2 contrasts

the rain keeps fallin
i'm all alone
should i cry
should i laugh
or should i juz forget it all
never mind
its time i wake up its
time to back down
time tat this honeymoon period has ended
empty out everythin
thinkin bout it
u would move on too
time to go
might as well juz laugh it off
forget it and i dun need to wait
dun dare to sleep
dun wanna wake up
afraid tat it might be too much to bear
u've gone
in the nite
u're being missed
and i'm confused again
never mind
juz take it tat i think too much


the sky beautiful
with a light blue hue
but it all pales beside u
the things u spoke of
thinkin bout my world
dark to the borders
yet a curiousity tat make me wanna take a look into ur world
fallin in love with u accidentaly
how should i love u
i'm silent and cautious
juz hopin tat u would noe of my heart to u
how should i love u
dun wanna see u wander around anymore
hidin ur sadness without a trace

contempt

dun look at me tat way
dun gimme tat scant look of urs
those pair of eyes
filled me with disgust
filled me with contempt
not as if i did somethin wrong
juz tat u could not accept
its no fault of mine
so dun give me tat fuckin look
stop makin tat face at me
u cant judge me for wad i am
u cant stop me for wad i am
i dun need ur acceptance
not a fuckin bit
no need for u to tell me wad to do
u nvr noe wad i've been thru
juz shut the fuck up

tots

cant even face up to my true feelins
all i done is runnin away
how i can tell u
when i cant even be honest to myself
my head spinnin
juz gettin more and more confused
do i or do i not
do u or do u not

time will pass but the memories dun fade
things will change but the heart will be the same

i'll be there by the side
i'll be there when u call me
i'll be there when u need me
i'll be here waitin
i will be...

the rain stopped
the crowd dispersed
i'm still standin here

time

a sec to breathe
a min to see
an hr to live
a day to dream
a week to share
a month to hold
a yr to understand
forever with the one

those who dunno are innocent
wad is givin up
when things haf already come to the end
does it still drags on
the sky laughin at me
laughin at me for being foolish
i tried to laugh it off
but deep inside
gimme the poison
for destroyin myself
actually i noe
losin i cannot take it
destroy me the way u would
tear me to pieces
all the beautiful
forget it all

goin after crazily in wad seems like yesterday
backin off with all i got today
hopin the feelin will go away
ur heart wavers
juz not into it
i laughed to myself yet
sayin tat ure not important
cold inside the heart under the sun
burn everythin to leave onli the moments of flashes
part here and nvr meet again

my tears

tear is nvr endin
cry till u're happy
when ur tears stop flowin tonite
it still flows another day
a tear does not haf feelins
a tear does not dry
a tear cannot cry
a tear reminds me
a tear is precious
a tear tat stays
stained me till this day
and i cant make it go away
but maybe its better this way

mistakes beautiful

identity crisis back then
tryin hard to get rid of my yesterday
put my true self behind me
but so wad now
i'm still feelin empty
feelin blue
feelin nth at all
numbed myself
all the things i juz got rid of them
couldnt be gd to u with all my heart
too proud and arrogant
and tats all tat will come outta it
i deserve it
all the beautiful i destroyed with my own hands
i tarnished them

the world is still the same
onli i haf changed
maybe i done everythin wrong
maybe i dun understand at all
maybe i'm the onli one tat sinned
yesterday could onli seems so farwaway

nobody understand
nobody remembers
nothin said
nothin done
lovin u
lovin me
a last nite
or juz one more nite
a last chance
like the last token
fades into the nite
at sunset
waitin for darkness
windows and doors closed
a shootin star falls
for u
for me
tear into pieces
throw them apart
piece them together again
but u find it'll nvr be the same
forget it
i shld be more than happy with wad i been gettin already
but mistakes like u so beautiful
i still see the right of the wrong

so pure

holdin onto somethin tat i believe in
my hope
my faith
tearin is more painful than bleedin

the dreams tat i could dream bout
2am in the mornin
writin away
i wake up facin the world
killed off the feelins
loneliness a word to understand
an expression without feelins
so beautiful tat a tear was dropped
so pure
so pure
runnin in the rain
walkin in the sun
goin against the wind

emptiness

in this city i got drowned
by the people and the crowds
would u take a 2nd look at me
why would u do so
why would u care
why would u even notice
juz a passer by in ur life
a step foward
or a step back
maybe not movin is the easiest
lettin things go their way
emptiness comes after adrenaline

noe its foolish
noe its stupid
but i'm still hopin

u gave me a reason to believe
u gave me a reason to smile
i would nvr haf understood
until u told me why
and it made so much sense
a feelin so sweet
still lingers in my mind
the sweet scent of urs so gd
how i wished tat day would nvr end

