the last of u

hate and pain all felt under the pourin rain
its fate tat still likes to play a fool
and i dunno if its all too late
in the wake of the things tat i was nvr told
now and then
if i fall
the last i saw of u
the last time
the last chance tat we're ever gonna get
too fast and u tot it'll last
its way past 3 am
but still here i am
maybe i've strayed too far
nothin seems to go my way
nothin seems to be
lookin at me

nothin to say

i was by ur side quietly with nothin to say
loneliness with loneliness is love
silence with silence is emptiness
nothin to hold on to
one person to leave alone
theres too much unsaid
lettin go
theres an ocean between us
forget it
juz pretend tat i was a fool
its time to wake up
a step back to be clearer
i need to believe tat love is worth it all
i need to believe in love
the wind leave behind all the sadness to bear alone

nothin to say
better not to speak at all
forget it
i was juz a fool
now i'm all alone
doin wadever i'm doin
degradin myself
losin myself
its none of ur business
theres no need for u to cry
i can take it all in my stride
so sorry i cant be ur superman anymore
why even ask now
when u did not care in the beginnin

strayed too far

i cant always forget and ignore
could i
should i
the past of mine
when then was a child at tat time
used to tink tat everythin i could do
those majestic dreams
now buried under the sands of time
sometimes u find
u haf already strayed too far
from the path u wanted to take
even goin round in circles
instead of goin foward
the twist and turns of the road
the lights tats blindin
the roads tats windin
u haf already strayed too far
way too far to be turnin back
i'll nvr be wad i am
its hard to be for this while
or will it be another story


leave me alone
i'm breakin down
let me despair for a reason
a reason for my heart to gif up
a thousand excuses i've made up
let me go
let me walk alone
let me walk outta here with my head held up
my agony
theres juz some words i cant bring myself to say
how much memories are there left
u wanted not to see me
u took drastic measures
i noe u're afraid of fallin in love with me once again
the reasons u made up sp obvious
dun feel guilty
dun need for apologies
i'll noe wad to do
u wan me to gif up
its time for me to go

there was a time

there was a time where i could gif up the whole world for u
there was a time where u were everythin tat matters
but it was then
when there was a time
and so now tell me where u are
who do u miss at nite while sleepin
if u could remember
when i was by ur side

on a road of no return
the onli way i noe is to go foward
theres no turnin back
theres no 2nd chance
buy me a ticket for the runaway train
travellin on the one way track
the train tats nvr comin back

special

special people
special dreams
chase after it
to a place faraway
dun care where it is
as long as it is faraway
the dreams tat they follow
empty on the inside
i guess mines no diff
hope tat arises becomes false and falls off
leavin onli hurt
live and dream
live to dream
dream to live
take me away
take me to the place nobody goes
where onli u will noe
if i put my life in ur hands
will u juz throw it away
turnin away
its juz another day

nvr change

in the midst among the crowd
in this city the rain pourin on me
lost in it
aint we the same
no matter the cold the wind the rain
am i the onli one to feel this way
to be this way
i dun need to be anyones child
i dun believe
saw too much of the bright lights
somehwo my eyes became abit red
whos the person tat saves me
everythin's too late
gif it all away
gif it to someone special
destiny still makes a fool
stars will fade away
but i guess i'll be able to see them again someday
i'm not scared
they'll nvr make me change

i'm ur fool

i'm all outta place
this is how i feel
i'm cold and wide awake
lyin listless on the floor
u're already gone
this is how i feel
and i am feelin empty
theres nothin where u used to be

i got a confession to make
i'm ur fool
gone and onto someone new
too weak yet too strong
my head is givin me headaches
i've got my chains to break
dun wanna think
dun wanna bother
dun wanna let sadness fill my heart again
missin thinkin waitin for will not be u again
dun wanna take it anymore
forget bout u
without a trace throw it all away
take me like this
i've dreamed it was a good one


gave me somethin i din haf
but had no use
i will nvr gif in cuz i refuse
the pain i feel
its real
try as i might
i'm unable to fly
one more nite
juz one more nite
make it a good one
so random the tots
even i could not make sense
cant take it anymore
i forget it all
i dun believe anyone will noe the way i feel
cuz even i dunno how
so many things i wanna say
but i dunno how
i can onli say maybe

