one week

hold onto me
the way u hold onto ur life
hold onto me
the way u hold onto ur loved

all we are
all tat we are
i mean this
and i mean it this time
pass me through
touchin hands as ure fallin down
the look in ur eyes
seems like i saw them elsewhere before

i've hoped to be happy
i've hoped for eternity

an exchange of loneliness
an interaction of silence
ur hands holdin tight

nobody in particular
payin no attention either
without any wish
smilin this world away
the stars and the moon
they light in ur eyes

i noe its all lies
i aint carin no more
hold onto me juz a little while more

is it ur heart i hear breakin in the lonely nite
we nvr knew how to reach out to each others heart
will we ever do
ur hand being held by another
u shldnt be holdin onto mine
ur heart longin for him
u shldnt be next to me
i shld haf gently let ur hands go
but i aint got the strength to do so

ur sweet scent

maybe if there wasnt her
u would haf be the one
so sorry i cant be ur superman

the wind blowin her sweer scent onto my face
at least i noe happiniess is not faraway
ur sweet scent
if onli i could keep juz a little
at least rememberin still the taste of happiness
u come close
lettin down my feelins again

all messed up

tot u were somethin different
and u juz came fallin apart
im not perfect
juz all messed up
nothin left to pretend
this is the end
this is my life
not like u needed anybody

ure so perfect
no one measures up
ure by urself
all messed up
and hes everythin im not
this is the end
this is my life

cuz i noe

cuz i noe
cuz i understand
tats why im feelin down
tats why im feelin inferior

cuz i noe
i will nvr be
wad he is to u
cuz i noe
i am onli
nothin more than a fren
cuz i noe
i was nvr
wad u realli wan

the little things in the eye

hold me
tighter than ever
i seem to see u on a restless nite

though the world will drown in blood one day
and we're all gonna die
let me forget the news
i dun wanna noe
but nobody noes where is the end
even if its all lies
but juz a little bit more
sing for me

keepin my achin heart away
the little things in my eyes i juz cant hold back
nvr understandin how to reach out to touch anothers heart

save me
for i haf an urge to tear greatly

hurts

a look into wad might had be
somethin tat will nvr be
nvr secondin
nvr interferin
standin by the sides
tats my gentleness for ya

cuz it hurts my heart to see u hurt
cuz it pains in me to see u down

in love with a gal i shld not love
yet im fallin head over heels

born to love
keep me in ur tots for i am weak without u
we were meant to be for so much more
always in my dreams

half half

its the image of u in my head tat wun let me go
tats why im holdin on
and till my guilt goes up in flames
to a bad day
i gotten used to spendin

half happy
half sad
neither here nor there
an emotion swirl within
ure everythin so wrong
im everythin so wrong
still my favorite mistake

and i finally knew how she felt back then
and i finally understood the reason why
and im no fool for ya anymore
till ur guilt puts u in shame
and i dun wanna tink bout it anymore
and maybe nothin last forever
and maybe even when we're so wrong
cuz i saw u walkin by
and i saw u cry

dyin in ur arms

tired of startin again somewhere new
cant change from wrong to right

holdin u by my side with every breath of mine
my sweetheart
help me keep the faith of mine
and ure the onli reason the nite aint growing cold
till the end of time
dyin in ur arms with u

closin my eyes and dream a little
and dreamin juz a little more

emptyin

i watch as the day fade away

i could onli watch

i stared at the sky and wish myself away

i could onli hope

i longed for a day to be so far away

i could onli wait

many things tat leave me empty

many words

so many people

things ive achieved leave me empty

when others would haf been so full of themselves

my mind is empty

my head is empty

i'm feelin empty

and i am lonely

feeling weak and so sick of myself

sick of this life

sick of it this time

this time i dun feel like makin it thru

this time i juz feel like givin up

i was so mistaken

i was so misplaced

i juz wanna keep on dreamin

this time dun wanna wake up anymore

but i'll stop dreaming if ure not in it anymore

too many memories tat this place holds

i dun wanna tink anymore

present

the class tat i nvr was in
as i flipped thru the dusty pages of life
still rememberin u
and the letter tat u wrote
a smile tat appeared on my face
i nvr noe why
juz the way tat i am in front of ya
and i finally understood
the present tat u said u'll give
the day u decided to walk away
maybe i'll be better without u
maybe i aint no better without u
we nvr gave love a try

