still believe

listening carefully to the sound of closing of doors
from grey skies to clear weather
many years it has been
from loneliness to freedom
still on rainy days
starin at blanks
listening to the windstill
a fool
still a fool

the world have already changed
but baby i still believe
and still believe rushin out onli to return home
empty no matter rain or shine
nobody feels for me anyway
they blindly run on
nvr knowing tiredness
a few more drinks tinkin i'll understand wad the answers are
no matter how sincere
nobody will get touched anyway
pure innocence left our world long ago
and they follow blindly
nvr knowing to tink

wrong for tinkin too much
wrong for havin nth at all
wrong for not understanding
wrong for not givin up
wrong for losin myself to the world
losin to myself at the end
who can ever forgive me
everything so wrong
might as well be wrong
till the end
with all i can

TTTTT

of lonely nites and empty streets
lonely roads and empty rooms
hand in hand we fall

till they tell the truth

if u could see me here this way
lookin back wads from today
stoned in love but not with u
if we could watch the past away
will we go our seperate ways
or do it all again
not tat i care

no need for much words
everything understood
an embrace says it al
la smile shows it all
i believe and believe
some pain onli our hearts noe
ure no longer the one im thinking of
and im no longer the one ure missing

nobody's child

aint no place for me
not a place in this world
i dun belong
i shld not even exist
nobody child
i'm nobody child
no reasons to stay
feelin lost and scared
to wander till i find a place i can call my own
a place i can call my home
a place tat accepts me
a place i can stay

tattered and broken
how easy it is to end a life
19yrs transcend in an instant
love me when im gone
strangers from the day i leave
alone but i'll be happy
familiarity could onli breeds contempt
turnin back could onli means sadness

everything so wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
and my family dun seem so familiar
im nobodys child still

nvr wanting to return home
till its late
wanderin around and around
cold and bitter
stuck in a situation
my solitude
my solitude
nobody understands how i used to cry in the middle of the nite
things tat i'll nvr tell
feelins tat i nvr dare admit
down and out
im torn
fuck this world tat had been unfair
fuck it all
nobody child
im nobodys child

ice queen

i wanna write the most beautiful piece for u

without any name
and totally forgetting who we were
still rememberin our short exchange
both our hearts will noe

i call u ice queen
fringe hiding tat sweet smile of urs
special in ur very own way
the more i see u the more beautiful u juz get
aint no one like u
like no other
i love it the way u are
in love with the way ya lookin at me
so shy yet so sure
mesmerised by the look in ur eyes
cant get u outta my mind
a gal like u so hard to find
been days
i'm so missin ur way
hey gal
i'm missin u
outta nothing at all
u're juz the special kinda gal ive been looking for

i call u midnight sun
the radiance shinin from ya in the depths of the nite
pure and innocent love

i call u my dearest
no matter where u are
no matter wad u'll do
u're still the most beautiful
even if i dunno u at all
lovin u all the same

i call u cute ah lian
cute ah boy love cute ah lian

some

some things better left unknown
some words better left unsaid
some feelings better left untouched
some love better left alone

the more i see
the more i hear
the more i know the more i feel this way
pouring rain outta my window
pouring rain outside ur window
some things i juz wun do
some words i juz wun say
some feelings i juz wun admit
i believe
i believe

single words

empty emotions on a sleepless nite
watched as it turned from dark to light
an overly active tear gland
a start brings an end
the light from the phone shows clearly my loneliness
rights and wrongs
truth and lies
lettin down
fragile
pain beyond comprehension
love aint complete
wantin my everything
watchin a process called love
beautiful tragedy
denying
wastin away
waitin
without me
without u
cant understand
cant remember
cant be bothered
far far away
silence
happiness
comfort
warmth
where u'll be
where i wait
transcending
lovers in name
love in flames
hatred in pain
dissipate in rain
being a fool for ya
stuborness
disappearance makes missing stronger
letting go
u cant forget it
let it be
forget it
forget it

