2006last

feelins so strong
lastin for so long
i cant forget
cuz ure in my head
feels like theres so much to say
coincidence or fate
doesnt realli matter
juz wanna make u my date

a confession of me
sayin i love u
the hardest secret to say
sayin tat u do
leanin on my shoulder
the sweetest thing
seein myself in ur assured eyes
tats beauty
i muz say i'm in love
in love with u

all the millions of people tat aint happy
how much can i do alone
at least not juz a bystander
let there be peace and mercy
and i'll be comforted to noe tat
let the tears not flow
cuz i'll hold on to ur hand
i'll be there to wipe ur tears
and i'll be there when u need somebody

i love the way u looked at me
lookin at me
lookin at u
an exchange
the ocassional obligated conversation
juz a brief axchange
so short tat it cannot be forgotten
on ur mind as u're on mine
goin our seperate ways
special for the brief encounter
special enough for me
love for 3hrs
sometimes more than theirs for 30yrs
tats good enough for me

strangers/lovers

exchangin of loneliness
in the middle of the nite
somewhere in this city
where empty people gather
a person alone on the streets
accompanied by a stranger he noes
hands tat once held tight together
can no longer be held
a pair of lovers tat once existed
seems to be strangers now
how do a pair of parallel lines intersect
goin in opposite directions
of wad used to be a meetin place
turned to a point of pain
and a moment of happiness
all seems like sadness
a conversation tat turned too silent
each avoidin another's eye
promises became vauge
silence tat onli amounts to this awkwardness
the reluctant partin of ways
pain within her heart
achin inside his heart
hesitant to say goodbye
hopin to hold onto one more second
turnin back for one last glance
as they both did
tears swellin in each other eyes
yet continuin to walk forward
with him in her heart forever
with her in tat space of his heart always
nvr to forget as they both promised

my private fantasy

cuz ure beautiful
takin a 2nd look at u
as i saw myself within ur eyes

i dreamt of the most beautiful things
but none as perfect compared to u
the beautiful sights
the special visions
the perfect endin
the happily ever after

the most vivid of dreams
one tat i held her hand
kissed her lips
touched my heart
felt her warmth
felt her love
hand in hand
step by step
up the hill for a most beautiful sight
an array of stars
shinin for juz me and u
lyin in my comfort as i held u so close
so tight cuz i nvr wanna let u go
cuz i'm nvr lettin go forever
under the stars
face to face
i love u and i always will
juz like this till forever
so pretty in her white gown
ure my private fantasy
the cool breeze against ur hair
flowin all so gently
everythin so simple
juz lovin u.lovin me
till we both fall asleep
on my shoulders.in ur comfort
i wanna hold u forever
awakin to onli u and me
goin on forever

december

the onli way i noe
until then i juz realised
hopes and fears
my dear
i've decided
turnin back the pages of my writins
hearts
juz not into it
cant seem to carry on
when words seems short
and things dun last
starin into empty space
thinkin of how to write
findin the words in my mind
closed my eyes as i tot
tears in the heart blurrin the vision
but u cant see

cuz ure beautiful
everyone noes
if tears could speak
when we're juz sick of one another
but actin busy instead
juz me tat cant sweet talk
sorry
knew of the forlorness of love songs
standin under the december rain
juz cant bridge our differences
in this lifetime
standin by the sides
watchin u

lines and words

always suddenly rememberin the songs u sing
always tat soft sweet gentle
touchin my heart
and i'm juz a song in ur eyes
lookin for love in words
onli to find the most beautiful lines comin from u

run in the rain

runnin in the rain
makes me felt so refreshed
the wind rescinind against my face
the rain drops fallin on my face
spreadin out my hands as wings
holdin them high wide out
i nvr felt so free
lettin go of all tat i cared
for tat moment i am free

a run in the rain
i run forward by myself
i can see it
i can hear it
usin everythin ive got to run
juz feelin so free

the wind on my face
as i pushed against it
my hair blown up and messy
but i care less

the rain drops on my face
as i ran in the rain
even though theres a tinge of pain
and i'm gettin downright wet
but i care less

juz runnin down the stretch of dark road
continuin to run
juz run

a run in the rain
i love

promise

i still remembered
things will change but the heart will not
time will go but the memories dun fade
this feelin is real
each moment is true
u'll always haf tat space in my heart
until the day i die
until the end of the world

let the dawn nvr come
let the nite nvr end
let this feelin linger
let this moment last
let me enjoy the scent tat could onli be u
let me be close to u

a pair of cold hands
i'll hold them tight
thru the winter.spring.summer and autumn
my promise

double

a nite so good
i'm seein double
if onli u noe wad i mean
if onli i noe wad u mean
if onli i noe where u been
if onli u seen wad i've seen

from here to all around the world
at the end of the road
where do we go next

noe

dun haf to say
dun need for words
i noe
cant go back to the past
cant go into the future
wad am i doin

