Chendrasonic

always II

2012-01-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

through the pourin rain
through the drivin cold
through the lonely nites
i would run all the way home
just to be with u

just to be in ur arms
just to taste ur warmth
just to taste ur lips
just to hear u say

and i noe
tat its true
and i noe
it will always be
always

everythin u wan

2011-12-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

spillin out my guts
throwin up cold air
spinnin in the head
throbbin in everybeat

nobody notice
nobody knows

the sensation of the pain
of the pain in sensation
makin me feel alive
makin me feel somethin

nobody asks
nobody knows

caught up in those games
games i nvr wanna play
caught up in those plays
plays that i shyed away from

nothin lost
nothin gained
nothin missin
everythin missed

everythin u wan
everythin u need
everythin inside that you wished he could be
sayin all the right things
at exactly the right time

everythin i aint
everythin surplus
everythin despised
i'm everythin so wrong
and i mean nothin
and i dunno why

dai yin mai

2011-11-15T14:55:00.001+08:00

u wun noe how much it would had hurt
important parts of me when u did
pushin away all wills and intentions
and we being mad at nothin at all

and i'd shot right thru
by a bolt of blue
and i'd rather hurt myself
so u wun feel the pain

but u wun see it
nor u feel it
and i would hide it
lest tat u even sense a tinge of it

im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
the day u change ur mind and go
im afraid
tat theres no tomorrow
when u call an end to us

cuz i wallow in the yesterdays
when every day was today
before u decide to call it a day
before the day u went away

driftin away to unfamiliar sounds
of tunes and music so foreign
captivated yet i am
emotions subtely understood

and ur heart cant listen
even if i sing this song for you
cuz the only thing u'll see
are the tears flowin down this face

gold

2011-10-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

raindrops upon the window
fallin against my skin
im on the outside lookin in
lookin in

meaningless
but what is
loneliness
but what aint

goin cold
growin old
stayin gold
stayin cold

a kaleidoscope in bold
a myraid on hold
to spin the globe by the touch of a hand
or to travel the atlas the back of your hand

nobody noes
nobody noes

nothin holds
nothin gold

at times

2011-09-04T19:25:00.002+08:00

Walkin till the edge
Where the disjointed horizons meet
Where the colors of the world fades

At times staggerin
At times disoriented
To view the world from a grain of sand
To hold the world from a fragment of glass

Wishin for a meanin
Where the sky is glimmin
Where the meanin doesnt matter

At times forgettin
At times pretendin
To hold ur hand against the sands of time
To hold u in this fairytale turned bad

the best part

2011-08-14T19:43:00.002+08:00

The best part was wakin up
With ya by my side
And the very first words are urs
And the very first light is u

Closed my eyes and its still u
Pullin u close and my world is only u

The world around cease to exist
I dun see wad anyone else can see
In anyone else but u
No one else needs to know
I dun believe tat anybody feels the way i do
About ya now
And we're livin in a world of fools
I believe in u
And u may not think tat i care for u
Deep down inside u noe i realli do

Cuz i like it the way we are
Little words in our silence
Just like this
By ur side
Gazin upon u
Just like this

bittersweet cold

2011-07-15T18:37:00.002+08:00

I watched u by the open side
As u walked away in cold
U said u nvr once loved me before
The words u said tat nite had left permanent scars
Left me lyin in the dark with no sunshine
Its all a feelin A feelin tat i had
Its just a feelinJust a feelin in my head
And u nvr believed in wad i said
But i tried to give ya everythin tat i had
Kept still in the dark

every little small things

2011-05-05T13:41:00.002+08:00

unable to walk this off
and i cant walk it out

takin it out on me
and i wander and wonder

jumping the ladder nvr seems so hard
wishin tat i fall
deep into the abyss and forgotten
as the shadow fades and subsides to grief

every little small things
every insignificant word said
everytime the heart breaks
everytime the heart aches

stupid

2011-05-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

confined to the back pages of ur memories
forgotten
holdin onto a lost hope
tired
never the one tat was needed
abandoned
seems like i got the wrong person
mistaken

forget it
as i walked along silent
too tired
too tired
tryin too hard onli seems to make me more a fool
tryin too hard onli adds to the irony
tryin for tat slimmest of hope
cuz im juz a fool
ever knowin i was nvr meant to be
when its plain to see tat everythin was so wrong

holdin on still
for a impossible hope

two choice

2011-05-01T07:17:00.002+08:00

Ur eyes hollow
And a smile so forced
Without havin to say a word
Unable to stop this hurt
Maybe we have forgotten
Wad was most important at the start
And if leavin was a better choice
Its best to do so with a smile
Let us part and here and never meet
Before its too late to let go
Baby dont cry
Walk on opposite ways and nvr look back
Let us part here and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to be the one tat u want
The dreams in my hands too heavy
Happiness ever so sarcastic
Ur heartbreak i'll nvr understand
Unbearable for me to watch on
For ya to be holdin back ur tears
Lettin off my hands
Let us part and never meet
Forgive me
For being unable to continue with this beautiful mistake

Thru the city and into the dark
From the crowd and into the nite
With a wanderin heart
Observin the sights of this trip
Mesmerisin to keep us entranced
Had i known that this journey was nvr meant to be
Rather i had abandoned myself to this distance
Every extra mile with ya was another distance by ur side
The end stop unknown
Unable to keep pace with ya
U would had abandoned me by the sides of this road
How many more miles would i be able to keep up
The best part of it was catchin up to u
Each and everytime i wanna tell ya
Im afraid no matter how much i love u
Doesnt amount to much to u at all
Thankful still for the distance shared with ya
Runnin still to keep up with ya
Every mile means another distance more with ya
Always by ur side

without these

2011-04-28T19:47:00.002+08:00

Without these feelins
and These eyes shall nvr be filled with tears
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never need to hide
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never know
Without these feelins
and These eyes shall never see.
these beautiful feelins and the dangers that it brings

the wind.the cold and the driving rain

2011-04-15T10:04:00.004+08:00

guess im the only stupid one here
when the answer were all too clear
fool for ya

thru the wind
thru the cold
thru the drivin rain
baby everynight i would run all this way
just to be with ya
and i know that its true
that im gonna hold ur hand
this this time i'll nvr let go

what i would give
to run my fingers thru ur hair
and to hold ya near

aint no luck and love slowly dies

2011-03-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

Wake up at seven
Nvr restin before its eleven
How long more before eden
Holdin u close in the comforts of heaven

Its hard to noe
So close yet so aloof
People come and people go
Hidin behind their own shadows

To see the world thru a frame of glass
And all the things we nvr ask
Away with things they teach in class
Doesnt matter if ure first or last

