fantasy

is death the end cuz i'll nvr see ur face again
is disappointment the end
cuz i'll stop missin u
is there a happily ever after
is there eternity
is there no other way in
heard too many fairytales
write one for me too
i'm juz afraid i cant wait till that day
chasin after dreams
chasin after u
no excuses
no regrets
u will be my everything
if ure my fairytale
let it last
waitin for dreams
waitin for u

time will pass and we will forget
deep feelins with little fate
treasure the destiny
memories become meaningless
maybe seperation was not easy
and love was forbidden
sadness
pain
heartache
losin u

hates loneliness but afraid of company
silent in the crowd
when even a smile cease to be
in the crowd findin any person to love
hidin from true feelins as tears start to fall

as i begin the day
seein the pretty people walk
sleepin the dreams away
i dun mean to when i hurt u
and i need u
i assure u
juz let me be when i'm crazy

no longer believin
no longer denyin
and everlastin love could not save them
forlorn figure in the rain
alone on the midnite bus
passin by ur hse
seems to be a glimpse of ur shadow

and i'm not perfect
juz all messed up
and i cant pretend

ure somethin different
different from the rest
somethin tat catches my eye
its in u
and its u i'm lookin out for
its u i'm turnin my head for
i dun wanna leave when ure near
cuz its u

sleepin beautiful
always lookin outta window
as the sights zooms by
sharin the same sight
watchin the same sunset
watched as u slowy fell asleep
u're sleepin beautiful

the way u pout
ur eyes cant hide the innocence
no need to be pretty
ure already beautiful
ure special
and tats all u need

nobody could understand
but u were there for me
silently lyin by my side
no words spoken for u understand
the silence tat i wanna keep
treasurin.learnin.lovin.cherishin

miss me miss u

lookin at u as i turned to look at u
waitin for me as i stood idlin
walkin with me as i took a step ahead
walkin apart
yet eyes fixed on one another
readin too much into one another words
accomodatin too much to one another
fate tat deals the deck
goin after u as u waited for me
fate tat plays a cruel hand
missin me
missin u
let the tears fall as rain on this rainy fri

yrs

decided to love u for a million yrs
theres no more tears
theres no more fears
my dear
if u wish to talk
i'm on all ears
singin the love songs i like to hear
ur voice is all i hear
all i need is u to be near
all i wan is for u to be here
i'm always ur dear
no matter far or near

red cheeks flushed

i wanna believe in the fairytales with u
i wanna believe in miracles with u
when i die
is tat the end?
i'll nvr see her face again
i'll nvr be here again
with ur smile in my heart till eternity
always a part of me

tears flow down her cheeks
her face flushed red
down the cheeks
of the face i'd like to touch
of the face i used to touch
warmth of tears
and the warmth of her face
coldness of tears
and the coldness of her hands
down the soft gentle face
dark round eyes with flowin hair
soft round nose above the passionate lips
wiped the tears off her face
cuz i cant bear to see her in this state
i realli cant
and i promised her
i always will

an unsettled mind to start off mon
even the simplest words i cant say
the scent of ur hair in the air
the words tat u say
i'm melted
lookin for u
lovin u

i exist here cuz of the promise
bringin along onli hope
among the crowd
i seem to hear ur voice
to my left
i seem to see ur face
maybe in ur world is another language
tat i cant seem to understand
too weak to go after
forgot bout our laughter
too pathetic our existence
at the end
wad does us means?

a peck on the forehead
warmth as love slowly subsides
becomin colder
gettin used to it
as the heart beats
realisin tat happiness was more than enough

07-1

lookin in from the outside
while u look out from the inside

wad is a world without pain
will it be a world worth livin in
so fast the pace of the city
nvr findin a moment to breath
its onli me tats slow to show love
in a black and white
somehow findin myself grey
everythin seems so wrong
in my hands i once grasped
allowin myself to indulge in the familiar scent
emotions tat evoked devotion

everythin is true
everythin is new
everythin is u

the sensible truth was incomprehensible

the words tat are the hardest to say
the feelins tat are the hardest to express

wad hurts the most
maybe i already forgot
loneliness is her fear
fear is his loneliness

