this much is true

im slowly losin ya
the inevitable but maybe a little bit too soon
tryin desperately to hold on to ya
but u've already faded away
to haf each other but tats too much
cryin every night
tell ourselves its ok
for love still we give another shot
downin the bourbon
ready or not

halfway there
take my hand
tears to bridge the gap
baby i nvr meant to hurt ya
i nvr meant to neglect u
i nvr meant to

we're parallel lines tat once intersect
we're one of a kind
im still losin ya
im still hurtin u in all tat i've done
the tears juz keeps on fallin when u're not around
when i wake up im still callin out ur name
butterfly

and i noe this much is true
the heaven opens up
lookin for love at all the wrong places
the tears wun stop as the unhappiness lingers
ure speakin in a cold sarcastic voice
my heart tats realli hurt
lost forever
lookin behind me and i noe i wun come back
this empty bedroom juz wun make things rite

in love with the world
lost in the world
lookin at all tat we lost
all the things tat i tot was so easy juz gets harder and harder each day
u still waits up for me all thru the nite

cut our wrists

wat hurts the most
the pain and agony of cryin out loud
or the pent up emotions tat we keep inside
tryin our hardest to barely disguise
wat everyone could see was so fuckin obvious
if i was so wrong
pls listen to me all nite long
pushin up the side of my lips as high as it could go
while ure tearin ur eyes out
bleedin more than u could ever see within
anythin but to see ur frown
anythin but to let u falter and drown
anything even its to be ur clown
or should we cry together
if tat makes the both of us feel better
or should we cut our wrist together
and let us lie upon this fuckin pool of blood
or should we hold each other tight
and laugh out loud at the predicament tat we're in
heart aching
disheartening
so much so for cryin out loud
we're juz slowly bleeding away
dyin
fadin away in this pool of blood
this pool of blood

easy way out

if only to start all over again
rememberin to forget bout ya
silence our best understanding
silence our easy way out
a few minutes is all i ever need
to be with ya tiil forever
breaking my silence to make ya cry
the tears of joy
holding each other tight
saying the words we been needing to hear
the words suppressed within for so long
nvr lettin ya go away from me again
the heartache and the blues that they sing
so fragile on the inside
the ghost of u and me
the emotional side that we show

triangles

gettin near
if onli to see u wantin him near u
usin all i can
to try and gif wad he could ever gif
hopin to hold u tighter at the end of time

our lovin onli lastin a song length
listenin to u singin the saddest of songs
wad am i to do
to be with u till forever

once believin tat sincerity will move u
givin u more than wad he could ever gif

we're runnin in triangles
ure runnin after his shadow
and im chasin after ur trail
a game where the tears nvr stop
even if i used my life to give u up
it juz nvr stops

everytime as u set ur sights upon me from afar
his heart bleeds for u till the mornin
my days taken up by the most mundane of stuffs
onli his heart tat worries solely for u
too vauge a love tat nvr satisfies u
foreverness onli somethin he can gif

we're runnin in triangles
lovin u yet unable to gif ya anythin more
usin a lifetime to realise
the one by ur side will always be him

nth to say

i wanna feel myself
with all these blues
everywhere we go
and i din mean to fall in love with ya
a pity its not ya
to be with till the end
to be there holdin my hand
maybe it onli seems like yesterday
but yesterday was already so faraway
yet still rememberin the words u say
a sad song with nothin to say
and the heartache tat we sing
and we'll smile
then lie tat it wun hurt abit
and we'll be like this for all nite long

crows zero

rather i took life at 100%
reachin for the top
i wanna change
and keep on changin
i wanna fly
and keep on flyin
fightin on alone
and u dunno where to stand
the hero tat lives inside
a beautiful heart u got
to be the king of the hill
the best of the crows
fightin and fightin and fightin
in order to reach the summit
the peak of the world
where the most beautiful view lies
life would have been meaningless
without knowin the meanin to live

everythin to stop ur frown

fingerprints upon the glass u used
i understand wad ure goin thru
and im not the one u wan
not the one u need
not the one u desired
without a smile
with the distance
happiness has all but left
and trust has all faded
sincerity the death of us
perhaps ive misunderstood
much i'd like to say
ventin ur frustration upon
but i could take it
but u dun haf to be so cold
and im juz down
why did u fake it
i can even ur clown and ur standin ground
everythin to stop ur frown
love in a dormant state
a sense of mortality
a feelin of weakness

gimme a reason to stand tall
to wake from misery
dun wanna be alone
with or without me holdin u at all
knowin it all too well
no longer insistin who am i
no longer tryin to be wad i nvr was
its always emptiness tat follows adrenaline
strangers we are from now on
life is a dream
and i dream to live
always come back to ur love

many days

killin himself tonite
sellin the soul to be in the spotlight
raised the hand towards the sky in a silent goodbye
lies in bed rememberin
hangin on no more

still not tellin u how much i miss u
even if i do
still wun tell u how much i love u
even if i do
words cant say how much i realli do
this time its for real
theres nth else more to hide

a see saw of love
to try to find the point of equilibrium
too high or too low a side
rockin till the day happiness arrives

i then realised the gap in reality
walkin along
tastin every feelin
wanderin alone in the dark
wanderin tat makes me not alone
too complicated a word
theres nth much to comprehend
u had my heart
at least for the most part
we fell apart
makin a new start
u had my heart
at least for the start
and everybody gonna die sometime

