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life is unfolding the way it intends 

there's no other way around it 

through the years, there's highs and lows 

complete yet incomplete 

How many second chances will we ever get 

or maybe there aren't such a thing 

as I finally understood 

what should have been so plain right in front of me

all the things you said, all the hints i missed 

when all has been said and done 

will you still have the courage to love once again 

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if we take away our temper 
would it have made things better 
if we take away our feelings 
would it have help us in sleeping 

you, who made hatred a thing so passe 
the thank yous stream down from the edge of the eyes 
and there is no cure for this loneliness 
how strong can i really be as i crumble right in front of you 

and the scent around, smells of tears boiling
the feelings of the past lingers still 
the night is long, so dream on and on 
i'll be here with the night 

Like the ashes that falls from the stick from the hand
Into the merciless and lonely room
in between those fingers
some things linger

Seated alone on the couch
Repeating those thoughts
amidst the smoke that floats
and those trails of thoughts run wild

As i laid the lit stick back down
afraid to wake up the past
whats left of the smoke
some things still linger

Unable to understand
maybe i could laugh it off
Whats I was afraid of was not lighting up again
but rather this pen on my hand once more

lookin and all i can see

through the places i cant reach

all u know and all u speak

under the cover of this siege

off in the night where u go to sleep

so tired but i cant sleep

lookin down in all the places u cant see

shaping the words and all u see

though these words and through these times

life may not always follow the way u wan

the sands of time flies in the depths of every night

hold my hand

hold ur hand and nvr let go

time nor tide 
the reality of time 
the ebb and flow of tide
grains of sand washed away by torrents of might

fast forward this life
laying the steps piece by piece
looking back 
to realised how far i've come
looking forward
to see how far i've to go 

nothing to regret
nothing to forget

Skeptical September

stuck in this conundrum
struggling to stay afloat

head above the water
holding out for hope

mired around in mediocrity
a need for opportunity

out of the dark
only into the blues

watching the world with contempt
as im whirling in their circles
dizzyingly clear
consciously drunk
staggeringly steady
opposingly compromising
such is the oxymoron
so funny so that it hurts

all thats left in my head
breaking out
breaking out

semblance

motivation drained
meetin shut doors at every turn
watchin as it slowly burns
the ashes lingerin in the air and then it slowly fades
without a single trace

driven today
disappointment the next
ripping out ur heart
and then they say that you wun feel a thing
ignoring all that has been excelled
consigned to ignominy

disenchanted at the end
without any semblance
so much more for loyalty
so much more out there for me

hand in hand
into the unseen hues

and after all the things we put each other thru
im tryin to let you know just how much you mean to me

i will walk on till the end with you
till death do us apart
till death and we'll still nvr part

watchin over you when ure sleepin
everyday im still believin
with this special vow
our hearts forever simultaneously bleeding

nothin left for me to say
i will leave and stop the pain
to hold back
down the sands of time

nothin left for you to say
i will leave and stop the rain
to hold back
down right from your eyes

nothin left for us to speak
for a moment i am weak
so i cant hold my tears
from fallin in the night

close ur eyes
and we will go our ways
cuz i cant
and u wun let me stay

let me love you
bb.hold me tight
from the dawn deep into the night
i wun kiss you
if it means goodbye

leave me dancin
in this lonely nite

leave me gently
in the mornin light

always II

through the pourin rain
through the drivin cold
through the lonely nites
i would run all the way home
just to be with u

just to be in ur arms
just to taste ur warmth
just to taste ur lips
just to hear u say

and i noe
tat its true
and i noe
it will always be
always

everythin u wan

spillin out my guts
throwin up cold air
spinnin in the head
throbbin in everybeat

nobody notice
nobody knows

the sensation of the pain
of the pain in sensation
makin me feel alive
makin me feel somethin

nobody asks
nobody knows

caught up in those games
games i nvr wanna play
caught up in those plays
plays that i shyed away from

nothin lost
nothin gained
nothin missin
everythin missed

everythin u wan
everythin u need
everythin inside that you wished he could be
sayin all the right things
at exactly the right time

everythin i aint
everythin surplus
everythin despised
i'm everythin so wrong
and i mean nothin
and i dunno why

dai yin mai

u wun noe how much it would had hurt
important parts of me when u did
pushin away all wills and intentions
and we being mad at nothin at all

