noe its foolish
noe its stupid
but i'm still hopin

u gave me a reason to believe
u gave me a reason to smile
i would nvr haf understood
until u told me why
and it made so much sense
a feelin so sweet
still lingers in my mind
the sweet scent of urs so gd
how i wished tat day would nvr end

beautiful day not cuz of anythin else
beautiful cuz it has u
in my life for at least a day
a walk to remember

sorry

all the pages of u
the pages of my life
forms a chapter
and a book

tonite is cold
i'll still be waitin
waitin for wad i dunno
maybe its tml
maybe it hope
maybe its love
maybe its u

a song of sorrow
a song of joy
a song for tml
a song for me
sing me a song
not too happy
not too sad
a song of mixed emotions
in my dreams one day

can i hope for forever
in my life i dream
in my dream i live
will u be my little star
the sky turns dark
juz another day passes
the sky turns bright
juz another day arrives

if theres somethin
its better left unsaid
i understand the silence more than anyone else
the moonlight pales to ur allure
in the silence i remembered
in the dark i sat
in ur eyes warmth i saw

right or wrong
left or right
how far is faraway
how long is forever
i realised the beauty in everythin

the long nite
dark and cold
cold and lonely
tears dun haf feelins
onli people do
the single tear tat does not dry
without a past
writin bout the perfect beauty

sorry

another one

the tv playin some borin programme
while i sit on the bus
put some music into my ears
went round the corners
and into another
movin on the road
singin in my head
goin and goin forever

another day
another way
another time

stars tat we see

a star tat does not shine
a star tat lost its shine
lost in the nite sky
as i walked down the street
as i sat on the bus
as i lied on my bed
as i lift my head and watch the sky

seein the people in pairs
while i get drowned in the crowd
lost and waitin to be found

the same sky tat we all see
the same sky tat we all share
the sorrow of the star

take my hand
and take me away
to a thousand miles away
to the special place

wad am i waitin for
maybe hope
maybe love
maybe u

numbed myself
cuz i feel for juz too many things
numbed myself too much and now i dun feel
i forgot how to love
i forgot how to express my feelins
i forgot how to feel
i forgot...

wonderin

wad would haf been
wad would haf been gone
how would it haf ended
wad would had happened
a name far from my memory
a name deep in my history
cropped outta the blue
left me wonderin

familiar faces
different place
different roles
different situation
so near yet so far
so familiar yet so much like strangers

worried

i'm gettin worried
tat my world will be without u
i'm gettin flustered
tat i wun be able to see u
u're on my mind

my whole situation

all my memories so blurry
everyone around me all seems so fake
onli seems to care bout themselves
even goin all out juz to do tat
juz so fake and selfish
i noe i cant change anythin bout wads been and gone
but i juz feel so fuckin disgusted
a feelin of betrayal sear across my heart
leavin a bitter after taste
so juz fuck you and wadeva up with u

my head spinnin and throbbin
all the problems tat i've been runnin away from
all of those tat i've been hidin away from
has finally caught up with me
i can no longer not face them anymore
i'm scared tat i'll make the wrong move
i'm afraid tat i'm not good enuff
i'm juz damn fuckin insecure
all the emotions stuck up within of me comes to this
feels like i can no longer take it
stop forcin me
cryin out for help but no one hears
slowly slippin off the edge
i hate myself for being me
i hate myself for everythin

so love me when i'm gone
miss me when i'm gone
i cant hide
i cant run
maybe... onli maybe
everythin tat i am
i'm alive
i'm alone
maybe...onli maybe
till the day i make it
day after day
nite after nite
dream to love
love to dream
till the end
live to dream
dream to live
till the end


where is the place tat i can return to
my startin point
badly in need of refreshin
a reason for continuin
motivation for me
fightin within myself
fightin outside of myself
i gotta take up my rusty sword once again
i gotta take up the sword to fight for my peace
a dogfight

