city people

watched the city from day to dawn
people livin in it without a trace
hidin away even from their shadows
pretendin to be the same
all of them waitin for love
endin up on the wrong side of it
empty for their lives
livin under lies
livin off one another
nvr stoppin to noe who they are
nvr to treasure
onli to feel lonely when they're gone
wishin in the nite for time to go back
dwellin in the past
a fairytale endin is wad they desire
sounds so much like me
guess i'm still empty


little piece of heaven turns to dust
feelin of lovin has all but gone
the sound tat broke thru silence
senseless in itself
nothin in the world is good enuff
like the broken dreams
scattered on the floor in a million pieces
the song in ur heart tat u sing
the one tat onli u noe
singin in ur head
singin in my head
singin forever
listen to ur heart hard
days tat went by
stars hangin on the sky
moon tats in half bloom
shyin away from people's sight
darkness is a feelin
the void in us
none of the feelins in us remain
livin in this world
tryin juz to hold onto anythin
nobody
like u

wastrel

wadeva i do
u're forever not happy with me
why dun u juz leave me alone
dun bother bout me
like u did before
juz let me die if its to wad u said
i'm fine
i'm perfectly normal
juz slacker than the usual
but wads wrong with it
wads ur fuckin problem against me
u juz find me a burden dun u
i'm always a good for nothin in ur eyes
fine tats okie with me
u sure do hate me
but i'm alright with it
u're the same like the others
u're no diff from any of them
when u dun get me
i'm so precious
but when u get
i'm nothin but shit in ur eyes
juz tell me u dislike the look of me
i'm born outta ur now defunct love
i'm an eyesore aint it
i dun need ur acceptance
i dun need ur pity
i dun wan ur attention
i dun wan any of these shit
juz leave me alone
when even i dun care
why the fuckin hell shld u care
my life is for me to waste
its mine
MINE
all mine to waste

missin

all of a sudden
the emptiness tat fills the mind
cloudin over everythin
fallin to sleep seems to be the last thing i could do
my eyes closed
my mind empty juz for one
dreamland now seems like light yrs away
lyin in bed
still feelin so still wonderin
lies tat doesnt hurt
actions tat mean nothin
numb
look into my eyes
its juz not the same anymore


i may love u but its onli enough to sing this song for u
though u make me wanna fall in love
every moment when u're around
its not tat i ignored u intentionally
juz tat i'm not gentle enough
we keep meetin at the wrong time
u're stronger than me
u need no comfortin
but even the best falls down sometimes
at tat moment
i made a promise nvr to hurt u again

dunno how long it has been since i last saw u
i wonder where u are and how are u
all i noe its veri long to me
so long since i last saw ur smile
i really miss it and i mean it
i wish to see it once again
even onli juz one look
juz this once will be enough to make my day
the familiar bus stop yesterday
makes me think of u
are u tired or alone
makes me wanna be next to u to hold u close

mon to sun.

mon mornin i'm all alone
tue mornin i'm on my own
wed thurs its the same
theres still fri sat and sun
3 more days in pain
juz need some affection


why do u cry for me when i fell
when i woke up
the sky is still as dark
one person alone
a flower tat doesnt bloom
it'll nvr wither
the stars above
they shone for me
when ur heart dies
nothin matters
wanderin the seas of sadness
hurt
even a smile seems so forced
but i'm sure tat theres a place
waitin for my dreams to fly
i believe tat happiness is not faraway
even if they go away
nothin can take my dreams away
when they went away
my dreams still stay
theres a place waitin

on a road of no return
the onli way i noe is to go foward
theres no turnin back
theres no 2nd chance
buy me a ticket for the runaway train
travellin on the one way track
the train tats nvr comin back

2nd chance

maybe u hate me
maybe i hate u too
sometimes u love me
sometimes i love u too
and till the day i die
u're in my heart
i'll make the same mistakes
like i always do
u'll turn and walk away
like u always do
u say we'll nvr see eye to eye
heart to heart
will we ever be together
will it be u and me
at the end of this dream
dun need to cry
onli haf to believe in it
maybe we're waitin for a second chance
to make things rite
we're so the same
we could need each other thru the nite
paper heart
one touch and it'll be torn time
juz cant be turned back
i'll run all the way around the world
if i could run back in time
day by day
goin further away from u
will u think of me
feel tat i'm missin u
love ya

rainbow to the earth

changin world
changin times
everybody is changin
and i dunno why
so outta touch
unable to understand this life
the pain tat shows in ur eyes
those red swollen eyes
they speak for themselves
doors tat were opened.closed
faces tat smiled no longer do
nothin will hurt
turned away
walk the steps to faraway
to the place where the earth meets the rainbow
somewhere they'll be together forever
sit under the apple tree
watch the stars at nite
too many wrongs done in this life
too little to make it right
the flashbacks tat appears
times u broke down in front of the mirror
hope tat gets complicated
not tat i dun wanna believe
but the faith tat i lack
let the sleepless me be in ur dreams
wad do u see in my eyes
why do i feel so much like dead ends