and i'd shot right thru
by a bolt of blue
and i'd rather hurt myself
so u wun feel the pain

but u wun see it
nor u feel it
and i would hide it
lest tat u even sense a tinge of it

im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
the day u change ur mind and go
im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
when u call an end to us

cuz i wallow in the yesterdays
when every day was today
before u decide to call it a day
before the day u went away

driftin away to unfamiliar sounds
of tunes and music so foreign
captivated yet i am
emotions subtely understood

and ur heart cant listen
even if i sing this song for you
cuz the only thing u'll see
are the tears flowin down this face

gold

raindrops upon the window
fallin against my skin
im on the outside lookin in
lookin in

meaningless
but what is
loneliness
but what aint

goin cold
growin old
stayin gold
stayin cold

a kaleidoscope in bold
a myraid on hold
to spin the globe by the touch of a hand
or to travel the atlas the back of your hand

nobody noes
nobody noes

nothin holds
nothin gold

at times

Walkin till the edge
Where the disjointed horizons meet
Where the colors of the world fades

At times staggerin
At times disoriented
To view the world from a grain of sand
To hold the world from a fragment of glass

Wishin for a meanin
Where the sky is glimmin
Where the meanin doesnt matter

At times forgettin
At times pretendin
To hold ur hand against the sands of time
To hold u in this fairytale turned bad

the best part

The best part was wakin up
With ya by my side
And the very first words are urs
And the very first light is u

Closed my eyes and its still u
Pullin u close and my world is only u

The world around cease to exist
I dun see wad anyone else can see
In anyone else but u
No one else needs to know
I dun believe tat anybody feels the way i do
About ya now
And we're livin in a world of fools
I believe in u
And u may not think tat i care for u
Deep down inside u noe i realli do

Cuz i like it the way we are
Little words in our silence
Just like this
By ur side
Gazin upon u
Just like this

bittersweet cold

I watched u by the open side
As u walked away in cold
U said u nvr once loved me before
The words u said tat nite had left permanent scars
Left me lyin in the dark with no sunshine
Its all a feelin A feelin tat i had
Its just a feelinJust a feelin in my head
And u nvr believed in wad i said
But i tried to give ya everythin tat i had
Kept still in the dark

every little small things

unable to walk this off
and i cant walk it out

takin it out on me
and i wander and wonder

jumping the ladder nvr seems so hard
wishin tat i fall
deep into the abyss and forgotten
as the shadow fades and subsides to grief

every little small things
every insignificant word said
everytime the heart breaks
everytime the heart aches

stupid

confined to the back pages of ur memories
forgotten
holdin onto a lost hope
tired
never the one tat was needed
abandoned
seems like i got the wrong person
mistaken

forget it
as i walked along silent
too tired
too tired
tryin too hard onli seems to make me more a fool
tryin too hard onli adds to the irony
tryin for tat slimmest of hope
cuz im juz a fool
ever knowin i was nvr meant to be
when its plain to see tat everythin was so wrong

holdin on still
for a impossible hope

two choice

Ur eyes hollow
And a smile so forced
Without havin to say a word
Unable to stop this hurt
Maybe we have forgotten
Wad was most important at the start
And if leavin was a better choice
Its best to do so with a smile
Let us part and here and never meet
Before its too late to let go
Baby dont cry
Walk on opposite ways and nvr look back
Let us part here and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to be the one tat u want
The dreams in my hands too heavy
Happiness ever so sarcastic
Ur heartbreak i'll nvr understand
Unbearable for me to watch on
For ya to be holdin back ur tears
Lettin off my hands
Let us part and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to continue with this beautiful mistake

Thru the city and into the dark
From the crowd and into the nite
With a wanderin heart
Observin the sights of this trip
Mesmerisin to keep us entranced
Had i known that this journey was nvr meant to be
Rather i had abandoned myself to this distance
Every extra mile with ya was another distance by ur side
The end stop unknown
Unable to keep pace with ya
U would had abandoned me by the sides of this road
How many more miles would i be able to keep up
The best part of it was catchin up to u
Each and everytime i wanna tell ya
Im afraid no matter how much i love u
Doesnt amount to much to u at all
Thankful still for the distance shared with ya
Runnin still to keep up with ya
Every mile means another distance more with ya
Always by ur side