sleep away

a place tat i can realli call my home
without all the disturbance
a home tat i'll feel like returnin to
so tat i wun loiter around
i shut the door
i blasted the music
i lied on the bed
i closed mu eyes
hopin tat this will be it
but how can it be
i dun feel like i belong at all
all the nites tat i slept outside
tryin to create some space of my own
but people juz keeps disturbin
with all the objections tat u all haf to say
why cant juz leave me alone
let it be
let me be
it juz makes me wanna runaway more
break away as soon as possible
fly to somewhere faraway
i wonder who will be there with me
and will it be u till the end

down

emo plus emo leaves me a blackhole
wad am i to do with so much sorrow
in this world is there anythin left for me to hold
day by day i grow old
my mind and my soul

the more i try not to tink
the more i tink
cuz its frustratin not to noe
and i'm probably in love with u
so i care
i dunno if its a sweet dream or a nitemare
into the blank spaces i stare

fireworks

the fireworks tat shine
onli for tat one moment
all its life juz for this one moment
to go out in blazin glory
where everyone gathers to watch
where everyone remembers
i wanna be like the fireworks
i dun care if i shine onli for tat one moment
i wanna be the blazin moment
the one tat people will remember
the one tat people will see
i wanna shine with all my might
even if its juz for one nite
the one tat everyone will remember forever
i will be

keep on fightin

fight against it
no matter wad it is

how do i learn to live
in a tml tat i've nvr lived in before
wad would be a world without love
somethin i've nvr seen
places i've nvr been
and i dun believe tat this is the end
the tml tat i fight for

the day and nite

sleep in the lonely nites
away to the sound of my techno lullaby
addicted to the sound
sing me a techno lullaby

such a nite
feelins overflowin
i could need a cry but i wun

my dreams were made before u came into my life
how many rainbows can there be in a sky
days will pass me by
leavin me behind in time

the darker the sky
the more stars u will see
so can u see the stars in the nite
or are they juz neon lights

somthin to tide over

no need to say much
juz like the quietness
i'm much a nobody
juz a face among the crowd
was it coincidence or fate
everythin changed not cuz of me but of u

run run

the last piece of memory
tats all but gone
without any traces of it at all
my mind full of tots
wantin to say things out
there is little i can do
feels like i cant adjust
i noe i need to leave
but now where am i supposed to go to
time has not come
i still have to bear some more
pain in each swallow
feelin wun go away
so sick and tired of all the crap
nobodys around when i do
if onli there could be a 2nd chance
i'll do all my wrong rite
i'll live my life different
well if onli...
i could be lidat
maybe i would
i would gif up everythin
with me nothin
holdin onto tat piece of hope
heaven slowly turns too dark
if onli someone could tell me
wad i'll be wanderin around
i'm still nobodys child
i've got no luck
the onli way to survive
to runaway

so wad

4am last nite
i'm still wide awake
the lights off but i still see it all
all the problems of mine
even if i noe how to solve
i dun haf the means to
if i could then it would be not so bad
slept too much
i woke up late
i even missed my bus
noe i gonna get shit
its not the end
even if i made it good t
hey still look me upon a diff light

a place tat close

14 of us
14 weeks of fun
14 weeks together
14 weeks of laughter
these times i'll remember
14 weeks we worked together
and we cleared every single hurdle
we stayed and left together
time flew pass and gone
we've no time left anymore
though i noe we'll meet
i cant help but feel
i noe i wun forget
and i nvr will
the days spent
it stays in my mind.my heart.my soul
always a part of me
though we were sad
we had to move on
but nothin is better
when it can stay in the heart
a place u always can find
a place always tat close