followin the dreams
onli to be further away
the nite changes
foreverness a moment to savour
eternity's eternal
dreams worth fightin for
a likin for ur company
nothin much to ya
and i rather still was myself
lovin u
a feelin of comfortness
a secret happiness tat belongs to me
another perspective
a beauty of a smile
a day where i juz cant bring the corner of my lips up
goin after a beautiful day
if onli to fall in love with u
understandin doesnt equate to doin
bitter a taste to swallow
the scent of urs tat lingers on
onli to keep a little
to continue to reminisce
no matter how hard i try
nothin more to ya
slowly fadin away
still rememberin a tinge of sweetness
too many i love u's loses its meanin
hurt too deep
lyin upon the floor
hidin in the depth of the darkness
memories tat serves to play pain
the last ever heard was sorry
laughin at my plight and im smirkin still
no longer important or was tat a lie
love disappeared
leavin onli memories of u in my mind
a gift tat u gave
opened it up
fillin it with tears for u

footsteps in the snow
as we follow the wind tat brings the cold
an emptiness in the soul
love is fallin as our faith is invisible
still in my mind
whisperin every single word u said
guided by the dreams tat inspired u
love outta nothin at all
all i ever wan is u
cuz i dun see wad anyone else sees in anyone else but u

hearts always with ya

when everyone else around disappears
and theres only the void left in my mind
havin no one to turn to
nor anythin else to hold on
feelins of the lovin turns to dust
driftin away in the air
a little piece of heaven
and its callin for ya
lost for most of this life
and how did this come to be
gimme another chance to be the person i wanna be
i'll do my very best
but u've gotta let go of me

been far too long in all tat we do
the stars in the nite will lend me their lights
bringin me to heaven closer to ya
reachin out towards the sky to say my goodbyes
my heart is always with ya

memories we had and all tat we've been thru
each his own
dyin one day or another
theres nth to be taken for granted

the tears u shed
the years we shared
the love we have
my hearts always with ya

surreal

lyin around
surrounded by the 4 walls
listenin to the meledy
the room spinnin when i close my eyes
aimlessly wastin my day away
maybe i dun belong here
feelin all bored and lousy
im juz ur part time lover and a full time fren
and i dun see wad anyone else see in anyone else but u
maybe im still in love with u

maybe im still in love with u
my dreams tat remained the same
my route tats forever changed
will we be there hand in hand
or will i escape when u gimme ur hand
its not somethin against u
and baby i'll surely miss ya
but the time is not right
its still not ripe
the peace the world so surreal
and theres onli me and u
will u promise to take me back
take my hand
back into our place
when our time has come

waitin for u

my life only to wait for u
the only thing that i exist
waitin for u
to come into my dreams
waitin for u
to kiss me in the night
waitin for u
till the stars fade away
waitin for u
till eternity

satellite

a tragedy in a way u might describe
with these tears of pearls
some things are meant to be done without a reason
fadin into the dark as ure slippin away
holdin on and im not insane
not belongin here but nearly fell for it
when it was almost easy

half the world away
the pain tat comes to wake up
in my mind
still whisperin every single word u say
my shining star my beautiful satellite
faith is fallin and love is invisible

mistakes and regrets

disllusioned and full of contempt
a lack of understandin
and u'll nvr noe me
feelins of stuck and lost
weak and helpless
weatherin the storm
tryin to break thru an endless nite
mistakes and regrets
how long more to eternity
the ghost of my past hauntin me
remindin me of who i realli am
nvr contemplatin to take the easy way out
all we ever had were lies
rather had we said goodbye and died

worlds apart
too good a thing and it will go
love not till an end
how am i to let go
but i nvr dare to tink too much into it
the feelin of losin u
as u fade away
not a taste of love left
forever in fear
pretendin our past to be a show
pretendin tat u nvr exist in this world

my love my fate

helpless eyes gazin at u
hopin to translate my pain to u
unable to explain
amountin to this silence of mine

my love my fate
u will fade away
heaven and earth apart
i'll love i'll hate
i'll miss u always
i love u forever
lucky theres u in my world
my love
my hate
i am afraid
always scared tat i might nvr see u ever again
happiness we grasp with our own hands
happiness we let go of each others hands
too beautiful a memory
too perfect
how could i bear to let go
unable to accept our endin now
i'll love u again someday
lifes beautiful with u around
outta my life

trapped and stuck
the only way to go is forward
towards the inevitable
as the time draws to an end
wads there left to say
wads there left to see

non believer

i wanna believe in all the miracles too
i wanna believe in all the fairytales too
i wan the happy ever after
and realli i do
but how can tat be when i dunno if love is true
and is there ever eternity
for a non believer like me

too much misunderstandings between us
love in a dormant state
sheddin tears for no others
shattered heart for no one else
a person alone
seekin the company of another lonely soul
a process they call as love
a meetin they term as fate
love who and whatsoever
regrets in love
usin forever to forget too
much pain and heartache
and who is the one we realli love

but why

colder than winter
aloof like ice
the feel when i look into her eyes

i wanna be there for u when ure feelin down
i wanna be there for u when ure all but strong
lettin u to fall if onli for the chance to see u fightin again
ure leavin the ground
i can see ure burnin out
from now on
all i'll ever write will be my lovin for u
if ure willin
i could walk with u to forever
and if u believe
we shall be forever
our perfect endin
but why do tears flow
down the contours of the beautiful face of urs

love letter

a letter stained with ur tears
nothin else that matters
save for u and me
and the apple tree
so many things we said we wanna do
so many words left unsaid
afraid to be alone
avoidin ur lovin as my tears start to fall
unable to exist without hurtin u
like the strangers that we are
standin side by side

through it all
ive come to see
that u're the one till the end