seventeen

seventeen
u're only still seventeen
but u had so much more to worry bout
u had gone thru so much
u deserve a rest
but u noe they wun let u haf it
u deserve better
u nvr had someone by ur side
to support u
to hold u
when u're fallin down
everythin goin against ur way
but u juz kept believin
makin ur own destiny

back in

mixed emotions as i looked into ur eyes
those eyes of urs
tat used to looked back at me so gently
as i recalled back the old days
the feelins of yesterday
those mesmerizin eyes
the captivatin eye sight
all the irresistable charm of urs
got me all so into u
and all i could ever think of u
u made me wanna fall in love again
when u appeared out of nowhere
before my eyes with a smile on ur face
and i fell right back in
simply irresistable

no difference

let the stars and moon keep me company
as they share my emptiness
tat's wad they are to me
they haf my loneliness
dun ever take them away from me
they are my every
tat's wad they are
wash me clean
as they take away my sanity
it's over
but it dun seem too different
and perfect isn't really perfect

ur thoughtless words still goin in my head
breakin my heart apart
turnin into pieces
as the fragments pierced thru
a pain tat's undescribable
hurtin from so deep within
and i juz dun haf the strength to go on
i'm so weak
could only shrugged things off with a laugh
and pretend to smile
as u turned and walked away
as ur back slowly fades from sight
still i could only watch
the day u went away

my nightmares

all my nightmares
they were once beautiful dreams too
all my broken dreams
they were once juz for u
can everythin be slowly taken away
and stop my nvr endin tears
i was once in too deep
i was too dependent on ur love tat nvr came
and when u took everythin away
i finally woke up to reality
lovin u was but a dream
perhaps the more deeply i love u
the more pain u'll haf
maybe it's time i let go
as ur back slowly disappears from sight
and i wonder how long it'll take
for me to totally let u go
every time my phone starts to ring
my heart starts to beat fast
wonderin if it could ever be u
it ended with heart ache every time
and i'll be so down
to talk bout happiness
i'm not worthy
and i noe a happy endin does not exist
this i noe better than anyone else
hidin away from love
cuz i can't gif u happiness
and i can't gif u a tomorrow
i could only return u ur present

so tangible

he's at it again
he's feelin so down
brought up the things of his past
his memories are so real
it did not slowly fade
it stayed
the past of a happier time
yet now it's all so distant
can he really not go back to his old self
he asked himself
he believes it's a no
the doors been closed on him
and he does not haf the keys
he's left alone in front of the door
it's juz the way life is to him
unfair
all the worries he had to worry bout
all the things he had to go thru
all the sadness he've got
he's still standin thru all these shit
but he's not tat strong
he seems to lose the will to fight on
he's tired after all these yrs
a laid back attitude is wad he got
now he prefer things to come to him
take control over him
he will not fight it anymore
take wadever u wan from him
take everythin away from him
his empty soul
his broken home
his sad stories
his fuckin life
take them all away from him
he's been thru all so many nites
juz thinkin how things used to be and now
he wanna noe how things went all so wrong
he bowed his head in shame
his head in his hands
and he lays in his bed
wishin he died
the lowered head dare not look up anymore
there's nothin within his listless eyes
listless since all too long ago
so long a time he forgot
all so many yrs ago
left fendin for himself since tat time
the empty hse with no love
no warmth
he got so used to it
he feels strange around love
perhaps it's solitude to him
leadin a life not worth mentionin
and he feels tat he do not deserve their love
he feels he's not worthy of such a wonderful thing
he thinks he deserves to be alone
his happy endin broken all too long ago
there's no need to mend the pieces of his shattered dreams
the pieces haf all disappeared all too long ago
he can't find it anymore
his heart still beatin they say it's for a reason
but he can't seem to find the reason why
and he feels so stranded
his mind doesn't haf a soul
his emptiness down within the depths of his heart
it's always been there
as he sat under the moon light
he ponders bout the people tat comes and goes
hidin away from their shadows
all the people in his life
everyone seems to come and go
he wonders why it haf to be this way
if only one person could ever stay
stay forever and a day
stand by him
if only
if only
he dunno for sure how long more can he hold on
he dunno for sure when will he ever drop
as always like the defeated man
he holds his head down
as he walked along the streets
lookin down on his feet
his spirit seems too distracted
as though he's pre-ocupied with somethin
they sense there's somethin on his mind
but he nvr let anyone looked inside his mind
it's not as if they understand
there's juz too much sadness for them to take
there's oso not much for them to noe
juz some fuckin problems
who will wanna noe a broken man anyway
who will wanna noe wad's inside
they can't be bothered
they walk away from him
nvr gave a damn bout him
even the one he loved
it's a fact he nvr deny
somethin he nvr wished to fight
let them be
let them see
his life been upside down all the while
he's been like this since so long
he used to tried
he tried to be different
he tried to prove himself
to hell woth all these things
it was juz his wishful thinkin
he can't even take good care of himself
he's juz all so tired
he lives now a slacker
keeps believin in scrappin thru life
juz barely survivin
perhaps tat's the only thing he cares
how many times haf he done tat
juz for tat
how long more can he take before he finally breaks
it seems they're awaitin the day
he feels it wun be too long
it's somethin so tangible to him
he feels there's no runnin away