escape

happiness
a word so far from u and me
i wish i could share ur burden
i noe wads hurtin u
together we'll escape
to a place wheres there no cares
under the apple tree tats waitin for u and me
let us both take each other away
lets go to the place where nobody goes
onli for u and me
together we'll fly away
fulfill every of ur dreams
we can make it
we'll be able to get outta the mess we're in
i'll go anywhere with u
to anywhere faraway
escape.u and me
there'll be somewhere we can go
somewhere we will onli noe
there has to be somewhere tat is faraway
misunderstood both u and me
tired of explainin ourselves
we let them be
wadever they tink of u and me
we dun gif a damm
we'll be strong together
nothin left for us to stay
we'll leave and stop our pain
walkin away together in this pourin rain

beautiful world

its a beautiful world
no need to tink bout the ugly side of it
it doesnt matter if its rite or wrong
as long as u're happy bout it
the world keeps goin on
not hear the noise tat they are makin
my ears full of my music onli
u dun need to believe in all the talk they say
no matter how dark ur world is
it'll brighten up one day
u're stronger than u tink u are
i'm noe i'm not good at words
but i'm here
willin to be with u
those eyes of urs
i wonder who they tink bout
cant bear to know tat u're sad
to see u tired
to see u despair
but i could onli stay by the sides
and i'll be there for u

to the gal

saw a side of u tat i nvr knew
knowin of tat made my eyes red
sufferin in silence
under ur mask of no emotions
i nvr knew tat u would be this way too
so sorry for not understandin
i always tot u were stronger than me
now i finally noe
heres to the gal who suffers in her own silence
to the gal whos afraid tat she might get people into her problems
i would runaway together with u
i would escape together with u
to anywhere u wanna go
i will come whenever u need me close
close ur eyes and feel
i'll go around the world with u
i'll love u
i will hold u tight
from this dawn deep into the nite
i wun let go
we'll be dancin in this july rainy nite

the last of u

hate and pain all felt under the pourin rain
its fate tat still likes to play a fool
and i dunno if its all too late
in the wake of the things tat i was nvr told
now and then
if i fall
the last i saw of u
the last time
the last chance tat we're ever gonna get
too fast and u tot it'll last
its way past 3 am
but still here i am
maybe i've strayed too far
nothin seems to go my way
nothin seems to be
lookin at me

nothin to say

i was by ur side quietly with nothin to say
loneliness with loneliness is love
silence with silence is emptiness
nothin to hold on to
one person to leave alone
theres too much unsaid
lettin go
theres an ocean between us
forget it
juz pretend tat i was a fool
its time to wake up
a step back to be clearer
i need to believe tat love is worth it all
i need to believe in love
the wind leave behind all the sadness to bear alone

nothin to say
better not to speak at all
forget it
i was juz a fool
now i'm all alone
doin wadever i'm doin
degradin myself
losin myself
its none of ur business
theres no need for u to cry
i can take it all in my stride
so sorry i cant be ur superman anymore
why even ask now
when u did not care in the beginnin

strayed too far

i cant always forget and ignore
could i
should i
the past of mine
when then was a child at tat time
used to tink tat everythin i could do
those majestic dreams
now buried under the sands of time
sometimes u find
u haf already strayed too far
from the path u wanted to take
even goin round in circles
instead of goin foward
the twist and turns of the road
the lights tats blindin
the roads tats windin
u haf already strayed too far
way too far to be turnin back
i'll nvr be wad i am
its hard to be for this while
or will it be another story


leave me alone
i'm breakin down
let me despair for a reason
a reason for my heart to gif up
a thousand excuses i've made up
let me go
let me walk alone
let me walk outta here with my head held up
my agony
theres juz some words i cant bring myself to say
how much memories are there left
u wanted not to see me
u took drastic measures
i noe u're afraid of fallin in love with me once again
the reasons u made up sp obvious
dun feel guilty
dun need for apologies
i'll noe wad to do
u wan me to gif up
its time for me to go

there was a time

there was a time where i could gif up the whole world for u
there was a time where u were everythin tat matters
but it was then
when there was a time
and so now tell me where u are
who do u miss at nite while sleepin
if u could remember
when i was by ur side