2006last

feelins so strong
lastin for so long
i cant forget
cuz ure in my head
feels like theres so much to say
coincidence or fate
doesnt realli matter
juz wanna make u my date

a confession of me
sayin i love u
the hardest secret to say
sayin tat u do
leanin on my shoulder
the sweetest thing
seein myself in ur assured eyes
tats beauty
i muz say i'm in love
in love with u

all the millions of people tat aint happy
how much can i do alone
at least not juz a bystander
let there be peace and mercy
and i'll be comforted to noe tat
let the tears not flow
cuz i'll hold on to ur hand
i'll be there to wipe ur tears
and i'll be there when u need somebody

i love the way u looked at me
lookin at me
lookin at u
an exchange
the ocassional obligated conversation
juz a brief axchange
so short tat it cannot be forgotten
on ur mind as u're on mine
goin our seperate ways
special for the brief encounter
special enough for me
love for 3hrs
sometimes more than theirs for 30yrs
tats good enough for me

strangers/lovers

exchangin of loneliness
in the middle of the nite
somewhere in this city
where empty people gather
a person alone on the streets
accompanied by a stranger he noes
hands tat once held tight together
can no longer be held
a pair of lovers tat once existed
seems to be strangers now
how do a pair of parallel lines intersect
goin in opposite directions
of wad used to be a meetin place
turned to a point of pain
and a moment of happiness
all seems like sadness
a conversation tat turned too silent
each avoidin another's eye
promises became vauge
silence tat onli amounts to this awkwardness
the reluctant partin of ways
pain within her heart
achin inside his heart
hesitant to say goodbye
hopin to hold onto one more second
turnin back for one last glance
as they both did
tears swellin in each other eyes
yet continuin to walk forward
with him in her heart forever
with her in tat space of his heart always
nvr to forget as they both promised

my private fantasy

cuz ure beautiful
takin a 2nd look at u
as i saw myself within ur eyes

i dreamt of the most beautiful things
but none as perfect compared to u
the beautiful sights
the special visions
the perfect endin
the happily ever after

the most vivid of dreams
one tat i held her hand
kissed her lips
touched my heart
felt her warmth
felt her love
hand in hand
step by step
up the hill for a most beautiful sight
an array of stars
shinin for juz me and u
lyin in my comfort as i held u so close
so tight cuz i nvr wanna let u go
cuz i'm nvr lettin go forever
under the stars
face to face
i love u and i always will
juz like this till forever
so pretty in her white gown
ure my private fantasy
the cool breeze against ur hair
flowin all so gently
everythin so simple
juz lovin u.lovin me
till we both fall asleep
on my shoulders.in ur comfort
i wanna hold u forever
awakin to onli u and me
goin on forever

december

the onli way i noe
until then i juz realised
hopes and fears
my dear
i've decided
turnin back the pages of my writins
hearts
juz not into it
cant seem to carry on
when words seems short
and things dun last
starin into empty space
thinkin of how to write
findin the words in my mind
closed my eyes as i tot
tears in the heart blurrin the vision
but u cant see

cuz ure beautiful
everyone noes
if tears could speak
when we're juz sick of one another
but actin busy instead
juz me tat cant sweet talk
sorry
knew of the forlorness of love songs
standin under the december rain
juz cant bridge our differences
in this lifetime
standin by the sides
watchin u

lines and words

always suddenly rememberin the songs u sing
always tat soft sweet gentle
touchin my heart
and i'm juz a song in ur eyes
lookin for love in words
onli to find the most beautiful lines comin from u

run in the rain

runnin in the rain
makes me felt so refreshed
the wind rescinind against my face
the rain drops fallin on my face
spreadin out my hands as wings
holdin them high wide out
i nvr felt so free
lettin go of all tat i cared
for tat moment i am free

a run in the rain
i run forward by myself
i can see it
i can hear it
usin everythin ive got to run
juz feelin so free