i'll live for my dreams

it seems my dreams are movin
further and further away from me
dun tell me tat its the end of the road
i rather believe tat its nvr endin
juz let the rain fall down on my face
let it wash away feelins and memories
but no matter wad
my dreams will nvr waiver
this time this life
i'll live for my dreams
i wun stop searchin
i'll wait quietly by the sides
i believe tat we'll still be able to see the stars
together someday

juz one

runnin thru the rain
soaked to the bone
feel the pain
hits u on the skin
hidin behind
standin behind
tink too much and i'll fall
i'm juz one person
how do i face my true feelins
juz one sentence
juz one smile
juz one msg
juz one call
juz one love
theres no need for anymore words

nobody as special as u
nobody as good as u
nobody as sweet as u
nobody as cute as u
nobody like u

deeper than deep

i feel love and hate at the same time
rite by my side
theres no end
rain fallin down
still searchin for a place to hide
when even the angels cry
i'm searchin for nothin
love had died

i'm in love
its somethin tat i've ever been more afraid of
runnin around but theres no place to hide
i'm fallin deeper and deeper inside

lookin at the bright lights
haf i lost myself
the feelin of blue stay
all i wan is for somebody to be here
but all i got was silence
the lights blurry
they slowly fade
i'm so hollow
vexed
this feelin wun go away
i noe my way is hard
my future i still dream
and all the small sweet things
tat we'll do together
i've dreamt bout it

midnite

inperfect world
blemished
seperations
farewells
pain
agony
loneliness
and tiredness
nobody could ever understand
nobody will ever come into my world
who will hold tight onto my weak hands
why do i cry
why shld i cry
right or wrong doesnt realli matters

broke.broken

turned off the lights
saw myself even more clearly
the wind blowin acorss me
the shadows casted
nothin seems right
gimme my solitude
my onli console
my lonely existence
why shld u care
lyin to myself again
writin them out again
understand the pain
their feelins change once more
hurt me deeply
hurt me to make me forget
dawn comin soon
i'm barely sleepin
lost in my tots
broken home
broken life
broken person

a step foward or back

is leavin the most cruel
or is gentleness tat shld be despised
but a lonely person would not care
theres nothin tat matters to him
is the front really dangerous
or is the back tat is
escapin seems easier
lettin everythin go at one go
a step foward for sadness
a step back for regret
not at peace in this world
stuck and isolated
the place i'm searchin for cant be found
the person i'm waitin for will nvr understand

her fav song

her fav song
i still noe it by my heart
how could i ever forget
when its the song tat keeps playin in my head
i would sing it to u
onli if u let me to
u're so faraway
u could nvr hear


"i will love u till the end of time
every breath of mine i'll hold u by my side
and the best thing is my sweetheart would u
let me die in ur arms with u
onli u can stop the rain tonite
onli u could gif the strength to fight
till the sky is burnin
its the end of time
look ahead tml
a long and windin road
keep the faith of mine
dun let it go
u're the onli reason nite aint growin cold
wad would i do without u"

sing me the blues

gimme my blues
i cant stand this pain
i cant make them go away
i cant forget all the things tat happened to me
my mistakes wun let me run
so sick of my life
holdin onto nothin
can i start all over again
why has this happened
let me fade away
where did it all go wrong

so sick and tired of writin the blues
when will it to be writin somethin else
wads the matter with me
i cant seem to write anythin new
the answers if onli i could noe
maybe then the gloom will go away
i'll write somethin new
time keeps runnin out
maybe i'm scared
maybe i'm lost
had a life but i cant go back
cant do tat

i dun wanna see you

mist tat clouds on the glass
the glass tat seperates me from the world
and the mist blurs my vision
movin along on the streets
so cold on the inside
its pourin on the outside
no where to run
can anyone keep me from the cold

pieces of u still linger
and i tot i've gotten over u
i'm more than afraid of this
i dun wanna see u one more time
cuz i noe i'll fall in love again with u