forgettin seems the hardest way out
seperation is the present for me
and i saw her
tears in ur eyes
not goin near
juz watchin u silently

at least i still feel the pain
understandin the taste of life
forgiveness is the best way out for us
and we do not cry
love aint perfect
and its all my fault

nothin at all

nothin at all
nothin
mean nothin to me
nothin more to me
and i dun
and i wun
all tat of me

left
right
left
right
walkin in circles again
makin the same mistakes

oblivion

and i return to the darkness
and i return no more
in the depth of oblivion
as i exist no more

missin ya

a heavy rain tat washes me clean
made everything so clear
mistakes
mistaken
misunderstood
miss ya
i loved u cuz u loved me

nothing to hold onto
everything to regret

of blood and pain
we are the walking wounded
of blood and wounds
we are the guilty innocent
is it all too late
to want to hold u in my arms
to want to say i love u
to cherish u
forever not to part with ya

when ive forgotten my name and who i realli am
will i be closer or even more a stranger
and ure still beautiful in every way
listenin to ur breathing
and i doubt who u realli are
but never mind who u are
i love u the same
ure still the onli one tat can make my heart skip a beat
to set my pulse racing and my world spinning
the onli one i cant get outta my mind
i'll be waiting for ya by the sides of ur life
waiting for u.

pool of blood

hand in hand we fall
together in this pool of blood
lettin each other noe how much we mean
and in the pool of red
until the end of everythin
and we go cold
days fade to red
nights turn to red
makin the same mistakes as yet we do
my hands stained with ur blood
ur hands full of mine
we make the same mistakes

still believe

listening carefully to the sound of closing of doors
from grey skies to clear weather
many years it has been
from loneliness to freedom
still on rainy days
starin at blanks
listening to the windstill
a fool
still a fool

the world have already changed
but baby i still believe
and still believe rushin out onli to return home
empty no matter rain or shine
nobody feels for me anyway
they blindly run on
nvr knowing tiredness
a few more drinks tinkin i'll understand wad the answers are
no matter how sincere
nobody will get touched anyway
pure innocence left our world long ago
and they follow blindly
nvr knowing to tink

wrong for tinkin too much
wrong for havin nth at all
wrong for not understanding
wrong for not givin up
wrong for losin myself to the world
losin to myself at the end
who can ever forgive me
everything so wrong
might as well be wrong
till the end
with all i can

TTTTT

of lonely nites and empty streets
lonely roads and empty rooms
hand in hand we fall

till they tell the truth

if u could see me here this way
lookin back wads from today
stoned in love but not with u
if we could watch the past away
will we go our seperate ways
or do it all again
not tat i care

no need for much words
everything understood
an embrace says it al
la smile shows it all
i believe and believe
some pain onli our hearts noe
ure no longer the one im thinking of
and im no longer the one ure missing

nobody's child

aint no place for me
not a place in this world
i dun belong
i shld not even exist
nobody child
i'm nobody child
no reasons to stay
feelin lost and scared
to wander till i find a place i can call my own
a place i can call my home
a place tat accepts me
a place i can stay

tattered and broken
how easy it is to end a life
19yrs transcend in an instant
love me when im gone
strangers from the day i leave
alone but i'll be happy
familiarity could onli breeds contempt
turnin back could onli means sadness

everything so wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
and my family dun seem so familiar
im nobodys child still