the wind on my face
as i pushed against it
my hair blown up and messy
but i care less

the rain drops on my face
as i ran in the rain
even though theres a tinge of pain
and i'm gettin downright wet
but i care less

juz runnin down the stretch of dark road
continuin to run
juz run

a run in the rain
i love

promise

i still remembered
things will change but the heart will not
time will go but the memories dun fade
this feelin is real
each moment is true
u'll always haf tat space in my heart
until the day i die
until the end of the world

let the dawn nvr come
let the nite nvr end
let this feelin linger
let this moment last
let me enjoy the scent tat could onli be u
let me be close to u

a pair of cold hands
i'll hold them tight
thru the winter.spring.summer and autumn
my promise

double

a nite so good
i'm seein double
if onli u noe wad i mean
if onli i noe wad u mean
if onli i noe where u been
if onli u seen wad i've seen

from here to all around the world
at the end of the road
where do we go next

noe

dun haf to say
dun need for words
i noe
cant go back to the past
cant go into the future
wad am i doin

a pleasant ride
a pleasant suprise
was it coincidence
was it fate
i wanna noe
i'm gonna noe

u

closed my eyes
takin in the familiar scent of urs
makes me think so much bout u
rain falls like tears from the sky
maybe u're feelin the same way as i do bout u

let me say these words before u go
close the doors leavin the world behind
missin u can onli be put to the back of my head
i'll leave soon after the rain stops
the rain juz keeps fallin when u're not around
the crowd dispersed
the rain stopped
but i'm still standin here
livin with a tinge of u in everythin
a part of u still lingers in me
i can onli do so
opened my eyes into the blankness

why do i feel a sense of warmth
i dun realli noe u
why is there a sense of comfort
a sense of a feelin so strange
tat kinda feelin i had from u
a special request from u and i gladly obliged
a sense of warmth and comfort from u

its a small world after all
so much tat i wanna forget u
i still see u

its a big world after all
if its not
why cant i be with u

the dreams tat i had
had not changed still
the dark crave for the light
life has got somethin to it
wait for me
pls wait for me
till our promise become a smile on our faces

though u had a smile
but u're achin inside
i see it all in my eyes

feelins tat staled
leaves behind regrets and memories

cuz i love u

still remembered the promise tat we made
ventin frustrations on myself seems useless
seems like i cant think it through still
although the pain gettin more obvious
my breathin gettin heavier
leavin u was most painful

livin life day by day
without any aims
leadin a broken life
i'm juz like without a soul
wanderin all around
there seems to be no hope
no tears for self pity
nobody here with me on such a lonely street

cuz u're not perfect
tats why i love u even more

emptiness

another day
another life
another hand to hold
another sun to shine
another home to stay
another way
another soul
another person by my side

my happiness is not somethin u can gif
destroy everythin for i dun care
the wind blowin
the cold with me for the nite
nvr knew it could be so pathetic
i dun care no more
no regrets
no backin down
juz so certain chasin after the dreams

in this city i got drowned out by the crowds
juz another face in the crowd
would u take a 2nd look at me
why would u do so
why would u care
why would u even notice
juz another passerby in ur life
this nite got a melochony to it
sweet memories in the mind
sad at the same time
intense with feelins
emotional
tired
afraid
a step back or forward
maybe not movin is the easiet
lettin things go their way
emptiness comes after adrenaline

somethin for ya

3am i'm wide awake
dun wanna close my eyes at all
hangin on to the last moment
dun wanna be thinkin bout u
dun wanna be hidin my face in the pillow
juz holdin on till i get knocked out

1133am i woke up late
why would it be this way
rushed myself off to skool away
and i'm on my way
but even if i make it
i'll still be late
time juz dun wait
but i still dun believe in fate
when all hopes slowly fade
and too many words not said
always tat misunderstood
dun wish to explain myself anymore
dun need to prove anythin
i am myself
i am me
i haf changed
but i am still the same
since wadever i do is wrong
might as well be wrong till the end
i wanna be wrong with all my best

