
runnin away
everywhere
nowhere
somwhere.

count to 100

ur world too faraway
unable to understand
back to the start
but it feels like an end
most afraid
most afraid

close ur eyes
and make a count to 100
and i'll be there by ur side
i'll be the first u see
when u open ur eyes

waitin for u
im waitin for u
at the end

ice queen part 2

to see u once again
my ice queen
still u caught my eye
how could i ever forget
such a perfect sight
ur fringe still hidin those eyes of urs
cuz theres still aint no one like u
like no other
cuz i still remember u
and tat special jacket of urs
how could i ever forget
those colors so bright
to be onli able to see u at nite
ure still my midnite sun
ure the color
when everythin else fades to grey
u still hold the mystery tat u are
conveyin a conflict of emotions
sad yet happy
happy yet sad
ur sorrows i wish i could share
ur joy i wish i could add
and i noe ure lookin my way
cuz im lookin ur way
stuck in a moment
in a world of onli u and me
stay my gal stay
juz stay with me
till the break of day
cuz i still call u ice queen

if it hurts to remember
if it feels better to hate
rather u had not forgive me
the onli way to remain in ur tots
maybe i cant sing a love song
the way its meant to be
maybe im not as good as before
its still me
always

the streaks tat nvr go away
no matter wad u say
till death do us part
till death and still we nvr part

for love

no rights i haf to criticize their ways of life
when mine aint tat wonderful
no rights i haf to criticize them
when myself aint so complete
maybe i gotta hold on to wad ive got
it doesnt make anymore difference
if i made it anot
cuz ive dreamt of runnin away
but u whispered into my ears
tellin me its ok
sometimes i feel
im onli halfway there
sometimes i feel
im neither here or there
take my hand
take my hand
aint lookin for forgiveness
if i were to die
before my time
let this boy die like a man

ive met u before
and tats alot
for love
for love

4 liners

when the past has all but faded
leavin behind wad was onli the memories
the black and white
and the colors in the photographs

forget it
once and for all
lookin for answers in places where they nvr will be found
how dumb

another hour
another day
another year
how long more will i despair

happiness was always in abundance
why cant i keep some of them
never mind
as long as im contended

learnin to smile again
learnin to love again

empty

and ive tot u'll be moved
all my most beautiful lines juz for ya
but how could tat be
when u no longer care

time passes me by
wonderin how much more ive got left
too little and i'll be with regrets
too long and i'll be sickly
cuz ure too beautiful
afraid to say tat i love u
and i noe
if it was me instead of him
the smile on ur face would had slowly fade
love onli after the story has end

the city too fast
the city too bright
too much pain
too much tears
too many fears
and they said faith will bring love
i need a reason to believe
at the end
its still cold
and im gettin old
too fast or too slow
the past onli in the photographs
i dun dare to tink
i dun wanna tink
my mind wanders off
to places i nvr wanted to noe
neither here nor there
maybe the world still beautiful
juz tat i could not see it
maybe nothin haf changed
onli i had
maybe i was nvr me
maybe it was all a dream
a different feelin i had felt
a different dream tat i had dreamt
the little things tat nvr add up to enough
when i die
is tat the end
the hardest part of this was leavin u
i am nothin at all
i haf nothin at all
an empty shell
an empty soul
an empty nite
an empty room
an empty heart
an empty me

at the end
at the end
stoppin all my wrongs
wakin up
wakin up

life is precious

life is precious
life is short
life is wonderful
life is beautiful

the tears tat ure holdin back
or pain if its wad it is
dreams we had hoped for

edge of oblivion
dusted and dirted
remembering a day of importance
in the shadows
the middle of the nite
the end of a day
the start of another dawn
a moonless nite
an empty sky
dim stars and listless lamp posts
some love better off hidden
tears for fears or joy
leavin as the best option
lyin upon
gazin into the sky
head spinnin
one too many a drop
doin it again
maybe all little things will never be the same again
a lonely backdrop
reminiscing the past
wads love
wads life
wads human u
nable to understand
wanderin upon the nites

beauty
theres onli traces of them left
turnin back the pages
understandin the most beautiful lines
love havin reached the end
fingertips upon the keyboard
silent emotions

maybe silence is a crime
too used to feelin of degradin
hurtin myself with my own hands
happiness stops upon this dark nite
the familiar face in my dream
the dream tat i hold onto

takin role into reality
in too deep
too much emotions used
the city's cold
unable to feel any warmth
and i regret
not actin real enuff lovin u

world apart

forgive me for being silent
if i could not be with u
its not tat i dun wan to
a world apart
theres always disappointment
if happiness is short lived
dun let it be so good
love is onli love
onli able to turn into hatred
even for lovers

the eyes tat attracted my attention
doesnt equate to a duty to love
shadows in my life
hidin away from u
missing u
but theres nth i can do
comin from 2 different worlds
i can onli hope
fallen leaves and withered flowers
tryin to hold onto a piece of hope
if love would onli bring hurt
rather we had not met
onli wishin for a glimpse
is tat too much to ask for
when hurt come into play

love thesis

how do two strangers meet
unfamiliar right from the start
maybe loneliness plus loneliness is love
an interaction tat nvr was
tried and hurt
still they try
usin time as a balance
wad a word is love
fate and destiny equals to maybe
usin tears as a choice
standin at doors
throwin the keys away
wad was the past tense
wads now the present tense
the answer somewhere in our midst
memories were honesty
the past was not a blank
writin down the three words
i love u
on my hand and on my scribbles
givin up everythin
as long as ure happy

maybe u feel like cryin for smilin not an option for u
the street too silent
continue tinkin of him
till theres sunshine in ur heart
stuborness like urs
holdin onto him till the end
an endless hope
dunno whos the foolish one
maybe u would like to tear with me
pourin out ur sadness
the street still too silent
and ure holdin on still
standin silently by ur side
makes me sad too
maybe u would like to smile
when ur tears haf all dried
maybe then would u like to accompany for juz awhile more

a moment of romance

am i nvr goin to tell u all the things tat i wan to tell u

words unspoken as life nears
lookin for a voice of the past
leavin behind a moment of brilliance
as the dreams fade into emptiness
theres always an agony
lookin for answers in love
givin up everythin for the moment of romance