old bus stop

my heart tat beats onli for ya
the love in ur beatless heart
without u im unable to feel
when everyone else no longer matters
u are the sunshine in my life
and i dun really noe
maybe i need ur love
maybe i need ur care
the courage to say love out loud
somethin tats in u
ur empty eyes
filled with mascara
a moment i forgotten to forget
puttin everythin at stake
tryin the best and pain cannot be felt
standin at the old familiar place waitin
if onli to see the gal i knew once before
hopin tat this day will ever come

tears of love

love everlastin fades away
nvr tot u would leave me alone again
memories they made me cry
and u tat always says goodbye
dry my tears with love
dry ur tears with love
loneliness we silently whisper
anata wo aiishiteru

a river of tears tat flows thru the nite
tears tat blinded love
losin our dreams along the way
ur soul in exchange for the fortunes
time spent in the rain
washin away the sands tat keeps ur memories
im walkin in the rain
till i can forget bout u
im walkin in pain till i can dunno u anymore
i keep the love for u within myself
let me forget my all of my dreams
all of the silence
leavin onli the hatred behind
endless rain falls on my heart
all of the silence in the rain

drownin away all of my sorrows
immersin within the beat
the flashin lights tat blinds
downin one cup after another
losin all sense of consciousness
losin myself away
wastin myself away
forgettin everythin away
tears not visible to the eyes cannot be washed away
invisible tears cannot be rubbed away
invisible tears within me till this day
tears tat onli be dried by ur love
ur love
ur love

in the long run we're better off as frens
wadever love and hope would best be kept inside
emittin an allurin charm
the moonlight tat cant shine thru which could onli be ya
raised my hands towards the sky to bade goodbye
this is the end
this is the end
happy we were once
seems like yesterday
but yesterday is already so faraway
happiness tats once within our grasp
but ure lettin go
always leavin alone all the time
ure the butterfly tat everyone loves
maybe i shld not say the words tat hurt so much
everythin so wrong

the gucci bags and the chanel tat she carries
i cant gif any of them to her
and even my love was wad seems to her little
he takes her out and shows her the world
he showers upon her gifts and presents
and to her seems so much
the milky way and the stars are wad he promises to her
he stirs her heart and plays with her love
cuz tats wat he ever does

in-erasable

no longer fightin against the world
to accept the inevitable
losin our dreams to bow over
will we ever regain them ever
writins tat seemed to haf matured
or is it a sign of surrender t
he love hate pride and anger
mellowed or disappeared
or juz tamperin into things plain finer
pieces of our past tat lingers
in-erasable
irreplacable
whos fault is it no longer matters
juz this once
juz this once

wrapped around the cup were once ur fingers
ur love tat i once held upon my fingers
now ure tellin me its over
ur sweet scent tat still lingers
u said u'll remember
said the best part of love is to remember
in my heart
one last kiss gal
theres always a space for ya
now till forever

so close to me

the adrenaline wun wash away the loneliness
after comes the feelin of emptiness

i can feel u so close to me
holdin on so tight
i can feel ur hands on me
graspin onto wads left of me
i can feel ur body next to mine
clingin on without any distance
i can feel u within me
tuggin at my heart ever so softly

lookin for a dream

the hours can only grow longer in the nights
under the bright neon lights
lost in this maze of the city
lookin for a vauge dream
findin a place within tat u would like to reside upon
our eyes exchangin our mixed emotions

the drinks could not damp the loneliness
makin it an endless night
feels the same
wanderin about
lookin for the favorite dream
findin a place in u tat i would like to reside in

this much is true

im slowly losin ya
the inevitable but maybe a little bit too soon
tryin desperately to hold on to ya
but u've already faded away
to haf each other but tats too much
cryin every night
tell ourselves its ok
for love still we give another shot
downin the bourbon
ready or not

halfway there
take my hand
tears to bridge the gap
baby i nvr meant to hurt ya
i nvr meant to neglect u
i nvr meant to

we're parallel lines tat once intersect
we're one of a kind
im still losin ya
im still hurtin u in all tat i've done
the tears juz keeps on fallin when u're not around
when i wake up im still callin out ur name
butterfly