2pm in class and i'm writin away
it'll be another long day
been the same for monday
again for today
theres still wed.thurs and fri
its a long long way

nothin in my world stay
everythin and everyone juz fade away
how long has it been since May
6mths and its gonna end
anyway thks

walkin away

so haggard tat i cant recognise myself
a case of mental fatigue
guess i finally subcumbed after so long
hope and dreams seems to fade day by day
the rain comes one after another
the rain comes day after day
runnin thru the rain
walkin thru the rain
standin in the rain
seems like i can no longer go on
as i saw u there while u did not
i slowly turned my back away
draggin my feet along the way
walkin off away
against my will
against my will

2 contrasts

the rain keeps fallin
i'm all alone
should i cry
should i laugh
or should i juz forget it all
never mind
its time i wake up its
time to back down
time tat this honeymoon period has ended
empty out everythin
thinkin bout it
u would move on too
time to go
might as well juz laugh it off
forget it and i dun need to wait
dun dare to sleep
dun wanna wake up
afraid tat it might be too much to bear
u've gone
in the nite
u're being missed
and i'm confused again
never mind
juz take it tat i think too much


the sky beautiful
with a light blue hue
but it all pales beside u
the things u spoke of
thinkin bout my world
dark to the borders
yet a curiousity tat make me wanna take a look into ur world
fallin in love with u accidentaly
how should i love u
i'm silent and cautious
juz hopin tat u would noe of my heart to u
how should i love u
dun wanna see u wander around anymore
hidin ur sadness without a trace

contempt

dun look at me tat way
dun gimme tat scant look of urs
those pair of eyes
filled me with disgust
filled me with contempt
not as if i did somethin wrong
juz tat u could not accept
its no fault of mine
so dun give me tat fuckin look
stop makin tat face at me
u cant judge me for wad i am
u cant stop me for wad i am
i dun need ur acceptance
not a fuckin bit
no need for u to tell me wad to do
u nvr noe wad i've been thru
juz shut the fuck up

tots

cant even face up to my true feelins
all i done is runnin away
how i can tell u
when i cant even be honest to myself
my head spinnin
juz gettin more and more confused
do i or do i not
do u or do u not

time will pass but the memories dun fade
things will change but the heart will be the same

i'll be there by the side
i'll be there when u call me
i'll be there when u need me
i'll be here waitin
i will be...

the rain stopped
the crowd dispersed
i'm still standin here

time

a sec to breathe
a min to see
an hr to live
a day to dream
a week to share
a month to hold
a yr to understand
forever with the one

those who dunno are innocent
wad is givin up
when things haf already come to the end
does it still drags on
the sky laughin at me
laughin at me for being foolish
i tried to laugh it off
but deep inside
gimme the poison
for destroyin myself
actually i noe
losin i cannot take it
destroy me the way u would
tear me to pieces
all the beautiful
forget it all

goin after crazily in wad seems like yesterday
backin off with all i got today
hopin the feelin will go away
ur heart wavers
juz not into it
i laughed to myself yet
sayin tat ure not important
cold inside the heart under the sun
burn everythin to leave onli the moments of flashes
part here and nvr meet again

my tears

tear is nvr endin
cry till u're happy
when ur tears stop flowin tonite
it still flows another day
a tear does not haf feelins
a tear does not dry
a tear cannot cry
a tear reminds me
a tear is precious
a tear tat stays
stained me till this day
and i cant make it go away
but maybe its better this way

mistakes beautiful

identity crisis back then
tryin hard to get rid of my yesterday
put my true self behind me
but so wad now
i'm still feelin empty
feelin blue
feelin nth at all
numbed myself
all the things i juz got rid of them
couldnt be gd to u with all my heart
too proud and arrogant
and tats all tat will come outta it
i deserve it
all the beautiful i destroyed with my own hands
i tarnished them

the world is still the same
onli i haf changed
maybe i done everythin wrong
maybe i dun understand at all
maybe i'm the onli one tat sinned
yesterday could onli seems so farwaway