nvr wanting to return home
till its late
wanderin around and around
cold and bitter
stuck in a situation
my solitude
my solitude
nobody understands how i used to cry in the middle of the nite
things tat i'll nvr tell
feelins tat i nvr dare admit
down and out
im torn
fuck this world tat had been unfair
fuck it all
nobody child
im nobodys child

ice queen

i wanna write the most beautiful piece for u

without any name
and totally forgetting who we were
still rememberin our short exchange
both our hearts will noe

i call u ice queen
fringe hiding tat sweet smile of urs
special in ur very own way
the more i see u the more beautiful u juz get
aint no one like u
like no other
i love it the way u are
in love with the way ya lookin at me
so shy yet so sure
mesmerised by the look in ur eyes
cant get u outta my mind
a gal like u so hard to find
been days
i'm so missin ur way
hey gal
i'm missin u
outta nothing at all
u're juz the special kinda gal ive been looking for

i call u midnight sun
the radiance shinin from ya in the depths of the nite
pure and innocent love

i call u my dearest
no matter where u are
no matter wad u'll do
u're still the most beautiful
even if i dunno u at all
lovin u all the same

i call u cute ah lian
cute ah boy love cute ah lian

some

some things better left unknown
some words better left unsaid
some feelings better left untouched
some love better left alone

the more i see
the more i hear
the more i know the more i feel this way
pouring rain outta my window
pouring rain outside ur window
some things i juz wun do
some words i juz wun say
some feelings i juz wun admit
i believe
i believe

single words

empty emotions on a sleepless nite
watched as it turned from dark to light
an overly active tear gland
a start brings an end
the light from the phone shows clearly my loneliness
rights and wrongs
truth and lies
lettin down
fragile
pain beyond comprehension
love aint complete
wantin my everything
watchin a process called love
beautiful tragedy
denying
wastin away
waitin
without me
without u
cant understand
cant remember
cant be bothered
far far away
silence
happiness
comfort
warmth
where u'll be
where i wait
transcending
lovers in name
love in flames
hatred in pain
dissipate in rain
being a fool for ya
stuborness
disappearance makes missing stronger
letting go
u cant forget it
let it be
forget it
forget it

my love for ya nvr stopped
im still writing on my writing
full of my feelins
my emotions written onto it
when ur love stopped
forgotten wad ive written
silently writin on by ur corner
facin the words ive wrote
still waitin for the one i love the most
always so easily lost in tots
nvr realisin the time
still used to writin for ya
feels like ure here still
the words tat still remind me
of the way ya lovin me

live

the burdens shadow upon my back
the senses tat i felt
perhaps tats the reason
i nvr feel like coming home
perhaps tats the reason
this place can nvr be my home
everyone has got their way to go
everyone has got their dreams to chase
everyone got something to live for
i dun remember mine
for why remember
how many does it takes
aint too long till they break
pain in my heart for a dying wish
nobody noes
nobody understands
the wind blows on my face against my wish
bringin a sense of loneliness
sadness tat runs deep
a sense of despair tat takes over
once again misunderstood
awakin to a sense of coldness in the heart
wanderin around
found no reason to stay
too many burdens to play
an elusive place called home
everything of me so wrong
the city of pain
where am i to find home
an emotional wreck
a pain deeply felt
wandering all over places
an old bus
a familiar street
sat as i watched the busy people run
the pretty people play
a thousand people
a thousand faces
a hundred lovers brushin past me
nothin seems too special
a pretty face one too many

i/u

times of my life
the good
the bad
the handsome
and the ugly
everyone has their way to go
without feelins
broken down and out

somethins tat juz cant be done
some words tat juz cant be said
some ways tat u and i juz cant go
u love me
onli enuff to sing a song
i love me
onli enuff to hear ur song

darling

a smile tat lits up the world
nothin comes close
be with u my darling
be with ya

u and i

bringin along a wanderin mind
watchin the love story unfold
how lucky i was
catchin up with ya
thks for the long journey
for the many kilometres we were together
so many times i wanted to say
to tell u how much i realli love u
outta the blue
but ure still the best
im afraid no matter how much i love u
theres no happy story for us
how i wish the bus journey would nvr end
as we part too fast
u alighted one stop before me
the bus juz too fast
rather i had abandoned myself on the road
so intense u and i nvr wanna wake up from it
the butterfly flies
finally catchin up with ya
how long more can we go on before we part
till we part
the both of us
u and i nvr realli part