2/14

time of the year again
once more i'm lyin here
alone in my own world
alone in this small space
writin to myself as usual
tryin to comfort myself
i wonder can i still make it on my own
i tried to open the door
wishin myself to be next to u
will u fall in love with me
if i sing tat song with all my heart
will u gif me one min of ur time
let me take a deep look at u
let me remember u
tat sweetest momemt of u will stay in my heart
but we're onli frens
i guess there'll nvr be me in ur heart
missin thinkin of u
onli leaves me with big eye bags
i wonder how long before i could say goodbye
or make u my
i noe i mean nth to u
and i dunno why
thinkin back onli opens up the wounds
lonely are the days before as am now
nobody stays
everybody goes
leavin me cold inside makin it
a tragedy if u can describe
a thousand lovers wil onli make me cry
cant see anyone with me
wad am i to do
a million times i love u
but u cant hear still

on a nite like this

let me continue dreamin
let me sing this one last song
let me hold on juz a little while more
dun break my dream so fast dun go away

need ur love on a nite like this
someone on a nite like this
i wanna hold u my gal
on a nite like this
such a familiar sight
lyin alone on my bed
ipod my onli companion
i miss u though we last talked juz ago
i noe theres nth to prove to anyone
somehow still wantin to prove myself
many things still left wantin
wan u here
onli u can get me thru the nite
i dun care bout anythin else
nth else matters more
u dunno tat theres someone missin u
u dunno tat theres someone waitin for u
u dunno theres someone needin u
onli when i close my eyes
can i see u
can i get close to u
can i say those words to u
how i wish i could say those words to u
really need ur love
on a nite like this love u

deep within

another lonely nite
another sleepless nite
my frustration no one sees
my pain no one feels
my presence no one cares
the memories playin in my head
the radio playin away
but why do i feel like tearin
a song for this predicament
not too familiar a song
but yet a so familiar voice
a song not too sad
but yet not so happy
its the season of joy
but why aint i gettin some
why aint i feelin some
still alone here
a love tat i dun even dare to say to u
so its obvious tat i had no chance
fallin in and outta love
both at the same time
its onli my fault to blame
i could onli keep u deep within my heart

my name is EDMUND

i dare to wander
i'm not afraid to be lost
i dare to cry
i'm not afraid of sadness
i dare to be special
i'm not afraid of wad people may say
no need for people to noe bout my tears
no need for people to noe about the darkness i went thru
for i no longer need to tink of anyone
before cryin
after sunset
wad is wrong
i dun admit tat i'm wrong
its not tat i dun haf a dream
not tat i nvr tot of turnin back
but turnin back is wrong
takin a step foward oso wrong
so i might as well gif my best in doin wrong
cry if ur tears can gif u an answer
maybe loneliness is scary in ur heart
maybe love will add color to my life
but i'm alone aint it
as long as i'm edmund
i'm not afraid

favourite mistake

i fell in love with a gal i nvr should
but it jus happened
i guess i'm still infatuated with u
can't get u outta my head
maybe u do feel the same too
but my inferior complex sets in
i tink i'm juz not good enuff for u
u're like a goddess
so far and unreachable
i love u but i cant gif u anythin much
u perhaps love me too
but its onli enuff to last juz one song
i got this feelin tat i'm onli livin in his shadow
perhaps me goin to noe u was a mistake rite from the start
but if it is really my biggest mistake
u're my favourite one l
et me be wrong forever
i can see the right of my wrong

stay

i wake up and face the world each day
the feelin in my mind wun go away
i got lost in a game i nvr wanna play
there's lots of things i wish i had the courage to say
but i still dare not and now its way past may
its nearly 1 & 1/2 yrs since tat day
but u're still on my mind everyday
no matter the weather of the day
the tot of u stay
how i wish tat moment could stay
stay anata stay
and tell me u'll nvr go away

cute gal

haf u ever need somebody onli for this nite
why do u keep stealin glances at me
jus come and noe me if u wan
guess u muz be taken
u're busily msgin away
but at least we met cutie
in the late of the nite
though i dunno u gal
but we did met
smile more
u deserve better
u look so beautiful when u smile
like a midnite lover
for it was the time i saw u
on the bus 80
how i wished the ride would nvr end
so tat i could haf all ur attention to myself
like in a world with onli u and me
truly in a world with u i wanna be
ur face keeps appearin in my head
u're all tat i could ever think bout
i feel i could need u for this nite
when all my thoughts are on u
and u're so cute
so wun u come to me
even for this nite
i'll be content
i feel i could really need ur warmth