and i noe this much is true
the heaven opens up
lookin for love at all the wrong places
the tears wun stop as the unhappiness lingers
ure speakin in a cold sarcastic voice
my heart tats realli hurt
lost forever
lookin behind me and i noe i wun come back
this empty bedroom juz wun make things rite

in love with the world
lost in the world
lookin at all tat we lost
all the things tat i tot was so easy juz gets harder and harder each day
u still waits up for me all thru the nite

cut our wrists

wat hurts the most
the pain and agony of cryin out loud
or the pent up emotions tat we keep inside
tryin our hardest to barely disguise
wat everyone could see was so fuckin obvious
if i was so wrong
pls listen to me all nite long
pushin up the side of my lips as high as it could go
while ure tearin ur eyes out
bleedin more than u could ever see within
anythin but to see ur frown
anythin but to let u falter and drown
anything even its to be ur clown
or should we cry together
if tat makes the both of us feel better
or should we cut our wrist together
and let us lie upon this fuckin pool of blood
or should we hold each other tight
and laugh out loud at the predicament tat we're in
heart aching
disheartening
so much so for cryin out loud
we're juz slowly bleeding away
dyin
fadin away in this pool of blood
this pool of blood

easy way out

if only to start all over again
rememberin to forget bout ya
silence our best understanding
silence our easy way out
a few minutes is all i ever need
to be with ya tiil forever
breaking my silence to make ya cry
the tears of joy
holding each other tight
saying the words we been needing to hear
the words suppressed within for so long
nvr lettin ya go away from me again
the heartache and the blues that they sing
so fragile on the inside
the ghost of u and me
the emotional side that we show

triangles

gettin near
if onli to see u wantin him near u
usin all i can
to try and gif wad he could ever gif
hopin to hold u tighter at the end of time

our lovin onli lastin a song length
listenin to u singin the saddest of songs
wad am i to do
to be with u till forever

once believin tat sincerity will move u
givin u more than wad he could ever gif

we're runnin in triangles
ure runnin after his shadow
and im chasin after ur trail
a game where the tears nvr stop
even if i used my life to give u up
it juz nvr stops

everytime as u set ur sights upon me from afar
his heart bleeds for u till the mornin
my days taken up by the most mundane of stuffs
onli his heart tat worries solely for u
too vauge a love tat nvr satisfies u
foreverness onli somethin he can gif

we're runnin in triangles
lovin u yet unable to gif ya anythin more
usin a lifetime to realise
the one by ur side will always be him

nth to say

i wanna feel myself
with all these blues
everywhere we go
and i din mean to fall in love with ya
a pity its not ya
to be with till the end
to be there holdin my hand
maybe it onli seems like yesterday
but yesterday was already so faraway
yet still rememberin the words u say
a sad song with nothin to say
and the heartache tat we sing
and we'll smile
then lie tat it wun hurt abit
and we'll be like this for all nite long

crows zero

rather i took life at 100%
reachin for the top
i wanna change
and keep on changin
i wanna fly
and keep on flyin
fightin on alone
and u dunno where to stand
the hero tat lives inside
a beautiful heart u got
to be the king of the hill
the best of the crows
fightin and fightin and fightin
in order to reach the summit
the peak of the world
where the most beautiful view lies
life would have been meaningless
without knowin the meanin to live

everythin to stop ur frown

fingerprints upon the glass u used
i understand wad ure goin thru
and im not the one u wan
not the one u need
not the one u desired
without a smile
with the distance
happiness has all but left
and trust has all faded
sincerity the death of us
perhaps ive misunderstood
much i'd like to say
ventin ur frustration upon
but i could take it
but u dun haf to be so cold
and im juz down
why did u fake it
i can even ur clown and ur standin ground
everythin to stop ur frown
love in a dormant state
a sense of mortality
a feelin of weakness

gimme a reason to stand tall
to wake from misery
dun wanna be alone
with or without me holdin u at all
knowin it all too well
no longer insistin who am i
no longer tryin to be wad i nvr was
its always emptiness tat follows adrenaline
strangers we are from now on
life is a dream
and i dream to live
always come back to ur love

