everyday everynite

sleepless at nite
for who or wad
walkin along life
on a cold lonely nite
a long and windin road
i can onli hear my breathin
for every nite there is
my eyes wide open till dawn
my heart so empty
a pain tat no one understands
for every day there is
i always dun get to see u
till the sky turns dark
sadness tat blurs my vision
sleepin alone tryin to kill the pain
hopin to find salvation
for everyday and every nite

i dun wanna miss u
cuz i wanna be with u always
i dun ask for the world
juz some time together with u
i wanna feel u close
i need u close
i dun wan anythin else but u
i dun need anyone else but u
i'm on an addiction
keeps me cravin for more
i juz need u so much

simply amazin

charmin?
perhaps so
essential?
maybe so
from the eyes of another
i saw myself
so many faces to me
they say i'm like a mystery
a deep story behind it
had a hard time comin thru
and i thk u
for u're the man
u're one of the best
simply amazin

fuck it all
fuck them all
damm it all
fuckin damm it all
to hell with it
to fuckin hell with it all

stay gold

livin on the streets
he hated his father
all he wans is some sweet human affections
his heart ceased to beat
doesn't feel complete
there's no more objection

livin on his own
he's tired of this unhappy life
got so disappointed in suprises
why does he feel
how muz he act

livin out alone
not satisfied with juz this
who can he believe in
an emotion blackhole
juz suxs everythin in

in his mind he's still a child
forced to grow up at this age
had no choice but to do so
forced by circumstances

still like a lost kid
lookin out for directions
and he dreamt bout a dream
in it
the most beautiful sight

it's so hard to stay gold
in the world so tainted
but stay gold boy
stay

bored

there's always someone livin alone
there's always someone leavin alone
they dun care wad the people may say
they dun mind wad they see
pick it up
and put it down
choose it urself
many stories he had to tell
many dreams he like to sell
many words he wanna yell
but in the end
he still fell
there's nobody like they fade away

so hard to be a nice guy

it's the moments we shared
it's the fun we had
it's the times we haf
it's wad we both missed
but still we remain the same
dreamers as we are
dreams beyond the wildest dream
and no
we ain't bad
dun look at us tat way
we're onli seventeen

so hard to be a nice guy
harder when the cat dun acknowledges it
but still we are
the nice guys tat we always are

i'm shallow

lookin back
on my memories
on my past
for the 17yrs i walked
i feel so cheap rite now
found myself so haggard in front of the mirror
onli for me to break it
tat shld not be me
i used to be wad people wished to be
i used to be wad they envy
i was everythin beyond their reach
wad on earth haf i become now
facin the allurin temptation
i felt tat i could take the easy way out
givin up
wad had happened
where's the arrogance
where's the cockiness
where's the coolness
wad the hell had happened
things seem beyond my control
i became silent
silence around the air
helplessness spinnin around me
loneliness flowin in the nite
time keeps goin on
clingin onto wadever i can
felt so empty chasin after everythin
tryin so hard to keep everythin
but it's all fultile
lots of things haf lost their meanin
many new haf gained
reminscin still bout the past
too much sorrow
too little love
too much loneliness
too little care
too much sadness
too little happiness
keep blabberin on
and i seem so shallow

i wan u

in this city
i somehow found love in u
i nvr tot i could be in love again
till the day i met u

u taught me everythin
u made me believe in it

u took me for wad i am
u dun mind the fact of who i am
u juz took me as me
nvr wantin me to change in any ways

i wanna hold u
nvr to let u go
hold ur hand
walkin down the road with u
gaze at the stars at nite
under the beautiful nite sky

u went right thru
and touched my heart
u opened up my mind
and mend the pieces
u made me wanna fall in love again

i wanna love u till the end of time

neglected.forgotten

holdin on desperately onto the pieces of my life
tryin hard to hold them together
tryin to make some sense outta this
others noe u better than i do
u spend more time with others than with me
i'm neglected here
forgotten in the dark corner
or was i even on ur mind
onli when i dun bother to care
then will u find me important
why muz u be like this

till then i realised
i knew so little bout u
lots of things i nvr noe
i onli met u then
even now i still dunno
wadever it is
all so little
i nvr was in ur world
i'm insignificant to u
all the while
all along
u do not notice if i'm not here
u do not miss me if i'm not around
i guess i still wander alone
wadever it is
i shut myself out to the world
oblivious to anythin else
i closed my heart
the disappointment of expectation
dropped to the ground
sympathy so pathetic
u dunno the meanin of being lonely
u dunno the feelin of being neglected
drowned myself out
u'll still nvr noe

i'm shallow
my feelins so shallow
my life so hollow
and i noe
i can nvr be part of ur life
and u'll nvr gif up anythin for me
even though u say u would
so why am i thinkin so much
askin u to gif up anythin
simply too much to ask for
all i wan is a star tat shine onli for me
i'm selfish i noe
but who ain't
love is all i ever wan
is tat too much to ask
i guess it will nvr be
such things juz ain't to be
hope tat brings onli disappointment
tired of talkin
i've given up hope
totally without any
i dun wish to speak anymore
for u dun wanna hear any of this
i washed my hands clean off this shit
dun bother me bout such stuff
i nvr wish to be embroiled
it makes no sense
dun come complainin to me anymore
i dun wish to care
so little time
so much to do
yet u rather spend time with others than with me
u said goodbye too many times before
u changed so much
or maybe i nvr knew u at all

