i headed away

lookin at the stories of others
their love seems so good
though sad sometimes
seeing him so happily in love
i was reminded of a happier time
why muz good things be so short
leavin behind onli the memories
why muz problems appear
so sad he was
i was so sorry for him
he had to go thru the same thing i did
he tried hard to forget
but he was in too deep
too deep to help himself out

love such a sweet thing
yet leavin a bitter aftertaste
u noe when it's gone
i wonder wad i'll do if i was in his shoes

their love story quite a tragedy
juz like mine
it reminds me
watchin the beloved into the arms of another man
thinkin of the past
i wanna put it all behind

i headed away
away from the place u were
my mind still filled with our memories
i tried to go faster
still i can't shake off the sadness tat follows

love me gal until the end

in a world so cold
it's ur hand i wanna hold
till we both grow old
like the fairytales we were told
forever together in our world

into my world
baby hand in hand
love me gal
until the end
and all i wan
is for u to be my gal
my love grows strong
and it's for u
cuz baby ur love is my energy
u're the one
the one i need
it seems like i'm losin my mind
but when u're close to me
i feel so fine
so gal pls take my hand
i wanna share my world with u

gal

u had got me
so much tat i wanna fall in love again
u got me thru my sadness
helped me when i falled
accompanied when i'm down
it's the way my heart goes
i wanna hold u tight
out of control
gal.u noe
i ain't somebody
but u cared nontheless
and u're there for me
i'm real glad u understand
the problems of mine
i'm glad u'll wait
i could nvr tot u would
u walked right into my heart
touched me so gently
u healed the broken heart
u mend the shattered dreams
u're the one and only

seventeen

seventeen
u're only still seventeen
but u had so much more to worry bout
u had gone thru so much
u deserve a rest
but u noe they wun let u haf it
u deserve better
u nvr had someone by ur side
to support u
to hold u
when u're fallin down
everythin goin against ur way
but u juz kept believin
makin ur own destiny

back in

mixed emotions as i looked into ur eyes
those eyes of urs
tat used to looked back at me so gently
as i recalled back the old days
the feelins of yesterday
those mesmerizin eyes
the captivatin eye sight
all the irresistable charm of urs
got me all so into u
and all i could ever think of u
u made me wanna fall in love again
when u appeared out of nowhere
before my eyes with a smile on ur face
and i fell right back in
simply irresistable

no difference

let the stars and moon keep me company
as they share my emptiness
tat's wad they are to me
they haf my loneliness
dun ever take them away from me
they are my every
tat's wad they are
wash me clean
as they take away my sanity
it's over
but it dun seem too different
and perfect isn't really perfect

ur thoughtless words still goin in my head
breakin my heart apart
turnin into pieces
as the fragments pierced thru
a pain tat's undescribable
hurtin from so deep within
and i juz dun haf the strength to go on
i'm so weak
could only shrugged things off with a laugh
and pretend to smile
as u turned and walked away
as ur back slowly fades from sight
still i could only watch
the day u went away

my nightmares

all my nightmares
they were once beautiful dreams too
all my broken dreams
they were once juz for u
can everythin be slowly taken away
and stop my nvr endin tears
i was once in too deep
i was too dependent on ur love tat nvr came
and when u took everythin away
i finally woke up to reality
lovin u was but a dream
perhaps the more deeply i love u
the more pain u'll haf
maybe it's time i let go
as ur back slowly disappears from sight
and i wonder how long it'll take
for me to totally let u go
every time my phone starts to ring
my heart starts to beat fast
wonderin if it could ever be u
it ended with heart ache every time
and i'll be so down
to talk bout happiness
i'm not worthy
and i noe a happy endin does not exist
this i noe better than anyone else
hidin away from love
cuz i can't gif u happiness
and i can't gif u a tomorrow
i could only return u ur present