on a road of no return
the onli way i noe is to go foward
theres no turnin back
theres no 2nd chance
buy me a ticket for the runaway train
travellin on the one way track
the train tats nvr comin back

special

special people
special dreams
chase after it
to a place faraway
dun care where it is
as long as it is faraway
the dreams tat they follow
empty on the inside
i guess mines no diff
hope tat arises becomes false and falls off
leavin onli hurt
live and dream
live to dream
dream to live
take me away
take me to the place nobody goes
where onli u will noe
if i put my life in ur hands
will u juz throw it away
turnin away
its juz another day

nvr change

in the midst among the crowd
in this city the rain pourin on me
lost in it
aint we the same
no matter the cold the wind the rain
am i the onli one to feel this way
to be this way
i dun need to be anyones child
i dun believe
saw too much of the bright lights
somehwo my eyes became abit red
whos the person tat saves me
everythin's too late
gif it all away
gif it to someone special
destiny still makes a fool
stars will fade away
but i guess i'll be able to see them again someday
i'm not scared
they'll nvr make me change

i'm ur fool

i'm all outta place
this is how i feel
i'm cold and wide awake
lyin listless on the floor
u're already gone
this is how i feel
and i am feelin empty
theres nothin where u used to be

i got a confession to make
i'm ur fool
gone and onto someone new
too weak yet too strong
my head is givin me headaches
i've got my chains to break
dun wanna think
dun wanna bother
dun wanna let sadness fill my heart again
missin thinkin waitin for will not be u again
dun wanna take it anymore
forget bout u
without a trace throw it all away
take me like this
i've dreamed it was a good one


gave me somethin i din haf
but had no use
i will nvr gif in cuz i refuse
the pain i feel
its real
try as i might
i'm unable to fly
one more nite
juz one more nite
make it a good one
so random the tots
even i could not make sense
cant take it anymore
i forget it all
i dun believe anyone will noe the way i feel
cuz even i dunno how
so many things i wanna say
but i dunno how
i can onli say maybe

i'll live for my dreams

it seems my dreams are movin
further and further away from me
dun tell me tat its the end of the road
i rather believe tat its nvr endin
juz let the rain fall down on my face
let it wash away feelins and memories
but no matter wad
my dreams will nvr waiver
this time this life
i'll live for my dreams
i wun stop searchin
i'll wait quietly by the sides
i believe tat we'll still be able to see the stars
together someday

juz one

runnin thru the rain
soaked to the bone
feel the pain
hits u on the skin
hidin behind
standin behind
tink too much and i'll fall
i'm juz one person
how do i face my true feelins
juz one sentence
juz one smile
juz one msg
juz one call
juz one love
theres no need for anymore words

nobody as special as u
nobody as good as u
nobody as sweet as u
nobody as cute as u
nobody like u

deeper than deep

i feel love and hate at the same time
rite by my side
theres no end
rain fallin down
still searchin for a place to hide
when even the angels cry
i'm searchin for nothin
love had died

i'm in love
its somethin tat i've ever been more afraid of
runnin around but theres no place to hide
i'm fallin deeper and deeper inside

lookin at the bright lights
haf i lost myself
the feelin of blue stay
all i wan is for somebody to be here
but all i got was silence
the lights blurry
they slowly fade
i'm so hollow
vexed
this feelin wun go away
i noe my way is hard
my future i still dream
and all the small sweet things
tat we'll do together
i've dreamt bout it

midnite

inperfect world
blemished
seperations
farewells
pain
agony
loneliness
and tiredness
nobody could ever understand
nobody will ever come into my world
who will hold tight onto my weak hands
why do i cry
why shld i cry
right or wrong doesnt realli matters

broke.broken

turned off the lights
saw myself even more clearly
the wind blowin acorss me
the shadows casted
nothin seems right
gimme my solitude
my onli console
my lonely existence
why shld u care
lyin to myself again
writin them out again
understand the pain
their feelins change once more
hurt me deeply
hurt me to make me forget
dawn comin soon
i'm barely sleepin
lost in my tots
broken home
broken life
broken person