i've lost my place

the dawn is onli hrs away
the place still filled with darkness
i'm lyin on my bed
devoured by the loneliness at nite
the onli color in my life
nth much in my head
juz the same old stuborness
refusin to close my eyes
but even the best fall down sometimes
and when the stars refuse to shine
my world juz collides with emptiness
and when time stops here
i've lost my place
i'm far behind
and all the doubts tat fill my mind
i somehow find i'm still feelin blue

maybe words can't express my feelins anymore
my nightmares all seem comin true
there's no control
emotions juz flow
distort the truth of reality
livin in lies
it's all my fault
i dun haf a thing
except for a dream
no one can take my tml away

juz me

all of a sudden feelin so empty
everyone seems to disappear without a trace
and i dunno why
the loneliness so allurin
and i grown to like the nite
the beauty of darkness
it nvr fails to impress me
and the rhythm of the nite
became the feelin of my life
the heartbeat of mine
all so audible in the silence of the nite
right in the middle of the city
i juz can't fight life
and i juz can't win
i nvr wanna compete with anyone
never wish to
so wad if i win
so wad if i lose
are u happy? i dun wanna be someone tat i'm not
do wad i dun wanna do
pretend to be wad i'm supposed to be
i juz wanna be me

techno songs

crazy baby
will u be my private fantasy
and gimme love
cuz ur love is my energy
when u show me colors of the nite
i'll feel blue no more
and when i'm hungry for ur love
will u take me tonight
and be my lover
for tonight is the night
cuz when we come together
i'll be like flyin high
bcuz the nite belongs to us tonight
and i need a lover tonite
and i noe u're the one for me
so when u free me with ur words of love
i feel tat love is the message
cuz when i fall in love
i can't stop ravin
and i nvr wanna runaway
i noe cuz when i look into ur eyes
i feel like i'm in heaven
as my heart beats like a drum
i can see the stars in the nite
and listen to the rain
too much is nvr enuff
there'll be a star for u and me

beauty or beast

appreciatin the simple things
admirin their simplicity in beauty
the free flowin of water
the flyin freedom of the bird
feelin the breeze of the wind
across my skin
flowers out in full bloom
the beauty broken by intrusion
the perfect silence shattered by senseless noise
watchin them goin bout
so happily in their lifes
laughter tat flies thru the air
i wonder if this could be life
is my dreams too wild
or muz i face up to reality
i closed my eyes to shut off the noise
to enjoy the moment
and yet again
the moment broken
imperfect
on the verge of tears
touched by beauty or shattered dreams

my trail

hidin away my sadness
closed my eyes
still thinkin bout lots of things
under the moonlight
still lookin for tat star
my complicated feelins
will anyone understand
if leavin will stop all the pain
i'll drop everythin
and leave at once
walkin along the road
listenin to my techno
and with a smile
down the street
as i slowly close my eyes
goin out in style
not before makin a mess
i ain't good lookin
and i'm no one's child
i'll still walk on alone
the trail of tears
it could not be mine
tears of mine haf dried up
except for tat one drop in my heart which will nvr go
watchin a million cars go by
seein the busy people play
all under the early mornin sun
and till the nite falls
watchin the bright neon lights
tat light so bright in the night tonight
i felt tat everythin could juz flow

somebody tell me why

how many special people change?
how many will still remain the same?
slowly walkin down the street
faster than a cannonball
maybe u will find me
caught up in my own thoughts
along the streets
wanderin bout alone
and as the nite falls
the busy people runs
in their pursuit
they follow their shadows around blindly
chasin after it
and they hide away in the shade of their shadows
always hidin away
i'm standin in the middle of the hustle
deep among the crowd
and i look up into the empty sky
i started to ask why
tell me why
cuz i nvr wanna say goodbye
somebody tell me why
cuz i feel tat there is someone out there
someone who noes me deep inside

i'm proud of me

i'm a wild child
nobody's child
no one cares bout me
no one bothers bout me
goin wherever i wan
livin by the streets
playin against the rules
lyin bout in the middle of the nite
nothin in the world bothers me
without a trace of worries
nothin in the world could make me stay
not much things matter to me
lots of things makes no difference
i'm a wild child
and i'm proud of it
i got nth to prove to u all

so many things to do
so many promises to fulfill
so many dreams to make come true
and i wish on the star
i promise to make it all thru
no matter wad's ahead
i'm still free and easy
i'm juz me
keep on believin
yes i do
as long as i'm still myself
i can fight on
as long as i haf the courage to challenge fate
all my dreams will be
unable to compromise
forever not
i wanna be myself
dun ever wanna change abit
love me for wad i am
take me as wad i am
and if u ever wanna come along
i'm happy to haf u by my side
to hug me when i needed warmth
to hold me when i needed comfort
jzu stay by my side
and i'll do all i could
to make u always happy
feel my dreams
u and me
to hold together in our world

it's u

gal u helped me thru
i ain't somebody
but u loved me nontheless
and when my days dun seem perfect
u're there
when my world collides
u're still there
when i 'm all alone
always there
u made me feel lonely no more
u cared
u made me feel
u made me wanna fall in love again
no matter wad u are
i can't thk u enuff
i dunno wad to say
it's juz the way u made me feel
the feelin's good
to noe tat someone care
and it's u

i believe in it

somewhere deep inside of me
i'll find the joy i used to haf
the place tat i wanna be
always been alone this life
been searchin for a place called home
been thru sadness too many times
i noe my heart's cold
but i noe it can nvr be too late
someday i'll be everythin
will be complete
all the happiness in the world
and i believe in it