so tangible

he's at it again
he's feelin so down
brought up the things of his past
his memories are so real
it did not slowly fade
it stayed
the past of a happier time
yet now it's all so distant
can he really not go back to his old self
he asked himself
he believes it's a no
the doors been closed on him
and he does not haf the keys
he's left alone in front of the door
it's juz the way life is to him
unfair
all the worries he had to worry bout
all the things he had to go thru
all the sadness he've got
he's still standin thru all these shit
but he's not tat strong
he seems to lose the will to fight on
he's tired after all these yrs
a laid back attitude is wad he got
now he prefer things to come to him
take control over him
he will not fight it anymore
take wadever u wan from him
take everythin away from him
his empty soul
his broken home
his sad stories
his fuckin life
take them all away from him
he's been thru all so many nites
juz thinkin how things used to be and now
he wanna noe how things went all so wrong
he bowed his head in shame
his head in his hands
and he lays in his bed
wishin he died
the lowered head dare not look up anymore
there's nothin within his listless eyes
listless since all too long ago
so long a time he forgot
all so many yrs ago
left fendin for himself since tat time
the empty hse with no love
no warmth
he got so used to it
he feels strange around love
perhaps it's solitude to him
leadin a life not worth mentionin
and he feels tat he do not deserve their love
he feels he's not worthy of such a wonderful thing
he thinks he deserves to be alone
his happy endin broken all too long ago
there's no need to mend the pieces of his shattered dreams
the pieces haf all disappeared all too long ago
he can't find it anymore
his heart still beatin they say it's for a reason
but he can't seem to find the reason why
and he feels so stranded
his mind doesn't haf a soul
his emptiness down within the depths of his heart
it's always been there
as he sat under the moon light
he ponders bout the people tat comes and goes
hidin away from their shadows
all the people in his life
everyone seems to come and go
he wonders why it haf to be this way
if only one person could ever stay
stay forever and a day
stand by him
if only
if only
he dunno for sure how long more can he hold on
he dunno for sure when will he ever drop
as always like the defeated man
he holds his head down
as he walked along the streets
lookin down on his feet
his spirit seems too distracted
as though he's pre-ocupied with somethin
they sense there's somethin on his mind
but he nvr let anyone looked inside his mind
it's not as if they understand
there's juz too much sadness for them to take
there's oso not much for them to noe
juz some fuckin problems
who will wanna noe a broken man anyway
who will wanna noe wad's inside
they can't be bothered
they walk away from him
nvr gave a damn bout him
even the one he loved
it's a fact he nvr deny
somethin he nvr wished to fight
let them be
let them see
his life been upside down all the while
he's been like this since so long
he used to tried
he tried to be different
he tried to prove himself
to hell woth all these things
it was juz his wishful thinkin
he can't even take good care of himself
he's juz all so tired
he lives now a slacker
keeps believin in scrappin thru life
juz barely survivin
perhaps tat's the only thing he cares
how many times haf he done tat
juz for tat
how long more can he take before he finally breaks
it seems they're awaitin the day
he feels it wun be too long
it's somethin so tangible to him
he feels there's no runnin away

my star

a star only for me
the one which will only shine for me
dun need for others to love
special only to me
and i'll be the star for her
shine for her only
i noe it may be selfish
but all i ever wan is love
to them it's nothin
it can be my everythin
it's all tat i'll believe in
all i tat i wan
it can be all tat i need
it can be the centre of my world
forher i can be all the things tat i'll nvr be
somtimes i think i hear her callin out my name
sometimes i wonder maybe i'm to blame
it's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

i'll come to u

sometimes i think i hear her
callin out my name
sometimes i wonder
maybe i'm to blame i
t's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

and when u haf no light to guide u
and no one to walk beside u
i'll come to u
when the nite is dark and stormy
u wun haf to reach out for me
i'll come to u
and when ur tears is fallin
i'll hear ur spirit callin
and i'll be there come wad may
cuz even if we can't be together
i hope we'll be frens now and forver
and i swear i'll be there come wad may

foolish games

u said i've always been crazy
takin off my shirt
standin in the rain
always so mysterious
listless eyes with careless hair
with ever smilin face
fashionably sensitive
always lookin tat cool
and there i was beside u
with nothin to say
except for some comments
well i've always felt i was outside
lookin in on ur world
and in case u failed to see
in case u failed to notice
this is me down on my knees
this is my heart breakin before u
this is my heart bleedin in front of u
and these foolish games u play
are tearin me apart
and ur thoughtless words are breakin my heart
guess i've mistaken u for somebody else
somebody who gives a damn
somebody

unmistakable

and i noe there's no need to say more
the loneliness tat belongs to me
i like it
when u're by my side
and i'm a nobody
juz tat someone's someone
but would u rather
i'm still me
u saw right thru the mask on me
and saw wad was really hidden inside
i like it
i love u
there's an unmistakable feelin bout it
and i tot if i stopped believin in love
and i tot if i could use loneliness to numb myself
and i tot all these will make me forget
yet i can't seem to do so
still havin the undeniable feelins for u
so deep within my heart
and i noe i deserve it
waitin for my endin all alone
and nobody can take me away
only u can

