nobody's child

aint no place for me
not a place in this world
i dun belong
i shld not even exist
nobody child
i'm nobody child
no reasons to stay
feelin lost and scared
to wander till i find a place i can call my own
a place i can call my home
a place tat accepts me
a place i can stay

tattered and broken
how easy it is to end a life
19yrs transcend in an instant
love me when im gone
strangers from the day i leave
alone but i'll be happy
familiarity could onli breeds contempt
turnin back could onli means sadness

everything so wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
and my family dun seem so familiar
im nobodys child still

nvr wanting to return home
till its late
wanderin around and around
cold and bitter
stuck in a situation
my solitude
my solitude
nobody understands how i used to cry in the middle of the nite
things tat i'll nvr tell
feelins tat i nvr dare admit
down and out
im torn
fuck this world tat had been unfair
fuck it all
nobody child
im nobodys child

ice queen

i wanna write the most beautiful piece for u

without any name
and totally forgetting who we were
still rememberin our short exchange
both our hearts will noe

i call u ice queen
fringe hiding tat sweet smile of urs
special in ur very own way
the more i see u the more beautiful u juz get
aint no one like u
like no other
i love it the way u are
in love with the way ya lookin at me
so shy yet so sure
mesmerised by the look in ur eyes
cant get u outta my mind
a gal like u so hard to find
been days
i'm so missin ur way
hey gal
i'm missin u
outta nothing at all
u're juz the special kinda gal ive been looking for

i call u midnight sun
the radiance shinin from ya in the depths of the nite
pure and innocent love

i call u my dearest
no matter where u are
no matter wad u'll do
u're still the most beautiful
even if i dunno u at all
lovin u all the same

i call u cute ah lian
cute ah boy love cute ah lian

some

some things better left unknown
some words better left unsaid
some feelings better left untouched
some love better left alone

the more i see
the more i hear
the more i know the more i feel this way
pouring rain outta my window
pouring rain outside ur window
some things i juz wun do
some words i juz wun say
some feelings i juz wun admit
i believe
i believe

single words

empty emotions on a sleepless nite
watched as it turned from dark to light
an overly active tear gland
a start brings an end
the light from the phone shows clearly my loneliness
rights and wrongs
truth and lies
lettin down
fragile
pain beyond comprehension
love aint complete
wantin my everything
watchin a process called love
beautiful tragedy
denying
wastin away
waitin
without me
without u
cant understand
cant remember
cant be bothered
far far away
silence
happiness
comfort
warmth
where u'll be
where i wait
transcending
lovers in name
love in flames
hatred in pain
dissipate in rain
being a fool for ya
stuborness
disappearance makes missing stronger
letting go
u cant forget it
let it be
forget it
forget it

my love for ya nvr stopped
im still writing on my writing
full of my feelins
my emotions written onto it
when ur love stopped
forgotten wad ive written
silently writin on by ur corner
facin the words ive wrote
still waitin for the one i love the most
always so easily lost in tots
nvr realisin the time
still used to writin for ya
feels like ure here still
the words tat still remind me
of the way ya lovin me

live

the burdens shadow upon my back
the senses tat i felt
perhaps tats the reason
i nvr feel like coming home
perhaps tats the reason
this place can nvr be my home
everyone has got their way to go
everyone has got their dreams to chase
everyone got something to live for
i dun remember mine
for why remember
how many does it takes
aint too long till they break
pain in my heart for a dying wish
nobody noes
nobody understands
the wind blows on my face against my wish
bringin a sense of loneliness
sadness tat runs deep
a sense of despair tat takes over
once again misunderstood
awakin to a sense of coldness in the heart
wanderin around
found no reason to stay
too many burdens to play
an elusive place called home
everything of me so wrong
the city of pain
where am i to find home
an emotional wreck
a pain deeply felt
wandering all over places
an old bus
a familiar street
sat as i watched the busy people run
the pretty people play
a thousand people
a thousand faces
a hundred lovers brushin past me
nothin seems too special
a pretty face one too many

i/u

times of my life
the good
the bad
the handsome
and the ugly
everyone has their way to go
without feelins
broken down and out

somethins tat juz cant be done
some words tat juz cant be said
some ways tat u and i juz cant go
u love me
onli enuff to sing a song
i love me
onli enuff to hear ur song

darling

a smile tat lits up the world
nothin comes close
be with u my darling
be with ya

u and i

bringin along a wanderin mind
watchin the love story unfold
how lucky i was
catchin up with ya
thks for the long journey
for the many kilometres we were together
so many times i wanted to say
to tell u how much i realli love u
outta the blue
but ure still the best
im afraid no matter how much i love u
theres no happy story for us
how i wish the bus journey would nvr end
as we part too fast
u alighted one stop before me
the bus juz too fast
rather i had abandoned myself on the road
so intense u and i nvr wanna wake up from it
the butterfly flies
finally catchin up with ya
how long more can we go on before we part
till we part
the both of us
u and i nvr realli part