beautiful day not cuz of anythin else
beautiful cuz it has u
in my life for at least a day
a walk to remember

sorry

all the pages of u
the pages of my life
forms a chapter
and a book

tonite is cold
i'll still be waitin
waitin for wad i dunno
maybe its tml
maybe it hope
maybe its love
maybe its u

a song of sorrow
a song of joy
a song for tml
a song for me
sing me a song
not too happy
not too sad
a song of mixed emotions
in my dreams one day

can i hope for forever
in my life i dream
in my dream i live
will u be my little star
the sky turns dark
juz another day passes
the sky turns bright
juz another day arrives

if theres somethin
its better left unsaid
i understand the silence more than anyone else
the moonlight pales to ur allure
in the silence i remembered
in the dark i sat
in ur eyes warmth i saw

right or wrong
left or right
how far is faraway
how long is forever
i realised the beauty in everythin

the long nite
dark and cold
cold and lonely
tears dun haf feelins
onli people do
the single tear tat does not dry
without a past
writin bout the perfect beauty

sorry

another one

the tv playin some borin programme
while i sit on the bus
put some music into my ears
went round the corners
and into another
movin on the road
singin in my head
goin and goin forever

another day
another way
another time

stars tat we see

a star tat does not shine
a star tat lost its shine
lost in the nite sky
as i walked down the street
as i sat on the bus
as i lied on my bed
as i lift my head and watch the sky

seein the people in pairs
while i get drowned in the crowd
lost and waitin to be found

the same sky tat we all see
the same sky tat we all share
the sorrow of the star

take my hand
and take me away
to a thousand miles away
to the special place

wad am i waitin for
maybe hope
maybe love
maybe u

numbed myself
cuz i feel for juz too many things
numbed myself too much and now i dun feel
i forgot how to love
i forgot how to express my feelins
i forgot how to feel
i forgot...

wonderin

wad would haf been
wad would haf been gone
how would it haf ended
wad would had happened
a name far from my memory
a name deep in my history
cropped outta the blue
left me wonderin

familiar faces
different place
different roles
different situation
so near yet so far
so familiar yet so much like strangers

worried

i'm gettin worried
tat my world will be without u
i'm gettin flustered
tat i wun be able to see u
u're on my mind

my whole situation

all my memories so blurry
everyone around me all seems so fake
onli seems to care bout themselves
even goin all out juz to do tat
juz so fake and selfish
i noe i cant change anythin bout wads been and gone
but i juz feel so fuckin disgusted
a feelin of betrayal sear across my heart
leavin a bitter after taste
so juz fuck you and wadeva up with u

my head spinnin and throbbin
all the problems tat i've been runnin away from
all of those tat i've been hidin away from
has finally caught up with me
i can no longer not face them anymore
i'm scared tat i'll make the wrong move
i'm afraid tat i'm not good enuff
i'm juz damn fuckin insecure
all the emotions stuck up within of me comes to this
feels like i can no longer take it
stop forcin me
cryin out for help but no one hears
slowly slippin off the edge
i hate myself for being me
i hate myself for everythin

so love me when i'm gone
miss me when i'm gone
i cant hide
i cant run
maybe... onli maybe
everythin tat i am
i'm alive
i'm alone
maybe...onli maybe
till the day i make it
day after day
nite after nite
dream to love
love to dream
till the end
live to dream
dream to live
till the end


where is the place tat i can return to
my startin point
badly in need of refreshin
a reason for continuin
motivation for me
fightin within myself
fightin outside of myself
i gotta take up my rusty sword once again
i gotta take up the sword to fight for my peace
a dogfight

sleep away

a place tat i can realli call my home
without all the disturbance
a home tat i'll feel like returnin to
so tat i wun loiter around
i shut the door
i blasted the music
i lied on the bed
i closed mu eyes
hopin tat this will be it
but how can it be
i dun feel like i belong at all
all the nites tat i slept outside
tryin to create some space of my own
but people juz keeps disturbin
with all the objections tat u all haf to say
why cant juz leave me alone
let it be
let me be
it juz makes me wanna runaway more
break away as soon as possible
fly to somewhere faraway
i wonder who will be there with me
and will it be u till the end

down

emo plus emo leaves me a blackhole
wad am i to do with so much sorrow
in this world is there anythin left for me to hold
day by day i grow old
my mind and my soul

the more i try not to tink
the more i tink
cuz its frustratin not to noe
and i'm probably in love with u
so i care
i dunno if its a sweet dream or a nitemare
into the blank spaces i stare