a step foward or back

is leavin the most cruel
or is gentleness tat shld be despised
but a lonely person would not care
theres nothin tat matters to him
is the front really dangerous
or is the back tat is
escapin seems easier
lettin everythin go at one go
a step foward for sadness
a step back for regret
not at peace in this world
stuck and isolated
the place i'm searchin for cant be found
the person i'm waitin for will nvr understand

her fav song

her fav song
i still noe it by my heart
how could i ever forget
when its the song tat keeps playin in my head
i would sing it to u
onli if u let me to
u're so faraway
u could nvr hear


"i will love u till the end of time
every breath of mine i'll hold u by my side
and the best thing is my sweetheart would u
let me die in ur arms with u
onli u can stop the rain tonite
onli u could gif the strength to fight
till the sky is burnin
its the end of time
look ahead tml
a long and windin road
keep the faith of mine
dun let it go
u're the onli reason nite aint growin cold
wad would i do without u"

sing me the blues

gimme my blues
i cant stand this pain
i cant make them go away
i cant forget all the things tat happened to me
my mistakes wun let me run
so sick of my life
holdin onto nothin
can i start all over again
why has this happened
let me fade away
where did it all go wrong

so sick and tired of writin the blues
when will it to be writin somethin else
wads the matter with me
i cant seem to write anythin new
the answers if onli i could noe
maybe then the gloom will go away
i'll write somethin new
time keeps runnin out
maybe i'm scared
maybe i'm lost
had a life but i cant go back
cant do tat

i dun wanna see you

mist tat clouds on the glass
the glass tat seperates me from the world
and the mist blurs my vision
movin along on the streets
so cold on the inside
its pourin on the outside
no where to run
can anyone keep me from the cold

pieces of u still linger
and i tot i've gotten over u
i'm more than afraid of this
i dun wanna see u one more time
cuz i noe i'll fall in love again with u

fallin to pieces
i mean nothin
but would u still prefer me to still be me
the changes or was it coincidence
mistakes so beautiful
one last song
hold me close and dun let me go
i'm weak and crumblin
wanderin aimlessly
i nvr forgotten
standin on the line
one wrong step and i'll fall deep down
the secrets kept deep
livin in my small dark lonely world
the masks i cant take off
how much longer can i hold on
i saw ur eyes
its not me u're thinkin of
the blank listless eyes in the dark
i lost completely
without any pride
too wild for u
too crazy to be serious
too bad for ur likin
a delinquent tat'll nvr make gd in ur eyes
nothin more than an empty shell
there was a time
when i could gif up the whole world for u
i used to
my family dun seem so familiar
my future cant break free of my past
be mine gal
even onli for this nite
i dun care bout the words left unsaid
u're my star tonite

green

walk walk walk
keep on walkin
sleep when u're tired
after which i'll keep walkin away


i stand alone
i walk alone
i sleep alone
i live alone
i'm all alone


does anyone holds for me
does anyone even remember me


this fake world does not need me to be honest
this world full of lies does not need me to be truthful
hide those weakness of mine
nvr let the world noe


seein them so happy together
i could onli see
a tragedy i live
endin before even startin
feelin for people i shldnt be feelin for
feelins tat could onli be kept deep inside
and within it remains


went thru so many
but still so alone
like the lone ranger tat rides out
nvr to be said again
forever a life of solitude


a million lovers in front of me
hands tat held together
they would onli make me green

city people

watched the city from day to dawn
people livin in it without a trace
hidin away even from their shadows
pretendin to be the same
all of them waitin for love
endin up on the wrong side of it
empty for their lives
livin under lies
livin off one another
nvr stoppin to noe who they are
nvr to treasure
onli to feel lonely when they're gone
wishin in the nite for time to go back
dwellin in the past
a fairytale endin is wad they desire
sounds so much like me
guess i'm still empty