my love for ya nvr stopped
im still writing on my writing
full of my feelins
my emotions written onto it
when ur love stopped
forgotten wad ive written
silently writin on by ur corner
facin the words ive wrote
still waitin for the one i love the most
always so easily lost in tots
nvr realisin the time
still used to writin for ya
feels like ure here still
the words tat still remind me
of the way ya lovin me

live

the burdens shadow upon my back
the senses tat i felt
perhaps tats the reason
i nvr feel like coming home
perhaps tats the reason
this place can nvr be my home
everyone has got their way to go
everyone has got their dreams to chase
everyone got something to live for
i dun remember mine
for why remember
how many does it takes
aint too long till they break
pain in my heart for a dying wish
nobody noes
nobody understands
the wind blows on my face against my wish
bringin a sense of loneliness
sadness tat runs deep
a sense of despair tat takes over
once again misunderstood
awakin to a sense of coldness in the heart
wanderin around
found no reason to stay
too many burdens to play
an elusive place called home
everything of me so wrong
the city of pain
where am i to find home
an emotional wreck
a pain deeply felt
wandering all over places
an old bus
a familiar street
sat as i watched the busy people run
the pretty people play
a thousand people
a thousand faces
a hundred lovers brushin past me
nothin seems too special
a pretty face one too many

i/u

times of my life
the good
the bad
the handsome
and the ugly
everyone has their way to go
without feelins
broken down and out

somethins tat juz cant be done
some words tat juz cant be said
some ways tat u and i juz cant go
u love me
onli enuff to sing a song
i love me
onli enuff to hear ur song

darling

a smile tat lits up the world
nothin comes close
be with u my darling
be with ya

u and i

bringin along a wanderin mind
watchin the love story unfold
how lucky i was
catchin up with ya
thks for the long journey
for the many kilometres we were together
so many times i wanted to say
to tell u how much i realli love u
outta the blue
but ure still the best
im afraid no matter how much i love u
theres no happy story for us
how i wish the bus journey would nvr end
as we part too fast
u alighted one stop before me
the bus juz too fast
rather i had abandoned myself on the road
so intense u and i nvr wanna wake up from it
the butterfly flies
finally catchin up with ya
how long more can we go on before we part
till we part
the both of us
u and i nvr realli part

4days

tears or raindrops fallin upon my face
doesnt realli matter
loneliness feels the same
tearin without a reason

a metre away
a road apart
a world apart
goin in circles
four days time
returnin to where we started from
strangers

dun ask me

i can
i believe i can
a pitch of darkness
the wavering faith
runnin along
the wind hittin against my face
my hair runnin into my eyes
brushin the itch in the eyes off
i could still run faster
i could run much faster than tat
dun ask me why
i could nvr explain myself
dun ask me why i feel tat way
i could nvr understand myself
dun ask me
dun ask me.

more than me

ure feelin lonely
ure feelin empty
but im not the one ure lookin for
one of him means more than a hundred of me to ya
how am i not be sad
time passes as blood hits the ground drip by drip
still holdin onto the last bit of hope
ure cryin
ure achin
but i aint ur consolation

wings

and u once told me
wad good would wings be
if u cant fly high
if u cant feel the wind against ur face
wad good would wings be
u rather gif them up for a true taste of love
losin everythin in an instant doesnt matter
for u did not regret
u did not cry
u said u had it once
and it was more than enuff
always tat silly
tat crazy
but tats wad i love u for
as wad u are

forget me not

i believed i'd die young
writin the emotions as a rememberance
maybe it would go on for a century
if i were to fall asleep
keep the silent tear in ur mind
u'll encourage me on
givin me the courage
livin on yet with too much worries
flowers bloomed with pride
even as im inperfect
i nvr blamed anyone else
remember the most beautiful one still
let the sky shower upon me
puttin the tears tat were cried for me into my heart
and i would nvr lose it