how can i let them noe

the nightmare of a dream tat woke me up
i noe it's so real
it's the beginnin of mine
the start of my shattered dreams
pieces tat pierced thru my heart
hurtin me all so deep
a pain tat i could nvr forget
leavin me all so hurt
wounds so deep
they could not heal
and my life been thru so much
but still standin strong
thru the cold and wind and rain
i feel everythin's beyond me
no matter how hard i tried
i still had to be tat faraway
totally outta my control
things tat's not wihtin my hands
the undescribable feelin within me for so long
like the pieces of my broken heart
broken further into pieces
totally shattered my world
the pain tat seared across
the tears tat flowed uncontrollably
the feelins tat engulfed me
i noe it i wanna fight it
i tried hard to resist it
the happenins like the state of denial
a make believe tat i'm not
i nvr could
nvr was
all the feelins tat added up
and when words could not express myself
i could only sit and cry
there's nothin left within
dreamin of a dream
hopin it
all my thoughts and the things caught in my mind
i'm holdin back
how can i ever let them noe
my angst
the struggles i made
the endless dreams tat haunt me
the unfulfilled promises

the wind blows across my face
tears flow down my face
how do i forget all the dreams i had in the past
all alone out in the streets
i am lonely
but i noe i can't cry
perhaps if i look back
i'll be even sadder
as i looked into the mirror
i saw the sadness within my eyes

the eyes were red after cryin
tears which fell out of it
broke into a million pieces
like the fallen dreams of mine
the dreams tat fell from grace
brought down as fast as it was up
time was so short
it nvr shone
helpless in everyway

juz for u

dunno wad i'm livin for
dunno wad i'm holdin onto
wad if i'm not as strong as u think
will u pick me up hold me when i fall
wad if i'm not as perfect as u think
will u still love me
hold me when i fail
will u love me for wad i really am
or will u leave and go
will u hate me for wad i am
or will u not
will u share my dreams together
or will u haf ur own
is my dreams urs and urs mine
will u hold me tight
and nvr let go
will u be there for me
will u be there with me
will u wait for me
will u comfort me when i'm down
will be be there when i'm hurt
i noe it's too much to ask
but i'll gladly do tat for u

tat's juz me

nvr fall in love with a guy like me
i'll onli gif u unhappiness
the onli thing tat i'm certain
i can't make any promises
i can't gif u anything
i'm a gd for nothin
the scum of society
tat's wad i am
i threw my life away all too long ago
it's too late now
there's no turnin back
no more.no more
look at the pieces of my broken life
my love hate angst
all of them my pride
and i'll carry on
the onli way left to go
the onli door left open
no other choice
isn't it
nothin is true
not even me
how ridiculous
i dun even believe myself
pathetic i am
but tat's me
juz me

me life

the cold walls
the cold floor
the closed windows
the drawn curtains
an empty room
a messy one
a pen
a piece of paper
a hi-fi
a broken com
a cold bed
the blowin fan
clothes behind the closed cupboard doors
a small tv
a lonely person
a sad one
writin his feelins on a piece of paper

ur fav purple

there was a time i tot i would nvr smile again
and then u came along
u made me fall in love
and i could nvr had enuff
and i'll nvr let u go
i'm callin out ur name
when i'm all alone
when u're around
everythin seems so natural
only when u're not here
do i noe ur charm.
the heart is bleedin
but u can't see it's blood
it's nth but some loneliness and sadness
depressed the only word to describe me
juz let it be
perhaps i'll be better some time
later holdin out for a love tat nvr was
somethin tat nvr shld haf happened
guess i'm not worthy of someone so good like u
who am i i asked myself
i asked once i asked twice
the ans. nobody
u deserve someone better
u got looks
u got wits
u got charm
u're juz so perfect
go live ur life at the top
it's where u belong
and i'll be at the sides watchin
listenin.if u ever wanna speak
holdin out for a gal so good
tat can only be u
u gave me no reasons to gif things up
gimme a chance to hold ur hand
a chance to hold u close
and i'll be true
and i'll belong to u
if u juz let me do

my will

I wake from my sleep and face the day
and I have to hope to reach you someday
I cannot go on take other steps
cause my way's not easy to go
even I do really wanna see you
I need to take my time
Spend some days alone
being be myself will be all I do
If does exist an everlasting love in which I could believe
I got hurt
because I was very awkward
Know it but I don't want no losing.no!
Thinkin of you made me cry
So my eyes
they were filled with tears
And all I've got is my will to be with you again.someday

i say

i dun believe tat anybody
will feel the way i do about u now
there are many things tat i...
would like to say to u
but i dunno how
and u're always not around
i say baby
i love u
i miss u every nite
and everytime believe in you
so baby pls be mine
i'll love u more and more each day