little piece of heaven turns to dust
feelin of lovin has all but gone
the sound tat broke thru silence
senseless in itself
nothin in the world is good enuff
like the broken dreams
scattered on the floor in a million pieces
the song in ur heart tat u sing
the one tat onli u noe
singin in ur head
singin in my head
singin forever
listen to ur heart hard
days tat went by
stars hangin on the sky
moon tats in half bloom
shyin away from people's sight
darkness is a feelin
the void in us
none of the feelins in us remain
livin in this world
tryin juz to hold onto anythin
nobody
like u

wastrel

wadeva i do
u're forever not happy with me
why dun u juz leave me alone
dun bother bout me
like u did before
juz let me die if its to wad u said
i'm fine
i'm perfectly normal
juz slacker than the usual
but wads wrong with it
wads ur fuckin problem against me
u juz find me a burden dun u
i'm always a good for nothin in ur eyes
fine tats okie with me
u sure do hate me
but i'm alright with it
u're the same like the others
u're no diff from any of them
when u dun get me
i'm so precious
but when u get
i'm nothin but shit in ur eyes
juz tell me u dislike the look of me
i'm born outta ur now defunct love
i'm an eyesore aint it
i dun need ur acceptance
i dun need ur pity
i dun wan ur attention
i dun wan any of these shit
juz leave me alone
when even i dun care
why the fuckin hell shld u care
my life is for me to waste
its mine
MINE
all mine to waste

missin

all of a sudden
the emptiness tat fills the mind
cloudin over everythin
fallin to sleep seems to be the last thing i could do
my eyes closed
my mind empty juz for one
dreamland now seems like light yrs away
lyin in bed
still feelin so still wonderin
lies tat doesnt hurt
actions tat mean nothin
numb
look into my eyes
its juz not the same anymore


i may love u but its onli enough to sing this song for u
though u make me wanna fall in love
every moment when u're around
its not tat i ignored u intentionally
juz tat i'm not gentle enough
we keep meetin at the wrong time
u're stronger than me
u need no comfortin
but even the best falls down sometimes
at tat moment
i made a promise nvr to hurt u again

dunno how long it has been since i last saw u
i wonder where u are and how are u
all i noe its veri long to me
so long since i last saw ur smile
i really miss it and i mean it
i wish to see it once again
even onli juz one look
juz this once will be enough to make my day
the familiar bus stop yesterday
makes me think of u
are u tired or alone
makes me wanna be next to u to hold u close

mon to sun.

mon mornin i'm all alone
tue mornin i'm on my own
wed thurs its the same
theres still fri sat and sun
3 more days in pain
juz need some affection


why do u cry for me when i fell
when i woke up
the sky is still as dark
one person alone
a flower tat doesnt bloom
it'll nvr wither
the stars above
they shone for me
when ur heart dies
nothin matters
wanderin the seas of sadness
hurt
even a smile seems so forced
but i'm sure tat theres a place
waitin for my dreams to fly
i believe tat happiness is not faraway
even if they go away
nothin can take my dreams away
when they went away
my dreams still stay
theres a place waitin

on a road of no return
the onli way i noe is to go foward
theres no turnin back
theres no 2nd chance
buy me a ticket for the runaway train
travellin on the one way track
the train tats nvr comin back