Done with all the lies
When even the angels cry
Tears of pearl of u and i
Till the heaven burst and the words dun rhyme

house behind

2011-02-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

Tears are never endin
So tear till u smile
An instant connection
Tat strikes a deep chord
Not tat its of any relevance
Still leavin me an emotional wreck
I will listen to the stories u will tell
When theres no one left around
I will hold ur hands tight
When theres no one left in the lonely night
The good and bad times
There aint complains
The good and the bad times
Theres realli nobody to blame
I will follow u till the end
Theres no one else more important
Till our time has come
I'll let u on ahead
Cuz i cant bear to see u cry

time and tears

2011-02-08T20:39:00.002+08:00

Time can cool the warmest tears
And these tears will wash away everything
Take me to the neon lights
Where i can lose my memories
Take me to the blurry place
Where i can lose my identity

rainy days

2011-01-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

Let the rain fall
In the place of my tears
Let the rain pour
In the lonely hours
So faraway u seem
When u have no notion of my true feelins for ya
The double shot mocha cant numb the feelins
The vodka shots only amplifies the feelins
Take me to eternity
Where i can lose my memories
And i wished tat i did not love u at all
Its only a feelin in my head
A moment of weakness tat i had
As i wished u goodbye when i looked into ur eyes
This bout of rain aint stoppin
And the cold cold air of loneliness fills the air
Too tired to even open my eyes
Writin in the dark
A desperate struggle everyday
So much for fightin for time
When i cant seem to write this line
This rain tat comforts me
Hold me tight in its cold embrace
Washin away my memories
Cuz its not the loneliness tat hurts
This rain tat drench me
Washing away the permanent scars
Even if only for the moment
I am scared
Tat this was more than goodbye
In love with this rain
Everyday
In love with these days
These cold cold rainy days

last

2010-12-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

Silent journeys and lonely trips
And the heavens chooses between u and me
Am i only able to cry inside and lose ya

The streetlights down this road brings regrets
And wad u once liked i'd adore

Too beautiful a dream
Or was it ya dreamin too?
Wad would it take

For a reason to fall in love again

This picture that doesnt say a word
The empty room knows no limits
Pullin into the depths of loneliness

To not feel like feeling
When all else is redundant
U're still my only constant

Hurtful endings most memorable
Rather u would hate me forever
Than to be lost from ur thoughts forever
For this love cant outlast forever
Rather u would hate me forever
Than to be two strangers passing by

u're my

2010-12-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

Times like this
When the feelins of insecurity devours me
Leavin me so afraid inside
So cold so cold
And i wished for ya to hold me tight
And gently whisper into my ears
Tats everythin gonna be alright
And everythin else is irrelevant
For baby u're my constant

U're my lovely
My one and only
And baby i only wanna love ya
And the songs u sing
Softly into my ears
Day by day
Fallin more in love with ya

2010-11-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

has it been taken
or is my heart breakin on me

all of the plans had fell through my hands
cuz suddenly all my dreams seem empty

take me along
wherever u will go
take me alone
whenever u will want
take me away

dancin on my own

2010-11-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

i'll be dancin on my own
in the corner

lives in a bubble
forgotten the smiles of the world left behind

sleep the day away
while wun wanna sleep tonight

all around is quiet now
hear the leaves fall to the ground

continue to dream
while the heart bleeds away

dun wanna sleep tonight
its the mornin that comes too soon

mornin light upon the bed
tryin hard to catch a breath

set urself on fire

2010-09-27T18:38:00.002+08:00

And it was strange to see ya again
And i think we have met before
Sittin in silence
Sippin in the cold champange
And all the time u thought i was drunk
I was juz tryin to remember ur name

Live thru this and we wun look back

Theres one thing i wan to say
Im not sorry i met u
Im not sorry its over
Im not sorry theres nth to say

And theres nth left to burn
I'll set myself on fire

until then

2010-09-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

until the day u decide to go
u will always be the first
not even if somethin else adds to my life
u will still be my first
nvr to be replaced
until the day u decide to go
cuz i promised u
i promised u.

when u told me i love u
and we'll nvr part

i wun leave until u do
until the day u decide to go...

i hearts ya still then

d

2010-09-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

Honey and buttercups
Stars and neon lights
Love it when it starts to get all misty eyes
Spinnin around a little in the head
Lettin down my guard
When nothin seems too clear
And wad i see is all a blurry world
In love with these feelins
And theres nothin to replace it

whataya

2010-09-19T20:17:00.002+08:00

And theres nothin wrong with all of u
Its plain to see
And its me
I'm a freak
Just give it up
Im walkin out
I wun give in
So what else do u all wan from me

Givin myself all away
And i dun give a damn
I will let u down
So what do u all wan from me

Thks for being sarcastic
And ure doin it perfectly
Its over
Need a second to breathe
And im walkin out
So what do u wan from me

sorry

2010-08-12T21:23:00.002+08:00

A chance meetin or to purposely meet
A broken promise meets a broken end
Seems half the world away
Ur mind juz not into it
Why would u even bother i guess
Nothin in this world u would love more than yourself
And u would always need somebody to love
Tats why u would hold on to anythin tat pass u by
Cant resist and i cant lie

Half the world away
Where u'd go i'd follow
And in my mind i'll whisper every single word u say
Should not have even met
Cuz it'd been easier to forget ya then
Sorry to ya then
But i guess its all too late to apologise

different

2010-08-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

Breaks my heart to hear u go
Leavin ever so silently
And i finally understood why u did wad u did
So sorry for the things i nvr did
So sorry for the words i nvr said
Now theres no one for me to do the things i wanna do with ya
Now theres no one for me to say those words to
Wad would i have to do
If for a chance to see ya again

2010-08-07T19:11:00.002+08:00

the silence after the euphoria
when u wished tat u had rather died
and all the struggles would be over
where the carnal hopes and desires would cease to be
disappear

the flashin lights come from everywhere
when u lose yourself to the dreams
holding onto whoever comes near
and all the loneliness would disappear
euphoria

the head's heavy and the lights spin
addicted to the feelin
dressed against the norm
ignorin all the looks and stares
defiant

the conscience fightin the body
the mind been torn apart
sloggin out my guts everyday
if only for this kinda high
there seems to be no way out
no way to ever break free
the chains and boundaries
when all im tryin to do
is to be myself

silent walk

2010-07-20T18:47:00.002+08:00

Why would you walk behind me
So silent
So silent
Why would you walk behind me
So far yet so close
So far yet so close
Why would u fall for me
When im everythin so wrong
Everythin so wrong

Hold my hand and never let me go
Hold them tight.hold mine close
The rest half of my life in exchange for yours

rain

2010-06-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

she walks and nvr talks
shes shy and yet always shine

so many books
so many words
not of one tat i could use to describe wad i was feelin inside
damn my education
for gettin myself into this situation
theres not a place to run
not a place to go back to

seems like i could forget all this in the depths of the nite
truth is i still had some hope against reality
as i closed my eyes
i could not even see the things that i nvr wanted to see

of broken dreams and lost innocence
of compromises and submission
how young were we when we spoke of huge dreams
dreams tat appears only in the obscure storybooks
how much has we changed from the years back then
when in all mind everythin is still so fresh

the sun.the rain and the cold will nvr noe
when June lies and the truth is laid in black and white
and the color of my life are put away in sepia tones
scars heal at a gentle pace
puttin outta reach wad was right infront of you

if the rain chooses to fall on me
will it be ok to let it cover me?
this rain tat noes no end
feelin cold ever since

if its consolation ure tellin me
i would be tired of hearin it by now
let the troubles spill down my tired cheeks
let the rain wash them clear

a last chance against reality is the only truth tat i would need to believe in

2010-05-30T19:07:00.002+08:00

none the wiser
just double the trouble
theres still nothin in this world
nothin on you
nothin on me

lies

2010-04-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

when love is only left with an empty shell
why are we still keepin hold of it
maybe i nvr really knew how to make ya happy
how am i to be with u
when im missin in ur future
an unfinished story
the words tat can only be written with blood and tears