4days

tears or raindrops fallin upon my face
doesnt realli matter
loneliness feels the same
tearin without a reason

a metre away
a road apart
a world apart
goin in circles
four days time
returnin to where we started from
strangers

dun ask me

i can
i believe i can
a pitch of darkness
the wavering faith
runnin along
the wind hittin against my face
my hair runnin into my eyes
brushin the itch in the eyes off
i could still run faster
i could run much faster than tat
dun ask me why
i could nvr explain myself
dun ask me why i feel tat way
i could nvr understand myself
dun ask me
dun ask me.

more than me

ure feelin lonely
ure feelin empty
but im not the one ure lookin for
one of him means more than a hundred of me to ya
how am i not be sad
time passes as blood hits the ground drip by drip
still holdin onto the last bit of hope
ure cryin
ure achin
but i aint ur consolation

wings

and u once told me
wad good would wings be
if u cant fly high
if u cant feel the wind against ur face
wad good would wings be
u rather gif them up for a true taste of love
losin everythin in an instant doesnt matter
for u did not regret
u did not cry
u said u had it once
and it was more than enuff
always tat silly
tat crazy
but tats wad i love u for
as wad u are

forget me not

i believed i'd die young
writin the emotions as a rememberance
maybe it would go on for a century
if i were to fall asleep
keep the silent tear in ur mind
u'll encourage me on
givin me the courage
livin on yet with too much worries
flowers bloomed with pride
even as im inperfect
i nvr blamed anyone else
remember the most beautiful one still
let the sky shower upon me
puttin the tears tat were cried for me into my heart
and i would nvr lose it

end of the world

deeply disturbed
visions of a dream
deeply embossed on my mind
so vivd a dream
feelins the passion and emotions of each and every so deeply

and he was shoutin at his death
why has it become lidat
this aint the world tat i wanna see
i dun belong to this world

the end of the world
the earth splits
the water devours
tears of seperation
tears of fear
tears of desperation

and i'd die to save the one i love
for her. i'd put my life down
dyin at the end
but it was all worth it

most beautful of stars

Intertwined
i rather not speak
my feelins more than words

too much good in the world not understood
accompany in understandin
too much places not been
accompany me to the corners of the world
the most beautiful entrusted to memories
too much more i wanna feel

standin at the platform
the curtains of darkness fall upons the sky
settin my sights afar
into the most beautiful of stars
starin into the sky
a moment of foreverness

somewhere along the way
u brighten up my day
someone tat i love somehow

forlorn eyes tat longs for love
listless eyes tat stares into emptiness

longin to love
wantin to love
dare not to love
understandin all too well

cold to u
like theres nothin more to say
facin u with mixed emotions

words

let a tight hug replace words
let a passionate kiss replace words
my feelins are more than words

will u be there to kiss away my pain
will u be there to hold me tight

journey

the train stops here
so does our journey

baby dun cry
its not tat bad if it hurts
at least im clear
in our eyes tears
cuz love aint perfect in me

goin faraway
learnin to miss one day
the urge to be by ur side

takin empty promises to be my happy endin
holding on foolishly
forever found onli in fairytales
findin a reason to live
love is without regrets and hatred
for im without regrets and hate

strangers right from the start
awakin to heartache
lovin for the sake of separation

i could haf spent the nite with ya
i shld haf spent the nite with ya
i shld had made u stay
i could had made u stay
i could had held u in my arms
i shld had held u in my arms

not me

flippin back the pages of my life
the things tat were from a different life
things tat used to matter the most
people tat used to be the close
a person tat used to be dearest