my star

a star only for me
the one which will only shine for me
dun need for others to love
special only to me
and i'll be the star for her
shine for her only
i noe it may be selfish
but all i ever wan is love
to them it's nothin
it can be my everythin
it's all tat i'll believe in
all i tat i wan
it can be all tat i need
it can be the centre of my world
forher i can be all the things tat i'll nvr be
somtimes i think i hear her callin out my name
sometimes i wonder maybe i'm to blame
it's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

i'll come to u

sometimes i think i hear her
callin out my name
sometimes i wonder
maybe i'm to blame i
t's been 4mths now
and lots of things haf changed
but i keep thinkin bout her
i keep turnin to tat page

and when u haf no light to guide u
and no one to walk beside u
i'll come to u
when the nite is dark and stormy
u wun haf to reach out for me
i'll come to u
and when ur tears is fallin
i'll hear ur spirit callin
and i'll be there come wad may
cuz even if we can't be together
i hope we'll be frens now and forver
and i swear i'll be there come wad may

foolish games

u said i've always been crazy
takin off my shirt
standin in the rain
always so mysterious
listless eyes with careless hair
with ever smilin face
fashionably sensitive
always lookin tat cool
and there i was beside u
with nothin to say
except for some comments
well i've always felt i was outside
lookin in on ur world
and in case u failed to see
in case u failed to notice
this is me down on my knees
this is my heart breakin before u
this is my heart bleedin in front of u
and these foolish games u play
are tearin me apart
and ur thoughtless words are breakin my heart
guess i've mistaken u for somebody else
somebody who gives a damn
somebody

unmistakable

and i noe there's no need to say more
the loneliness tat belongs to me
i like it
when u're by my side
and i'm a nobody
juz tat someone's someone
but would u rather
i'm still me
u saw right thru the mask on me
and saw wad was really hidden inside
i like it
i love u
there's an unmistakable feelin bout it
and i tot if i stopped believin in love
and i tot if i could use loneliness to numb myself
and i tot all these will make me forget
yet i can't seem to do so
still havin the undeniable feelins for u
so deep within my heart
and i noe i deserve it
waitin for my endin all alone
and nobody can take me away
only u can

how can i let them noe

the nightmare of a dream tat woke me up
i noe it's so real
it's the beginnin of mine
the start of my shattered dreams
pieces tat pierced thru my heart
hurtin me all so deep
a pain tat i could nvr forget
leavin me all so hurt
wounds so deep
they could not heal
and my life been thru so much
but still standin strong
thru the cold and wind and rain
i feel everythin's beyond me
no matter how hard i tried
i still had to be tat faraway
totally outta my control
things tat's not wihtin my hands
the undescribable feelin within me for so long
like the pieces of my broken heart
broken further into pieces
totally shattered my world
the pain tat seared across
the tears tat flowed uncontrollably
the feelins tat engulfed me
i noe it i wanna fight it
i tried hard to resist it
the happenins like the state of denial
a make believe tat i'm not
i nvr could
nvr was
all the feelins tat added up
and when words could not express myself
i could only sit and cry
there's nothin left within
dreamin of a dream
hopin it
all my thoughts and the things caught in my mind
i'm holdin back
how can i ever let them noe
my angst
the struggles i made
the endless dreams tat haunt me
the unfulfilled promises