is love always the same
no matter how long the duration
it always end the same
how are you supposed to know
when sadness is translated to silence
the love of yesterday
an unfinished story
if i could do it again
i'll hold u close without hesitation once more

maybe my causalness lets you feel insecure
thats why it always end the same
you need not take it to heart
love is built in such a way anyway
why would i lie
why would i put up an act

the place of yesterday
has all but changed in every single way
you know me in every single way
theres some things better left unsaid

game

2010-03-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

a game so real we play
that it felt like reality
a game so real we play
our true emotions used
we all knew from the start it was just a game
i pulled u in and had u hooked
the rest u can all figure out
u had me in the palm of ur hands
i had u in the arch of my arms
thought it was real for a moment
until the curtains was brought down
i never knew ur name
i never knew ur face
i never had a dream until that dream was ya

but its all just a game
another one that we always play

2009-12-20T14:05:00.003+08:00

rather i be a wild crow
to see all the sights in the world
than to be a caged bird
nvr to realise the vastness of this beautiful world

the days of glory tat awaits
yet left with only an empty shell to enjoy

forgive me for being afraid to fall
and for loving freedom
forgive me for holdin on to my obsessions

to abandon all dreams and hopes
aint nobody tat cannot do that
still myself standin out
im not afraid if ure by my side
even if its only me and ya

2009-10-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

summer in ur hands
the phone ringin incessantly
leavin it be in a corner
not wantin to break the moment

seems like a break for me
away from the hustle
a change of scenery for the heavy-hearted
before it starts all over again

naively brave
venturin deep in the lonely nights
promises and memories
we're more than just five hundred days

when summer is over
wad shall become of us

him her and them

2009-09-12T04:09:00.002+08:00

the story of him and her
and the stories of them and them
things i dun wish to know
whos wrong and whos right
and whom tat had let who down
i dun tink theres any wrong nor right
only what the heart feels

too late for regrets
i could see i love ya
its hurts me deep in my heart
still somewhere in my heart
seein u hurt
but its my heart tats hurt the most
i could nvr be like ya
to forget and forgone

the pain i'll forget
if only to see ya happy once again
a new love tat will grow
the past.forever etched in my heart

2009-09-09T20:42:00.002+08:00

i wanna cheer ya up when u frown
hold ya up when ure down
wanna be around
nvr gonna let ya down

half the world away
footsteps set in the snow
looks alot like goodbye
i could nvr know
wads goin within of ur mind

still myself
nvr changed abit
still myself
in love with ya still

negativity

2009-08-27T01:00:00.002+08:00

a million feelins across the mind
a million emotions tat can only be mine
mixed and clouded
castin a shadow of a doubt upon my ownself
upon the light shinin unto me
feelin the judgement of myself towards everyone else
a depressin feelin to bring along to sleep
like the negativity of a subtraction sign
till two of a similar become one
to a positive then shall us become

wad if i was the one by ur side
wad if i was the one tat read ur mind
wad if i was the one to say those words to ya
wad ifs and wad would had been
a single chance which will nvr happen
to cherish a single shared moment with ya

heaven knows

2009-08-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

heaven knows how much i would give to be with ya
and to be by ur side
i used to believe
the way as i had remember
wants to talk to ya but ure nvr around when it matters
the time seems like forever
when u and i are away from each other
october.november.december
markin them down on the calendar

gone are the days of summer
settin in the time of winter
heaven knows how much i loved ya

2009-08-08T00:07:00.002+08:00

a closure of a chapter
yet still stuck among the pages
wadever comes will go
wadever goes will never return
a change tat i can understand
wads between us need not be said more
a cliff hanger endin
cuz we never said a proper goodbye
wad nvr started could nvr be ended

goin back to a world only i know
seems like a step into a few years back
where day and nite doesnt matters
when day and nite blurs
when day and nite makes no diiference
when the only thing tat matters in the world was ya

if i was transient like a flower
i'll bloom right by ur side
and as i watch ya smile
i'll fade into oblivion
quietly into my world of sub zero

2009-07-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

and i'll keep every memory of ya
away in a shoebox
a box of love
a box of memories
each one an unique experience
over the years i keep
over the years i remember
u are wad u are to me still
haven changed
not for abit
not for awhile
if u ever still remembered a card tat u wrote
i'll tell ya tat all tats inside
im workin hard to make it true one day
and when tat day
it'll be like the exact same
where u'll be the first
to see wad we can have together

under the apple tree
hand in hand
watchin every sunrise and set
till we both grow old
when our hair shall turn white with time
its only our love tat stays gold

2009-07-12T20:26:00.002+08:00

startin a day
awaitin the end of another
when this aint over by a long shot
blowin hot and cold
a day like this
and im standin still like the weather doesnt matter at all
an expired promise
no longer clear bout such feelins
the movies
the books and the music
in control no more
too much rules and philosophies
happiness onli happens after sadness
and not to mention the temptation to scream
can it be easier
cuz it only seems to keep on goin back
it all falls apart

2009-07-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

i dun think its fair
to keep on givin
i dun think its right
to keep on doin

its good to let things off ur chest
only if u had someone to talk to
its good to let out ur feelins
only if u had someone to pour out to

along the way we lost ourselves
within ourselves we lost our way
im still here
till the break of day
memories fade away
when time ceased to stay

2009-06-28T21:19:00.002+08:00

im standin in the dust tat ure kickin
the trail of ur globe-trottin
lookin at the space tat im dreamin
wonderin if its u tat im seein
one too many times im thinkin
and im ponderin on wads goin on
like this dreamin was wrong

twelve hours

2009-06-20T02:46:00.002+08:00

nothin could have hurt more than this
waited for ya till the middle of the night
till the lights have all went out

so many feelins unable to put to words
unable to express the deepest emotions
and i know the one by ur side will not be me
and i know the one for ya will not be me
watchin ya.slowly forgettin
silence much treasured

watchin ya in the arms of another
if only to happen over again
a tad too pitiful
ur tears ruinin ur mascara
as u said to me

two am wide awake in the mornin
three am when loneliness is callin
four and ure in the other half of the word barely wakin
five in my world im barely sleepin
six feelin refuses to go away
seven till the end of the day im countin
eight and im back to missin
nine am in my head ure all tat i am tinkin
ten its no one else but ya im rememberin
eleven if only to see ya again
twelve am and wad a fool i've been

addiction an unhealthy obsession
remember us as we used to be
breathe u in to stay alive
and its one more second to be with ya
tastin the sunshine and the apple tree
till we both grow old
love's still gold

lazin upon the open patch
breathin the scent of urs in the air
caressin thru ur hair
holdin u near
sweeter than anythin else
i love ya and this time its for real

outta nothin at all

2009-06-06T04:52:00.002+08:00

and i tink tat i'll be able to get used to livin alone
and i believe tat i can still go on without u by my side
love is a dream tat i overslept

to start all over again
if only to see u once again
only to live one more day with ya
and wad would be left after tat day

i sleep at five
countin the hours to one
from left to right
when everythin seems so wrong
if only i knew the words to say
if only i knew just how to touch u
i would have told ya everythin tat i've gotta tell u
i would have made u mine
nvr would had let u fell
i can only follow for its the only thing i know
and i know im nothin till i give my everythin to ya

outta nothin at all

2009-05-24T12:45:00.003+08:00

i'll be ur teddy bear
to let u hold deep into the nite
and then i'll slowly leave
quietly without a trace
if u ever so insist
not stayin a moment longer than needed
watchin ya from the sides
when one metre seems like a million light years
a world apart in that one metre