some words nvr said
as we slowly walked away
onli if we had not been stuborn
clingin onto foolish pride
onli if we had made known our true feelins

u called and said ure lost
i called and said im afraid
wad does tat mean of us

lib

once familiar road
walkin along the sights and sounds
i see ur shadow somewhere

sittin in a most quiet of place
somewhere along
beside me stood u
so deep into a book
i turned and straight into ur eyes
ur sight on me so intense so why dun u make ur move
i moved away
u could onli stare helplessly
words tat got stuck at ur mouth
wonder wad does tat mean
sitting for hrs till i stirred
steppin away from serenity
wanderin around
walkin
walkin
melanchonic deep tots had me wondering
emotional

a sudden urge to run
amongst the grass and trees
runnin after the innocence tat i lost

tryin to go against social norm
the world seems to haf no place for a person like me
a piece of me seems to be taken away
piece by piece they take me away

walkin down the foreign yet familiar road
memories all too distant
so much till i cant even remember ur face

and i remembered the words u once told me

sacred doors

u'll haf ur own way to go
doesnt matter losin the world
in a deep slumber
the missing does not change
not to be a burden
dun need any loving

the wind scatters the cloud
healing all the wounds
flyin with broken wings doesnt equate to sacrificing
bearin unseen scars
walkin out the protected doors
a process called love tat causes pain

cups

the end of a start
the start of an end
cups filled to the brim with emotions
empty in the heart s
ome things in the heart tat could nvr be let out
others i dun mind
nothing to lose but my pride
my pride
cease to believe
pain could only hurt this much
love could only mean this much
cold's not a feelin
blue's not an emotion

pandora

right at the end
in the corner
no one cares
tats my world
my space
my peace

im not myself
wad am i really
where to find
a place to rest at peace
how am i to fly high
angel tat gave up wings
theres always u on my mind

there once laid true love before me
cherish it.i nvr
regrets onli
when it all vaporised
pain could onli hurt this much
a 2nd chance if onli permitted
usin my everythin to tell her
if theres to be a time on love
i'd say...
a million yrs

sex.lies and diamonds

losin grip
answers with deceit
facts lie and we'll someday die
hearts cry
time flies
somethin's bound to be mine
nothin's fine
neither admit nor deny
we queue in line waitin for their lies
i dun believe i dun decieve
in this life
feelins rise
rotting to the core
all the sex and diamonds

leaf

the wind blows
a leaf tat falls
fallen.nobody cares
lyin on the road
not worth even a sight
neglected.nobody bothers
a leaf tat reminded me of wad i am


i slowly forgotten
i tink i lost not juz onli u

eatin.readin
listenin.watchin
writin down pieces of u
where did the heart go

smile the world away

so easily lost in tots
as time stops
sometimes a little
juz a little
courage to fight against destiny
ignoring the danger
gonna change this world
everyone here will die
but u cant stop me
closed my eyes and take my time
u cant talk ur way round fate
i can nvr dream the way u do
for i dunno where to start
i would nvr
smilin the world away
the past in it passed
memories breaks even the strong

shootin star

the wind blowin against the lone beauty
hands wrapped round the cup
lost so easily in tots
waitin till time stops
the cup still holds
ur love and ur feelins


how distant haf we become
is there still an happy ever after for us
when we are
is it the end
awkward silence
all our past onli amounts to these words
i like so much to make u understand
u'll nvr hear
ure nvr here
we're from different worlds
all tat we can do
juz cant bridge our differences
love like the shootin star
leavin behind a moment of light

taste of life

the sands of time tat mould my face
18yrs it has been
left me feelin kinda old
life tat i've waste
with onli sweet lingerin after taste
in my pursuit of happiness