end of the world

deeply disturbed
visions of a dream
deeply embossed on my mind
so vivd a dream
feelins the passion and emotions of each and every so deeply

and he was shoutin at his death
why has it become lidat
this aint the world tat i wanna see
i dun belong to this world

the end of the world
the earth splits
the water devours
tears of seperation
tears of fear
tears of desperation

and i'd die to save the one i love
for her. i'd put my life down
dyin at the end
but it was all worth it

most beautful of stars

Intertwined
i rather not speak
my feelins more than words

too much good in the world not understood
accompany in understandin
too much places not been
accompany me to the corners of the world
the most beautiful entrusted to memories
too much more i wanna feel

standin at the platform
the curtains of darkness fall upons the sky
settin my sights afar
into the most beautiful of stars
starin into the sky
a moment of foreverness

somewhere along the way
u brighten up my day
someone tat i love somehow

forlorn eyes tat longs for love
listless eyes tat stares into emptiness

longin to love
wantin to love
dare not to love
understandin all too well

cold to u
like theres nothin more to say
facin u with mixed emotions

words

let a tight hug replace words
let a passionate kiss replace words
my feelins are more than words

will u be there to kiss away my pain
will u be there to hold me tight

journey

the train stops here
so does our journey

baby dun cry
its not tat bad if it hurts
at least im clear
in our eyes tears
cuz love aint perfect in me

goin faraway
learnin to miss one day
the urge to be by ur side

takin empty promises to be my happy endin
holding on foolishly
forever found onli in fairytales
findin a reason to live
love is without regrets and hatred
for im without regrets and hate

strangers right from the start
awakin to heartache
lovin for the sake of separation

i could haf spent the nite with ya
i shld haf spent the nite with ya
i shld had made u stay
i could had made u stay
i could had held u in my arms
i shld had held u in my arms

not me

flippin back the pages of my life
the things tat were from a different life
things tat used to matter the most
people tat used to be the close
a person tat used to be dearest

some words nvr said
as we slowly walked away
onli if we had not been stuborn
clingin onto foolish pride
onli if we had made known our true feelins

u called and said ure lost
i called and said im afraid
wad does tat mean of us

lib

once familiar road
walkin along the sights and sounds
i see ur shadow somewhere

sittin in a most quiet of place
somewhere along
beside me stood u
so deep into a book
i turned and straight into ur eyes
ur sight on me so intense so why dun u make ur move
i moved away
u could onli stare helplessly
words tat got stuck at ur mouth
wonder wad does tat mean
sitting for hrs till i stirred
steppin away from serenity
wanderin around
walkin
walkin
melanchonic deep tots had me wondering
emotional

a sudden urge to run
amongst the grass and trees
runnin after the innocence tat i lost

tryin to go against social norm
the world seems to haf no place for a person like me
a piece of me seems to be taken away
piece by piece they take me away

walkin down the foreign yet familiar road
memories all too distant
so much till i cant even remember ur face

and i remembered the words u once told me

sacred doors

u'll haf ur own way to go
doesnt matter losin the world
in a deep slumber
the missing does not change
not to be a burden
dun need any loving

the wind scatters the cloud
healing all the wounds
flyin with broken wings doesnt equate to sacrificing
bearin unseen scars
walkin out the protected doors
a process called love tat causes pain

cups

the end of a start
the start of an end
cups filled to the brim with emotions
empty in the heart s
ome things in the heart tat could nvr be let out
others i dun mind
nothing to lose but my pride
my pride
cease to believe
pain could only hurt this much
love could only mean this much
cold's not a feelin
blue's not an emotion

pandora

right at the end
in the corner
no one cares
tats my world
my space
my peace

im not myself
wad am i really
where to find
a place to rest at peace
how am i to fly high
angel tat gave up wings
theres always u on my mind

there once laid true love before me
cherish it.i nvr
regrets onli
when it all vaporised
pain could onli hurt this much
a 2nd chance if onli permitted
usin my everythin to tell her
if theres to be a time on love
i'd say...
a million yrs