many days

killin himself tonite
sellin the soul to be in the spotlight
raised the hand towards the sky in a silent goodbye
lies in bed rememberin
hangin on no more

still not tellin u how much i miss u
even if i do
still wun tell u how much i love u
even if i do
words cant say how much i realli do
this time its for real
theres nth else more to hide

a see saw of love
to try to find the point of equilibrium
too high or too low a side
rockin till the day happiness arrives

i then realised the gap in reality
walkin along
tastin every feelin
wanderin alone in the dark
wanderin tat makes me not alone
too complicated a word
theres nth much to comprehend
u had my heart
at least for the most part
we fell apart
makin a new start
u had my heart
at least for the start
and everybody gonna die sometime

followin the dreams
onli to be further away
the nite changes
foreverness a moment to savour
eternity's eternal
dreams worth fightin for
a likin for ur company
nothin much to ya
and i rather still was myself
lovin u
a feelin of comfortness
a secret happiness tat belongs to me
another perspective
a beauty of a smile
a day where i juz cant bring the corner of my lips up
goin after a beautiful day
if onli to fall in love with u
understandin doesnt equate to doin
bitter a taste to swallow
the scent of urs tat lingers on
onli to keep a little
to continue to reminisce
no matter how hard i try
nothin more to ya
slowly fadin away
still rememberin a tinge of sweetness
too many i love u's loses its meanin
hurt too deep
lyin upon the floor
hidin in the depth of the darkness
memories tat serves to play pain
the last ever heard was sorry
laughin at my plight and im smirkin still
no longer important or was tat a lie
love disappeared
leavin onli memories of u in my mind
a gift tat u gave
opened it up
fillin it with tears for u

footsteps in the snow
as we follow the wind tat brings the cold
an emptiness in the soul
love is fallin as our faith is invisible
still in my mind
whisperin every single word u said
guided by the dreams tat inspired u
love outta nothin at all
all i ever wan is u
cuz i dun see wad anyone else sees in anyone else but u

hearts always with ya

when everyone else around disappears
and theres only the void left in my mind
havin no one to turn to
nor anythin else to hold on
feelins of the lovin turns to dust
driftin away in the air
a little piece of heaven
and its callin for ya
lost for most of this life
and how did this come to be
gimme another chance to be the person i wanna be
i'll do my very best
but u've gotta let go of me

been far too long in all tat we do
the stars in the nite will lend me their lights
bringin me to heaven closer to ya
reachin out towards the sky to say my goodbyes
my heart is always with ya

memories we had and all tat we've been thru
each his own
dyin one day or another
theres nth to be taken for granted

the tears u shed
the years we shared
the love we have
my hearts always with ya

surreal

lyin around
surrounded by the 4 walls
listenin to the meledy
the room spinnin when i close my eyes
aimlessly wastin my day away
maybe i dun belong here
feelin all bored and lousy
im juz ur part time lover and a full time fren
and i dun see wad anyone else see in anyone else but u
maybe im still in love with u

maybe im still in love with u
my dreams tat remained the same
my route tats forever changed
will we be there hand in hand
or will i escape when u gimme ur hand
its not somethin against u
and baby i'll surely miss ya
but the time is not right
its still not ripe
the peace the world so surreal
and theres onli me and u
will u promise to take me back
take my hand
back into our place
when our time has come

waitin for u

my life only to wait for u
the only thing that i exist
waitin for u
to come into my dreams
waitin for u
to kiss me in the night
waitin for u
till the stars fade away
waitin for u
till eternity

satellite

a tragedy in a way u might describe
with these tears of pearls
some things are meant to be done without a reason
fadin into the dark as ure slippin away
holdin on and im not insane
not belongin here but nearly fell for it
when it was almost easy

half the world away
the pain tat comes to wake up
in my mind
still whisperin every single word u say
my shining star my beautiful satellite
faith is fallin and love is invisible

