my star

a star only for me
the one which will only shine for me
dun need for others to love
special only to me
and i'll be the star for her
shine for her only
i noe it may be selfish
but all i ever wan is love
to them it's nothin
it can be my everythin
it's all tat i'll believe in
all i tat i wan
it can be all tat i need
it can be the centre of my world
forher i can be all the things tat i'll nvr be
somtimes i think i hear her callin out my name
sometimes i wonder maybe i'm to blame
it's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

i'll come to u

sometimes i think i hear her
callin out my name
sometimes i wonder
maybe i'm to blame i
t's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

and when u haf no light to guide u
and no one to walk beside u
i'll come to u
when the nite is dark and stormy
u wun haf to reach out for me
i'll come to u
and when ur tears is fallin
i'll hear ur spirit callin
and i'll be there come wad may
cuz even if we can't be together
i hope we'll be frens now and forver
and i swear i'll be there come wad may

foolish games

u said i've always been crazy
takin off my shirt
standin in the rain
always so mysterious
listless eyes with careless hair
with ever smilin face
fashionably sensitive
always lookin tat cool
and there i was beside u
with nothin to say
except for some comments
well i've always felt i was outside
lookin in on ur world
and in case u failed to see
in case u failed to notice
this is me down on my knees
this is my heart breakin before u
this is my heart bleedin in front of u
and these foolish games u play
are tearin me apart
and ur thoughtless words are breakin my heart
guess i've mistaken u for somebody else
somebody who gives a damn
somebody

unmistakable

and i noe there's no need to say more
the loneliness tat belongs to me
i like it
when u're by my side
and i'm a nobody
juz tat someone's someone
but would u rather
i'm still me
u saw right thru the mask on me
and saw wad was really hidden inside
i like it
i love u
there's an unmistakable feelin bout it
and i tot if i stopped believin in love
and i tot if i could use loneliness to numb myself
and i tot all these will make me forget
yet i can't seem to do so
still havin the undeniable feelins for u
so deep within my heart
and i noe i deserve it
waitin for my endin all alone
and nobody can take me away
only u can

how can i let them noe

the nightmare of a dream tat woke me up
i noe it's so real
it's the beginnin of mine
the start of my shattered dreams
pieces tat pierced thru my heart
hurtin me all so deep
a pain tat i could nvr forget
leavin me all so hurt
wounds so deep
they could not heal
and my life been thru so much
but still standin strong
thru the cold and wind and rain
i feel everythin's beyond me
no matter how hard i tried
i still had to be tat faraway
totally outta my control
things tat's not wihtin my hands
the undescribable feelin within me for so long
like the pieces of my broken heart
broken further into pieces
totally shattered my world
the pain tat seared across
the tears tat flowed uncontrollably
the feelins tat engulfed me
i noe it i wanna fight it
i tried hard to resist it
the happenins like the state of denial
a make believe tat i'm not
i nvr could
nvr was
all the feelins tat added up
and when words could not express myself
i could only sit and cry
there's nothin left within
dreamin of a dream
hopin it
all my thoughts and the things caught in my mind
i'm holdin back
how can i ever let them noe
my angst
the struggles i made
the endless dreams tat haunt me
the unfulfilled promises

the wind blows across my face
tears flow down my face
how do i forget all the dreams i had in the past
all alone out in the streets
i am lonely
but i noe i can't cry
perhaps if i look back
i'll be even sadder
as i looked into the mirror
i saw the sadness within my eyes

the eyes were red after cryin
tears which fell out of it
broke into a million pieces
like the fallen dreams of mine
the dreams tat fell from grace
brought down as fast as it was up
time was so short
it nvr shone
helpless in everyway