a pleasant ride
a pleasant suprise
was it coincidence
was it fate
i wanna noe
i'm gonna noe

u

closed my eyes
takin in the familiar scent of urs
makes me think so much bout u
rain falls like tears from the sky
maybe u're feelin the same way as i do bout u

let me say these words before u go
close the doors leavin the world behind
missin u can onli be put to the back of my head
i'll leave soon after the rain stops
the rain juz keeps fallin when u're not around
the crowd dispersed
the rain stopped
but i'm still standin here
livin with a tinge of u in everythin
a part of u still lingers in me
i can onli do so
opened my eyes into the blankness

why do i feel a sense of warmth
i dun realli noe u
why is there a sense of comfort
a sense of a feelin so strange
tat kinda feelin i had from u
a special request from u and i gladly obliged
a sense of warmth and comfort from u

its a small world after all
so much tat i wanna forget u
i still see u

its a big world after all
if its not
why cant i be with u

the dreams tat i had
had not changed still
the dark crave for the light
life has got somethin to it
wait for me
pls wait for me
till our promise become a smile on our faces

though u had a smile
but u're achin inside
i see it all in my eyes

feelins tat staled
leaves behind regrets and memories

cuz i love u

still remembered the promise tat we made
ventin frustrations on myself seems useless
seems like i cant think it through still
although the pain gettin more obvious
my breathin gettin heavier
leavin u was most painful

livin life day by day
without any aims
leadin a broken life
i'm juz like without a soul
wanderin all around
there seems to be no hope
no tears for self pity
nobody here with me on such a lonely street

cuz u're not perfect
tats why i love u even more

emptiness

another day
another life
another hand to hold
another sun to shine
another home to stay
another way
another soul
another person by my side

my happiness is not somethin u can gif
destroy everythin for i dun care
the wind blowin
the cold with me for the nite
nvr knew it could be so pathetic
i dun care no more
no regrets
no backin down
juz so certain chasin after the dreams

in this city i got drowned out by the crowds
juz another face in the crowd
would u take a 2nd look at me
why would u do so
why would u care
why would u even notice
juz another passerby in ur life
this nite got a melochony to it
sweet memories in the mind
sad at the same time
intense with feelins
emotional
tired
afraid
a step back or forward
maybe not movin is the easiet
lettin things go their way
emptiness comes after adrenaline

somethin for ya

3am i'm wide awake
dun wanna close my eyes at all
hangin on to the last moment
dun wanna be thinkin bout u
dun wanna be hidin my face in the pillow
juz holdin on till i get knocked out

1133am i woke up late
why would it be this way
rushed myself off to skool away
and i'm on my way
but even if i make it
i'll still be late
time juz dun wait
but i still dun believe in fate
when all hopes slowly fade
and too many words not said
always tat misunderstood
dun wish to explain myself anymore
dun need to prove anythin
i am myself
i am me
i haf changed
but i am still the same
since wadever i do is wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
i wanna be wrong with all my best

2pm in class and i'm writin away
it'll be another long day
been the same for monday
again for today
theres still wed.thurs and fri
its a long long way

nothin in my world stay
everythin and everyone juz fade away
how long has it been since May
6mths and its gonna end
anyway thks

walkin away

so haggard tat i cant recognise myself
a case of mental fatigue
guess i finally subcumbed after so long
hope and dreams seems to fade day by day
the rain comes one after another
the rain comes day after day
runnin thru the rain
walkin thru the rain
standin in the rain
seems like i can no longer go on
as i saw u there while u did not
i slowly turned my back away
draggin my feet along the way
walkin off away
against my will
against my will

2 contrasts

the rain keeps fallin
i'm all alone
should i cry
should i laugh
or should i juz forget it all
never mind
its time i wake up its
time to back down
time tat this honeymoon period has ended
empty out everythin
thinkin bout it
u would move on too
time to go
might as well juz laugh it off
forget it and i dun need to wait
dun dare to sleep
dun wanna wake up
afraid tat it might be too much to bear
u've gone
in the nite
u're being missed
and i'm confused again
never mind
juz take it tat i think too much


the sky beautiful
with a light blue hue
but it all pales beside u
the things u spoke of
thinkin bout my world
dark to the borders
yet a curiousity tat make me wanna take a look into ur world
fallin in love with u accidentaly
how should i love u
i'm silent and cautious
juz hopin tat u would noe of my heart to u
how should i love u
dun wanna see u wander around anymore
hidin ur sadness without a trace

contempt

dun look at me tat way
dun gimme tat scant look of urs
those pair of eyes
filled me with disgust
filled me with contempt
not as if i did somethin wrong
juz tat u could not accept
its no fault of mine
so dun give me tat fuckin look
stop makin tat face at me
u cant judge me for wad i am
u cant stop me for wad i am
i dun need ur acceptance
not a fuckin bit
no need for u to tell me wad to do
u nvr noe wad i've been thru
juz shut the fuck up