sex.lies and diamonds

losin grip
answers with deceit
facts lie and we'll someday die
hearts cry
time flies
somethin's bound to be mine
nothin's fine
neither admit nor deny
we queue in line waitin for their lies
i dun believe i dun decieve
in this life
feelins rise
rotting to the core
all the sex and diamonds

leaf

the wind blows
a leaf tat falls
fallen.nobody cares
lyin on the road
not worth even a sight
neglected.nobody bothers
a leaf tat reminded me of wad i am


i slowly forgotten
i tink i lost not juz onli u

eatin.readin
listenin.watchin
writin down pieces of u
where did the heart go

smile the world away

so easily lost in tots
as time stops
sometimes a little
juz a little
courage to fight against destiny
ignoring the danger
gonna change this world
everyone here will die
but u cant stop me
closed my eyes and take my time
u cant talk ur way round fate
i can nvr dream the way u do
for i dunno where to start
i would nvr
smilin the world away
the past in it passed
memories breaks even the strong

shootin star

the wind blowin against the lone beauty
hands wrapped round the cup
lost so easily in tots
waitin till time stops
the cup still holds
ur love and ur feelins


how distant haf we become
is there still an happy ever after for us
when we are
is it the end
awkward silence
all our past onli amounts to these words
i like so much to make u understand
u'll nvr hear
ure nvr here
we're from different worlds
all tat we can do
juz cant bridge our differences
love like the shootin star
leavin behind a moment of light

taste of life

the sands of time tat mould my face
18yrs it has been
left me feelin kinda old
life tat i've waste
with onli sweet lingerin after taste
in my pursuit of happiness

melody tat keeps me writin

come back to me

juz wanna love u simply
shldnt be so difficult
juz wanna make it rite
dun wanna miss u once again
lovin u juz one more day
and its aint so simple
i dunno if i'm too proud
or ure too stuborn
hopin tat there'll be love
and u noe tat i'll cherish love
dun wanna miss love again
and i shldnt
nvr leave again
i'll cherish u
gotta haf u back
oh baby.come back to me
my life to repay ur love
come back to me
love u baby
i'll cherish love
i'll cherish u

not true

learnin to live
without ur mornin calls
and i'll always be late
without ur encouragement
and i'll always be unmotivated
without u by my side
and i'm always feelin cold
without u to hold onto my hand
and i'm always feelin lost
without u to walk beside me
and i'll always be alone
nobody will love u better than u do
nobody will understand me better than u do
tats how i felt

we're all goin to die

torn from the inside out
maybe we were nvr we

but we're all going to die
we're goin to die
looking at the neon lights
the city bright
our minds light
away from the hustle
take me away
to the place only u and me noe

:))

the pair of eyes tat i looked into
u were there with the yellow streaked hair
a glimpse into ur eyes
and the tension in us gets so high
i turned by
u walked past
i walked past
u turned by
smile
:)
:D
:P

when memories become so distant
no longer feelin
tinkin bout ur face
tinkin bout u
someone to love
someone tat loves
let the tears fall as rain in this city for us
runnin as we fall
as we were
empty in where we feel

past tense

in whose answer is there no deceit
maybe the past was blank
and i was a past tense
the words nvr existed
as we gave up forever
maybe runnin was harder to bear
hidin away from true emotions

if avoidin could make u forget bout me
why cant i still forget bout u
if avoidin could make me forget bout u
why do i miss u even more

night

wad hurts the most
maybe i already forgotten
loneliness is her fear
fear is his loneliness

lookin at the sights outta window
i was reminded of the sorrow
bitter from sadness
a taste hard to swallow
lyin in my bed again
and i dun wanna wake up
goin back to sleep till its dark
from eleven to seven
dun feel like wakin up

how much u mean

i like to love
but even more afraid to hurt u
i like to miss u
but even wan more to be with u
i like to be with u
but even more afraid to lose u