2009-05-24T02:47:00.002+08:00

if there is a choice to smile
we would not have to cry
leadin right up to this moment
givin up everythin
leavin each and every familiar places
and we wouldnt care bout forever
farewell in the middle of the night
leavin me in the dreams

let me hold ya for one more minute
wad is there of us after tat one minute

2009-05-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

walked past ur door
and u dun live there anymore
months like years passed by
and i noe
the reasons tat were given
the reasons tat we had learned to accept

and i told u how sad i would be
if u were to ever forget me

and i wil be waitin
and i will be willin
to take the fall from grace for ya when u fall

still very much in love with one another
juz no way in together

2009-05-16T18:04:00.002+08:00

a little more and u'll touch the sky
the garden of angels tat awaits

its juz u
the same old one tat i knew
ur traits and ur habits
ur loves and ur hate
i loved ya.i loved ya
stop breathin
i dun see u anymore
and i dreamt
and i keep dreamin

2009-05-09T20:56:00.002+08:00

sweetness of a dream
all within the solace of ur arms
misunderstandins tat causes rifts
when the both of us begins to drift
and love does not heal all wounds

i love the way i waste my life
i love the way i waste my time
u noe it aint wasted cuz its spent waitin for ya

lettin go doesnt seem so easy
neither a choice to go forward nor backwards
buryin it under them all
hopin to forget when time passes by
like u always do
like u always do
still like the one i knew

u noe im still waitin

2009-05-09T03:47:00.002+08:00

cried all nite till there was no tears left
leavin u an emotion wreck
takin it hard the way u would
a broken heap on the floor
wad else can u do with a sentimental heart
old habits die hard
u wanna love no more
u wanna run no more
u wanna care no more
u juz wanna start all over again
takin back everythin tat u've gave
u dun wanna wander anymore
u dun wanna kiss anymore
the hardest part is yet to come

but if ure willin to let me
u wun walk this world alone

2009-05-03T05:49:00.002+08:00

u noe i still love and it will nvr change
push me away
u noe wad im sayin
wun change my feelins
cant be happy away from ur side
cant have anyone but ya
no one as special as ya
like no other

u and i are the same
as stuborn as can be

push me away

2009-05-02T01:47:00.002+08:00

many things i hide within
all the emotions and feelins deep within
words unspeakable to the mouth
never wearin wad is on my mind
never to bare my true feelins
unwillin and findin it hard
rather i hold them to myself
than to let the very precious u worry
i cant find it to be honest with myself
cant bring myself to
lettin go in a way u'll nvr contrive to comprehend
in my very own way
encryptin.hidin them among words and sentences
memories are wad they are to me
holdin them cherished

life isnt perfect without seein ya
cant have anyone but ya

hate is not a reason

2009-05-01T01:47:00.002+08:00

theres no need to be suprised
theres no need to be sad
a person alone livin thru all the sorrows
walkin past every single person
lettin go
lettin go of my hand
no matter how he treats u
no matter how much he lets u go
no matter how life treats u
juz one person all alone

hate is not a reason

2009-04-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

theres no need to understand me on purpose
i'm juz one person
one person alone
theres no need to know me fully
i'm nothin but one

small little words tat made u happy
small little things tat could do no harm
little stuff tat warms ur heart
its hope tat ur sunshine brings
and i was
and i always will

2009-04-12T19:06:00.002+08:00

till the day tat we meet again
goin on our seperate ways for now
it wasnt too long ago
when fate dealt reality
angels tat fall without wings
but they are still angels
angels tat fall
losin their devotion
without faith and are they the same
paper heart
ure much stronger than me
the joy is a present
the hurt even better
doesnt matter tonight
it doesnt repeat anyway

2009-04-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

everlastin forever
till eternity.the end of time and whatever is left from there
the sands of time breakin down
and ur clock stops runnin
wad is left at the end
wad can u take away with u when u die
and is tat the end
is there no one else
nvr been so many
nvr been so alone

maybe i'll walk this alone
not to fall in love so easily again
maybe i'll meet someone else new
one may be good
one may be bad but the choice is mine
one is mine and one is urs
and the choice is mine
random people
random choice
random love

in the dark of this half of the world
ure in the other half ready to start ur day
and whos the fool awake thru the nite
a million strangers and theres always someone else new for ya

are u lovin someone else
are u tinkin of someone else
are u with someone else
too many things im not willin to say
are u tearin
are u in pain
the red of the rose
the same red tat ur heart bleeds
to the final pages of the book

to find urself a better place
on the highway on eighty
tat was how i was reminded of the past
and everybody knows it
and tat was how the idea was stick into my head
and how would i had known
it seems like it was never here before
like all the lies

its only right for u to play the way tat u feel it
listen to the sound of ur heartbeat
dreams of loneliness tat drives u mad
so u always hold on to whoever tat pass u by
in the stillness of rememberin wad u had and wad u lost
i see the crystal vision and i keep them to myself

though i know its foolish
and deep inside i know
still i wait on endlessly
holdin onto the silly faith tat u'll come
tat phone tat never rang
forgotten in the corner of those pockets
luggin on the burden of the dreams
responsibility weighin me down
wearin me out
tearin me up
disappearin in a desperate bid to forget
a moonless night and ure the fire and light
holdin on if only to see ur face once again

random thoughts and random words
pieced together to form the most beautiful of lines
cuz ive promised tat u'll be the first

a time when one plus one no longers adds to 2
a mutiplier of desires
run to the places where i can be
run to the moments to set me free

2009-04-04T20:43:00.003+08:00

gone before ur time
and goodbye it really was
emotions beyond words to hear tat u were gone
how could tat be
havin just stepped into the prime of ur life
the time of ur life
and now ure back to rest my fren
nothin could set this fact in still
the harsh side of reality tat hits hard
goodbye my fren
goodbye

do u like the things

2009-03-28T17:31:00.002+08:00

in wad was only yesterday
memories of another world so faraway
here i am stuck in the cold
cuttin a lone figure across the world
soakin rain not helpin much too
the elements and the turbulent times ahead
too faraway
too faraway
tats why u go away
i noe
i noe
ur answers will nvr reach
all we do is take
all we ever do is take

unbearable
nothin beats this one kinda feelin
watchin u abandon all the words u said
unable to close this cruel pair of eyes
as i walked away in pain
comin to a rash decision where we will live to regret
drownin ur life in tears
months tat passed where u've moved on to another
stumbled back upon the words
words tat brought u to tears
made u wanna turn back time and left u askin why
the love tat was infront of u tat u can never see

i dun mind the weather
i got snow cap.gloves and sweaters
but anyway the hardest part is yet to come
i tink tat its senseless to keep on insistin
hopin for miracles to happen
perseverin on will juz seem futile
but anyway the hardest part is yet to come
i dun mind the trouble
i've got myself to count upon
the hardest part is yet to come
but i wun be walkin across this
alone

even if im good
it will all be grey
even if i made it
it will all imply
soakin thru and thru

stickin with u still
all my frens around me say u'll be gone too soon
but im gonna let them see we'll find our way back home
rain juz keeps on fallin when ure not around
i'll be tinkin of u
never gonna let u go
always and this one word will suffice

holdin on still
u had me cravin for more
i could nvr get enough
lovin u is all i ever wanna do
everythin i do is meant for lovin u
no one else can make me feel the colors tat u bring.gal

do u noe where ure goin to
do u like the things tat life is showin u
how sad the answers to the questions can be