mistakes and regrets

disllusioned and full of contempt
a lack of understandin
and u'll nvr noe me
feelins of stuck and lost
weak and helpless
weatherin the storm
tryin to break thru an endless nite
mistakes and regrets
how long more to eternity
the ghost of my past hauntin me
remindin me of who i realli am
nvr contemplatin to take the easy way out
all we ever had were lies
rather had we said goodbye and died

worlds apart
too good a thing and it will go
love not till an end
how am i to let go
but i nvr dare to tink too much into it
the feelin of losin u
as u fade away
not a taste of love left
forever in fear
pretendin our past to be a show
pretendin tat u nvr exist in this world

my love my fate

helpless eyes gazin at u
hopin to translate my pain to u
unable to explain
amountin to this silence of mine

my love my fate
u will fade away
heaven and earth apart
i'll love i'll hate
i'll miss u always
i love u forever
lucky theres u in my world
my love
my hate
i am afraid
always scared tat i might nvr see u ever again
happiness we grasp with our own hands
happiness we let go of each others hands
too beautiful a memory
too perfect
how could i bear to let go
unable to accept our endin now
i'll love u again someday
lifes beautiful with u around
outta my life

trapped and stuck
the only way to go is forward
towards the inevitable
as the time draws to an end
wads there left to say
wads there left to see

non believer

i wanna believe in all the miracles too
i wanna believe in all the fairytales too
i wan the happy ever after
and realli i do
but how can tat be when i dunno if love is true
and is there ever eternity
for a non believer like me

too much misunderstandings between us
love in a dormant state
sheddin tears for no others
shattered heart for no one else
a person alone
seekin the company of another lonely soul
a process they call as love
a meetin they term as fate
love who and whatsoever
regrets in love
usin forever to forget too
much pain and heartache
and who is the one we realli love

but why

colder than winter
aloof like ice
the feel when i look into her eyes

i wanna be there for u when ure feelin down
i wanna be there for u when ure all but strong
lettin u to fall if onli for the chance to see u fightin again
ure leavin the ground
i can see ure burnin out
from now on
all i'll ever write will be my lovin for u
if ure willin
i could walk with u to forever
and if u believe
we shall be forever
our perfect endin
but why do tears flow
down the contours of the beautiful face of urs

love letter

a letter stained with ur tears
nothin else that matters
save for u and me
and the apple tree
so many things we said we wanna do
so many words left unsaid
afraid to be alone
avoidin ur lovin as my tears start to fall
unable to exist without hurtin u
like the strangers that we are
standin side by side

through it all
ive come to see
that u're the one till the end

beyond these walls

go and shut me out
close the doors
held in ur arms like a stranger
its time to go
beyond these walls
now pls dun say a word
i am standin here alone
and wun u be with me
i'll observe u from afar
leave me in a swirl
everytime i see u
an illusion or a dream
standin in the dark
and will u be with me

wantin to fall asleep
yet unable to
its juz another one of those days
leave me an empty shell
longin for a soul
wantin to fall in love
yet not havin the courage to
its juz another way to run

a mothers pride and joy
a woman's charm and beauty
a man pride and honour
a father joy and love
an apple of their eyes
a dead man silence and peace
everythin so surreal
a serene state of mind
the king of hearts honour
an elaborate plan
an unbelievable story
foreseen by the quiet fortune teller
dark clouds and neon lights so faraway
sittin alone in a corner
a shiftin existence and i cease to believe
water flowers kicked up by rollin wheels
every drop so intricate

tearin and smilin at the same time
mixed emotions tat run thru the sides of the face
a complicated potrait

a stolen glance

a meetin by chance
with u takin a stolen glance
lookin straight into my eyes
i could onli manage a weak smile
stealin another glance
as we bade goodbye
partin our ways
on this christmas day

i miss u
from the bottom of my heart
i realli do
i cease to exist
when i cease to believe
i cease to exist
when i cease to resist

nothin can stop the emotions
tat run down the sides of ur face

cuz i'll be holdin on tonite

theres a feelin in my mind
tat i wanted to noe
words could nvr descibe all the things inside
wads there left to say
when things are better if u stayed
and if we carry on this way
things are better if i stay
once there was a time
u hear me
with u near me
pretend to leave and meet again
when our worlds collide
wads the worst thing to take
with every heart u break
so long and goodnight
so long not goodnight
cuz i'll be holdin on tonight