fallin to pieces
i mean nothin
but would u still prefer me to still be me
the changes or was it coincidence
mistakes so beautiful
one last song
hold me close and dun let me go
i'm weak and crumblin
wanderin aimlessly
i nvr forgotten
standin on the line
one wrong step and i'll fall deep down
the secrets kept deep
livin in my small dark lonely world
the masks i cant take off
how much longer can i hold on
i saw ur eyes
its not me u're thinkin of
the blank listless eyes in the dark
i lost completely
without any pride
too wild for u
too crazy to be serious
too bad for ur likin
a delinquent tat'll nvr make gd in ur eyes
nothin more than an empty shell
there was a time
when i could gif up the whole world for u
i used to
my family dun seem so familiar
my future cant break free of my past
be mine gal
even onli for this nite
i dun care bout the words left unsaid
u're my star tonite

green

walk walk walk
keep on walkin
sleep when u're tired
after which i'll keep walkin away


i stand alone
i walk alone
i sleep alone
i live alone
i'm all alone


does anyone holds for me
does anyone even remember me


this fake world does not need me to be honest
this world full of lies does not need me to be truthful
hide those weakness of mine
nvr let the world noe


seein them so happy together
i could onli see
a tragedy i live
endin before even startin
feelin for people i shldnt be feelin for
feelins tat could onli be kept deep inside
and within it remains


went thru so many
but still so alone
like the lone ranger tat rides out
nvr to be said again
forever a life of solitude


a million lovers in front of me
hands tat held together
they would onli make me green

city people

watched the city from day to dawn
people livin in it without a trace
hidin away even from their shadows
pretendin to be the same
all of them waitin for love
endin up on the wrong side of it
empty for their lives
livin under lies
livin off one another
nvr stoppin to noe who they are
nvr to treasure
onli to feel lonely when they're gone
wishin in the nite for time to go back
dwellin in the past
a fairytale endin is wad they desire
sounds so much like me
guess i'm still empty


little piece of heaven turns to dust
feelin of lovin has all but gone
the sound tat broke thru silence
senseless in itself
nothin in the world is good enuff
like the broken dreams
scattered on the floor in a million pieces
the song in ur heart tat u sing
the one tat onli u noe
singin in ur head
singin in my head
singin forever
listen to ur heart hard
days tat went by
stars hangin on the sky
moon tats in half bloom
shyin away from people's sight
darkness is a feelin
the void in us
none of the feelins in us remain
livin in this world
tryin juz to hold onto anythin
nobody
like u

wastrel

wadeva i do
u're forever not happy with me
why dun u juz leave me alone
dun bother bout me
like u did before
juz let me die if its to wad u said
i'm fine
i'm perfectly normal
juz slacker than the usual
but wads wrong with it
wads ur fuckin problem against me
u juz find me a burden dun u
i'm always a good for nothin in ur eyes
fine tats okie with me
u sure do hate me
but i'm alright with it
u're the same like the others
u're no diff from any of them
when u dun get me
i'm so precious
but when u get
i'm nothin but shit in ur eyes
juz tell me u dislike the look of me
i'm born outta ur now defunct love
i'm an eyesore aint it
i dun need ur acceptance
i dun need ur pity
i dun wan ur attention
i dun wan any of these shit
juz leave me alone
when even i dun care
why the fuckin hell shld u care
my life is for me to waste
its mine
MINE
all mine to waste

missin

all of a sudden
the emptiness tat fills the mind
cloudin over everythin
fallin to sleep seems to be the last thing i could do
my eyes closed
my mind empty juz for one
dreamland now seems like light yrs away
lyin in bed
still feelin so still wonderin
lies tat doesnt hurt
actions tat mean nothin
numb
look into my eyes
its juz not the same anymore


i may love u but its onli enough to sing this song for u
though u make me wanna fall in love
every moment when u're around
its not tat i ignored u intentionally
juz tat i'm not gentle enough
we keep meetin at the wrong time
u're stronger than me
u need no comfortin
but even the best falls down sometimes
at tat moment
i made a promise nvr to hurt u again

dunno how long it has been since i last saw u
i wonder where u are and how are u
all i noe its veri long to me
so long since i last saw ur smile
i really miss it and i mean it
i wish to see it once again
even onli juz one look
juz this once will be enough to make my day
the familiar bus stop yesterday
makes me think of u
are u tired or alone
makes me wanna be next to u to hold u close