the wind blows across my face
tears flow down my face
how do i forget all the dreams i had in the past
all alone out in the streets
i am lonely
but i noe i can't cry
perhaps if i look back
i'll be even sadder
as i looked into the mirror
i saw the sadness within my eyes

the eyes were red after cryin
tears which fell out of it
broke into a million pieces
like the fallen dreams of mine
the dreams tat fell from grace
brought down as fast as it was up
time was so short
it nvr shone
helpless in everyway

juz for u

dunno wad i'm livin for
dunno wad i'm holdin onto
wad if i'm not as strong as u think
will u pick me up hold me when i fall
wad if i'm not as perfect as u think
will u still love me
hold me when i fail
will u love me for wad i really am
or will u leave and go
will u hate me for wad i am
or will u not
will u share my dreams together
or will u haf ur own
is my dreams urs and urs mine
will u hold me tight
and nvr let go
will u be there for me
will u be there with me
will u wait for me
will u comfort me when i'm down
will be be there when i'm hurt
i noe it's too much to ask
but i'll gladly do tat for u

tat's juz me

nvr fall in love with a guy like me
i'll onli gif u unhappiness
the onli thing tat i'm certain
i can't make any promises
i can't gif u anything
i'm a gd for nothin
the scum of society
tat's wad i am
i threw my life away all too long ago
it's too late now
there's no turnin back
no more.no more
look at the pieces of my broken life
my love hate angst
all of them my pride
and i'll carry on
the onli way left to go
the onli door left open
no other choice
isn't it
nothin is true
not even me
how ridiculous
i dun even believe myself
pathetic i am
but tat's me
juz me

me life

the cold walls
the cold floor
the closed windows
the drawn curtains
an empty room
a messy one
a pen
a piece of paper
a hi-fi
a broken com
a cold bed
the blowin fan
clothes behind the closed cupboard doors
a small tv
a lonely person
a sad one
writin his feelins on a piece of paper

ur fav purple

there was a time i tot i would nvr smile again
and then u came along
u made me fall in love
and i could nvr had enuff
and i'll nvr let u go
i'm callin out ur name
when i'm all alone
when u're around
everythin seems so natural
only when u're not here
do i noe ur charm.
the heart is bleedin
but u can't see it's blood
it's nth but some loneliness and sadness
depressed the only word to describe me
juz let it be
perhaps i'll be better some time
later holdin out for a love tat nvr was
somethin tat nvr shld haf happened
guess i'm not worthy of someone so good like u
who am i i asked myself
i asked once i asked twice
the ans. nobody
u deserve someone better
u got looks
u got wits
u got charm
u're juz so perfect
go live ur life at the top
it's where u belong
and i'll be at the sides watchin
listenin.if u ever wanna speak
holdin out for a gal so good
tat can only be u
u gave me no reasons to gif things up
gimme a chance to hold ur hand
a chance to hold u close
and i'll be true
and i'll belong to u
if u juz let me do

my will

I wake from my sleep and face the day
and I have to hope to reach you someday
I cannot go on take other steps
cause my way's not easy to go
even I do really wanna see you
I need to take my time
Spend some days alone
being be myself will be all I do
If does exist an everlasting love in which I could believe
I got hurt
because I was very awkward
Know it but I don't want no losing.no!
Thinkin of you made me cry
So my eyes
they were filled with tears
And all I've got is my will to be with you again.someday

i say

i dun believe tat anybody
will feel the way i do about u now
there are many things tat i...
would like to say to u
but i dunno how
and u're always not around
i say baby
i love u
i miss u every nite
and everytime believe in you
so baby pls be mine
i'll love u more and more each day

defiant juvenile

defiant the way i am
juvenile delinquent i am one
wrong the way i'll always be percieved
but i dun think i'm bad
i am the way i am
who are u to judge me?
take a good look at me
u do not even noe me
yet u claim to be
the love,hate,pride and angst in me
u dun and nvr will understand
call me wadever u like
i am the way i am
i won't change for u
who are u anyway?
i am the ruler of my world
i fight my own battle
love me,hate me
i dun care
i am still myself...