2nd chance

maybe u hate me
maybe i hate u too
sometimes u love me
sometimes i love u too
and till the day i die
u're in my heart
i'll make the same mistakes
like i always do
u'll turn and walk away
like u always do
u say we'll nvr see eye to eye
heart to heart
will we ever be together
will it be u and me
at the end of this dream
dun need to cry
onli haf to believe in it
maybe we're waitin for a second chance
to make things rite
we're so the same
we could need each other thru the nite
paper heart
one touch and it'll be torn time
juz cant be turned back
i'll run all the way around the world
if i could run back in time
day by day
goin further away from u
will u think of me
feel tat i'm missin u
love ya

rainbow to the earth

changin world
changin times
everybody is changin
and i dunno why
so outta touch
unable to understand this life
the pain tat shows in ur eyes
those red swollen eyes
they speak for themselves
doors tat were opened.closed
faces tat smiled no longer do
nothin will hurt
turned away
walk the steps to faraway
to the place where the earth meets the rainbow
somewhere they'll be together forever
sit under the apple tree
watch the stars at nite
too many wrongs done in this life
too little to make it right
the flashbacks tat appears
times u broke down in front of the mirror
hope tat gets complicated
not tat i dun wanna believe
but the faith tat i lack
let the sleepless me be in ur dreams
wad do u see in my eyes
why do i feel so much like dead ends

2/14

time of the year again
once more i'm lyin here
alone in my own world
alone in this small space
writin to myself as usual
tryin to comfort myself
i wonder can i still make it on my own
i tried to open the door
wishin myself to be next to u
will u fall in love with me
if i sing tat song with all my heart
will u gif me one min of ur time
let me take a deep look at u
let me remember u
tat sweetest momemt of u will stay in my heart
but we're onli frens
i guess there'll nvr be me in ur heart
missin thinkin of u
onli leaves me with big eye bags
i wonder how long before i could say goodbye
or make u my
i noe i mean nth to u
and i dunno why
thinkin back onli opens up the wounds
lonely are the days before as am now
nobody stays
everybody goes
leavin me cold inside makin it
a tragedy if u can describe
a thousand lovers wil onli make me cry
cant see anyone with me
wad am i to do
a million times i love u
but u cant hear still

on a nite like this

let me continue dreamin
let me sing this one last song
let me hold on juz a little while more
dun break my dream so fast dun go away

need ur love on a nite like this
someone on a nite like this
i wanna hold u my gal
on a nite like this
such a familiar sight
lyin alone on my bed
ipod my onli companion
i miss u though we last talked juz ago
i noe theres nth to prove to anyone
somehow still wantin to prove myself
many things still left wantin
wan u here
onli u can get me thru the nite
i dun care bout anythin else
nth else matters more
u dunno tat theres someone missin u
u dunno tat theres someone waitin for u
u dunno theres someone needin u
onli when i close my eyes
can i see u
can i get close to u
can i say those words to u
how i wish i could say those words to u
really need ur love
on a nite like this love u

deep within

another lonely nite
another sleepless nite
my frustration no one sees
my pain no one feels
my presence no one cares
the memories playin in my head
the radio playin away
but why do i feel like tearin
a song for this predicament
not too familiar a song
but yet a so familiar voice
a song not too sad
but yet not so happy
its the season of joy
but why aint i gettin some
why aint i feelin some
still alone here
a love tat i dun even dare to say to u
so its obvious tat i had no chance
fallin in and outta love
both at the same time
its onli my fault to blame
i could onli keep u deep within my heart

my name is EDMUND

i dare to wander
i'm not afraid to be lost
i dare to cry
i'm not afraid of sadness
i dare to be special
i'm not afraid of wad people may say
no need for people to noe bout my tears
no need for people to noe about the darkness i went thru
for i no longer need to tink of anyone
before cryin
after sunset
wad is wrong
i dun admit tat i'm wrong
its not tat i dun haf a dream
not tat i nvr tot of turnin back
but turnin back is wrong
takin a step foward oso wrong
so i might as well gif my best in doin wrong
cry if ur tears can gif u an answer
maybe loneliness is scary in ur heart
maybe love will add color to my life
but i'm alone aint it
as long as i'm edmund
i'm not afraid