is it a crime
to be thinkin of ya
wrong place at the wrong time
so wrong
so wrong

empty blanks

the hair color fades
like the colors of u
slowly fadin away from the times of my life
showin signs of hesitance
as the atmosphere became awkward
starin into blanks
like we always do
we make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for ya
so why does this hurt so much

stuck in ur tots

stuck in ur tots
and u'll be bitin ur nails
stuck in a moment
and ure tappin the cup
lost in ur charm
and im head over heels
lost in ur embrance
and im cravin for more

draw a circle

i drew a circle and kept myself in
an empty room
an empty void
a blank somewhere in the lines
disappearing into emptiness
swallowed whole

the sands of time tat left me behind
while everybody around me moved forward
wastin time upon the past
open wounds

a love tat needs not be compatible
a love tat needs no approval from others

silent love

would u believe if i told u the truth
or would u rather hear all the lies tat i made up
if i told u all the made believe
will u still believe my lies

the rain pours hard upon the window
cloudin up my mind
but maybe its not so bad after all
soaked thru and thru
wakin up to the pouring rain
and it makes me wonder why i got out of my daze at all
the movin sights outta the window
passin by ur left side again
starin into blanks
how are u to understand my silence
when all the love and hurt are unspeakable
one too many times before we cried
seekin to fulfil the prophecy juz for ya
a process of love tat kills the soul
and ur leavin tat leaves my heart in pain
take me away
take me away
chasin after a shootin star
the onli end is to crash and burn
closin my eyes to sense the feelins
from the head to the heart
in the corner of the city where lonely hearts meet
in the middle of the nite exchangin loneliness
without words to say
sittin behind and u remain silent
a way of interaction
how am i to understand ur silent love

the pourin rain hit upon the window
the movin sights outside
i cant see at all
and it makes me wonder why
i got out of my daze at all

hate loving

i was silent
and u din had much to say
we overlooked where happiness was
and u muz haf cried
somewhere in a corner of ur heart
ur eyes were red from cryin
and it hurts to see u cry
heaven noes how much pain i'm in
too much hate
for theres too much love
save u and me
before we all fall too deeply

in the silence i believe in

strangely familiar
familiarly strange
always
a word on my mind
lyin here lookin at an old photograph
a love song the way it was meant to be
words u have been needin to hear
if i could
i would
even if i couldnt
i'll still would

still so much to say between us
fallin to pieces
fallin into place
killin the pain tats spinnin in the silence
losin some sleep tonight
in this moment we are silent
as we learn
slowly losin our innocence
one last look into ur eyes
and ive finally realised
it was those pair of eyes tat i fell in love with

in the silence i believe in
i can see u in the silence
u are silent
possessin all the beauty
hungry still for more
heaven holds a sense of wonder
in the silence i am free
can we still close our eyes and dream a little
juz like how we use to do baby
ur eyes tat captures innocence
waitin for u to kiss me tonight
leavin me the most beautiful of memories
waitin for u to come here into my dream
holdin u under the stars
till these black hair of ours turn silver
this time.i'm nvr lettin go of my hands

odd one out

grass without roots
i'll grow where i stand
im not conformin
im not wad they wan me to be
odd one out
i am myself

stay awhile and hear me out
and u wun haf to ever see my face again
ur broken dreams were mine too
and those tears tat u dropped
one too many times we teared
as hard for me to be here
so wun u stay awhile

name

wads in a name
forgettin my name
and who i realli am
will i be the same
can i exist
when i resist
i dun deny
when its all lies

ur left side

lyin here alone
on the bed i lie
and all i could ever hear
tat its too late to apologise
in my mind
a special feelin
nobody shall understand
and u wun notice
cuz its me tats too silent
a glimpse of forever
a moment of eternity
by ur left side
my right side