abandon

feel so empty
as if the whole world is only left with me
i wanna cry out loud
only left me and my techno
the only thing tat i could hear
i'm still confused
am i the only one
i've got a feelin i'm not the only one
lettin my self off with wild abandon
forgivin myself one too many times
all shows my despair
i'm degradin myself
lettin myself waste away
against the sands of times
sugar.it makes my life complete
for u juz taste so sweet
not much left to say
my heart no longer in it
floatin aimlessly
lifelessly
misery in the air
i dun wanna taste any of it
my life full of nothin
false hopes and broken promises
i'll close my eyes
as my life goes out
can't even be bothered to hate u
for i ain't got the energy
wad more to say love u
my life like the stars
as it slowly goes out at dawn
till the night i shine again
i had to fall from grace

hurt

everynite it's the same
the feelins all too much for me to bear
i wanna go and shout it all out
i love u day and nite
i think of u
even a small little msg will do
yet u dun even care
am i realli tat insignificant to u
if it is
why even gif me false hope in the 1st place
u were the one tat made in believed in love again
now u're the one who's gonna break it up
wad am i supposed to do
if u realli dun like it
why can't u be more direct
wad is it tat's stoppin u
so i guess it's the end
is it
for the last time
let me love u all tat i ever can
this is the last anyway
i'll be all tat u ever wan
before slowly fadin away from life
cuz i'm tired from all this waitin
i'm sick of all the games u play
i'm tired of all the days
when u can't even bother
so i'm gonna be faraway
cuz i dun wan the old days
lyin in my bed feelin empty
for u're not here
i start to think bout all the things tat weren't so clear
in my head.in my head
i can hear
i hope u're here
i'm lookin for some comfort
to mend my broken heart
the broken pieces
tat pierced thru me
hurt me so deeply
leavin me all so hurt

me life

the coldness of the room
the emptiness within
complete with loneliness
tat is my home
gripped with insecurity
i dun wish to stay
everythin so empty
makes me all so cold
i wanna runaway
wanna break free
but where am i supposed to go
where am i to hide
when will i ever goin to
when will i ever do
there's onli loneliness here with me
they say u'll nvr walk alone
but no one here to hold my hand


hold me tight
hold me real tight
pull me close
pull me real close
love me deep
love me real deep
set me free
set me real free
kiss me good
kiss me real good
touch me soft
touch me real soft
comfort me well
comfort me real well

i tot i could stay.but...

to start it off i oso dunno
u came into my life when i least expected it
and to think of it it was onli 3 mths ago
we were total strangers
now u've become the one
the most impt person in my life
so now u're the gal for me
for everytime i see
u my face lit up with a smile
u're the one u put the smile back into my life
u're really wonderful
simply irresistable
how it all happened in 3 mths
i still can't understand
such a short time
yet so incredible
and how time flies
now we're goin seperate ways
u've become all so busy now
there's no time for us
u and me all of a sudden so distant
i'm now hatin myself
i noe there's no one to blame but me
no time for me anymore
i hope u're happy
u're still ur old self busy.
as usual u're still all so popular
always surrounded by frens
i'm still my old self too
alone as always
i'm still myself.SUXS
i was hopin u would ask me stay
cuz leavin is onli cuz i wanna stay

so long

why do all these feelins onli come at nite?
why do all these dreams onli appear at nite?
why does it comes when i'm all alone
all out and down
guess u juz wanna be frens
i'm lettin go from today onwards
the rain shall take over me cryin
the rain been pourin since 2 days ago
so long gal
u're now all so busy
u're in a place somwhere tat seems so faraway
somewhere tat i can't seem to reach
used to wanna do all the things with u
hold u tight in my arms
be at peace within ur comfort
guess it no longer will be

send me an angel

can i act like an angel if i live like a jerk?
can i keep on disguising?
can i make believe tat i dun decieve?
no.i can't
i act like a winner
i behave like a sinner
i dunno wad to do
when i'm down and out
will i fail to see what i used to be?
somtimes i feel like i dun haf a fren
sometimes i feel like i'm all out alone
but i've got my techno
she's my companion
lonely as i am
tgt we cry
this world tat i live in
the city of sadness
send me an angel
if i'm still alive

lovin u.lovin me

i'm fallin even more in love with u
lettin go of all i held onto
lettin go of everythin i noe
hangin by a moment here to be with u

i dunno wad i'm divin into
juz wanna stay here with u
cuz if i let u go
i will nvr noe
wad it will be

lovin u.lovin me
will u remember me
since tat day i set my eyes on u
everythin became all so wonderful