nobody understand
nobody remembers
nothin said
nothin done
lovin u
lovin me
a last nite
or juz one more nite
a last chance
like the last token
fades into the nite
at sunset
waitin for darkness
windows and doors closed
a shootin star falls
for u
for me
tear into pieces
throw them apart
piece them together again
but u find it'll nvr be the same
forget it
i shld be more than happy with wad i been gettin already
but mistakes like u so beautiful
i still see the right of the wrong

so pure

holdin onto somethin tat i believe in
my hope
my faith
tearin is more painful than bleedin

the dreams tat i could dream bout
2am in the mornin
writin away
i wake up facin the world
killed off the feelins
loneliness a word to understand
an expression without feelins
so beautiful tat a tear was dropped
so pure
so pure
runnin in the rain
walkin in the sun
goin against the wind

emptiness

in this city i got drowned
by the people and the crowds
would u take a 2nd look at me
why would u do so
why would u care
why would u even notice
juz a passer by in ur life
a step foward
or a step back
maybe not movin is the easiest
lettin things go their way
emptiness comes after adrenaline

noe its foolish
noe its stupid
but i'm still hopin

u gave me a reason to believe
u gave me a reason to smile
i would nvr haf understood
until u told me why
and it made so much sense
a feelin so sweet
still lingers in my mind
the sweet scent of urs so gd
how i wished tat day would nvr end

beautiful day not cuz of anythin else
beautiful cuz it has u
in my life for at least a day
a walk to remember

sorry

all the pages of u
the pages of my life
forms a chapter
and a book

tonite is cold
i'll still be waitin
waitin for wad i dunno
maybe its tml
maybe it hope
maybe its love
maybe its u

a song of sorrow
a song of joy
a song for tml
a song for me
sing me a song
not too happy
not too sad
a song of mixed emotions
in my dreams one day

can i hope for forever
in my life i dream
in my dream i live
will u be my little star
the sky turns dark
juz another day passes
the sky turns bright
juz another day arrives

if theres somethin
its better left unsaid
i understand the silence more than anyone else
the moonlight pales to ur allure
in the silence i remembered
in the dark i sat
in ur eyes warmth i saw

right or wrong
left or right
how far is faraway
how long is forever
i realised the beauty in everythin

the long nite
dark and cold
cold and lonely
tears dun haf feelins
onli people do
the single tear tat does not dry
without a past
writin bout the perfect beauty

sorry

another one

the tv playin some borin programme
while i sit on the bus
put some music into my ears
went round the corners
and into another
movin on the road
singin in my head
goin and goin forever

another day
another way
another time

stars tat we see

a star tat does not shine
a star tat lost its shine
lost in the nite sky
as i walked down the street
as i sat on the bus
as i lied on my bed
as i lift my head and watch the sky

seein the people in pairs
while i get drowned in the crowd
lost and waitin to be found

the same sky tat we all see
the same sky tat we all share
the sorrow of the star

take my hand
and take me away
to a thousand miles away
to the special place

wad am i waitin for
maybe hope
maybe love
maybe u

numbed myself
cuz i feel for juz too many things
numbed myself too much and now i dun feel
i forgot how to love
i forgot how to express my feelins
i forgot how to feel
i forgot...

wonderin

wad would haf been
wad would haf been gone
how would it haf ended
wad would had happened
a name far from my memory
a name deep in my history
cropped outta the blue
left me wonderin

familiar faces
different place
different roles
different situation
so near yet so far
so familiar yet so much like strangers

worried

i'm gettin worried
tat my world will be without u
i'm gettin flustered
tat i wun be able to see u
u're on my mind

my whole situation

all my memories so blurry
everyone around me all seems so fake
onli seems to care bout themselves
even goin all out juz to do tat
juz so fake and selfish
i noe i cant change anythin bout wads been and gone
but i juz feel so fuckin disgusted
a feelin of betrayal sear across my heart
leavin a bitter after taste
so juz fuck you and wadeva up with u