the hardest part is leavin when ure around
i see myself when i look into yr eyes
wind blowin hard against my face
as i walked down the dusty road
my hair messed
cold dreams on the outside
warm in the inside
dreams on the otherside
fightin for pride
one more nite to hold u tight

feel like theres nth left to do
until the end of everythin
days fade
nite grows
we go cold
until this pool of blood
lettin u noe how much u mean

maybe lovin one too many
maybe hurtin in too deeply
lovin too many
lovin nobody
dunno who to love
dunno how to love
a part of u still with me
its u tat is to me
i'll be there till the end with u
all we are.all tat we are

day or nite

wakin up when the world's asleep
watchin the moon fade from view
into the dark clouds as it disappeared
goin around in circles
randomly changin buses
on an journey to no where
onli to end up passin by ur hse one too many times
forget me not
i do not need to remember for i nvr once forget
the rain fallin like the tears on ur face
unable to comprehend out differences
the tears tat u shed
a feelin darker than dark
unable to bridge our worlds
standin still as we slowly walked away
the nite tat was a day
wad does us mean
wad does tat mean of us
wad will us be

the days go by thinkin of u
is there any truth in their honesty
deceptions in everyones answer

of 5stories

i saw some tears within ur eyes
ur eyes swelled red
ur voice breakin down so slightly
as u stood outside the door
walkin with a tinge of sadness
somethin u nvr expected to get again

she will be loved
always around with someone else
and i dun share lovers
walkin in circles onli to meet again
but she will be loved

a sense of hurt stirred
seein u hurt as my heart ached
tinkin of u in my head
always turnin to look out for u
always missin one another by fate

seems to be a small world
bumpin into each other
can avoid.cant forget
seems to be a big world
yet no place to forget u
cant avoid.cant forget

in my head spinnin
a swirl of a mess
too many things
too little time
one things not over
another covered it
theres no long countdown
there no other way out
now or nvr
here comes

fantasy

is death the end cuz i'll nvr see ur face again
is disappointment the end
cuz i'll stop missin u
is there a happily ever after
is there eternity
is there no other way in
heard too many fairytales
write one for me too
i'm juz afraid i cant wait till that day
chasin after dreams
chasin after u
no excuses
no regrets
u will be my everything
if ure my fairytale
let it last
waitin for dreams
waitin for u

time will pass and we will forget
deep feelins with little fate
treasure the destiny
memories become meaningless
maybe seperation was not easy
and love was forbidden
sadness
pain
heartache
losin u

hates loneliness but afraid of company
silent in the crowd
when even a smile cease to be
in the crowd findin any person to love
hidin from true feelins as tears start to fall

as i begin the day
seein the pretty people walk
sleepin the dreams away
i dun mean to when i hurt u
and i need u
i assure u
juz let me be when i'm crazy

no longer believin
no longer denyin
and everlastin love could not save them
forlorn figure in the rain
alone on the midnite bus
passin by ur hse
seems to be a glimpse of ur shadow

and i'm not perfect
juz all messed up
and i cant pretend

ure somethin different
different from the rest
somethin tat catches my eye
its in u
and its u i'm lookin out for
its u i'm turnin my head for
i dun wanna leave when ure near
cuz its u

sleepin beautiful
always lookin outta window
as the sights zooms by
sharin the same sight
watchin the same sunset
watched as u slowy fell asleep
u're sleepin beautiful

the way u pout
ur eyes cant hide the innocence
no need to be pretty
ure already beautiful
ure special
and tats all u need

nobody could understand
but u were there for me
silently lyin by my side
no words spoken for u understand
the silence tat i wanna keep
treasurin.learnin.lovin.cherishin

miss me miss u

lookin at u as i turned to look at u
waitin for me as i stood idlin
walkin with me as i took a step ahead
walkin apart
yet eyes fixed on one another
readin too much into one another words
accomodatin too much to one another
fate tat deals the deck
goin after u as u waited for me
fate tat plays a cruel hand
missin me
missin u
let the tears fall as rain on this rainy fri