2009-03-02T13:10:00.002+08:00

rememberin seems so painful
when ur memories u carry is such a heavy burden
forgettin seems the easy way out
when all is lost and outta sight
losin touch and disappearin
is this how we disappear
is this how we should disintegrate

nothin is more painful
than the sights tats been flashed across repeatedly
as a lone figure cuts across the dark corner of the hall
all the sights in this city so foreign
i'll always be afraid

i'll be leavin
fadin away from the time of ur life
away from the pieces of ur memories
discarded and forgotten
but it doesnt really matter to me
as long as ure happy

i'll be lookin from afar
in a corner u'll nvr notice

change is hard

2009-02-15T18:32:00.003+08:00

comin to grips with reality
the present self tat i am now
slowly reassertin in this time and place
same old sights and same old place
the onli thing is me tat changed
a long time ago when everythin was fine
so different.so different now
every bad times has its silver linin
mine was ya back then
times have changed and change is hard
in this world
in this heart
every different stage of life
every other different faces
each another story
many a dream i would like to sell
to take away the hurt of each dream

pain way too painful

2009-02-08T16:07:00.002+08:00

takin things hard and it hurts so much
another point of view
another perspective
another way
another happy endin and i'll be alive

its time like this tat i hate myself
things tat are juz outta my own hands

2yrs ago and it would have been perfect
was stupid.was blind
was the biggest fool not to realise anythin at all
the emotions in the atmosphere of u and me
the skyline a perfect hue
untouched.pure and gold
silence was most treasured
decibels tat broke thru the serene surreal
puttin on the music in an attempt to cut off the blues
overwhelmin pain tats hidden
cuz i juz had too much things unsaid to u

dun pretend u can forget bout me
another casualty of normality
dun count on me to conform
nvr to fall in line
nothin is wasted.onli regretted
always a chillin rain
soakin pain
the start of the end roll
even if i dun understand
i still remember faithfully without fail
the leaves drop like the way im missin
salvagin before the set in
till they hit the ground
all i ever wanted was to stay by ur side a longer while

everytime i walk
take away my lone dignity
not afraid to lose it all
gamblin my happiness away
all or nothin such are the stakes
u'll take away my everythin everytime u leave
ur back view seen one too many times
closed my eyes as it fades from view
in my head all i ever saw
the few last words tat i heard
the notarnal tunes tat breaks ur heart everytime u hear
no matter how long it has been for u
i write for old memories sake
the heart tat beats only for u
all stale and cold within

until the day we die
in a pool of blood
i mean it
i mean this
we'll make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for ya till blood soaks my shirt
nvr fall apart yet this hurts so much

the room keys borrowed.used and returned
just like ur hands
enough of my uselessness
takin away my life but learnin to smile again
forehead kissed.warmed.slowly losin warmth
cold.over.used to this kinda heartbeat
finally understandin happiness was nvr lackin
forget it
forget it
enough.more than satisfied
loved.kissed.
juz like holdin ur hands

too painful a mistake
too painful a lesson
a world of fools tryin to break us down
and u may not feel tat i care for u
keep me warm in ur love and u softly leave

if only u could see the way she is
u would understand why i feel this way
and what i muz do bout this love
if onli u could see her beautiful eyes when she says
when she says i love u
u would noe how much i would do for her

one too many bad day tat i gotten used to livin
freedom tat goes up in flames
tats the only way when everythins so wrong

dunno how i can make it all up to u
after all the hurt ive put u thru
and all the times i caused u pain
i dun tink i can ever repay
not even with this stupid life of mine

empty.they float thru my hands
my identity.has it been taken
gimme the strength i need
the strength to keep on goin
life would haf been better off dead
at least nobody would be sad
so much so for all the things done and said
takin it no more

and so as we

2009-02-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

set my heart at ease
clenchin a fist
fightin the wind
closed my eyes to feel with the heart

cuz she reminds me of u
down to the little small things tat u'd like to do
and i noe this time its really goodbye
as i raised my hands to reach for the sky
ive always been true
ive waited so long
its been far too long in all tat we do
closer to heaven with u
seems tat ure cold in love
the past tense could not come in time to start all over again
walkin at a pace where only u can walk alone
its not like i can understand
lest even speak and so as we go
and so as i write

dun wanna be the one

2009-01-18T15:31:00.002+08:00

sentimental is wad u chose to believe
stories tat were built to deceive
at the end was a light at the top of the staircase
the light peepin thru the ajar door
in and out right and wrong
hot and cold the other moment
sing me a song
long enough to accomodate all ur love
do u realli wanna grow old
do u realli wanna turn cold

deja vu.memories of u in my dreams
betrayal.scenes of the unforgivable
fantansies.eyes wide open starin hard
more and more dreams
explain them to me
playin with my mind
seein things the way i am
everytime i see ur face at all
locked in a room of regrets
strugglin is fultile
without directions towards eternity
lost towards forever
a love tats so heavy
a story unfinished in tat yr to continue on to the end
will u return all tat uve taken away with a smile

i dun wanna be the one to do the same old things all over again
the same mundane things tat we both do
cravin for excitment and thrills
not the times spent missin ya
i dun wanna be the one left alone at the end when ure all too faraway
i dun.baby. i dun
the world will not fall apart without u
i dun wanna be the one to be kept waitin forever
not gonna be the fool for ya
waitin for a thing tat can nvr happen
not this way.not anymore
lovin does not mean onli u
its time to go against the flow
away from one another
in opposite directions i shall walk from ya
till the day we meet once again

we'll be halfway round the world if we walked long enough

2009-01-11T05:13:00.002+08:00

the saddest of blues
the heart wrenchin tunes
brings a drop of tear to ur eyes
as the warmth from ur hand fades
enough to drain the life from my body
if only to learn to smile again
tokens of love tat got lost along the way
happiness was nvr abandoned
the rain tat washes both u and me clean
loved.kissed.used.discarded
too used to the tempo of ur heartbeat
wanderin without a sense of belongin
a set of love of two for sale

memorial address

2009-01-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

at the end of time
back down along memory lane
theres pictures pasted on the walls
posters of so many yesterdays
the highlight of the year
the soundtrack of the year playin from station to station
the headlines pasted all over the bulletins
with the cold chill as companion

guess im outta time
the lines blurred
and i can no longer be affirmative
if u were a fren or a love tat passed me by

u taught me love.sorrows.life
u made me feel.had a dream
changed everythin bout me
i nvr cherished
i nvr did
i nvr learnt
i nvr will haf another chance to
i knew how to let go
but i nvr knew how to forget
i will nvr love tat much again
not with anyone else but u
havin more and more dreams
fantasies or realities with eyes wide open
juz tell me who u are

words of the past
wounds of the present
we held hands sayin to walk till the end
let time tell the truth
both of us afraid to hear the answer
we took for granted wad was ahead of us
why muz it come to this
perhaps u dun haf an answer too
seein another piece of sky within the realm of ur eyes
can it be tat we muz haf such opposite dreams
we promised still
to walk each other to the end
hand in hand