:'(

wad did i do to get this from u
u're plain ignorin me
perhaps it's as simple as it seems
i realli shld haf go
gif up long ago
why are u now so cold towards me?
wad wrong haf i done?
i realli do not noe
:'(
my tears juz keep on droppin
it's cuz i still love u.

can't help but love u

listless me thinkin of u
i nearly missed my bus
my mind is full of u
i need some confirmation
i'm feelin insecure
i'm scared tat u might be goin away
nvr comin back into my life
so tell me tat u'll stay
and always be mine
cuz ver. i'm willin to gif up the whole world for u
with u is where my heart belongs
cuz i love u
can't help but love u

had a dream when i was little
i like to hold the world in my hands
when i slowly grew
did i realised tat everything was really different now
i dunno where to go
time ticks and i can't go back to the past
now tat i've grew up
i still ain't got a clue on wad to do
it seems all too much like a dream to me
happiness seems so faraway
but no matter wad
i'm still myself

it's been pouring since tat day
how do i ever get out of this flood
i'm drowning
i wanna leave my past behind
forget everything...

the lights are going out
the stars are going out
the moon is my only companion
but it's all gone at dawn
i hate the morning for coming too soon

i can't forget my love
i dun understand why for all the sorry things tat i've done
i really regret it
but i dun think i'll ever haf the chance to make amends
i'm still holding out for my love

i watched the early morning sun rise
from the east at the start of the day
times goes by me and the day turns into night
i try to sleep
and dream bout a dream
but no one's here to sing me a lullabay
i can't get to sleep

the streetlights flickering above my head
it's laughing at me
tired of trying tried to proof i'm different
fuck me
it's juz my wishful thinking
my pride is left in shatters

i'm a fool
i'm an idiot
i'm so tired
i dunno wad to do
i'm hestitating
i'm procastinating
wad am i doing???

he

time can forget anything
but he can't forgive himself
too many wrongs he've done
too little rights he's done
two wrongs dun make a right
he swears he's right
he wan his dreams forever to last
he juz wanna live simply
he juz wanna decide his way of life
juz how strong does he haf to be?
how many more hurdles he muz overcome
he dun wanna run this race
he wanna be his own judge
he dun wanna be the one left fight alone
but it's always been the case
he's confused inside out,upside down
he dunno wad he's fightin for
against his will,
he stood beside his own reflection
disheartenin
he felt this way before too many times
it's juz so insecure
he was a key tat could use a little turnin
so tired tat he couldn't even sleep
so many sercets he couldn't keep
promised himself he wouldn't leak
it's juz one more promise he can't keep
it seems no one can help him now
he's in too deep
there's no way out
he's doomed
he's insane
he's like a madman laughin at the rain
he's keepin my silence the frens who forsaken him
the one he loved who rejected him
the enemies who tried to fall him
happiness seems like a myth to him
he'll not retreat
he rather get his heart break
dun ask bout his wounds if u dunno how deep it is
dun ask how deeply hurt he is by the one he loved
he already gave up his soul for her

quietly

if my life is transient like a flower
i'll be in full bloom by your side
and after watching your smile
i'll fall alone
quietly...

The broken pieces of your dream
pierce my heart
leaving the pain that I shall never forget

If I could flutter like an angel
I would fly to you
and offer my wing
to your wounded back

If I could flow like the wind
I would reach you
If I could shine like a moon
I would keep shining on you
I'll be anything
If it can stop you from being seized with fear

u're the reason why

i'm mesmerised by u
even if there's a magical pill tat would wake me up
i'd rather throw it away
dun ask me why i'll do this
u're the reason why
i could spend all my life juz with u
every moment with u is a treasured one
i can juz spend everyday lookin at the sweetest u
in my world,there'll only be u
i'll like to see ur smile
u're all tat i can think of
it's uncontrollable
u're everything tat matters

no reasons to fight ur feelins

so close yet so distant
juz exactly wad are we?
are we serious?
are we flirtin?
i gotta be sure
so tell me baby gal cuz i need to noe
i'm sure i'm not flirtin this time
it's for real
i never had this kinda feelins before
till i met u
i dun believe tat anybody feels the way i do bout u now
for i love u
u gave me no reasons to fight this feelin
i'm in love with u deeply
see u when i close my eyes
can't u see u're always in my mind

smile

i juz wan u happy
i ain't wan u sad
i can't bear to see u down
i dun wan u to be unhappy
i'll do anything
i'll do everything
juz to make u smile again
juz smile
always...