holdin on to see you go once again

we're onli strangers as i saw the pain hidden in ur eyes
how can i make u forget bout the dreams
its onli heartache when u awake from ur dreams
okie to be lonely
as long as the tears aint fallin
holdin onto each other
onli to seperate
there's no need for reasons when it ends
walkin alone on an unfamilar street
walkin back will perhaps bring back pain
love onli to leave once again
there's no more need to wait for anyone

young and dangerous

different people
different dreams
i'm still dreaming bout my dreams right now
places tat i've never been
things tat i'll never be
but now is not the time to cry
it's the time to find out why
i noe my path ain't easy
but destiny is in my hands
i rather die trying
i haf my own dreams
i'll fly high as long
happiness can be bought with my life
but i can't betray myself
i won't stand aloof and do nothing
as long as i haf the courage to fight my fate
i noe my sufferin will end
i dun care how dangerous it'll be
i'm gonna change this world

juz someone

sing for this kid who dun haf a thing
except for a fuckin dream
for this kid whos been thru shit in his life
sittin down at nite to cry
wishin tat he died


17yrs of life
wasted away his youth
still wastin it by the sec
all the time in the world
all the undone things to do
looked upon on a different light
not wad they wan him to be
was it his fault


someone to hold me tight
as i lay in ur embrace
sleepin snugged like a child
a much deserved rest
ur gentle hands goin thru my hair
gently pattin me on my back
strokin me on the head
assurin the silly me
tats everythin gonna be alrite
ur comfort is all i need
u're the one for me
juz someone

fuck it

hate it every way
hate and pain
both of which are growin
hate and pain
my enemies
and the flowers bloom on the battlefield
for a reason they dunno
hate for every sec
pain for every moment
why can't i even get one sec of happiness
juz one fuckin sec
no respite in my life
life hates me the way it is
i wanna fly but i kept got held back
everytime i wanna break out
i wanna be the things i wanna be
i wanna be someone
i muz be somebody
hook by crook
i no longer care
i juz wan everythin
i wan u
i wan back the things tat were taken away from me
i wan my happiness tat was cruelly taken away back
i wanna make up for all the things i nvr had
i wan this fuckin world under my feet
i wanna stand on top
juz to shout out loud
fuck this world
and all that stand in my way
i dun haf a father like u
u're no kin of mine
so scram
this fuckin world seems to haf no place for me
no where for me to go
no where for me to stay
no where for me anywhere
it juz cant seems to take me in
fuck it

go away

wad am i to u?
is it juz the something of a something?
there's not much for me to say
for it's more than words can express
take my hand
and u can really feel
i'm not a dream
i'm real
i never meant to hurt u
but i noe ur pain is caused by me
i can't keep my promise to u baby
i'm so sorry
i hope u'll understand
pls gif me ur hand
i'll keep u company till the end
i dun ever wanna say goodbye
u can go
for who am i to keep u down
but i only hope tat u stay listen to the sound of my heartbeat
it's been screaming out for u
i can't let u go
i need u to stay baby,
juz gif me one more try
i'll go down on my knees for u
if u muz go,
pls gif me a reason
for there muz be a reason
i've always been a fighter
but without u i gif up
i ain't wad i am
perhaps i'm not tat good anymore
but i'll love u till the end
forever i'll be there for u
i noe even when i die
u'll be on my mind
so many memories tat i haf
some tat made me laugh
some tat made me cry
one tat made u decide to say goodbye

pathetic

feel the pain of the rain
maybe i suxs
dun i
tears flow down
and i dun even noe why
sadness tat's depressin
shut off my mind
killed off the pain
at least tried to
but to no avail
i dunno wad i really wan
if i could relive everythin again
i hate it everynite
the memories juz come and play
times and moments like this
i needed someone near
still lyin on the floor
writin things out
how pathetic
how pathetic
how pathetic

2 strangers

i noe it's stupid
but somehow i'm still hopin
my phone lyin still
forever tat silent
ur disappearance
u disappeared to make me forget
still hopin waitin for the day u appear again
i guess i noe
the tears we dropped
happiness or sadness
maybe my leavin is the best thing to happen

2 unfamilar faces from the start
strangers right from the beginnin
time slowly moved
and feelins crept in
wad kinda feelin is love
we chose usin tears
to be without each other
u stood before the loneliness door
and locked me in
tat was my true feelins for u
but ur heart turned away from me
walkin outta door
to try feelin again for myslef i'll try
i still believe tat forever is not lost
we're already the past tense
writin i love u these 3 words
i could gif up all to say these words again