2008-12-27T20:41:00.002+08:00

cried all nite till there was nothin more
lyin there.a heap on the floor
takin it hard juz the way she would
a puzzle with a missin part
devotion tats juz no good
wad can u do with a sentimental heart

natural

2008-12-25T18:14:00.002+08:00

everythin all natural
the very feelins tat still remain
ur fav songs all within the touch of a playlist
allow my missin to replace
to fill in the void to love u
nothin could stop me from missin u
no matter the endin
without any demands
allow me to wipe those tears off ur cheeks
cuz love is a present

replace

2008-12-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

years it has been
the long and lonely nites
the cold and empty room
ure my first and only one
heaven noes hows much im still in love with u
my mouth denyin it
my heart rejectin it
deep inside i can nvr hide
my mind wanders off turnin to u at the most fragile of all moments
in the wee hours of the nite
where one sits all alone in the corner of the room
damn this education
i could nvr find the words to express the situation
it nvr was her nor her
or any other u see mr around with
in my mind u'll find
ure the onli one i truly cared
if it aint
why would these feelins linger on this long
ure the first the one and only love

cuz i'll be a fool not to love u
even when my heart is breakin
as we say goodbye
of all the times i tink of ya
always at the most fragile moments
unexplainably my mind turns towards ya
ur smile
ur sorrows
ur forlorness
evokin every emotions within me
how i wished i could look after and take good care of ya
thru the eyes of ur photographs
i feel u near
like u had nvr left at all

where love was forbidden
feelins only pitiful
why does the tears flow down the contours of ur cheeks
pass the chin
fallin onto the ground as fragments of crystal
the ground where u once stood.
smilin

long long

2008-12-07T15:43:00.003+08:00

feelin all alone in a place so foreign
so afraid in a place faraway
so insecure when theres no one else near
beneath the fears
hidden the truth
the depth which i can nvr
nvr grasp and nvr understand
how i wished
how i longed for u to be here
to hold me close
to chase all the fears away
when ure close to me
when u hold me in ur arms

so many times i tried
nvr good enough for u
wastin my life and time
tot it was over but its nvr over
theres always something new
being a fool endlessly

the chill brings all sorts of emptiness
illusions and disappointments
im facin the long nite alone
the feelins stirrin up
the pain tat comes alone
the emotions playin
for a moment i tot i was free
the reminder tat served could nvr be more cruel
nvr come faster
breakin every dream into a thousand little pieces
scattered by the wind
lost to the world and u'll nvr noe
time will nvr stop for me
yet could nvr go fast enough
every little thought of u
remindin me of wad i really am
so faraway from u

a bird in a cage could nvr fly
a flower in a glass will nvr die
neither a bird nor a flower
neither here nor there
stuck in between reality
wings tat cannot fly are useless
flowers tat nvr bloom aint beautiful
beauty was nvr meant to be judged by eyes so corrupt
the sight tat burns with sceptic
good or bad onli fills ur mind with contempt
ur mind tats filled with hatred
one step forward
makin two steps back
i dunno where im goin
i dunno where ive been
but its always the same old sights
same old dreams

when i lose my mind
when i lose myself
when i lose my heart
when i lose my dreams
i tink of ya
somethin so special bout u
juz thinkin alone could bring a smile to my face
runnin thru this monsoon
with only u on my mind
to tell myself to bring myself back home to u
to u and u only

realised in retrospect when all else was far too late
the disappointment unexplainable
askin only for ur forgiveness
if only to live the story tat we had in the year tat passed us by
when the warmth returns to this rain soaked place
returnin back with a smile
all the love tat u have taken away

nvr knew wad i was doin
they nvr knew nor even guess as much
i walk alone
choosin my path alone
understandin life and withstandin the lonely nites
i choose wad i wan
i walk this life alone

happy or sad no longer matters
as long as the past i can still remember
if regrets are wad u had at the ebd
wad were thise tat we had at the start
dry ur tears before u move on to the next stop
as i let u go
embarkin on my long journey
choosin not to love nor to hate
the day where all emotions cease to be

little times tat we gad
when the world around seems even harder to survive in
livin day by day
nvr knew wads in store at the end of life
no promises
nothin gained but it doesnt matter
ur love is all tat is needed to keep it goin
maybe we'll go seperate ways in the end
or nvr see each other again
i dun care
standin under the pourin rain still
waitin for u
waitin for u to kiss me in the night
for u to come into my dreams
my cinderella
till our crop of black turns silver

when stars of little lit up the sky
theres another fallin into the oblivion
fightin for ur dreams
if only for a better tomorrow with u
to spend the empty nites in the comfort in ur arms
from now till eternity
no longer feelin lonely
lifes no longer empty
with u in my heart
in my heart

2008-11-23T12:17:00.003+08:00

fate deals a wondeful hand
eyes of electric
so nice it could kill
and i would cherish this journey daily with u
even when im not with u
away from u
my heart is still with u

lovin u was wad i would do

its things like this tat make me wun feel like goin home
the same old things the same old shit
we go thru it all over and over again
does it really matter
everybody
everyone
everything
all wans a piece of me

2008-11-17T02:28:00.002+08:00

in the darkness
makin it feel like home
when i lose myself
i'll tink of u
ure the key to another world
runnin away to somewhere new
onli me and u
the end of time
divin into the blues
the seperation drivin me insane
runnin thru the rain
runnin on with pain
i'll be with u soon
so soon

cuz i noe i'll nvr be him
i'll nvr be the one in ur heart
and i noe ure feelin blue
feelin tired and so alone
ur insecurities devour u
i cant be there
i'll nvr be
im too faraway to even noe where u are
my nights spent away
im walkin further away from u
till the day i find my way home back to u
but after all tat we've been thru
doesnt really matter if im comin back home to u

fightin souls

2008-10-27T13:09:00.002+08:00

the distance could onli get bigger
a gap onli wider
too much misunderstandings
too little time together
but nothin could be better
when we live our lives together forever

as soldiers fight on
theres another devil watchin
waitin to swoop on any souls tat fall
with their silver wings and black horns
they're comin
within their burnin eyes and silver swords
they're comin
to take any soul tat falls

holdin on from the start
standin on par with reality
the more pretence
the more emotions tat turmoils
if any.the other side of me
if decided.to lead a sad life
but i wanna prove myself completely
the maximum tat i can push
with onli u in my eyes
thru the masses
right straight to u
lookin at me fairly
to balance out the equation
and u'll see tat everythin else redandunt
fightin and i dun use words
the wind and the cold
i'll still be there
not lookin back
cherishin every single possibilities in me
maybe right
maybe wrong
maybe dangerous
maybe its always me

nvr die

2008-10-27T04:44:00.002+08:00

wadever they will say
onli wan to continue on with my way
in the face of danger
still runnin head on
unable to compete with power
but i'll live longer than tat

lovin ya in a hundred years time
and no one around would object
maybe the union late by a few decades
this love never abandoned
love in another era
till all the flowers wither and die
the waitin is long
but i made up my mind
waitin for ya

is it u

2008-10-12T17:48:00.003+08:00

i could not be
can nvr be
but i am only me
nothin but only me
and i noe its too real
this feelin tat i feel
and i tink bout u
and i miss u

someone who realli understand
someone who realli noes the way to my heart
someone tat ive been waitin for