4days

tears or raindrops fallin upon my face
doesnt realli matter
loneliness feels the same
tearin without a reason

a metre away
a road apart
a world apart
goin in circles
four days time
returnin to where we started from
strangers

dun ask me

i can
i believe i can
a pitch of darkness
the wavering faith
runnin along
the wind hittin against my face
my hair runnin into my eyes
brushin the itch in the eyes off
i could still run faster
i could run much faster than tat
dun ask me why
i could nvr explain myself
dun ask me why i feel tat way
i could nvr understand myself
dun ask me
dun ask me.

more than me

ure feelin lonely
ure feelin empty
but im not the one ure lookin for
one of him means more than a hundred of me to ya
how am i not be sad
time passes as blood hits the ground drip by drip
still holdin onto the last bit of hope
ure cryin
ure achin
but i aint ur consolation

wings

and u once told me
wad good would wings be
if u cant fly high
if u cant feel the wind against ur face
wad good would wings be
u rather gif them up for a true taste of love
losin everythin in an instant doesnt matter
for u did not regret
u did not cry
u said u had it once
and it was more than enuff
always tat silly
tat crazy
but tats wad i love u for
as wad u are

forget me not

i believed i'd die young
writin the emotions as a rememberance
maybe it would go on for a century
if i were to fall asleep
keep the silent tear in ur mind
u'll encourage me on
givin me the courage
livin on yet with too much worries
flowers bloomed with pride
even as im inperfect
i nvr blamed anyone else
remember the most beautiful one still
let the sky shower upon me
puttin the tears tat were cried for me into my heart
and i would nvr lose it

end of the world

deeply disturbed
visions of a dream
deeply embossed on my mind
so vivd a dream
feelins the passion and emotions of each and every so deeply

and he was shoutin at his death
why has it become lidat
this aint the world tat i wanna see
i dun belong to this world

the end of the world
the earth splits
the water devours
tears of seperation
tears of fear
tears of desperation

and i'd die to save the one i love
for her. i'd put my life down
dyin at the end
but it was all worth it

most beautful of stars

Intertwined
i rather not speak
my feelins more than words

too much good in the world not understood
accompany in understandin
too much places not been
accompany me to the corners of the world
the most beautiful entrusted to memories
too much more i wanna feel

standin at the platform
the curtains of darkness fall upons the sky
settin my sights afar
into the most beautiful of stars
starin into the sky
a moment of foreverness

somewhere along the way
u brighten up my day
someone tat i love somehow

forlorn eyes tat longs for love
listless eyes tat stares into emptiness

longin to love
wantin to love
dare not to love
understandin all too well

cold to u
like theres nothin more to say
facin u with mixed emotions

words

let a tight hug replace words
let a passionate kiss replace words
my feelins are more than words

will u be there to kiss away my pain
will u be there to hold me tight

journey

the train stops here
so does our journey

baby dun cry
its not tat bad if it hurts
at least im clear
in our eyes tears
cuz love aint perfect in me

goin faraway
learnin to miss one day
the urge to be by ur side

takin empty promises to be my happy endin
holding on foolishly
forever found onli in fairytales
findin a reason to live
love is without regrets and hatred
for im without regrets and hate

strangers right from the start
awakin to heartache
lovin for the sake of separation

i could haf spent the nite with ya
i shld haf spent the nite with ya
i shld had made u stay
i could had made u stay
i could had held u in my arms
i shld had held u in my arms

not me

flippin back the pages of my life
the things tat were from a different life
things tat used to matter the most
people tat used to be the close
a person tat used to be dearest

some words nvr said
as we slowly walked away
onli if we had not been stuborn
clingin onto foolish pride
onli if we had made known our true feelins

u called and said ure lost
i called and said im afraid
wad does tat mean of us

lib

once familiar road
walkin along the sights and sounds
i see ur shadow somewhere

sittin in a most quiet of place
somewhere along
beside me stood u
so deep into a book
i turned and straight into ur eyes
ur sight on me so intense so why dun u make ur move
i moved away
u could onli stare helplessly
words tat got stuck at ur mouth
wonder wad does tat mean
sitting for hrs till i stirred
steppin away from serenity
wanderin around
walkin
walkin
melanchonic deep tots had me wondering
emotional