took a step
took a chance
i'll even took a shot for u

without u

everybodys changin
everythings gone
without u
without u

baby gal

u wun rest till five
u'll wake up at nine
baby gal ure so fine
someday i'll make u mine
baby gal u look like ice
baby gal i see myself in ur eyes
one last look added with ur smile
baby gal i love to see ur smile
in the mirror ure the bulls eye
turnin back for juz a little more while
baby gal u had me to smile
i left a piece of myself behind with u
my heart

stories and reasons

many stories
many reasons
doesnt matter now anyway
though i still rememeber a day
people i love
no longer matter
people tat loved
no longer exist
stood at doorways
waitin for u
stood at exits
waitin for u
this time
can no longer wait for eternity
used to be so important
everythin juz fades with time
many reasons
many excuses
people i once gave up
come back to my life
roads i once avoid
can i walk them back again
juz another day
juz another way
a point in life
i'm juz a little blemish alive
innocently stuborn
slowly forgotten
forgotten

golden bowl

memories fade
onli the photographs remain
sleep tight my miss pink panther
somebody holdin ya tonite
i can nvr live without u
tat was a pretence
everyone would wan u by their side
ure a star everybody covets
but all i ever wanted something simple
not wad u or them make it out to be
turned into a star and vanished
not even a chance to say goodbye
if the person u'd love left
love me then u said
but i'll lay down my life juz to look for her
a betrayal was not wad it meant to be
loneliness from all directions
beside u it was nvr evident
for it was all so natural
left ur side and it became all so obvious
a chance meeting
something nvr shld had happened
in love with an illusion
the person u knew was nvr the real me
we're done
its over
i dun even need to be loved
i juz wan u by my side
even if its all givin dreams
beautiful dreams
weavin each and every for everyone of all of u
cuz i'll come to regret and be left with nothing at the end
i juz wanna see ya once again
listen here
i love u here
with u but my heart with another
turnin to look at the sky
knowing tat u will onli shine on me
for i will onli shine for u
nvr tot it could happen
lifes like the oklahama dance mixer
holding hands
sayin its destiny
holdin another sayin the same thing again
october rain
and santa claus aint comin anytime soon

everyone covets

woke up to a sad dream
emotions i felt and the expressions tat u had on ur face
juz so real
it was juz so real
but even if its true
who am i to stop u in ur pursuit of happiness
u said u wanted to try to love again
i had to let u be
ure the star tat everyone covets
but all i ever wanted
a star tat shines onli for me
cuz i'll be a star tat shines
onli for her

randomly

nvr seem to get along
the onli one tat i got
my premonitions became real
vanishin alone to be a star
the sky kept cryin on a day
losin trust
losin fast
tonite
day and afternoon
and the mornin with u

shes electric

shes electric
a smile and a look into the eyes
a pout and a wink of the eyes
all she ever need
shes electric
i liked her fren
but i liked her even more
shes electric
can i be electric too

and we live among the fools
breakin us apart
when they all shld let us be
we belong to u and me

everywhere nowhere somewhere

wad shall become of me
life is dead
and i am wad they dun see
and theres all the things tat i dream
i stand at roads
wonderin which way to go
hopin time will pass soon
so tat i could die
as proud as the rose
tat blooms upon the battlefield
standin up
yet stranded
with no where to go
the things i did
will it allow me to rest upon here forever
in peace
in peace
takin away everythin
still holdin onto the beauty tats left

alone in the crowd
cryin too easily
too many tears
still a lost child
devoured by fears
people come and go
hidin in shadows
hidin in dreams
movin in and out
nothin but strangers
strange as it seem
a paper heart so easily torn
over and over again
the little pieces juz wun fit together again
nvr knew the reason why
and it nvr ends
an unrest in the air
time slips slowly but surely away
where can i go from here
everywhere.somewhere.nowhere
i looked upon the empty sky
somebody tell me why
take a chance
to take a stand
destiny awaitin
upon a runaway train
feelins so cold
colder than the rain tat fall upon my face
runnin away
everywhere
nowhere
somwhere.

count to 100

ur world too faraway
unable to understand
back to the start
but it feels like an end
most afraid
most afraid

close ur eyes
and make a count to 100
and i'll be there by ur side
i'll be the first u see
when u open ur eyes

waitin for u
im waitin for u
at the end