2008-10-05T18:18:00.001+08:00

how am i to see through
this foggy mist of sky
maybe theres no light at the end of the tunnel
maybe theres no tunnel towards the light i see
everything is gone without u
fallin in too deep

a long long way away

2008-09-22T01:37:00.003+08:00

pickin up my baggage
saw the sorrow in ur eyes
how can i ever let u forget
the dreams tat we once had

a day like this
somethin u wish last forever
filled with insignificance
breakin the day into little parts
fragments tat we can always remember
like i always do
like lovers always will

joker in love with the beauty
nothin but the joker's own joke
drastically changed
a matter of weeks
and oh how roles reverse
like i always do
like soldiers marchin on

doesnt really matter anymore to me
i'll be fuckin faraway
a long long way away
a long long way from where i no longer belong

euphoria

2008-09-12T16:28:00.002+08:00

ure all decked in black
darker than the deepest night
a million emotions tat runs thru ur face
but wheres the smile
ur feelins colorin ya blue
an allurin mystery
theres nothin where u used to be
there somethin left in ur void
for all the times i fall
theres the image of u in my head
when i no longer feel my face
when i no longer struggle

induced euphoria to keep me goin on
the onli thing left to hold on
u can take my life tonite
in this world so wrong

scream

2008-08-31T16:48:00.002+08:00

no one can ever make me feel this way
makin my life ever so beautiful
tinkin of u tat makes my grey skies clear
no one else can make me feel this way
even though im not with u
everyday of my life is meant for lovin u
fallin even more in love with u
lookin at the skies tat reminds me of u
starin at the seas tat reminds me of u
every little thing is ya

the sky a hue of blue
bluer than the sky my feelins are

the moon a beautiful face
yet comes not even close compared to ur face
cuz theres no one like ya
and i'll like no other
no one else but ya

far faraway

2008-08-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

when the time has come
u noe i'll let ya go
cuz i dun wan u to be the one to do the missin
i dun wan u to be the one cryin
nvr wan u to cry for me

im lonely
im tired
im missin ya again
once again
far faraway from those i love

rememberin the words and moments tat we said and shared
in need of a person who can be true to
leavin her behind to wait when i left
and how i miss her so
when hope seems so faraway

missin u

2008-08-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

empty rooms and lonely nites
torn papers scribbled full
many hours wasted away
things for juz somebody nvr meant for
times are hard when things haf got no meanin

time ran out
the light of life went out
flowers upon the mount
restin till the fallin petals count
the sun has set
where the horizon met
time to spread ur wings
its love tats this life brings

say bye

2008-07-27T05:53:00.002+08:00

wake up in the mornin
raisin my tired body
same old pillow
same old bed
same old shit
goin to die in vain

lost upon a sense of time
and all of the things tat i tot was easy
gettin harder and harder each day
the empty island wun make anythin right

in love with the world
tryin to stay alive
in love with the world
hopin to stay alive

the pages turn
markin off each day with a cross
missin all the things tats lost
lost to this world

monday is blue blue day
tuesday is a sad sad day
wednesday and thursday
its the same
theres still friday
saturday and sunday
a long long way

out in the stand
a fren i forgot to say bye
who glances at me all the time
its a wrong time for somebody new
its the wrong kinda place

random

2008-07-11T02:09:00.002+08:00

dun miss me for i will
miss this of everythin
it will be damn easy
soon over before long
before we go crazy
hand over hand into this
love me when im here
love me when im gone
things would nvr change
things are still damn easy
so u can still take me there

the place of old
onli seems like yesterday
but it has already fold
its the memories tats gold

nowhere to go

2008-07-08T04:30:00.002+08:00

when nothin seems right
and i lose the will to fight

when everythin goes bland
and i can no longer see the light

two wrongs juz dun make a right
its all but gone
the meanin of this life

they clean ur head and tell u lies
how i wish theres a place to hide

everyday a sleepless night
watchin the day with listless eyes

maybe it juz aint wad it seems
maybe it juz aint wad it seems
they'll wash my head and leave me dry
tied to the bed on a sleepless night
the more i see
the less i noe
the more i wun wan to let this go
on the road to the sea to the sky
its the end of a life
theres juz nowhere else to go
its my freedom tat they sacrifice
all the sights i noe
i really cant go
divided and undecided
theres juz no where left to go
but tell my love before i go
tell my love

doubt

2008-07-04T01:22:00.002+08:00

dreamin of u
tinkin of u
and i dunno where u'd gone to
nvr in doubt of ya
but forgive me
for doubtin myself
cuz i understand too well

whos the only one for ya

if only u take another look at me
hearin the sound of heartaches
silent in this corner
awaitin miracles
stealin another glance at ya
too silent and ya nvr notice

if onli to spend a moment of eternity with u

take another look
to see wads inside of me
the feelins and the secrets
the deepest of mine

in love with the worst of all feelins
addicted to the loss of all inhibitions
my head is heavy but i dun care
theres no need to hide who cares
theres no need to fight those feelins
i dun need to be worried
i dun need to noe who i am
all i wan is ya
all i need is ya

i only need to be loved by ya

i dun like this feelin
i noe this is hell
but i love ya
i swear

burberry

2008-06-29T15:21:00.001+08:00

lookin at the old photos
memories became clear
goin thru the faded memories
yet they onli seem like yesterday
but yesterday tat fades
and its so faraway
the days of youth have already gone
leavin us to succumb to fate
the dreams to change my world
the dreams to make my world
the angst and hatred have subside
tinkin tat i muz have looked so stupid back then
three years of change
and tats the constant of life
theres somethin inside me tat stops me from sleepin
the fears tats nvr endin
the glory days of youth
leavin behind the moments of brilliance
stored in the sands of time
immortal within the depths of our memories
the days where onli u and i matters
if onli the days would return
to lead us on another blaze of glory
everybodys leavin goin on their seperate ways
the end of a story
the start of another
its the beginnin of my end
always me to be given up
its onli me tats nvr good enough
so ure givin me up again

2008-06-21T18:56:00.002+08:00

i cant see at all
no point tryin to at all
its not the sights tat i wanna see at all

i cant take this anymore
no point tryin to at all
its not the things tat i could ever take at all

i cant love ya anymore
no point tryin to at all
its not wad we tot it ever was at all

all we are

2008-06-14T04:55:00.002+08:00

ponder and wonder
wads left under our cover
we hide and cower
runnin away at every single hour

leavin our souls empty
when everybody is gone
the cold and silence in the void
theres nothin tat can fill it up

losin sight of our dreams
we make up another one
we are all the same
under this unforgivin sun

goin around in circles
chasin after delusions
and i tot i had a hope
when tat hope was u

love has all but faded
losin any trace of importance
the heart tat lost its meanin
for u it ceased to beat

all tat we are
in all tat we do
all we are
all we are
and i mean this

2008-06-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

lovin no one else but u
tonite the hardest to go thru
like to noe how ya copin in the wee hours
the longest darkest hours
onli wantin to hold u till the end of time
goin no where else but by ur side
watchin u fall asleep
as the dusk changes to dawn
happiness of ours tat came to a stop
without u by my side cant destroy me
yet enuff to let me notice