melody tat keeps me writin

come back to me

juz wanna love u simply
shldnt be so difficult
juz wanna make it rite
dun wanna miss u once again
lovin u juz one more day
and its aint so simple
i dunno if i'm too proud
or ure too stuborn
hopin tat there'll be love
and u noe tat i'll cherish love
dun wanna miss love again
and i shldnt
nvr leave again
i'll cherish u
gotta haf u back
oh baby.come back to me
my life to repay ur love
come back to me
love u baby
i'll cherish love
i'll cherish u

not true

learnin to live
without ur mornin calls
and i'll always be late
without ur encouragement
and i'll always be unmotivated
without u by my side
and i'm always feelin cold
without u to hold onto my hand
and i'm always feelin lost
without u to walk beside me
and i'll always be alone
nobody will love u better than u do
nobody will understand me better than u do
tats how i felt

we're all goin to die

torn from the inside out
maybe we were nvr we

but we're all going to die
we're goin to die
looking at the neon lights
the city bright
our minds light
away from the hustle
take me away
to the place only u and me noe

:))

the pair of eyes tat i looked into
u were there with the yellow streaked hair
a glimpse into ur eyes
and the tension in us gets so high
i turned by
u walked past
i walked past
u turned by
smile
:)
:D
:P

when memories become so distant
no longer feelin
tinkin bout ur face
tinkin bout u
someone to love
someone tat loves
let the tears fall as rain in this city for us
runnin as we fall
as we were
empty in where we feel

past tense

in whose answer is there no deceit
maybe the past was blank
and i was a past tense
the words nvr existed
as we gave up forever
maybe runnin was harder to bear
hidin away from true emotions

if avoidin could make u forget bout me
why cant i still forget bout u
if avoidin could make me forget bout u
why do i miss u even more

night

wad hurts the most
maybe i already forgotten
loneliness is her fear
fear is his loneliness

lookin at the sights outta window
i was reminded of the sorrow
bitter from sadness
a taste hard to swallow
lyin in my bed again
and i dun wanna wake up
goin back to sleep till its dark
from eleven to seven
dun feel like wakin up

how much u mean

i like to love
but even more afraid to hurt u
i like to miss u
but even wan more to be with u
i like to be with u
but even more afraid to lose u

the hardest part is leavin when ure around
i see myself when i look into yr eyes
wind blowin hard against my face
as i walked down the dusty road
my hair messed
cold dreams on the outside
warm in the inside
dreams on the otherside
fightin for pride
one more nite to hold u tight

feel like theres nth left to do
until the end of everythin
days fade
nite grows
we go cold
until this pool of blood
lettin u noe how much u mean

maybe lovin one too many
maybe hurtin in too deeply
lovin too many
lovin nobody
dunno who to love
dunno how to love
a part of u still with me
its u tat is to me
i'll be there till the end with u
all we are.all tat we are

day or nite

wakin up when the world's asleep
watchin the moon fade from view
into the dark clouds as it disappeared
goin around in circles
randomly changin buses
on an journey to no where
onli to end up passin by ur hse one too many times
forget me not
i do not need to remember for i nvr once forget
the rain fallin like the tears on ur face
unable to comprehend out differences
the tears tat u shed
a feelin darker than dark
unable to bridge our worlds
standin still as we slowly walked away
the nite tat was a day
wad does us mean
wad does tat mean of us
wad will us be

the days go by thinkin of u
is there any truth in their honesty
deceptions in everyones answer

of 5stories

i saw some tears within ur eyes
ur eyes swelled red
ur voice breakin down so slightly
as u stood outside the door
walkin with a tinge of sadness
somethin u nvr expected to get again

she will be loved
always around with someone else
and i dun share lovers
walkin in circles onli to meet again
but she will be loved

a sense of hurt stirred
seein u hurt as my heart ached
tinkin of u in my head
always turnin to look out for u
always missin one another by fate

seems to be a small world
bumpin into each other
can avoid.cant forget
seems to be a big world
yet no place to forget u
cant avoid.cant forget

in my head spinnin
a swirl of a mess
too many things
too little time
one things not over
another covered it
theres no long countdown
there no other way out
now or nvr
here comes