favourite mistake

i fell in love with a gal i nvr should
but it jus happened
i guess i'm still infatuated with u
can't get u outta my head
maybe u do feel the same too
but my inferior complex sets in
i tink i'm juz not good enuff for u
u're like a goddess
so far and unreachable
i love u but i cant gif u anythin much
u perhaps love me too
but its onli enuff to last juz one song
i got this feelin tat i'm onli livin in his shadow
perhaps me goin to noe u was a mistake rite from the start
but if it is really my biggest mistake
u're my favourite one l
et me be wrong forever
i can see the right of my wrong

stay

i wake up and face the world each day
the feelin in my mind wun go away
i got lost in a game i nvr wanna play
there's lots of things i wish i had the courage to say
but i still dare not and now its way past may
its nearly 1 & 1/2 yrs since tat day
but u're still on my mind everyday
no matter the weather of the day
the tot of u stay
how i wish tat moment could stay
stay anata stay
and tell me u'll nvr go away

cute gal

haf u ever need somebody onli for this nite
why do u keep stealin glances at me
jus come and noe me if u wan
guess u muz be taken
u're busily msgin away
but at least we met cutie
in the late of the nite
though i dunno u gal
but we did met
smile more
u deserve better
u look so beautiful when u smile
like a midnite lover
for it was the time i saw u
on the bus 80
how i wished the ride would nvr end
so tat i could haf all ur attention to myself
like in a world with onli u and me
truly in a world with u i wanna be
ur face keeps appearin in my head
u're all tat i could ever think bout
i feel i could need u for this nite
when all my thoughts are on u
and u're so cute
so wun u come to me
even for this nite
i'll be content
i feel i could really need ur warmth

holdin on to see you go once again

we're onli strangers as i saw the pain hidden in ur eyes
how can i make u forget bout the dreams
its onli heartache when u awake from ur dreams
okie to be lonely
as long as the tears aint fallin
holdin onto each other
onli to seperate
there's no need for reasons when it ends
walkin alone on an unfamilar street
walkin back will perhaps bring back pain
love onli to leave once again
there's no more need to wait for anyone

young and dangerous

different people
different dreams
i'm still dreaming bout my dreams right now
places tat i've never been
things tat i'll never be
but now is not the time to cry
it's the time to find out why
i noe my path ain't easy
but destiny is in my hands
i rather die trying
i haf my own dreams
i'll fly high as long
happiness can be bought with my life
but i can't betray myself
i won't stand aloof and do nothing
as long as i haf the courage to fight my fate
i noe my sufferin will end
i dun care how dangerous it'll be
i'm gonna change this world

juz someone

sing for this kid who dun haf a thing
except for a fuckin dream
for this kid whos been thru shit in his life
sittin down at nite to cry
wishin tat he died


17yrs of life
wasted away his youth
still wastin it by the sec
all the time in the world
all the undone things to do
looked upon on a different light
not wad they wan him to be
was it his fault


someone to hold me tight
as i lay in ur embrace
sleepin snugged like a child
a much deserved rest
ur gentle hands goin thru my hair
gently pattin me on my back
strokin me on the head
assurin the silly me
tats everythin gonna be alrite
ur comfort is all i need
u're the one for me
juz someone

fuck it

hate it every way
hate and pain
both of which are growin
hate and pain
my enemies
and the flowers bloom on the battlefield
for a reason they dunno
hate for every sec
pain for every moment
why can't i even get one sec of happiness
juz one fuckin sec
no respite in my life
life hates me the way it is
i wanna fly but i kept got held back
everytime i wanna break out
i wanna be the things i wanna be
i wanna be someone
i muz be somebody
hook by crook
i no longer care
i juz wan everythin
i wan u
i wan back the things tat were taken away from me
i wan my happiness tat was cruelly taken away back
i wanna make up for all the things i nvr had
i wan this fuckin world under my feet
i wanna stand on top
juz to shout out loud
fuck this world
and all that stand in my way
i dun haf a father like u
u're no kin of mine
so scram
this fuckin world seems to haf no place for me
no where for me to go
no where for me to stay
no where for me anywhere
it juz cant seems to take me in
fuck it