re-live the days

2008-05-22T15:10:00.005+08:00

somethin to do with all the blues
to paint a picture of forlornness
or to smudge one of happiness
a hue brighter than the sky
darker than the worst of moods
but if my life were nvr to met u
it would had been so meaningless
showed me another point of view
another world
taught me feelins i could nvr comprehend
joy.laughter.sadness and heartaches

if onli to re-live the days back again
for our youth and innocence back at our sides
to accompany us for awhile more

tinkin of the past where everythin seems clearer than ever
was it love or was it folly
confidin in u
seekin comfort when down and out
heartening
heartwarming
to see u reply in ernst
tryin to find some solace from ur coldness
ur coldness tat warms my heart

the words i said to make u feel special
to make u the onli one
or was it to make u feel guilty
to make u tink over again

if onli to re-live the days again
the days when years back from today
when we were strangers
when we nvr knew one another
if onli to make the same mistakes all over again
once again
once again
i love u still

fragments of truth

2008-05-18T13:25:00.002+08:00

one bit too many
drownin out the senses
away with wild abandon

let the rain fall down to wash me clean
to start anew
back to the beginning
shattered in every directions
the fragments of truth in every small pieces

old bus stop

2008-05-05T18:05:00.001+08:00

my heart tat beats onli for ya
the love in ur beatless heart
without u im unable to feel
when everyone else no longer matters
u are the sunshine in my life
and i dun really noe
maybe i need ur love
maybe i need ur care
the courage to say love out loud
somethin tats in u
ur empty eyes
filled with mascara
a moment i forgotten to forget
puttin everythin at stake
tryin the best and pain cannot be felt
standin at the old familiar place waitin
if onli to see the gal i knew once before
hopin tat this day will ever come

tears of love

2008-04-23T18:50:00.002+08:00

love everlastin fades away
nvr tot u would leave me alone again
memories they made me cry
and u tat always says goodbye
dry my tears with love
dry ur tears with love
loneliness we silently whisper
anata wo aiishiteru

a river of tears tat flows thru the nite
tears tat blinded love
losin our dreams along the way
ur soul in exchange for the fortunes
time spent in the rain
washin away the sands tat keeps ur memories
im walkin in the rain
till i can forget bout u
im walkin in pain till i can dunno u anymore
i keep the love for u within myself
let me forget my all of my dreams
all of the silence
leavin onli the hatred behind
endless rain falls on my heart
all of the silence in the rain

drownin away all of my sorrows
immersin within the beat
the flashin lights tat blinds
downin one cup after another
losin all sense of consciousness
losin myself away
wastin myself away
forgettin everythin away
tears not visible to the eyes cannot be washed away
invisible tears cannot be rubbed away
invisible tears within me till this day
tears tat onli be dried by ur love
ur love
ur love

2008-04-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

in the long run we're better off as frens
wadever love and hope would best be kept inside
emittin an allurin charm
the moonlight tat cant shine thru which could onli be ya
raised my hands towards the sky to bade goodbye
this is the end
this is the end
happy we were once
seems like yesterday
but yesterday is already so faraway
happiness tats once within our grasp
but ure lettin go
always leavin alone all the time
ure the butterfly tat everyone loves
maybe i shld not say the words tat hurt so much
everythin so wrong

the gucci bags and the chanel tat she carries
i cant gif any of them to her
and even my love was wad seems to her little
he takes her out and shows her the world
he showers upon her gifts and presents
and to her seems so much
the milky way and the stars are wad he promises to her
he stirs her heart and plays with her love
cuz tats wat he ever does

in-erasable

2008-04-15T01:53:00.001+08:00

no longer fightin against the world
to accept the inevitable
losin our dreams to bow over
will we ever regain them ever
writins tat seemed to haf matured
or is it a sign of surrender t
he love hate pride and anger
mellowed or disappeared
or juz tamperin into things plain finer
pieces of our past tat lingers
in-erasable
irreplacable
whos fault is it no longer matters
juz this once
juz this once

wrapped around the cup were once ur fingers
ur love tat i once held upon my fingers
now ure tellin me its over
ur sweet scent tat still lingers
u said u'll remember
said the best part of love is to remember
in my heart
one last kiss gal
theres always a space for ya
now till forever

so close to me

2008-04-12T08:07:00.002+08:00

the adrenaline wun wash away the loneliness
after comes the feelin of emptiness

i can feel u so close to me
holdin on so tight
i can feel ur hands on me
graspin onto wads left of me
i can feel ur body next to mine
clingin on without any distance
i can feel u within me
tuggin at my heart ever so softly

lookin for a dream

2008-04-08T02:06:00.002+08:00

the hours can only grow longer in the nights
under the bright neon lights
lost in this maze of the city
lookin for a vauge dream
findin a place within tat u would like to reside upon
our eyes exchangin our mixed emotions

the drinks could not damp the loneliness
makin it an endless night
feels the same
wanderin about
lookin for the favorite dream
findin a place in u tat i would like to reside in

this much is true

2008-04-03T19:44:00.002+08:00

im slowly losin ya
the inevitable but maybe a little bit too soon
tryin desperately to hold on to ya
but u've already faded away
to haf each other but tats too much
cryin every night
tell ourselves its ok
for love still we give another shot
downin the bourbon
ready or not

halfway there
take my hand
tears to bridge the gap
baby i nvr meant to hurt ya
i nvr meant to neglect u
i nvr meant to

we're parallel lines tat once intersect
we're one of a kind
im still losin ya
im still hurtin u in all tat i've done
the tears juz keeps on fallin when u're not around
when i wake up im still callin out ur name
butterfly

and i noe this much is true
the heaven opens up
lookin for love at all the wrong places
the tears wun stop as the unhappiness lingers
ure speakin in a cold sarcastic voice
my heart tats realli hurt
lost forever
lookin behind me and i noe i wun come back
this empty bedroom juz wun make things rite

in love with the world
lost in the world
lookin at all tat we lost
all the things tat i tot was so easy juz gets harder and harder each day
u still waits up for me all thru the nite

cut our wrists

2008-03-31T16:08:00.000+08:00

wat hurts the most
the pain and agony of cryin out loud
or the pent up emotions tat we keep inside
tryin our hardest to barely disguise
wat everyone could see was so fuckin obvious
if i was so wrong
pls listen to me all nite long
pushin up the side of my lips as high as it could go
while ure tearin ur eyes out
bleedin more than u could ever see within
anythin but to see ur frown
anythin but to let u falter and drown
anything even its to be ur clown
or should we cry together
if tat makes the both of us feel better
or should we cut our wrist together
and let us lie upon this fuckin pool of blood
or should we hold each other tight
and laugh out loud at the predicament tat we're in
heart aching
disheartening
so much so for cryin out loud
we're juz slowly bleeding away
dyin
fadin away in this pool of blood
this pool of blood

easy way out

2008-03-30T15:52:00.001+08:00

if only to start all over again
rememberin to forget bout ya
silence our best understanding
silence our easy way out
a few minutes is all i ever need
to be with ya tiil forever
breaking my silence to make ya cry
the tears of joy
holding each other tight
saying the words we been needing to hear
the words suppressed within for so long
nvr lettin ya go away from me again
the heartache and the blues that they sing
so fragile on the inside
the ghost of u and me
the emotional side that we show