my head spinnin and throbbin
all the problems tat i've been runnin away from
all of those tat i've been hidin away from
has finally caught up with me
i can no longer not face them anymore
i'm scared tat i'll make the wrong move
i'm afraid tat i'm not good enuff
i'm juz damn fuckin insecure
all the emotions stuck up within of me comes to this
feels like i can no longer take it
stop forcin me
cryin out for help but no one hears
slowly slippin off the edge
i hate myself for being me
i hate myself for everythin

so love me when i'm gone
miss me when i'm gone
i cant hide
i cant run
maybe... onli maybe
everythin tat i am
i'm alive
i'm alone
maybe...onli maybe
till the day i make it
day after day
nite after nite
dream to love
love to dream
till the end
live to dream
dream to live
till the end


where is the place tat i can return to
my startin point
badly in need of refreshin
a reason for continuin
motivation for me
fightin within myself
fightin outside of myself
i gotta take up my rusty sword once again
i gotta take up the sword to fight for my peace
a dogfight

sleep away

a place tat i can realli call my home
without all the disturbance
a home tat i'll feel like returnin to
so tat i wun loiter around
i shut the door
i blasted the music
i lied on the bed
i closed mu eyes
hopin tat this will be it
but how can it be
i dun feel like i belong at all
all the nites tat i slept outside
tryin to create some space of my own
but people juz keeps disturbin
with all the objections tat u all haf to say
why cant juz leave me alone
let it be
let me be
it juz makes me wanna runaway more
break away as soon as possible
fly to somewhere faraway
i wonder who will be there with me
and will it be u till the end

down

emo plus emo leaves me a blackhole
wad am i to do with so much sorrow
in this world is there anythin left for me to hold
day by day i grow old
my mind and my soul

the more i try not to tink
the more i tink
cuz its frustratin not to noe
and i'm probably in love with u
so i care
i dunno if its a sweet dream or a nitemare
into the blank spaces i stare

fireworks

the fireworks tat shine
onli for tat one moment
all its life juz for this one moment
to go out in blazin glory
where everyone gathers to watch
where everyone remembers
i wanna be like the fireworks
i dun care if i shine onli for tat one moment
i wanna be the blazin moment
the one tat people will remember
the one tat people will see
i wanna shine with all my might
even if its juz for one nite
the one tat everyone will remember forever
i will be

keep on fightin

fight against it
no matter wad it is

how do i learn to live
in a tml tat i've nvr lived in before
wad would be a world without love
somethin i've nvr seen
places i've nvr been
and i dun believe tat this is the end
the tml tat i fight for

the day and nite

sleep in the lonely nites
away to the sound of my techno lullaby
addicted to the sound
sing me a techno lullaby

such a nite
feelins overflowin
i could need a cry but i wun

my dreams were made before u came into my life
how many rainbows can there be in a sky
days will pass me by
leavin me behind in time

the darker the sky
the more stars u will see
so can u see the stars in the nite
or are they juz neon lights

somthin to tide over

no need to say much
juz like the quietness
i'm much a nobody
juz a face among the crowd
was it coincidence or fate
everythin changed not cuz of me but of u

run run

the last piece of memory
tats all but gone
without any traces of it at all
my mind full of tots
wantin to say things out
there is little i can do
feels like i cant adjust
i noe i need to leave
but now where am i supposed to go to
time has not come
i still have to bear some more
pain in each swallow
feelin wun go away
so sick and tired of all the crap
nobodys around when i do
if onli there could be a 2nd chance
i'll do all my wrong rite
i'll live my life different
well if onli...
i could be lidat
maybe i would
i would gif up everythin
with me nothin
holdin onto tat piece of hope
heaven slowly turns too dark
if onli someone could tell me
wad i'll be wanderin around
i'm still nobodys child
i've got no luck
the onli way to survive
to runaway

so wad

4am last nite
i'm still wide awake
the lights off but i still see it all
all the problems of mine
even if i noe how to solve
i dun haf the means to
if i could then it would be not so bad
slept too much
i woke up late
i even missed my bus
noe i gonna get shit
its not the end
even if i made it good t
hey still look me upon a diff light