juz for u

dunno wad i'm livin for
dunno wad i'm holdin onto
wad if i'm not as strong as u think
will u pick me up hold me when i fall
wad if i'm not as perfect as u think
will u still love me
hold me when i fail
will u love me for wad i really am
or will u leave and go
will u hate me for wad i am
or will u not
will u share my dreams together
or will u haf ur own
is my dreams urs and urs mine
will u hold me tight
and nvr let go
will u be there for me
will u be there with me
will u wait for me
will u comfort me when i'm down
will be be there when i'm hurt
i noe it's too much to ask
but i'll gladly do tat for u

tat's juz me

nvr fall in love with a guy like me
i'll onli gif u unhappiness
the onli thing tat i'm certain
i can't make any promises
i can't gif u anything
i'm a gd for nothin
the scum of society
tat's wad i am
i threw my life away all too long ago
it's too late now
there's no turnin back
no more.no more
look at the pieces of my broken life
my love hate angst
all of them my pride
and i'll carry on
the onli way left to go
the onli door left open
no other choice
isn't it
nothin is true
not even me
how ridiculous
i dun even believe myself
pathetic i am
but tat's me
juz me

me life

the cold walls
the cold floor
the closed windows
the drawn curtains
an empty room
a messy one
a pen
a piece of paper
a hi-fi
a broken com
a cold bed
the blowin fan
clothes behind the closed cupboard doors
a small tv
a lonely person
a sad one
writin his feelins on a piece of paper

ur fav purple

there was a time i tot i would nvr smile again
and then u came along
u made me fall in love
and i could nvr had enuff
and i'll nvr let u go
i'm callin out ur name
when i'm all alone
when u're around
everythin seems so natural
only when u're not here
do i noe ur charm.
the heart is bleedin
but u can't see it's blood
it's nth but some loneliness and sadness
depressed the only word to describe me
juz let it be
perhaps i'll be better some time
later holdin out for a love tat nvr was
somethin tat nvr shld haf happened
guess i'm not worthy of someone so good like u
who am i i asked myself
i asked once i asked twice
the ans. nobody
u deserve someone better
u got looks
u got wits
u got charm
u're juz so perfect
go live ur life at the top
it's where u belong
and i'll be at the sides watchin
listenin.if u ever wanna speak
holdin out for a gal so good
tat can only be u
u gave me no reasons to gif things up
gimme a chance to hold ur hand
a chance to hold u close
and i'll be true
and i'll belong to u
if u juz let me do

my will

I wake from my sleep and face the day
and I have to hope to reach you someday
I cannot go on take other steps
cause my way's not easy to go
even I do really wanna see you
I need to take my time
Spend some days alone
being be myself will be all I do
If does exist an everlasting love in which I could believe
I got hurt
because I was very awkward
Know it but I don't want no losing.no!
Thinkin of you made me cry
So my eyes
they were filled with tears
And all I've got is my will to be with you again.someday

i say

i dun believe tat anybody
will feel the way i do about u now
there are many things tat i...
would like to say to u
but i dunno how
and u're always not around
i say baby
i love u
i miss u every nite
and everytime believe in you
so baby pls be mine
i'll love u more and more each day

defiant juvenile

defiant the way i am
juvenile delinquent i am one
wrong the way i'll always be percieved
but i dun think i'm bad
i am the way i am
who are u to judge me?
take a good look at me
u do not even noe me
yet u claim to be
the love,hate,pride and angst in me
u dun and nvr will understand
call me wadever u like
i am the way i am
i won't change for u
who are u anyway?
i am the ruler of my world
i fight my own battle
love me,hate me
i dun care
i am still myself...

abandon

feel so empty
as if the whole world is only left with me
i wanna cry out loud
only left me and my techno
the only thing tat i could hear
i'm still confused
am i the only one
i've got a feelin i'm not the only one
lettin my self off with wild abandon
forgivin myself one too many times
all shows my despair
i'm degradin myself
lettin myself waste away
against the sands of times
sugar.it makes my life complete
for u juz taste so sweet
not much left to say
my heart no longer in it
floatin aimlessly
lifelessly
misery in the air
i dun wanna taste any of it
my life full of nothin
false hopes and broken promises
i'll close my eyes
as my life goes out
can't even be bothered to hate u
for i ain't got the energy
wad more to say love u
my life like the stars
as it slowly goes out at dawn
till the night i shine again
i had to fall from grace