yrs

decided to love u for a million yrs
theres no more tears
theres no more fears
my dear
if u wish to talk
i'm on all ears
singin the love songs i like to hear
ur voice is all i hear
all i need is u to be near
all i wan is for u to be here
i'm always ur dear
no matter far or near

red cheeks flushed

i wanna believe in the fairytales with u
i wanna believe in miracles with u
when i die
is tat the end?
i'll nvr see her face again
i'll nvr be here again
with ur smile in my heart till eternity
always a part of me

tears flow down her cheeks
her face flushed red
down the cheeks
of the face i'd like to touch
of the face i used to touch
warmth of tears
and the warmth of her face
coldness of tears
and the coldness of her hands
down the soft gentle face
dark round eyes with flowin hair
soft round nose above the passionate lips
wiped the tears off her face
cuz i cant bear to see her in this state
i realli cant
and i promised her
i always will

an unsettled mind to start off mon
even the simplest words i cant say
the scent of ur hair in the air
the words tat u say
i'm melted
lookin for u
lovin u

i exist here cuz of the promise
bringin along onli hope
among the crowd
i seem to hear ur voice
to my left
i seem to see ur face
maybe in ur world is another language
tat i cant seem to understand
too weak to go after
forgot bout our laughter
too pathetic our existence
at the end
wad does us means?

a peck on the forehead
warmth as love slowly subsides
becomin colder
gettin used to it
as the heart beats
realisin tat happiness was more than enough

07-1

lookin in from the outside
while u look out from the inside

wad is a world without pain
will it be a world worth livin in
so fast the pace of the city
nvr findin a moment to breath
its onli me tats slow to show love
in a black and white
somehow findin myself grey
everythin seems so wrong
in my hands i once grasped
allowin myself to indulge in the familiar scent
emotions tat evoked devotion

everythin is true
everythin is new
everythin is u

the sensible truth was incomprehensible

the words tat are the hardest to say
the feelins tat are the hardest to express

wad hurts the most
maybe i already forgot
loneliness is her fear
fear is his loneliness

2006last

feelins so strong
lastin for so long
i cant forget
cuz ure in my head
feels like theres so much to say
coincidence or fate
doesnt realli matter
juz wanna make u my date

a confession of me
sayin i love u
the hardest secret to say
sayin tat u do
leanin on my shoulder
the sweetest thing
seein myself in ur assured eyes
tats beauty
i muz say i'm in love
in love with u

all the millions of people tat aint happy
how much can i do alone
at least not juz a bystander
let there be peace and mercy
and i'll be comforted to noe tat
let the tears not flow
cuz i'll hold on to ur hand
i'll be there to wipe ur tears
and i'll be there when u need somebody

i love the way u looked at me
lookin at me
lookin at u
an exchange
the ocassional obligated conversation
juz a brief axchange
so short tat it cannot be forgotten
on ur mind as u're on mine
goin our seperate ways
special for the brief encounter
special enough for me
love for 3hrs
sometimes more than theirs for 30yrs
tats good enough for me

strangers/lovers

exchangin of loneliness
in the middle of the nite
somewhere in this city
where empty people gather
a person alone on the streets
accompanied by a stranger he noes
hands tat once held tight together
can no longer be held
a pair of lovers tat once existed
seems to be strangers now
how do a pair of parallel lines intersect
goin in opposite directions
of wad used to be a meetin place
turned to a point of pain
and a moment of happiness
all seems like sadness
a conversation tat turned too silent
each avoidin another's eye
promises became vauge
silence tat onli amounts to this awkwardness
the reluctant partin of ways
pain within her heart
achin inside his heart
hesitant to say goodbye
hopin to hold onto one more second
turnin back for one last glance
as they both did
tears swellin in each other eyes
yet continuin to walk forward
with him in her heart forever
with her in tat space of his heart always
nvr to forget as they both promised