with u

i noe i'm in love
for i dream of u
i miss u greatly
i need u badly
miss u,wan u
i need u so
there's a feelin inside i wan u to noe
u are the one i can't let go
i wonder are u feelin wad i'm feelin for u i always thinkin of u
i can't get u outta my head
u're my everything
i haf my eyes on u only
it's been so long since i last saw u
i've been missin u all the while
where are u...
then do i realise u're always in my heart
been thru lots of things then i met u,baby...
i've nvr felt crazy like this before
i dun ever wanna lose u
my love is true
and with u is where my heart belongs...

L-O-V-E

baby i noe it
i noe it's u
no more pretendin on my part
my feelins is real
my heart is urs
i'm not good with my words
no more hestistation
this i'm sure is L-O-V-E

moment

ever sinc tat day tat i met u
everything became so wonderful
everything changed from black to white
every wrong of mine became so right
i felt i could fall in love with u
right at the moment
i noe i really did
i really fell in love
with a gal so sweet
i noe i'm in love
for the feelings were so true
i've been always thinkin of u
all i haf in mind is u
gal,i could only think of u
and i wanna be with u
no matter wad they say
for i'm so in love with u
my darliing,i noe
everything u've been thru
let me come to u
share it all with me

can i...?

whenever on my own
i say the words i've been longing to tell u
i wish it could be heard
u used to be there
at the corner of the bus stop
i saw u smiling at me
was it real or juz my fantasy?
i kinda like it ur way
and did u ever noe
the way i shyly placed my eyes on u
my eyes will always be fixed on u
can i come close to u?
as close as i wanna be?
let me help u share
ur tears u're holdin back
ur pains if u haf
or ur love if u have enuff
can i be the one for u?

close to you

i dunno how it all started
the way u came into my life
u became my inspiration
whenever i see u
i'm in a frenzy
i asked myself
but still found no answer
why i'm so in love with u
i like to get closer to u
yet even more afraid to lose u
gimme some love
u're the only one in my world
this i noe beyond a doubt
when i close my eyes
and take a deep breath
knowin u was my best moment
gimme a chance
i dun ever wanna be away from u
from the day i knew u
my love grows strong for u
i believe
bcuz of u

i love u

i love it the way u are
i love u for who u are
and i love u for u're u
i dun care wad the people may say
u made everything good
everything so wonderful
u're the only person so true

pls stay

wad am i to u?
is it juz the something of a something?
there's not much for me to say
for it's more than words can express
take my hand and u'll can really feel i'm not a dream
i'm real
i never meant to hurt u
but i noe ur pain is caused by me
i can't keep my promise to u baby
i'm so sorry
i hope u'll understand
pls gif me ur hand
i'll keep u company till the end
i dun ever wanna say goodbye
u can go
for who am i to keep u down
but i only hope tat u stay
listen to the sound of my heartbeat
it's been screaming out for u
i can't let u go
i need u to stay
baby,juz gif me one more try
i'll go down on my knees for u
if u muz go,pls gif me a reason
for there muz be a reason
i've always been a fighter
but without u
i gif up
i ain't wad i am
perhaps i'm not tat good anymore
but i'll love u till the end
forever i'll be there for u
i noe even when i die
u'll be on my mind
so many memories tat i haf
some tat made me laugh
some tat made me cry
one tat made u decide to say goodbye

gal in blue

it was a day like any other one
i went to skool like all the other guys
felt cold and deep inside blue put on my earphones so tat i can break through
around the corner,i came across a fren
was it fate? i boarded the bus
we alighted at the stop
u were at the bus stop
i felt tat i could die for u
in ur eyes i saw more than life could ever bring me through
u're my gal in blue
pls take my hand
i wanna share my world with
u're my gal in blue
the only one i feel so true
the door opened i took the step down
u looked at me i nvr felt so shy
ur fren blocked u away from me
i wanna do nothing but to get her outta the way
i left the stop it was bout seven
i couldn't help dreamin of u and me
i love u!!