hurt

everynite it's the same
the feelins all too much for me to bear
i wanna go and shout it all out
i love u day and nite
i think of u
even a small little msg will do
yet u dun even care
am i realli tat insignificant to u
if it is
why even gif me false hope in the 1st place
u were the one tat made in believed in love again
now u're the one who's gonna break it up
wad am i supposed to do
if u realli dun like it
why can't u be more direct
wad is it tat's stoppin u
so i guess it's the end
is it
for the last time
let me love u all tat i ever can
this is the last anyway
i'll be all tat u ever wan
before slowly fadin away from life
cuz i'm tired from all this waitin
i'm sick of all the games u play
i'm tired of all the days
when u can't even bother
so i'm gonna be faraway
cuz i dun wan the old days
lyin in my bed feelin empty
for u're not here
i start to think bout all the things tat weren't so clear
in my head.in my head
i can hear
i hope u're here
i'm lookin for some comfort
to mend my broken heart
the broken pieces
tat pierced thru me
hurt me so deeply
leavin me all so hurt

me life

the coldness of the room
the emptiness within
complete with loneliness
tat is my home
gripped with insecurity
i dun wish to stay
everythin so empty
makes me all so cold
i wanna runaway
wanna break free
but where am i supposed to go
where am i to hide
when will i ever goin to
when will i ever do
there's onli loneliness here with me
they say u'll nvr walk alone
but no one here to hold my hand


hold me tight
hold me real tight
pull me close
pull me real close
love me deep
love me real deep
set me free
set me real free
kiss me good
kiss me real good
touch me soft
touch me real soft
comfort me well
comfort me real well

i tot i could stay.but...

to start it off i oso dunno
u came into my life when i least expected it
and to think of it it was onli 3 mths ago
we were total strangers
now u've become the one
the most impt person in my life
so now u're the gal for me
for everytime i see
u my face lit up with a smile
u're the one u put the smile back into my life
u're really wonderful
simply irresistable
how it all happened in 3 mths
i still can't understand
such a short time
yet so incredible
and how time flies
now we're goin seperate ways
u've become all so busy now
there's no time for us
u and me all of a sudden so distant
i'm now hatin myself
i noe there's no one to blame but me
no time for me anymore
i hope u're happy
u're still ur old self busy.
as usual u're still all so popular
always surrounded by frens
i'm still my old self too
alone as always
i'm still myself.SUXS
i was hopin u would ask me stay
cuz leavin is onli cuz i wanna stay

so long

why do all these feelins onli come at nite?
why do all these dreams onli appear at nite?
why does it comes when i'm all alone
all out and down
guess u juz wanna be frens
i'm lettin go from today onwards
the rain shall take over me cryin
the rain been pourin since 2 days ago
so long gal
u're now all so busy
u're in a place somwhere tat seems so faraway
somewhere tat i can't seem to reach
used to wanna do all the things with u
hold u tight in my arms
be at peace within ur comfort
guess it no longer will be

send me an angel

can i act like an angel if i live like a jerk?
can i keep on disguising?
can i make believe tat i dun decieve?
no.i can't
i act like a winner
i behave like a sinner
i dunno wad to do
when i'm down and out
will i fail to see what i used to be?
somtimes i feel like i dun haf a fren
sometimes i feel like i'm all out alone
but i've got my techno
she's my companion
lonely as i am
tgt we cry
this world tat i live in
the city of sadness
send me an angel
if i'm still alive

lovin u.lovin me

i'm fallin even more in love with u
lettin go of all i held onto
lettin go of everythin i noe
hangin by a moment here to be with u

i dunno wad i'm divin into
juz wanna stay here with u
cuz if i let u go
i will nvr noe
wad it will be

lovin u.lovin me
will u remember me
since tat day i set my eyes on u
everythin became all so wonderful